I present to you, chapter 4. :D
Sorry about the long wait, I got busy with work and making part 4 of Sailor Moon/Oliver & Company. But at least I planned out what happens in this chapter from beginning, middle, and end!
Anyways, this chapter…um, oh boy…..err, well, this warning will tell you. ;^^
Warning: This chapter contains a rape scene and a character committing suicide. If you are not comfortable with reading about that stuff, don't read this chapter. Viewer discretion is advised.
Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon, the series belongs to the wonderful creator, Naoko Takeuchi
Chapter 4: An Innocence Stolen
I wish I could of quit you
I wish I never missed you
And told you that I loved you
Every time I fucked you
The future that we both drew
And all the shit we've been through
Obsessed with the thought of you
The pain just grew and grew
How could you do this to me? Look at what I made for you
It never was enough. And the world is what I gave you
I used to be love-struck, now I'm just fucked up
Pull up my sleeve and see the pattern of my cuts!
And I've lost it all, fell today
It's all the same
I'm sorry, oh
I'm sorry
I'm sorry, no, no
And I've been abused. I feel so used
Because of you
I'm sorry, oh
I'm sorry
I'm sorry, no, no
~ "Black Dahlia" by Hollywood Undead
Usagi got home in time for her curfew before Seiya. Right now he was at the photo studio doing a photo shoot, so he won't be home for a while. She could change into her PJ's and rehearse what she was going to say to end this horrible love affair.
Once she made it inside her room, Usagi opened Tuxedo Mask's star locket and let the soft melody sooth her while she changed into her pink pajama set while also slipping on her white summer robe.
By the time it was 10:30; Seiya walked in and unpacked everything he carried while he announced that he was home.
This was it, the moment where she would finally stand up to her boyfriend and be free from all the abuse and trouble he had caused her. Usagi held the golden star locket and pressed her lips to it. 'Please help me get through this Tuxedo Mask.' She prayed. She then placed the locket in her drawer of her nightstand and called out to Seiya that she was in the bedroom.
"Hey Angel," Seiya greeted as he walked in their room. "gomen, our photographer Saki Itabashi wouldn't let us go until she was satisfied with our photos."
"Seiya-Kun, we need to talk." She said in a low voice, changing the subject.
The teen idol blinked. "About what?"
Her face grew solemn. "About us, this relationship." She looked him in the eyes and saw the twinkle of warning in them, but she wouldn't let fear hold her back.
"Seiya, I don't want to be in this relationship anymore. Ever since we moved in together, you've abused me in so many ways that's unforgivable. And no matter how many times you apologized and give me affection; you still continued to threaten, control, beat, sexually abuse, and humiliate me."
Seiya remained calm, but she could see the blind rage in his eyes that was threatening to overtake him. "Why this all of the sudden? Do you even hear yourself Angel?"
"Don't call me that." She spat back. He walked towards her; stiffening his frame and pulled his shoulders back, towering over her. "No, stay back."
"Why?! It's my job to make sure you don't fall head over heels for another guy, fix any flaws you have so you can become a better person, and to help you learn how to have some self-respect towards me! I did it all to protect you-"
"Excuse me?! I'm to believe that what you're doing to me was an act of protection?" She screamed. "You made me fall for your charming boyish looks and "soft heart"! Convinced me to move in with you! Controlling everything I did, wore, and ate! Took disgusting photos of me! And worse, you took the people I love away from me!" Usagi let all of her anger and sadness go.
"It's over Seiya-Kun. . .I'm sorry, I can never love a man who abuse's his girlfriend without feeling any guilt about it, and thinks that it was a merciful thing to do."
Seiya still stayed stoic and collected, but his hands were twitching a bit, itching to strike her. "Listen to me, everything I did was to groom you into becoming an obedient girlfriend. And so that nothing comes between us."
She stepped away from him and shook her head. "No. . ."
"Don't shy away from me Angel. . .It's alright." He said softly and genuine. "You're emotional and you don't know what you're doing,. . ."
