Yep. Here again…Late.
But no worries, I am about to beat Corona with a near record time thanks to my 40.3C fever. I am about fully recovered.
Now reviews!
AstolfoBrHue: Excelente capitulo como sempre, realmente eu acho bem decepcionante como a forma que o subaru trata os pais no cânon.
Certo que ele não pode voltar mas... É tão difícil colocar a atenção que ele foca na Emília como número 1 em seus pais ou mais na beatrice.
Eu perdi muito do meu interesse na obra devido como o subaru é escrito, o arco 7 só tirou mais da minha vontade em acompanhar a obra.
Esperava pelo momento de Rem e Subaru com um beijo... recebo um enforcamento da Rem e toda uma falta de esperança nela voltar a ser quem era antes.
A: Author's bad choices, his insane bias and amount of retcons together with Subaru bashing makes the story worse as time passes.
Like, right now…He is making Volachia support Vincent when he did jack shit while Subaru literally beat armies while traveling fast.
Then we had ch 75 of arc 7 which is the worst chapter in re zero…Without Satella Subaru can't smell apparently(despite having 2 witch factors) and then HIS AUTHORITY that is confirmed to be his in this chapter, for no reason, cannot work without Satella. This is also weird as Authorities do appear according to the owner's desire…Idk where Satella fits on desire to redo.
Plus this ignores the fact that Satella was heavily affected by RbD like every fucking character in arc 6…She was literally coming to invade tower at the same time…Why do that if you can know all the loops?
And Tappei forgot that Satella was supposed to have no control of her own let alone somewhat completing Return By Death. He forgot that she was supposed to be not compatible.
And of course, Rem.
Imagine an arc 6 where Subaru actually manages to get her memories and we literally wait for this arc 7 where Subaru and Rem are together in this unknown country. Holly shit, look at this missed opportunity.
Thanks for the review!
Guest: Oh nooooo, weeks of not updating, what a siiiiiiin, what a big siiiiiiiiin.
Priscilla, stop being the best girl holy shit.
Reinhard is stuck in time, while Julius is willing to move forward.
Subaru is realizing the sus everywhere.
So Ana's name... means hole? That's sus in itself, but the fact that she can't remember... I guess it's possible to not be born with a name and be named, but ah, whatever.
Oh yeah, Pandora. At this point you could make a "Who's Pandora" joke.
A: Ana's name doesn't mean hole. 'Ana' part of Anastasia sounds like 'Hole' in Japanese language, this explanation is something we got for her name in canon which was stupid so I turned into something sus in this story. And Anastasia meaning Rebirth isn't made up either, that's also true.
I am proud of how Priscilla turned out.
Yeah, that's the difference between Reinhard and Julius.
Oh yeah, he is finally gathering courage to see that plot thread of "A sus person that is connected to all kinds of bad shit, but unfortunately they are also connected to me." If it was easy as "THIS IS A VILLAIN!" then Subaru would just go for it. But that isn't, Witch Cult has stuff that is connected to him so it isn't pretty to look at.
Thanks for the review!
"Speaking"
'Thinking'
English word being used
Now let's get into the chapter!
(Before Subaru and Emilia slept together)
Subaru was brushing Emilia's silver hair with care as she closed her eyes while smiling.
This was an activity that Emilia liked greatly. Being comforted by Subaru. Not to mention, he had a calm and relaxed face that Emilia enjoyed as she peeked to look at his face from the mirror's reflection now and then.
Back then, she didn't understand why she was so interested in his face as they did this brushing session. But now she understands that while staying silent with him, he acted differently with her.
Subaru loved her.
It wasn't something she had confidence in now, but back then, when things were simpler, he showed that clearly.
But with all that love, he knew her very well, how immature she was, and so much more.
The only reason Emilia could understand that fact now was that how he interacted with her had changed.
If Subaru didn't change this, she would understand nothing. He had total control over how people perceived him.
In fact, now thinking about it, Subaru acted differently to everyone.
Managing everything perfectly.
It made her wonder...what was he actually like?
It was a giant rabbit hole that would consume her, yet she couldn't look back and run away.
