ConSeQuences Chapter 4, a twilight fanfic

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Chapter 4: Dreaming With My Eyes Open

Edward

"Stop yelling you idiot. She's not coming back." Tanya sneered.

Bella didn't turn around, she continued to walk down the hallway. Moments later I heard a door close.

I dropped my head and exhaled. "I hope you're satisfied now. You didn't have to open your goddamn mouth." I turned around to face her. "I was gonna tell her."

"Humph… yeah, right." She folded her hands across her chest. "You were gonna tell her? When?"

"Tanya, I don't owe you an explanation." I pointed at her. "Stay the hell outta our relationship and worry about your own."

"You don't have a relationship, as you call it." She air-quoted with her fingers. "You fucked that up, it was all you." She stepped closer to me with her hands on her hips. "As for my relationship, Garrett doesn't fuck everything that spreads their legs, like your nasty ass."

I titled my head to the ceiling and let out a heavy sigh.

I figured I could've done one of two things, continue to stand here with Tanya and go back and forth or leave. While I would've enjoyed bringing her down a peg or two, I knew Bella would be upset, since I promised her, I would at least try to get along with this crazy bitch.

Tanya pushed past me and held the door opened. "Edward, get the hell out, now."

Bella was upstairs and I knew she wouldn't come back down, she needed time, and I was gonna give it to her. I'd give it a few days, tops, and then everything would blow over.

I shook my head, snorted, and walked towards the door. "Tell Bella I'll talk to her later."

"Yeah, whatever." Tanya chuckled, before she slammed the door behind me.

I hopped in my car and headed home since I was done with work for the day.

Just as I walked through the door, Emmett called, but I let it go to voicemail, I wasn't in the talking mood.

I turned on some music, grabbed a beer for myself, pulled out my stash and rolled up a joint.

I wanted to forget, even if it was for a little while.

Hours later I woke up, heated up a few slices of pizza that were in the refrigerator, took a shower and went to bed. I figured I'd start fresh tomorrow.

The irritating alarm clock blared in my bedroom waking me out of a deep sleep. I hit the snooze button three times before I finally decided to get up around nine o'clock.

My appointment wasn't until noon so, I planned on surprising Bella by going to her job. I did say I'd give her a few days, but I don't think it would hurt to at least try.

I took care of my morning hygiene, got dressed, and headed out.

Thirty-five minutes later I parked in the lot and walked on the college campus. Bella was a camp counselor at Chicago State University, during the summer, and had been for the past three summers.

It didn't matter how many people were around, I easily picked her out. She had on blue jean shorts, showing off her nice round ass, and a red t-shirt tied at the waist. Her hair hung down her back, in deep waves, just the way I liked it.

There was a group of kids that surrounded her, as she seemed to talk animatedly with. I hung back leaning against a tree that gave me a bird's eyes view of her. I looked down at my watch to see just how much time I had before I'd need to leave, hoping I could get a minute alone with her.

I pulled my phone outta my pocket and went through the text messages from yesterday. I opened the first one from Jimmy, letting me know some ink I ordered had come in.

I rolled my eyes when I saw a message from Piper, I deleted that shit. Her big ass mouth was the reason I had to deal with this crap in the first place.

Coincidentally, I glanced up at where Bella and the kids were standing and saw this tall, goofy-looking motherfucker standing too close to Bella.

I stuffed my phone in my back pocket and started to walk towards them.

He leaned down and said something in her ear, she laughed.

I quickened my pace, with tension in my jaw, clenching my teeth.

Who the hell is this motherfucker all up on Bella, my Bella?

A shorter girl walked up, that must've been her assistant, Jodie, she's told me about. She said something to Bella, and then the kids walked away with her.

Then the big fucker motioned her to sit down on a nearby bench, and then he sat next to her, much too fuckn close to my liking.

He was smiling and so was she.

I couldn't believe this shit.

Bella never told me about him.

Since he had on the same t-shirt as Bella, I'd take a wild guess and say he worked here too.

Dammit!

I wondered how many times a day, five days a week, he'd been this close to Bella.

