Prompt: First Kiss/Blush (2023)
Onodera Ritsu was not a particularly brave fifteen year old. He - like many teenagers - was unsure of himself and didn't know what steps to take in order to gain the confidence that others seemed to have in spades. However, he - also like many teenagers - did not have a fully developed brain capable of making good decisions yet. That alone probably attributed to his brief moments of courage that allowed his clumsy love confession and all the decisions he had made since Saga had stated that he didn't mind going out.
This included Ritsu's most recent decision to initiate a kiss.
It wasn't that Ritsu and Saga weren't kissing - they were. A lot. In fact, Ritsu was going to develop a heart condition if the amount of affection he received from his Senpai continued to exponentially grow like this. That aside, the main issue was that Ritsu had yet to initiate a kiss himself. It was always Saga that kissed Ritsu first or scooted closer or wrapped an arm around him or unbuttoned his shirt-
The point was, Ritsu was determined to make some sort of contribution to the affection being exchanged between them. His feelings may have been stupidly obvious, but if they were dating then that meant Ritsu should reciprocate, right? It was only fair. Ritsu didn't want to accidentally make Saga feel unloved because of his own anxieties.
It really shouldn't even be that big of a deal, Ritsu scolded himself, currently in a familiar sitting position on Saga's bedroom floor as he waited for Saga to come up with some drinks and a bowl of popcorn for the movie they (somewhat) planned on watching. Despite his thoughts, Ritsu couldn't get his heart to stop racing. Unfortunately, no matter how much he tried to convince himself it wasn't, it was a big deal to him. Because, while this wouldn't be Ritsu's first kiss, it would be the first time he initiated any kind of romantic touch with anyone and that felt significant.
"You could've started it without me." Saga's voice made Ritsu jump a little as he came back in and sat down right next to him, their legs touching. "I've seen it before."
"I-I didn't mind waiting. Thank you." Ritsu managed to say as he took his drink and sipped it, hoping it might cool him off a little as he could already feel a blush creeping up his neck.
Saga hummed in response before picking up the remote for the DVD player that was laying on the floor and starting the movie, setting the popcorn down between them. He idly sipped his own drink, glancing at Ritsu every so often from the corner of his eye.
He seems even more nervous than usual today, Saga thought, I didn't do anything did I? Maybe he doesn't want to do it today and doesn't know how to tell me or something. Saga felt a bit of disappointment at that possibility, but didn't let it show.
Ritsu set his drink aside before swallowing hard and looking toward Saga. "Um, S-Senpai?" He started just to get his attention.
Saga turned his head toward Ritsu, a little confused (though secretly delighted) to see that Ritsu was already bright pink. Seriously did I do something? He wondered, Fuck, he's so cute, though, his thoughts continued as he had to hold back a wistful sigh. "Yeah?"
Ritsu opened and closed his mouth a couple times, totally frozen as he briefly blanked on what he had even been planning to do in the first place. This left him staring at Saga with a dumbstruck expression for a few seconds too long as Saga started to feel his ears get a little warm.
Why is he looking at me like that? Is there something on my face? Saga wondered, turning his head away to try to regain some of his usual composure.
But, just as Saga started to look away, Ritsu's plan of action came crashing back to him and he suddenly surged forward, but his lips planted on Saga's cheek instead. He pulled away just as quickly, even more embarrassment piling on top of him as he realized he had failed.
"I...I..." Ritsu's hands were shaking.
"Did you just...try to kiss me?" Saga asked, slowly meeting Ritsu's gaze once more, his cheek still warm from where Ritsu's lips had briefly pressed.
Ritsu wanted to die.
Instead of that, he opted for the next best thing: running away.
Ritsu shouted out some kind of incomprehensible apology as he sprung to his feet. He managed to take two steps toward the bedroom door - barely managing to avoid kicking the popcorn - before Saga quickly reached out and snatched his wrist, causing Ritsu to stumble backward and nearly fall into his lap. It must have been due to a miracle that Ritsu's crappy center of balance didn't screw him over today, however, Saga wasn't satisfied with that.
In an impulse decision of his own, Saga pulled Ritsu down to sit in his lap, wrapping his arms around him tightly to prevent anymore escape attempts.
"Where the hell are you going? Why are you freaking out?" Saga asked. As if he was going to let Ritsu run out of here after doing something cute like that.
Ritsu covered his face with his hands since he could no longer run and hide, this position making the entire situation more mortifying. "I'm so embarrassed!" He exclaimed.
"Why?" Saga said. "We've done a lot more than cheek kissing, so I still don't understand why you're so worked up."
