Okay guys, here we go! Thank you for the great feedback for the last chapter! It was hard to write, but I'm glad it ame out okay. Enjoy chapter 38!
Sometimes, when two people love each other very much, they need time part, so when they come back together, their love is even stronger.
- Shiela, from tv's Shamless
Jax's eyes looked at the ring on the table and then at me.
"You don't mean that."
"I do. I told you it was our family or the club. I can't be with you when you're involved with this club. It will kill this family. Look at what has happened. I'm tired of looking over my shoulder. You can go. "
My emotions were causing my body to shake. Gracie started to cry from her room. Most likely from me screaming at her father.
I walked to Gracie's room, and Jax looked at the club and his mother.
"Can you give us a minute? I think you at least owe me that."
Clay shook his head and motioned his hand for them to start going outside.
I picked up Gracie, trying to comfort her.
"I'm sorry, baby. Mommy didn't mean to scare you."
"Jules.."
I turned around and saw him standing in our daughter's doorway.
"Jax. if you're smart, you will just leave. I'll get the divorce papers drawn up by the end of the day. I'll fax them over to Felicia. "
"Jesus, Julia, I'm not doing this because I want to."
"That's bullshit. I should've known. But like an idiot, I believed you, " I replied, clenching my teeth.
He grabbed at his hair. He took Gracie out of my arms and placed her back in the crib. He grabbed my face with force, shaking me.
"I'm not lying! Op's kid got hit because of me! I need to fix this. This is not going to be a permanent thing."
"What? Ellie?"
"Yeah."
"you say it's not going to be a permanent thing,but I'm afraid it will. Once you get a taste of your old life, you will realize that playing house won't keep you satisfied anymore."
"That isn't the case. I need you and the kids in my life. Please... I need you behind me on this. "
I just looked at him in frustration, anger, and understanding. I don't want him to go. But if it's for Opie.. Ugh, i don't want to say yes. I don't want to say no either. He did a lot for us. He's my husband's best friend.
"Jules, answer me please."
"You should start packing your things. They won't be patient for much longer," I responded, pulling out of his grasp.
" You going to put this back on," He asked, pulling my ring out of his pocket.
"I'll put it back on when you come home."
Gemma came into the room, going into our daughter's draws.
"Gemma, you're not taking Abel and Gracie. they are staying with me. Didn't we have this conversation earlier?"
"They're my grandkids."
"They're my children. They are staying," I threatened, yanking my daughter's clothes out of her hands.
Jax stepped in between the both of us.
"Jax, what do you think?"
"Mom, my kids are staying with their mother. There's no fucking debate with that."
Gemma glared at me, walking out of my house, slamming my front door.
I scoffed, and put Gracie's clothes back in the draw. I placed my arms on top of the dresser, hanging my head.
Jax went to touch her, but he stopped himself. He just dragged his feet to their bedroom, packing his stuff.
Chibs looked on as Jax said goodbye to his kids and his wife. He kissed her, but she didn't kiss back. These two would be all ver each other normally. He was even surprised the club reacted the way they did when they witnessed Jax and Julia's fighting. They would talk constantly about how they wanted them to split up. When it finally happens, they can't even look.
Because they knew they were wrong. It wasn't some kind of experiment Jax was doing with being with Julia. The two are in love.
"I'll call when I land, okay?"
I just nodded.
"Be safe."
He went to kiss me one more time, and I turned my head so he could kiss my cheek.
"I love you."
"Me too."
Shayna came home when I was giving the babies a bath. She came in and sat down next to the tub.
"Hey, sorry I'm late. The bus was late. Where's Jax? He's usually home at this hour."
She studied her cousin's face.
"Julia, you okay."
"No."
"Where's Jax?", she repeated.
"Back in Charming."
"What? How? Why?"
"Shayna, I really don't wanna talk about it. It's been one hell of a day.
"Is he coming back?"
"That's what he says. Wait, didn't i say I didn't want to talk about it?"
"Well, if he says he's coming back, that is all that matters. "
"How so?"
"He's probably got some mess to clean up, right? He's doing the right thing by cleaning it up. Jax is a man of his word, Julia. He's coming back."
" I hope so."
Jax didn't say anything to anyone the whole plan ride there. He just stared at his cell phone, looking at Julia's contact information. even though, she probably could care less if he called when he said he would. If anything, she would want the plane to get hit by lightning or some shit.
He hurt the woman he loved to the core, and he is miles away from fixing it.
They landed in charming around ten at night. As soon as he was at baggage claim to pick up his stuff, he called Julia's cell.
It went straight voicemail. Her phone must have been shut off.
This is Julia, sorry I missed your call, but if you leave a message I'll be sure to call you back.
Beep.
"Jules, it's me. I.. uh.. I know my voice is the last one you want to hear right now. But, I made it here safe. I'm sorry, baby. We're going to fix this, right? We have to. When you can, or want, call me back. Let me know how you and our kids are doing. I love you."
One month Later
Jax was sitting on top of the clubhouse's roof, looking at a picture of his best friend and himself when they were kids. Chibs came up and sat down next to him.
"Hey, Jackie. You need anything?"
"No, I'm good."
"you call Julia?"
"Yeah. I got her fucking voicemail. that's the most I've been hearing from her lately. When she does call, she talks about the kids, not us."
"You two will move past this."
"i don't think so, Chibs. She's pissed."
"She's not necessarily pissed at you. I think she's more pissed at the situation."
"Is she coming?"
"I don't think so," Jax said, blowing out his cigarette smoke.
"I'll be downstairs if you need me. "
"Thanks, man."
"Anytime."
He climbed down, and someone climbed up. Jax heard footsteps behind him.
"Chibs, I'm fine."
He turned around and saw his wife standing there, making him drop his cigarette.
"Jules."
He looked different from the last time I saw him. His hair was grown out and slicked back. It felt like I haven't seen him in years even though it has only been a couple weeks. I guess that's what happens when you are with someone almost everyday to not seeing them at all.
"You should really stop smoking, Jax. Our kids is going to have a father with lung cancer. How many packs do you smoke a day now?"
"Three, maybe five. "
"Jesus."
"That's how I cope with my stress. You know that. Are the kids with you?"
Did she have to look so damn beautiful? Her hair was straight and she had silver hoop earrings in. She was wearing a light brown leather jacket with a black top and jeans paired with knee-high boots without the heels.
" They're downstairs. I would ask you how you're doing, but I already know the answer. I got your voicemail. And chibs called me too. "
"Yeah. I lost my wife and best friend in the matter of weeks. You can say I'm not doing so hot."
"Jax, you still have me."
"No, I don't. You distanced yourself for the past month. Do you have any idea how fucking hard it is to be in love with someone who wants nothing to do with you?"
His eyes started to water.
"I need you."
I walked closer to him, and hugged him hesitantly. He wrapped his arms tightly around my body. I heard him sob quietly in my ear.
"I miss you."
"I miss you, too. I've tried to deny it, but I do. "
We pulled away at the same time.
"Can we get back what we lost?"
Before I could answer. Bobby knocked on the door.
"Jax, it 's time ."