I had to get over there and let the jackass know who she belonged to.

By the time I'd made it across the quad, to where they sat, they were so engulfed in their conversation, they didn't know I'd walked up.

"C'mon Bella, please." He folded his hands like he was praying. "You've already turned me down once. I'll get on my knees and beg if I have to."

She chuckled. "Gray, I told you I'd think about it. Give me a chance to check with Tanya, and her boyfriend, Garrett, to see if they'll come, since I won't know anyone but you."

"Trust me Bee, you'll fit in just fine with my other friends. Plus, Teddy has been looking forward to meet—"

I'd heard enough.

It was bad enough she was sitting here with him, now he's talking about introducing her to some other dude.

Hell-motherfuckn nah!

I cleared my throat, interrupting him. "Bella."

She looked up, and the smile that was spread across her face, quickly fell. "Edward, what are you doing here?"

I didn't know who this Gray dude was, but I wanted to stake my claim, so he'd know who I was.

I gave her my side smile, she's always loved. "Baby, I thought I'd surprise you, and drop by before I went to work."

She raised one eyebrow. "Did you now?"

This Gray fucker snorted a laugh, as he looked at Bella's expression.

I winced at her response but covered it with a cough.

"Can we talk in private." I glanced at Gray. "Please."

She looked at her watch. "Three minutes, Edward."

Gray turned and looked at Bella. "Is everything okay?"

Who the fuck did he think he was, asking it everything was okay?

"Look ass—"

Bella stood up. "Gray, I'm good." She cut me off. "I'll see you in a few."

Gray squeezed her hand, before he stood up. "Yeah, I'll see you in a few minutes." He stared at me as he spoke.

Has he been sniffing around Bella this whole time, and I didn't know it?

Why was he acting so protective of her?

Before I could get a word out, Bella spoke first. "What the fuck are you doing here?"

Didn't I already go over that?

"Nope, the real question is, who the hell is that?" I pointed in the direction Gray went.

She laughed, but it had an edge to it. "Fuck you, I don't' owe an explanation."

My muscles stiffened involuntarily. "What do you mean you don't owe me an explanation?" I stepped closer and grabbed her arm. "Were you fucking him too?"

Bella's eyes bulged, showing the whites, she snatched her arm from my grasp. "I think I'd prefer to leave you wondering."

"Bella this isn't a damn joke, did you fuck him or not?" My breath quickened.

She waved her arms dramatically. "And I guess you'll never know if I slept with Grayson or not, the world would never know."

I looked away from her briefly, to gather my thoughts, to calm down.

There was no way in hell she'd fuck another dude, not Bella. I always took care of her good, really good, there's no fuckn way she'd cheat.

She's just messing with me, right?

Yeah, that's it.

"Look, Baby, I don't want to argue. I'm sorry." I grinned. "Since I gave you space, I didn't even call or text, I wanted to see if you were ready to talk."

She rolled her eyes. "Edward, it hasn't even been twenty-four hours yet."

"I know, but I figured it had been long enough." I bit my lip. "Since technology… it wasn't really sex."

Oral doesn't count as sex, at least not to me. No rubber was used, and I didn't penetrate… so… yeah, it doesn't count as sex.

Bella stared at me, hard, cold.

Her face turned red.

There was a visible vein across her forehead.

She grinded her teeth.

I'm not sure if she blinked or not.

She was quiet, unnaturally quiet.

This is new.

I think I might be scared.

Bella finally spoke. "Leave, Edward…now. And don't come back."

"Bella—"

"Go." She growled.

I drew my head back.

I stood there, wordlessly, wondering who this was that stood in front of me.

This isn't the Bella I knew, not my Bella.

Maybe I needed to give her more time, she was right, it was still too fresh.

I stared down at my feet, I didn't want to look into her piercing eyes again, where I usually found warmth, like hot chocolate on a cold winter day, but they were emotionless, distant.

"I just wanted to make it up to you. I'll—"

"You can't." She cut me off, sharply.

I lifted my head up about say something else but decided against it.