Seiya then proceeded to move his hand to touch her cheek. "It's going to be okay, all of this is how it should be-"
Usagi then firmly grabs his wrist in a tight hold, the teen idol was startled that a petite girl like her had strength. She glared at the angry man in front of her.
"NO! You were wrong about everything! You were wrong about me! And everything you did was wrong!" she told him as he struggled to free his wrist. "And I will never let you or anyone abuse me like that again!"
With that, she wrenched his wrist free and Seiya staggered backwards and slammed into a mirror stand, causing it to shatter. With an air of confidence, Usagi gave him one last death stare and turned to leave.
Seiya's face turned red and his stomach churned angrily, glaring at her with murderous eyes as he slowly rose to his feet. "You want me to be the bad guy?" he ground out through gritted teeth.
He then eyed the baseball bat tucked in the corner, and he smiled wickedly as he went to feel for the pocket knife that was concealed in the inside of his coat.
"Fine." He said lowly, grabbing the bat, and walked towards her slowly. "Now I'm the bad guy."
In the hallway, Usagi looked back to find a furious Seiya approaching her with a bat in his hand. Alarm bells went off in her head and her eyes widened in fear.
She broke into a run down the hallway. "No, no, no!" she whimpered.
She rushed to the stairs but when Seiya caught up to her he pushed her hard and Usagi tumbled down the long flight of stairs. She moaned in pain as she rolled over on her hands and knees. Before she could even stand, Seiya hit her in the arm with the bat.
"Getting real tired of that brave attitude of yours!" he yelled. He then continued to whack her a couple more times, she cried out from the pain each time, tears pouring out of her eyes.
"Stop it Seiya!" she pleaded. But the beating still carried on.
"Yeah, getting really tired." He said. After a few more good hits, Seiya tossed the bat aside and grabbed her. He then threw her across the living room where she landed hard on top of the coffee table, breaking it.
He stormed over to her as she tried to get up from the impact. "Leave me you say? Fuck you! I own you! You're not leaving me! Where will you go? They won't be there for you. Not if I have anything to say about it!"
Seiya grabbed her again but Usagi pushed him and tried to make a run towards the front door. The teen idol only got angrier and snatched her again, and the two wrestled each other. Seiya then led her towards the dining room, far away from the door, and pinned her against the wall.
"You're not going anywhere you bitch!" he growled.
Usagi tried to scramble away from him, but he had a tight grip on both her wrists as they were pinned to the wall, and his legs blocking her from going anywhere.
Watching her squirm before him, the little mewls that escaped her lips, and the angry face she was making, was causing something inside of him to grow. An idea came to him, an idea for a punishment, and he smiled.
"Wanna hear about a secret of mine Angel?" he said softly. "Every time I'm with you, when we're this close, not only does my heart beat for you, but another part of me is filled with more love." He then moved to whisper in her ear.
"And it aches for you. . ."
Usagi frozed in place when he said that.
Seiya's smile grew bigger. "It's swollen, wanna feel?" He brought her right hand to his groin and he made her rub him, and she gasped. "Feel that swelling there?" he purred.
Usagi gritted her teeth. "LET GO OF ME SEIYA!" And she pushed him away from her.
Seiya only got angrier and back handed her as hard as he could. He grabbed her again with both arms, painfully tightly, and yanked her towards him.
"Aargh! Let go!" she screamed.
He roughly pushed her to the dining table, used his hand to vigorously sweep off anything that was set on the table as it all shattered to the floor, and then he pinned her to the table on her back.
"Stop!" she yelled, trying to shove him away again with her hands.
Seiya reacted; seizing her wrists in his hand, forcing them above her head. He then used his free hand and tore her nightshirt open, the buttons flying away, exposing the small breasts of Usagi Tsukino.
"Stop it!" she pleaded, her breathing became a fretful panting and she bit back her tears.
"NO!" Seiya shouted. "I am going to get through to you! And if this is the only way,. . . . . .
. . . . .so be it!"
He then brought his hand to the waistband of her pajama pants and started to tug them down fast. Usagi was screaming in terror at what he was planning to do to her and she tried to wiggle free from his grasp.
