What do you guys think? I told you guys it will get messy. Do you think Julia will live? If she does, will she stay? We will have to see! I decided to write this chapter from Shayna's pov! I hope you like!

A loud explosion reached my ears, making me cover Abel and Gracie with my body as best as possible. The power of it broke the car windows, and moved the car slightly. Abel and Gracie's cries were performed in perfect unison. When I felt brave enough, I turned around. The house was leveled. Black smoke rose further and further into the sky. I covered my mouth, my eyes scanning the yard for Julia.

Is she alive? Is she dead?

Her still body was thrown an easy twenty feet. She was now next to the tree with the tire swing attatched to it .

I sprinted over, not caring if my body was still paralyzed from the shock of what just happened. I dropped to my knees and my eyes grew wide.

Julia had glass and metal lodged into her body, and severe burns down the whole right side of her body.

What the hell am I supposed to do?

I don't know how to check vitals. I slept through my whole semester of Emt class. I think someone else out there knew I didn't know what I was doing also. The distinct sound of an ambulance and cop cars roared closer while I just stayed there until they arrived.

Wayne and the young cop, I can't remember his name at the moment, asked me a variety of questions.

Do you remember leaving any sort of appliance on?

"How long were you gone?

Do you believe this was an accident?

That question hit me hard. I know this wasn't am accident. This is all happening because of this asshole she considers her husband. When he gets here, he will hear what I have to say.

Jax finally showed with the rest of the "club" following suit. His eyes were wild and his hands were shaking.

Yeah, he better be fucking shaking.

"Shayna, where are the kids? Is Jules okay? No one is telling me a fucking thing," his voice trembling.

"The kids are being checked out by the doctor. They won't tell me how Julia is doing. They just rushed her into the ICU," I said, trying with every fiber in my body not to lash out at him.

"Did Unser and Hale get any info?"

"Jax, cut the I'm in the dark bullshit. You know this is your fault."

"Hey, easy, Shayna," Opie said, standing in between me and Jax.

"No,he needs to hear this! You are so obsessed with this damn club, that you don't care who it hurts."

Jax stepped closer to me, the veins in his neck starting ti reveal themselves.

"How dare you say I don't fucking care! My wife and kids are in the next room!"

"Yeah, right. Any man who claims they love their family would have packed up and left this god awful town months ago. After Julia was first attacked."

"Shayna.."

He clenched his fists so hard, his knuckles turned white. He never wanted to hit a woman so hard in his life.

"You know she would cry herself to sleep when you were locked up? Your room isn't as soundproof as you think it is. She would pray, and ask god why this shit kept happening to her. How come she can't gain the strength to ask you to leave with her."

"She...she never told me this."

"Why would she? She was trying to be a good old lady. But, now look at her. She might not survive this. What will happen to Abel and Gracie? Is Abel going to be president, while Gracie works for Luanne at Cara Cara? These kids don't have a chance without her. "

"Shayna, that's enough!"

I glared at Jax. I decided to take Gemma's advice and stop. I shoved past all of them, and went to the soda machines.

"Jax, she didn't mean all of that," Gemma touched her son's shoulder, moving her hand back and forth to sooth him.

"Yeah, she did."

He pulled away from his mother's touch and walked to the soda machines.

I looked up at the last person I wanted standing in front of me.

"Jax, I really hope you don't think I'm going to say sorry. I'm Not sorry. Just.. please stay away from me. I'm afraid I'm going to punch you in the face."

"I deserve that.. and more."

"You know, before my mom died, she would always tell me love makes you do stupid, pretty much downright crazy shit. My cousin is the perfect example of that. She will stay with you even if it kills her."

Jax took the seat next to me, and showed me a few plane tickets to New York.

"What are these?"

"After settling a few deals with Pope, I was going to take my cut of the money and take my family to New York.. permanently."

"Does the club know?"

"No."

"That's a slippery slope, Jax."

"I know. I love your cousin. I would do anything for her."

"You would even betray the club for her?"

"I believe I would."

"Believing and actually doing is two completely different things. I know you love her. And you love the club too. Did you ever think on some other level you feel like you need to love the club more? Due to your history?"

"How old are you again?"

"What can I say, I read. So, what are you going to do. "

"Shay, me and her have been through way too much. She deserves a better life than what I have been offering her. Her and our kids. I'm going to give it to her. "

"We'll see. You know what they say, actions speak louder than words."