Bella walked away without another saying another word to me.

I did the only thing I could do, for the time being, at least.

I watched her walk away from me.

I half-way felt like snatching her, taking her home with me, and locking us both up until she took me back.

Like a dog with his tail tucked between his legs, I walked back to my car.

This didn't go how I had it planned out in my head.

But now since I think I may have made it worse, I'll lay low for a few more days.

Forty minutes later I'd found a parking spot in front of the shop. I grabbed my phone and wallet and walked in.

At least I had one small relief today, Piper's ass wasn't here today. I knew eventually I'd have to learn to deal with her, since we both worked here, but not today.

"Hey, Edward." Janey waved from behind the desk.

I nodded once. "Hey, Sweetie."

Janey was Jimmy's younger sister, a freshman in college. She'd work part-time and filled in whenever we needed her. She's like another little sister to me. I remember she used to always follow me and Jimmy around when we were younger.

Maybe I could talk to Jimmy about bringing Janey on full-time to get Piper the fuck outta here.

Mental note: Talk to Jimmy about firing Piper, permanently.

I passed Jimmy's room on the way to mine. "What's up dude?" He was sitting in his recliner, with the TV on.

I paused in the doorway. "Nothing much. You?"

I tried to play if off and look as normal as possible because I wasn't in the mood to rehash shit.

"Take a sit." He chuckled and pointed to the couch.

I rolled my eyes and plopped down on the couch.

He crossed his arms across his chest. "She found out, didn't she?"

I sighed heavily and nodded.

"E, I'm not gone cuddle you. You knew if you played with fire, a nasty fire at that…" He frowned. "…you would get burned. What the fuck were you think'n dude?"

"J, how the hell you gone come at me, you did the same shit as me."

Jimmy nodded. "Yeah, I did, as in past tense. That's why I'm calling you on your shit. I told you in the beginning, Bella is a good girl, and if you weren't gone be up front with her, and stop all ya bull shitting around, you needed to leave her the fuck alone."

I sat on the edge of the couch. "You have to admit, I was doing good for a while. I'd stopped messing around, but it was like Piper caught me in a weak moment."

Jimmy laughed, hard. "E, don't try to run game with somebody who played the same game. You let that hoe put yo dick in her mouth, it didn't accidently fall in there."

This is exactly why I tried to avoid his ass today.

I didn't feel like hearing this shit. Since he met his one, he's been talking to me off and on about fucking all these different females.

I decided to take the focus off me.

"Okay, so I went to Bella's job this morning to talk, and I saw her with some big motherfucker all up in her face."

Jimmy smirked but ignored that and continued. "I asked her if they were fucking, and do you know what she said?"

He sat up in the chair. "Oh, so, you can fuck around on her, but she can't."

"I didn't fuck Piper."

"I don't know, maybe she didn't fuck him either." He wriggled his eyebrows.

I stood up. "Don't go there, Jimmy!"

He'd pissed me off.

He grinned wide. "Maybe she got tired of your shit, being the good girl, and decided two can play that game."

I couldn't look at him anymore, I quickly turned away from him.

I saw different flashes of them laughing and talking this morning.

They did look comfortable with each other.

I paced back and forth.

And then Gray mentioned this Teddy guy wanted to meet her.

Wait a damn minute, has she fucked him already?

Is she planning to fuck Teddy?

Calm down, she wouldn't do that to you, she loves you too much.

I needed to get outta this room, so I could think some things through.

I looked at the clock on the wall. "Um, yeah, I need to go set up, my client will be here soon."

I had more than enough time to set up, Jimmy knew that, but I would have exploded if I stayed in here with him any longer.

Jimmy tried to swallow his laugh but failed. "You do that."

I snatched my phone and wallet off the couch and headed to my room.

After I unlocked my door, I threw myself in the chair, grabbed the remote and turned the TV on. It didn't matter what mindless show I turned to, as long as I didn't have to think about the last few minutes with Jimmy.

I leaned my head back on the back of the chair and took some calming breaths. I had to get my head in the right space before my client walked in.