Ritsu could feel his non existent confidence fizzling out even more at the fact that Saga was witnessing his panic.
"Because...because I've never kissed you before! So I wanted to do it and I just - I messed it up!" Ritsu said miserably.
Saga blinked a couple times. Had Ritsu hit his head today or something? "What are you talking about? We've kissed so many times."
"But I've never kissed you." Ritsu reiterated. "You're always the one kissing me." Ritsu's voice started to approach a whine as he tried to hide himself as much as possible.
Oh.
Why is he so fucking cute?! It pisses me off. God, he better spend the night tonight, Saga thought, his grip around Ritsu tightening even more.
"Then kiss me." Saga said. "Right now. Kiss me." He urged, wanting to kiss Ritsu more than he ever had before, and that was saying something.
"I-I can't just d-do that!" Ritsu protested.
"Sure you can." Saga said. "It's easy. Like you said, I kiss you all the time, so why shouldn't you be able to kiss me?" He asked, but Ritsu refused to look at him still. "I'm just going to keep bothering you until you do it." Saga warned, but still Ritsu did not budge. "Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me, kiss me-" Saga started to poke at his side, hoping to annoy or embarrass Ritsu enough to spring him into action.
Ritsu did in fact come out of hiding in order to cover Saga's mouth with his hands. "Please, I'm begging you!" He exclaimed. "Th-The moment passed, I failed, I-I'll try again another day!" He added, hoping Saga could be satisfied with that.
Saga was not, of course.
The older teen pressed a gentle kiss to Ritsu's hand, making him pull his hands away as though the touch had burned.
"Just like that." Saga said. "It can be short. Just kiss me." He insisted.
Ritsu hesitated, looking around the room nervously, trying to find anything that may provide an excuse or escape route.
"Th-The movie-"
Saga very briefly detached one arm from around Ritsu's waist to grab the remote once more and pause it.
"We'll watch it later."
"Um, uh, S-Sorata...?"
"He's not even in here, I made sure to close the door." Sorata had interrupted one too many times, Saga had learned his lesson by now.
"I..." Ritsu faltered.
"Just kiss me already. Don't make me wait all day." Saga leaned forward, gently bumping their foreheads together. "Would it help if I closed my eyes?"
"...m-maybe."
Saga let his eyes fall shut and Ritsu took a deep, shuddering breath. Ritsu squeezed his own eyes shut for a moment because if he continued to view the up close sight of Saga in this position he would never be able to build up his courage - no matter how nice it would have been to simply stare at his long eyelashes.
Okay...I can do this...I can do this, Ritsu told himself after a few more seconds, peeking his eyes open just a bit to make sure Saga still had his closed. When he saw that he did, he took another deep breath to steel himself before leaning forward and kissing Saga.
It was gentle, hesitant, and swift - perfectly replicating Ritsu's nature. When Ritsu pulled away, he turned his head and closed his eyes once more so he didn't have to see Saga's expression.
I think my heart is about to explode, Ritsu thought, though he wasn't the only one experiencing that sentiment.
Saga slowly opened his own eyes and when seeing Ritsu looking away he allowed himself to smile a little. He really is too cute for his own good, Saga thought, a little annoyed with himself for using that word so much today, but it was true. His own heart thudded hard against his chest, threatening to reveal his secretly flustered state if Ritsu noticed. Somehow his lips are even softer when he's the one kissing me. I love him so much, it drives me crazy. Saga's fingers twitched slightly with the urge to run his hands under Ritsu's uniform jacket that he had yet to take off. Saga's whole body felt warm with affection and desire for Ritsu, undeniably charmed by Ritsu's shy kiss. His lips especially wanted to chase after that warmth and have it back.
"Um...i-if that's all, can you please let me go now, Senpai?" Ritsu said quietly.
"No way." Saga said. "It's my turn to kiss you now."
"E-Eh?!"
"You kissed me, so now I kiss you, and so on and so forth. It's only fair, right?" Saga asked.
"Th-That isn't what I meant at all!"
"Do you not want to kiss me?"
"No - I - I didn't mean that either!" Ritsu flailed his hands wildly in desperation.
Saga forced himself not to chuckle at how easy it was to mess with him.
"Then there's no problem, right? Ah, now that I think about it, you should catch up with all the times I've kissed you before we start taking turns. So, you might want to let your parents know you're spending the night. It's gonna be a while till we're even."
"W-What?!"
It was beginning to dawn on Ritsu that he may have made a terrible, terrible mistake.