It was unlike her, yet Emilia accepted that no matter how different and shocking it might be, she would accept Subaru simply because he is Subaru. He had that kind of effect on her.
That was unreasonable, since if someone acts badly, if someone acts rude when it comes to things like that, one should just act accordingly and maybe even punish the person.
'And yet...I don't think I have it in me.' Emilia thinks as she looks at Subaru's face, seeing how she wasn't trying to be sneaky anymore. Subaru spoke.
"...Your hair is nice."
It was extremely weird for him to say that.
After all, he said as if he never said those words before. Not one time.
But the truth was that he said them hundreds of times.
So why did it feel like that?
"I wonder...How Rem's long hair would be..." Subaru said as he blushed.
"..." For some reason, her breath was getting weird just when he said that.
"She is awesome, skilled at everything, so she is good at haircutting as well. She did my hair once."
"Your hair...is a bit longer than normal right?" Emilia said without thinking, she just felt the need to say something, that was all.
She was getting uncomfortable. But she didn't know why...
No, she knew why.
It was irritating. Rem.
"It's not that different, but you are right...If I am going to make it like before, I want Rem to be the one who cuts it. Though I wouldn't mind if she wants to try something else, haha."
As Subaru chuckled, Emilia couldn't help but have bad thoughts.
'I didn't see him happily laugh like that for a while. And of course, it's just Rem.'
Being able to make Subaru laugh while sleeping for a year, Emilia couldn't imagine that power.
Her imagination ran wild when it came to Rem, a girl that only Subaru knew...she wondered if she was like Ram.
'Could it be...that she likes Roswaal as well?'
But then she is reminded of how much Subaru talked about Rem's affection for him...
In the end, there was no running away. She couldn't delude herself that Subaru's feelings for Rem were unanswered.
At the depth of her heart, no, even when she feels lonely and sad without him. Emilia thought about the fact that Rem might not wake up.
Fact. It was a fact that Rem might never wake up. And they might need to put her into the rest...
But that fact did not feel like a fact, as Subaru's voice had no hesitation, and had no doubt that he would save her.
"Subaru...Can I ask something?"
He nodded.
"How can you be so sure...that you can save Rem? Are you sure you don't feel bad in any way?"
Her purpose was to satisfy her curiosity and find something that she could fill as Emilia where Rem left empty, but she asked the question as if she wanted to support Subaru if he had any doubts.
In the end, when she wanted, half-elf Emilia could be quite smart.
"There is no doubt. I will save her."
"...But how?"
"The world without Rem...isn't a world that can continue. The world continues, so the future is not without her."
Those words were absolutes. There were no lies and Natsuki Subaru surely wasn't wrong about his way of moving, [Return By Death].
It was nothing but his mere hesitations and trauma of him seeing Rem's death many times, that caused him to wish for her to never be harmed.
Subaru got his wish.
He never saw Rem get harmed.
While Subaru was thinking about that with a smile, Emilia was grateful that his eyes were closed as he thought about Rem.
Because Emilia couldn't hide her reaction to those words.
She felt guilty, however, she couldn't deny it, Insanity, that word appeared in her mind.
She felt a chill on her back and when she looked at herself in the mirror, she could see her ugly expression.
Lips twitching, a big frown, and eyes that widened as much as they could.
The world without Rem...isn't a world that can continue. The world continues, so the future is not without her.
The way he said it, what he said. She repeated all of that in her mind. But the only conclusion she reached was that it wasn't her who got it wrong, it wasn't her childishness that made her unable to understand.
It was Subaru, who could not be understood.
No one would be able to understand what he said.
No one.
Emilia was someone who believed everyone could be understood, but she started to doubt that as time passed.
For example, most people would hold their promises in this world, regardless if they are good or bad. Spirit Arts users gave more weight to promises but that didn't mean other people would break them.
But Subaru didn't give that much care to promises.
Emilia slowly got up, startling Subaru slightly.
She softly turned her chair towards Subaru, now they were sitting face to face.
Subaru could not be understood in some matters, but that alone did not make her give up. She could try to understand things that are actually understandable.
With a serious face, Emilia asked.