"NO! SEIYA NO!"
When he forced her pants down past her ankles, the teen idol smirked and proceeded to unbuckling his belt with one hand, and unzipping his pants. "I'm gonna get inside that tight place, and your gonna like it."
Usagi whimpered, struggling to break free with every strength she had left, but his hold on her got harder and more painful. "Seiya,. . .please. . .don't do this. . .I'm sorry. . .just stop, please. . ." she pleaded, her voice breaking while tears rolled out of her angelic blue eyes.
Seiya only got more aroused from her squirming.
He ignored her and forced his erection in, she felt her wall tear and she screamed to the top of her lungs. She was now fighting to break free from him.
"NO, NO! TAKE IT OUT! TAKE IT OUT! IT HURTS! IT HURTS! NO, NO! TAKEITOUTTAKEITOUTTAKEITOUTTAKEITOUTTAKEITOUT!" she cried, shaking her head from side to side.
Seiya, hitting the last patient nerve, drew out the knife from his inner pocket and pushed his arm onto her throat, stilling her.
"SHUT UP!" He shouted. He then raised the knife up to her eye level, promising death is she chose to resist him again. "Not. . .one. . .sound." he hissed.
Usagi only starred up at him, horrified as she watched him place the weapon back in his pocket. He then covered her mouth and leaned in closer to her face.
"Here's what's gonna happen," he whispered. "Your gonna shut up,. . .your gonna shut off your brain,. . .and breath into your body. . ."
She whimpered gently, more tears running down her face.
Still gripping her wrists, Seiya slowly pulled out, and Usagi screamed in pain once again as he thrusted her hard and rough.
Every minute of it felt like torture for her, felt as if he was going to tear her. Seiya's unrelenting penetration was harsh; every thrust was painful as she cried out in pain. She remained frozen, save for her limbs shaking with fright, and tears steamed her features. Usagi shut her eyes and prayed that it would be over soon.
"Please stop, I think I'm bleeding!" she sobbed, feeling a wet flow spilling out of her entrance.
Seiya still kept pumping himself into her, faster and harder. After a while, he felt himself reaching his climax and he thrust one last time into her and she cried out in pain as he let himself out inside of her.
'No. . .' Her mind echoed.
Seiya touched her chin as he looked down at her coldly. Usagi didn't make a sound, her blue eyes wide, mouth agape, paralyzed by the horror of it all.
When the teen idol pulled out of her she exhaled a breath she didn't know she was holding, she then felt tears slide down her face and she cried her heart out. Seiya gave her an unimpressed look and walked away, fixing and zipping up his fly.
Usagi slowly rose to a sitting position; she looked down at the table to see it was stained with her blood. She also saw her virgin blood covered on her thighs along with her rapist's semen. It scared her as she hugged herself.
"Seiya, why. . .?!" she wailed.
"Don't think you're getting any love tonight," he said coldly. "Shouldn't have provoked me, maybe next time you'll know better. I've warned you that you will be punished if you don't obey me."
And with that, he made his way up the stairs to call it a night and leave her to drown in her misery. Seiya then heard frantic footsteps running across the living room and he looked back to find her trying to unlock the front door.
"Hey!" he yelled. He ran down the stairs towards her, drawing out his knife, but Usagi flew the door open and ran out. "Get back here!"
She could feel him behind her, adrenaline pumping like ice through her veins; she took off running across the lawn and down the street with such speed. She sprinted so fast that she had outrun Seiya as he began to lose the ability to chase her any further. The teen idol came to a slow stop and scream.
"GO AHEAD, RUN! RUN ALL YOU WANT! BUT YOU CAN'T ESCAPE ME! I KNOW WHERE YOU'LL GO! I'LL KILL THEM, ALL OF THEM! I'LL KILL ANYONE WHO STANDS IN MY WAY TO PROTECT YOU!"
. . . .
Now here she was, under the light post, terrified of what Seiya had screamed at her when she escaped. With an anguished cry she fled on, being in this distance from him wasn't far enough; she had to get away from him.