Shortly after, there was a light knock at my door, even though it was open. I raised my head.

"I don't mean to disturb you, but I went and picked up some donuts from Firecakes." Janey held the box out. "Would you like some?"

I smiled. "Sure. Thanks."

I grabbed two buttermilk old fashion, my favorite.

She looked unsure… like she was having an internal debate about something.

Janey bit her lip and looked down. "Edward, I went to a party last night with a few of my friends, and Piper was there." She hesitated. "She was telling people that you all were together, together, and I know you're with Bella…so…" She trailed off.

This bitch… I've got to find a way to shut her mouth, at least until I get Bella back.

I blew out a noisy breath. "You know she's lying. Thanks for letting me know, I'll take care of it."

She shook her head. "No judgement from me, none. I like Bella and I think you all make a cute couple. I just thought you should know what Piper has put out there."

I nodded. "I appreciate you looking out for me."

"You're welcome." She smiled. "There's also some coffee made in the breakroom, if you'd like some." She turned on her heels and walked out.

I looked at the time and realized, Paul, one of my long-standing client's was due in the next twenty minutes. I went to the breakroom and poured myself some coffee to go with my donuts.

Of course, Paul, was on time, which he always was.

We had a few consultations together until he figured out what he wanted for his full sleeve tat. Paul had decided on a complex piece that would take a lot of focus, and several sessions. I tended to stick with four-to-five-hour sessions, like I did with Paul today.

I welcomed our conversations about pro and college football teams and classic cars, a much-needed distraction, that helped to relieve my tension from earlier today.

Before Paul left, I scheduled to see him in two weeks, giving him time to heal before his next session.

I knew I needed to get home and log on to my online class today since I'd blew off my classes yesterday.

I cleaned up and shut everything off but before I could leave, my phone pinged with a text message.

"Sweetheart, Dad and I miss you. Can you come over for dinner tonight?"

It's almost like she's telepathic. She always reaches out when shit went down.

"Hi Mom, I miss you guys too. Sorry, I can't make it…gotta study tonight."

Sad face. "How about this Friday night?"

I laughed, there was no way I'd turn Esme Cullen down twice, she'd show up at my apartment if I did.

"Friday night is good."

"Perfect! Everyone will be here."

Everyone as in everyone.

I guess I can deal with their bull shit for a couple of hours.

"Oh, and bring Bella, too."

Shit!

I'm sure I can have us back together by then.

"Okay, Bella and I will see you Friday night. Love you."

"Love you too, Sweetie."

I turned the lights off, locked the door and headed out.

I stopped at Jimmy's door, even though we didn't talk for the rest of the day. "I'm out, J."

He looked up from Zoey, one of his first clients, back from when we were in high school. "Alright, E, see ya tomorrow."

"Hey E." Zoey greeted me.

"Hey, Zoe."

I peeked in the room to see the progress he'd made on her leg tat, that probably need one more session, after today.

"You're getting there, huh?"

"Yeah, I think after this session, she'll only need one more." Jimmy nodded.

"Nice work, J."

Jimmy was a beast with the ink. We started out just trying some shit in high school, we practiced on each other, but when some of our friends were willing to pay us, we took it more seriously.

After we graduated from high school, Jimmy took some summer classes in business, and then presented his business plan to his parents. He didn't want to go the traditional route, by going to college, he wanted to open his own tat shop.

Between his laid-out business plan and the clientele he'd accumulated, which grew by word of mouth, in high school, his parents gave him the college fund they'd saved up since he was born, to buy his shop in the historic South Loop in Chicago, Kode of Konduct Tattoo.

He has three other artists, besides me, Bryan, Alex, and Rafael. Between all of us, our clients get traditional, black and grey, realism, colorful, new school, illustrative, and fine line tattoos.

Jimmy not only has a sharp mind for business, he's honest, especially with his friends. We've always told each other the truth, no matter what. But we've never held anything against each other either. We say what needs to be said and move the fuck on, minus the drama.

He put his fist out for me to pound. "Thanks, dude."