"Subaru...Why do you take promises lightly?"
Until now, this question was brushed up no matter how she asked, whether it be jokes or evasions, Subaru never answered her.
There was a time she pressed onwards but Subaru just looked at her face without saying anything, that was a long time ago, even before Royal Selection actually started.
But this time, after making that straight face and standing in silence...Subaru sighs with a smile as he closes his eyes.
That smile wasn't a smile, it was something that made his expression more empty and soulless than it would've been if he just didn't make any expression.
"Promise...huh?" Subaru said as his smile became more apparent, he didn't open his eyes.
Emilia's breath halted that's because..
" "Promise" is such a nice word, isn't it?"
" "Promise" is such a nice word, isn't it?"
The emphasis, the words, and even the expression seemed to look down on the concept of "Promise" itself.
She couldn't evade her eyes from the truth. Right now, in her vision, Subaru and that woman...Pandora overlapped.
'Is this...a coincidence?' The first time after Subaru's confession in that vast green after he saved her, Emilia suspected him.
Emilia suspected him the first time her eyes landed on him. He looked like a criminal in loothouse.
She suspected he worked with Roswaal, even when he saved him and lost consciousness.
She suspected his intentions and made Puck read his mind and sense his emotions after he started working.
She suspected his intentions towards Ram when she realized she was cautious about him. Perhaps Rem was the same...perhaps even Rem suspected him.
She suspected he was working for Priscilla when she saw them together in an alleyway.
She suspected that he would tell Crusch Camp whatever he knew after she left him.
She...did nothing but distrust Subaru no matter what he did.
And unfortunately, she wasn't the only one, no one ever trusted Subaru, nor had a good opinion of him without him needing to do something drastic to change that.
It was a sad reality that made Emilia's heart hurt.
She decided to be there for Subaru no matter what, and yet, she was suspecting him again.
'But it's just...too similar. Too similar! JUST TOO SIMILAR!'
Can anyone judge her? Was she really wrong?
She didn't even feel bad for questioning...
Was Subaru perhaps cursed? A curse that removes all guilt from everyone who did bad things to him?
"You are looking at me rather intently..."
'It's not just this!' Emilia shouted in her mind.
The memories, the time she spent with Subaru. It all moved inside her head.
"Emilia-tan, your stars are bad today."
It's not like Subaru did anything bad...but...the way Subaru wasn't normal...
It was just too abnormal.
The way he looked at danger.
Perhaps Subaru did not realize it, but he had a look in his eyes as if nothing could touch him. That's what Emilia saw back then when even she was scared of the Great Rabbit that wouldn't stop no matter how many times she massacred them.
Subaru had no fear.
Like that woman who could afford death.
"Well...I guess you didn't like the answer. But it's the truth..." Subaru continued.
""There are times when a decision must be made, even if it means breaking a promise""
"Ahgh...?! JUSTDIE ALREADY!" Emilia shouted with the full might of her throat.
But nothing happened.
As nothing happened by means unknown to Emilia. She quickly realized who she aimed those words at.
Natsuki Subaru. She just tried to kill him...
"...Ah...ah...?...No. Sub..aru...I?"
"It's no problem."
"Ah..." Emilia lost her mind as Subaru mercilessly forgave her.
If he had slapped her, if he had to do something, it would be far more-
"You clearly had a PTSD episode. Which I triggered just by speaking. That much is OK. No one understands better than me...though now that I think about it I get no PTSD from the time I had in this world but from the past...hahaha, I am quite freaky."
"...M...What...?"
"I'll tell you this one time. Basically, you have a trauma, and you get reminded of that trauma. And I am saying...that much is alright in itself."
"...Ah." Somewhat, he made her relieved. Once again, he achieved that...just like that.
"But..."
"Ah?!" With a very smooth leg sweep without any other contact, he caused Emilia to fall on her butt.
Not that this could be called a Judo move in itself, but Natsuki Subaru had experience anyway.
"Do you realize what you just did?" Subaru asked calmly...
Indeed, even Subaru himself realized that Emilia was focused a lot on his eyes...which he didn't hide.