Usagi didn't notice that she ran into the crosswalk against the light and almost had a collision with a car, but thankfully, they stopped mere inches from her. She jumped out of her skin and nearly fell over, but she regained her balance with a cry and ran away from them.
Usagi raced further down the city, not daring to look behind her to see if the car followed her, she then felt her legs finally give out and she slammed into another light post. She clung there, falling to her knees, panting, sobbing.
'No,. . . please,. . .I have to keep going. I have to get away from him. . .Have to get away from all of it. . .' she begged.
She then opened her eyes and noticed that she had come across her city's bridge, and it must have been very late because there were no cars on the road, everything was silent. Usagi got up and walked over to the rails, staring out at the black water below her. She still wanted to get away, but she had run out of street, run out of energy, there was nowhere else to go except. . . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . .down.
The sky thundered with warnings as it casted a malevolent glow over the churning waters, where the waves rose upwards as if to meet the sky. Her hair blew behind her, the wind awakening her and giving her more energy.
And she chose her course of action.
Usagi climbed on the stone railing, holding onto one of the bridges steel hangers for support. She looked back at the rest of her city behind her and, for a moment, thought about reconsidering her fate.
'No. . .I can't go back. . .I can't go home. . .there is no home. . .I don't have a mother, father, brother, or friends anymore. . .they all HATE me now.' she thought as tears leaked from her eyes. 'All that would be waiting for me. . .is Seiya. . .'
'You don't get it Angel, because you're just too dumb!'
'You're always crying about something, always playing the victim! Nobody wants a crybaby like you!'
'You screwed up again! Can't you do anything right?!'
'Before I came, you were nothing. I mean, look at you! What other guy would want you?! Without me, you're nothing!'
'Can't you act more like your age?!'
'I saw the way you were looking at that man! You can't tell me there's nothing going on there?!'
'Once MY good obedient girlfriend, I won't have to punish you, and if you don't obey me, I'll punish you every time!'
'You will not see any of your friends or family again, do you understand? You are MY girlfriend; therefore, you BELONG to ME!'
'You tell anyone about this, and I'll kill the people you love!'
Usagi turned to face the ocean again, she trembled with fear and sorrow, she wanted to cry forever. 'If this is what my life is going to be like from now on, I can't live like this anymore, I have to get out of this nightmare. I'm alone, I've lost my innocence, and no one will love a worthless girl like me.'
She stared at the long drop before her. Yes. The waves will help her, help her escape. If she did this, she'll wake up and the nightmare will be over, she'll grow a pair of wings that'll help take her to a place where nothing can hurt her. She'll be free.
Usagi sighed with the air of finality, closing her eyes, and leaned forward. 'Goodbye mom, dad, Shingo, Ami, Rei, Makoto, Minako, Luna, Artemis, Motoki,. . .and Tuxedo Mask. I'm sorry, I couldn't do it, I wasn't strong and brave enough like you told me to be. Please don't be angry with me.'
Her grasp on the steel hanger was loosening, and in a matter of moments, she'll be free from her nightmare.
'I love all of you. . .'
"NO!"
Aww! I ended on a cliffhanger! I'm so evil! Mwhahaha! :D
I also have an announcement to make, and you're all gonna hate me. But I'm gonna take a break from writing this fanfic because I have other projects that I want to get to really badly, and I'm going to my cousin's wedding in September, so I have to get ready for that.
:My readers: "NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Don't leave us on a cliffhanger for a while!"
I know, I know, don't worry, this is not the end. I'm sure Usagi will still be alive for the rest of the story…..
…hopefully. ;p
Also, the song and verse I used for this chapter sounded a lot like Usagi's situation.
And guys, I promise that I will not abandon this fanfic. I can't bring myself to anyway because there are scenes in this story that I want to get to REALLY BADLY, like, every day I think about them. And I can't stop. And once I wrote the first chapter and posted it, that sealed the deal, there is no pulling the plug on this fanfic. And with the nice reviews so far, I can't disappoint you guys.
See you next time!