I met his fist and pounded. "See ya."

I walked out of Jimmy's room and waved at the other artists on the way out.

I had class on campus tomorrow morning, so I'd planned to chill for the rest of the evening.

There was nothing at home for me to eat so I stopped on the way to pick up a cheeseburger and fries, at Billy Goat Tavern. The owners, Phillip and Vivian, and even some of the other staff knew me well since I ate there at least once a week.

When I walked in, Vivian greeted me at the register. "Hi Edward." She smiled. "The usual?"

"Hi Viv. Yes, please." I smiled.

"Alright, coming right up." She rung up my order, I paid her and sat at the bar and watched the game.

Not even ten minutes later, someone cleared their throat and poked me in the back.

I hoped like hell I was wrong, but as soon as I turned around, I hated myself for being right.

I stared at her, unblinking.

"I've called and texted you several times, but you haven't called me back. Why?" Piper gave an expected look.

I turned back around, ignoring her.

What I really wanted to do to her, I couldn't.

I don't put my hands on them, to cause harm.

"Edward?"

I started watching the game again.

She exhaled deeply and then slammed down in the stool next to me. "I won't be ignored."

So, you think.

"Hi." One of the other staff members, Stacy, approached Piper. Would you like to place an order, or did you call it in?"

Piper cleared her throat. "I would like to place an order."

"Great. What would you like?"

"Gimme the Curse Breaker and a side of fries, please."

It figures she'd order that. She's a damn curse.

I chuckled.

Both they're heads snapped in my direction, briefly.

"Um, that'll be eleven-seventy-nine." Stacy her turned attention back to Piper.

Piper paid for her food and Stacy walked away.

"Edward, stop this." She laid her hand on my arm, but I moved it. "Are you mad because you heard something?"

"Look, I only told a few people last night. I figured it'd only be a matter of time before everyone knew about us being together anyway. What's the harm? Plus, I heard you tell Jimmy you were gonna tell Bella anyway. So, you told her… about us?"

That confirmed what Janey told me earlier today, not that I thought she'd lie.

Another note to self: She's a sneaky eavesdropping cunt.

"Eddie, don't you see how good we could be together, as a couple. My lease is almost up, so I could just move in with you, wherever you live since you've never invited me over…"

She paused. I didn't even bother to look to see why.

That's right, only cheap motels, walls in a club and allies is all she got. She'd never know where I lived.

She continued with her fantasy. "We could finally make it official, ya know. Then after we graduate college or maybe in our senior year, we could get married." She sighed. "I'd want a big wedding, so we gotta start saving or maybe your parents can pay for it. I think they're living pretty comfortable." She squealed. "Then eventually, we'd buy a house so we could have kids together. But I'd want to wait a few years for kids, so I could have you to myself for a while."

This hoe is fuckn delusional.

I mean crazy, out there… gone.

She moved closer to me, too close. "Baby, I love you and I know you love me too, well in time you will.

I got up from the stool and stood closer to the door.

Piper clicked her lips and started to slide off the stool.

I heard fast flip-flops approaching.

Thank god or whoever is out there.

I stepped up to the bar again. "I'm so sorry, Edward. Your order took longer than usual because we're kinda backed up." Vivian looked down in the brown paper bag to double check my order. "Everything's in there." She giggled. "I added an extra fry for your wait, Sweetie."

I smiled genuinely at her. "No, worries, thank you. I'll see you next week. Tell Phillip I said hello."

"Will do." She nodded.

"Edward?" Piper called.

I didn't respond, I continued towards the door.

"Piper, your order will be ready in a few minutes." Vivian said as I walked out the door.

I exhaled when I got in my car.

I thought she'd never shut the hell up.

She kept going… and going.

Like the fuckn energizer bunny.

Today had been a long, very long day and I couldn't wait to get home.

Eventually, I sat in front of my computer, logged on for my Sociology class, with my food on the side of me, as ESPN played in the background.

It took me longer than usual to get focused, but I was determined not to fuck up my grades. I'd just submitted my assignment online, when there was a light knock on my door.