This somewhat proved that Priscilla was right to a level...the more Subaru himself is revealed, the more negative reaction is revealed.
But he didn't care.
"...No." Emilia meekly spoke.
"...Is that so? Let me be clear. I told you that it's okay to be affected. But...you lost control. You were about to freeze everywhere. Kill me and everyone." Subaru said...with the same expression, nothing changed.
Death and tragedy, he spoke calmly, just like that woman.
"NO! THAT'S NOT TRUE!" Emilia denied.
"Yes, it is. Do you think it was luck or your own self-control that nothing happened? Don't dare to lie, you tried to do something."
"...That's...That's because of my power..."
"...Oh."
A dangerous power, mana capacity greater than everyone.
Emilia did not have an easy task while trying to control her great power...
But was that idea ever challenged by anyone?
Was that really true?
"Emilia, is that what Roswaal said to you?"
"Subaru...I will do anything so that you forgive me! Even if I don't deserve it! Even so, I can't endure losing Subaru!"
"Whether that's true or not—"
"It is true! Look...I, I know it doesn't mean anything...But yes, I was told by Roswaal that I do not have control and my mana capacity was great. Frederica and Ram told me many times, even Puck tried to control it all the time even and I had no idea...I am sorry! I should've listened to Clind... trained more to control it...Ugh...ahg..."
Sobbing and regretting, Emilia couldn't look at Subaru's face.
But then, slender yet strong fingers touched her chin and lifted her face.
Looking at him...she finally understood.
It was hard to see, no, it was hard to see before but now it was clear to her.
Subaru...was angry.
She never knew anger could be so cold and calm...she was stronger than him for sure, yet she felt cold from uneasiness.
Somewhat, he was dangerous.
"Roswaal. Ram. Puck. Frederica. Whoever said anything about that, erase it all. They are just mindlessly saying things."
"Su-"
Tried to speak, yet he put his finger on her lips.
That may not have been enough to stop her, but she started to feel weak for some reason.
Really weak.
"Magic...Isn't grand as you guys think. And perhaps you should listen...as I am the reason you can't use it now."
"..." He wasn't wrong. She could not…but how?
"Emilia. There was a time you told me about your past a bit...How you controlled your power. You remember that?"
"...Yes." Given permission, she spoke.
"See. You had your answer all along."
"...But."
"If your power can be contained with a few minute spirits Puck picked...then what is so wild about that great power of yours?"
"...Ghk?!" Her mind froze, yet Subaru did not stop.
"You are just going easy on yourself. Making excuses and also being limited by the beliefs of others. Maybe even thinking that Puck must be right about not telling you...even though he is one of the biggest reasons why your power goes wild and even why we had so many problems in the sanctuary."
"That's not..." Emilia was about to say something...but she couldn't as Subaru's eyes widened as if knowing what she would say...
That look made Emilia think for the first time that Subaru might be about to despise her.
"But don't worry. I'll give you a good reason to realize that you can't afford to just kill everyone because of a tantrum." Subaru smiled and spoke.
He got below her level and looked straight into her eyes.
"Emilia...Whether you think that I am childish or this and that it doesn't matter. I already took a lot of responsibility for you. And let me tell you this, whoever said they will punish you if you do this and that...Roswaal, Puck, or others. Forget all that."
He leans towards her. Brings his lips beside her ear.
"I will punish you."
...She couldn't havetaken this seriously. Yet, she did. Rightfully so.
Subaru was angry, and he claimed to be harsher than other people, Emilia believed him.
Subaru got up.
"I am not lying. What you do is unforgivable. Don't let people be harmed because of you or people that are connected to you. If you do so, I have no choice but to take something out of your life, something I wanted to do for a long time but didn't. I made up my mind, and if you give me the excuse I need, I will do it much earlier."
Emilia nodded. Just nodded.
"How do you feel?"
He genuinely wondered about that.
"...I...am relieved."
"...Huh?"
Maybe forever, or maybe for the first time ever, Emilia genuinely surprised Subaru with her action.
"Subaru not forgiving me...telling me to not do...warning of that sort...Somewhat I feel like I can't go against it even if I wanted to...I feel like thanks to this I will not mess up."
