Responsibility, responsibility is the quality of a person to take charge of their actions or decisions, simply no, we all know that, we are all taught to be responsible since childhood, that does not imply that we are all responsible, just as there are those who They accept their responsibilities stoically, there are those who avoid them for fear of it, as well as those who are indifferent, there are all kinds of people, of minds, like stars in the galaxy, I always consider myself a responsible person, even if my appearance dictates otherwise, but Now my beliefs were in doubt.

-I'm pregnant-

Those words, those damned words that would haunt him like the agony of a penitent, were the ones that made him doubt, were the ones that made him briefly think about hanging up, for fear of the implications.

-Are you what?-

I questioned, swallowing my fears as if they were glass, my voice brittle, scared, my heart rate, my pulse at the rate of a gerbil, the trembling of my hands, all the stop signs from my subconscious, telling me to hang up, to walk away. From her, break any relationship we had, insult me, curse me all you want, but could you blame me? I didn't expect this, I certainly never expected it, "please tell me it was a mistake."

-I'm pregnant Hachiman-

His reaffirmation was the last nail in the coffin, there was no turning back, now all that was left was to know what he would do, he would be a coward and run away, he would commit the most vile of sins, abandoning Oshino, abandoning his future offspring or he would accept his earned responsibility. That night, that night in which both hormonal teenagers had completed the carnal act, as their instincts dictated.

It had been a night of insecurity, of grief, of awkwardness, as he opened up in the metaphorical darkness of a new experience, he was a virgin, he had never been popular, he had never been close enough to a girl to reach intimacy, she He was not, he had experience, it was obvious, the world in which he moved was different from his own, a dark, corrupt world, Maduro, he did not ask, he did not need to know and he had no curiosity, so he let himself be guided, Fuck the stupid male ego! He let her teach him, guide him in the pleasures of the flesh.

It was a night that he remembered, even the moment in which the condom gave way to his manhood, that accident was the only thing that would explain the present, with his mind between a struggle to accept responsibility or flee, it didn't even cross his mind. Head the fact of why Oshino had not taken the morning after pill.

-Hachiman, it's best to finish this-

Oshino continued the conversation unilaterally, with him still mute, with the words choked in his throat, this was his opportunity, he would just have to accept what she asked of him and perhaps he would be saved from the consequences of the acts of he.

-I do not want to see you again-

Had he achieved it? Wouldn't she have to bear the weight of his actions? How the hell was I going to allow it!

-Wait Ai!-

I exclaimed quickly, he could be many things, possibly all negative, but he wouldn't be a damn person who would abandon his child.

-I understand that you don't want to see me again, that I'm not part of your life, but I just have one question, are you going to have it?

A stupid question, he knew it, it was his deepest desire, there was no answer but the line was still connected so he hadn't been dismissed without letting him speak.

-If so, you can't keep me away from his life, from our baby's life-

Stupid, stubborn, Hachiman, why did he have to make things so difficult, he just had to keep quiet, remain silent and she could get rid of him without any major problem, without any major drama, it wouldn't be difficult, she had already done it with Hikaru, plus she didn't even do it. He loved her, the proof was that she could never tell him what she did even though he had given her those words for the first and only time, that same night when she had punctured the condom without him realizing it, he longed for a family, It was the only reason to do it, and he was the only guy I knew it would be feasible to have her with.

But? It was good to tie him like that, even though I couldn't love him, that if he ever said it it could be a lie, like all the ones he tells, it wasn't bad to lie, I knew it, lies are the fundamental basis of living together, but why not? Did you want to lie to him? Because I felt like he shouldn't do it? Why was he afraid to do it?

-Look, you know it will be a problem if this is discovered, do it for me, will you~ it will be easier for me to hide it alone-

That request was a low blow, they both knew it, he didn't want to interfere in her career, in fact he had supported her before if he wanted them to have this relationship.

-And how do you plan to hide it?-

He responded with that hint of doubt and harshness characteristic of his voice.

-Easy~ lying, I will continue lying to you as I have been doing until now~-

I almost sang happily to let him know that he didn't need it, to let him know to give up, if only that were enough.

-I understand, but you still can't keep me away from baby Ai-

-If you will be stubborn, it will be more difficult for me to lie with you at your expense Hachiman~~-

-I'm not asking you to carry me Ai, just let me be part of his life, even if it's just for my useless pride-

An accusatory silence hung over both of them, while the words were weighed, while the circumstance was understood, she didn't want him around because she didn't believe she was capable of lying to him like everyone else, and he wouldn't leave her because it was too much. Stubborn, too serious, a situation from which neither would back down, an unstoppable force fighting an immovable object.

-Look-

He continued, taking control of the conversation from her.

-I will talk to my parents so that they allow me to move alone here in Tokyo, I will get a job, I will leave school if necessary-

-You, a job, what about working is losing, your dream of being a housewife-

She made fun of him, of her words in an attempt to regain control of her, to prevent her from continuing down that path.

-It was just that, a dream, oh I'm serious about this-

There was no way to convince him, she knew it, she knew it even before she called him, what was she expecting then? If she already knew her personality, if she already knew her response.

-Okay, but you're coming to live with me-

-Are you sure, what about the consequences-

-There won't be any if they don't discover us~~ Ha-Chi-Man-~~-

I sang to her as sweetly as I could so that she understood well what she had gotten herself into.

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