Seeing her genuinely smiling in a bittersweet way, Subaru couldn't believe it.
This was almost like how Ram acted in their new relationship. Sometimes the harsh words and actions made her smile.
Intensity obviously didn't come to Ram's levels, but Subaru wondered what the hell was wrong with her.
"I think this means Subaru didn't give up on me. And...It doesn't feel bad when Subaru is harsh on me."
It feels right.
Emilia left that omitted.
She didn't want to be useless. Sanctuary taught her that. That would be used against Subaru after all.
But Emilia didn't want to do everything herself, decide herself when it would be useless.
She may be a Royal Candidate.
'But it's not like that would stop Subaru from punishing me. He doesn't treat me as a Royal Candidate anyway...only like a Princess when he feels like it. Just to have his way.'
Emilia giggles at that...which freaks Subaru out.
'I shouldn't be someone who just stands there...But even if I am a Royal Candidate, I think I won't let that affect the way I act, since Subaru is here.'
Otto. Frederica. Petra. Many other people and even other Royal Candidates expected her to grow, be more like a leader and be more decisive.
But why make a bad decision just so that you can make a decision.
As far as Emilia is concerned, she doesn't believe they are more competent than Subaru, royal candidates or anyone around her. She finally understood that.
'Everyone is just good at being themselves, with their gifts and powers.'
And Subaru was good at seeing all that gifts and powers through, exploiting all that, and even manipulating against anyone.
He had no one thing that defined him. He just grows without letting anything define him.
Not a knight, not a healer, not a magician. Yet, not weak at all.
'Hmm. It's fine.' She won't listen to others anymore.
She had enough of being incompatible with Subaru for the sake of others and the election.
Looking at Subaru's face, Emilia had no regrets about that decision. She will listen to Subaru, even if she is a Royal Candidate.
In fact...She hasn't felt this good since forever.
"You...genuinely like something about this situation, but I don't understand you at all." That never happened before.
Subaru could see it...Emilia was blushing.
Is she like Ram?
He questioned for a second but left that idea for now.
"Anyways...You can come back and think about it later. Your stars were bad today, I wouldn't do things like this normally, but something good came out it seems."
Subaru went to her bathroom, without asking...but Emilia didn't care about that.
"Your stars were bad."
That sentence repeated in her mind. Repeated by her, Pandora. Another line that was awfully similar to one of Subaru's.
But this...was different.
Made her heart beat fast, but it felt terrifying unlike how Subaru made her body burning hot a moment ago.
"I...never heard anything like...that from her!" She put her hands on her head…a weird feeling invaded her being.
She never heard anything like that from Pandora. Then why did she even imagine that?!
What she saw was...Pandora's hand was on her chest.
'That's not true...That can't be true!' Her mind rejected it.
Emilia was alive. She wasn't dead. Pandora couldn't even touch her. She wasn't that strong, just hard to kill…Just like Echidna said.
"To be honest. No one in this world has stars when I am around. You are simply having a bad fate because I want to see this one too...I want to see more and more, including this one, to deny all of this is pointless."
With that, Emilia saw Pandora making an expression she never witnessed.
She had dead eyes. With that, the memory seemingly ended as Pandora simply closed her eyes.
Everything went black instantly. As if being erased.
Why? What was that? She has no idea? Those things never happened.
"Emilia? Are you okay?"
"Huh? Why?"
"You seemed to be bothered by something?"
"Eh? No. Don't get angry...But despite everything I am suuuuper happy."
"...Haha. I thought you had a headache?"
"Headache? No."
"You...ah, awfully like Anastasia eh?"
"Why did you just mention her?"
"Nothing."
"...You are being weird again...but that's a happy thing I guess. By the way Subaru what did you do to me? I kinda feel weird."
"That's my magic. I can just negate mana around me to stop any magic being done...I can also negate mana others have to decrease their physical capabilities."
"...I see. So that's how you...I see. I wished I studied and trained with Subaru more."
"I guess...though it's questionable if Beatrice would let you or not."
"...Mphm. She is selfish, taking you all to herself like that."
Subaru laughed as Emilia pouted.
"Anyways...I'll sleep here today."
"EH!?"
"It's fine, right? I don't want to get out now. Wolves and Foxes might eat me if I do."
Wolf = Priscilla
Fox = Anastasia
He can't face them now, instead, tomorrow he will act like nothing happened.
'Gotta make animal ears at some point...' Subaru thought but while he thought that...
'...Is Subaru going to do...Ah...No way...My heart isn't prepared!'
With that, she put on her nightgown, and when she came she saw Subaru already trying to sleep.
'Why didn't he wait for me?' If Subaru saw what she wore, things definitely would go down differently.
After a while, she finally realized he actually wanted to sleep...
'That's not what Frederica told me!'
Emilia was educated by Frederica more than what he asked of her.
He didn't think they would actually attack Emilia's innocence after all that time, but he underestimated Frederica's lewd side, which he was a total stranger to.
" "'A prediction done by a woman's intuition!" she said! "Get ready!" She said, But...hmm. Sleeping together alone isn't bad at all...now I think about it"
As she realized this was a really close activity, and an improvement as well...She got inside the bed close.
After a silent good night to Subaru, she closed her eyes.
And yet...That's when Subaru's nightmares started.
His whole body shook and twitched...for an hour, Emilia prayed desperately, to The Spirits, to The World, and to The Dragon.
Nothing worked.
He wouldn't wake up either, no matter how hard she tried.
...But then, instinctively, with desperation, she pressed herself to Subaru and hugged him.
With that, Emilia learned what she must do throughout the night. Somewhat, that calmed Subaru down a bit.
But now she couldn't sleep because of her own reasons.
Welp. Emilia messed up, but she isn't super duper wrong either, Subaru did looked like Pandora.
One of the interesting parts in Greed IF LN is that Subaru plays the villain a bit against Clind, who has an Authority btw(Yeah, basically Hector authority and a bit more)
What Subaru does is basically have a super lack of self-preservation, out-of-place expressions and way of speaking. Adding mystery and creepiness from outside POV, he is really similar to Pandora. Though a Subaru who jokes about as Petelguese is suffering like hell is probably also like her. In the end, I like their similarities.
At the end, Emilia sees/hears things that can't be true and aren't in the main story. But is that really true? Think about it…Pandora wasn't bothered with losing the seal and even didn't care much about forcing Emilia to open, narration even states Pandora knew she would have persuaded Emilia to open the door but didn't despite knowing that. Pandora wins and Emilia gets freezed…but 100 years later, the remains of the past indicate a different history.
There are no frozen cultists that were in Elior.
Emilia didn't unfreeze in front of the Seal. She was nowhere near that.
When you think about Pandora's ability to affect casualty…perhaps she did A LOT of things in that forest in A LOT OF LOOPS.
With that in mind, think about little can't-be-the-truth history she somewhat peeked into.
By the way, in arc 4 Emilia trial parts. There are 2 things that I absolutely find disgusting.
First, Echidna's statement about Regulus VS Guese. She calls them equal and then she, AGAIN, says that it's a stealmate and a battle between two Archbishops of sin can't end easily. When Regulus showed the ability to one shot Guese while Guese can't damage him. I won't call Echidna retarded for this though ... .as this is merely Tappei possessing Echidna to protect this new Emilia loving Guese from looking bad. Absolutely garbage writing. You can find it in LN.
Second, Echidna calls Pandora weak.
This is after Pandora bashed Regulus into ground with so much force that ground just straight crashed below instead of making a crater with cracks, she puts enough force to just make him crash straight into earth. She does this casually and there aren't many greater strength feats in the series who can do this let alone with ease.
Now there is also the very obvious case of Pandora literally not being affected by the overall snowstorm Emilia made, she doesn't even flinch or it affects her skin. It doesn't even do discomfort…While all Emilia did is kill imaginary Pandora's in her head. Somewhat this means Emilia overwhelmed Pandora in Echidna's book. When she literally walked towards her and then raped her brain. But again, not Echidna's fault, just Tappei. If you think these things make sense fuck you.
Have a good day people!