I closed my laptop, turned the TV down and looked out of the peephole.

What the hell?

I opened the door and found two people I would've least expected to be at my apartment.

"Hello, Edward." Tanya smirked. "Didn't expect to see me so soon did ya."

"Tanya." I rolled my eyes.

"What's up Edward." Garrett repositioned a box he was holding. "Sorry for dropping by unannounced, but Tanya wanted to drop this off on our way home."

I tugged on my ear. "Drop what off?"

My mind raced, wondering what the hell would they need to give to me.

"The shi—" Garrett bumped Tanya's shoulder. "I mean the stuff you gave Bee."

I opened and closed my mouth a few times, but nothing came out, as I stared at the box.

"Edward." Tanya snapped her fingers in my face. "Do you want this shit or not? C'mon we don't have all night."

It was hard for me to imagine Bella, my Bella threw things I'd given her into a damn box.

"So, she just threw everything in a box?"

"Of course, I helped her." Her smile was cocky.

"I'm sure you did." I said with a clipped tone.

She pointed her finger at me.

Look, I did you a favor by bringing this crap over here in the first place. You think I wanted to see yo ugly mug?" She sucked her teeth. "Boy please. I could've thrown it in all in the garbage, and Bee wouldn't give a shit."

"I doubt that, this has your name written all over it.

I was trying not to disrespect Tanya in front of Garrett, he's cool, I don't have no beef with him. It's Tanya's ass I can't stand. I don't know what he sees in her.

"You need to face it, asshole—"

"Tanya, stop!" Garrett interrupted.

"What?" She groaned.

"Just stop. We came to bring him the box, we've done that." He stepped forward and handed me the box. "Don't make it worse than it already is, Tan, leave it alone."

She rolled her eyes. "Yeah, okay."

"C'mon Tanya." Garrett wrapped his arm around Tanya's waist. "Take care, Edward." He waved as he pulled Tanya down the hallway.

"Yeah, thanks." I responded lowly.

I closed the door with my foot and slumped against it. I took shallow breaths trying to process what had just happened. I dropped the box on the floor, and kneaded my chest hoping it helped to ease the pain.

I was having a hard time wrapping my mind around, things I'd given Bella were in a box.

Could Tanya be right, do I need to face it?

Nah, E, you can't go off on her, remember the source… she hates your guts.

I don't know how many minutes passed before I got the balls to look in the box. The chunky blue blanket, Bella's favorite, we used to snuggle under, when we watched movies, sat on top. I didn't have it in me to look further to see what else was in there.

I immediately grabbed it and wrapped it around myself, sniffing it. I wanted to see if it still smelled like her. Once I inhaled it, my mind was flooded with memories of us with the blanket.

I knew it had only been twenty-four hours, and I saw her earlier, but I still missed her.

I was mentally and physically exhausted. I couldn't take another phone call, text message or visitor. I threw away my half-eaten food, what appetite I had was gone, turned off all the lights, and headed to my bedroom.

I stared down at my empty bed and wished like hell I was wrapping the blanket around the both of us right now.

Bella was the only woman that has ever been in my apartment, in my bed.

I glanced at the clock on the nightstand and saw it was a little after ten o'clock. I stripped down to my boxer and threw my dirty clothes in the hamper. I turned the TV on because I can't go to sleep without it on, rewrapped myself back in the blanket, and laid down.

I watched a few minutes of High Life before I eventually drifted off into a dreamful sleep.

I picked the perfect weekend to surprise Bella and bring her to my parent's beach house in Lake Geneva, Wisconsin.

The only thing she knew was to pack some clothes and to make sure her schedule was free for the next two days. Although she begged me for two weeks to tell her where we were going, I never craved.

We left Saturday, late morning and arrived mid-afternoon, in Wisconsin.

Bella gasped as soon as I turned into the gated community. "Edward, this is so beautiful."

I was more than happy to share this with her. "I'm glad you like it." I smiled at her.

After I gave her a tour of the house, and she looked at all the family pictures my mother had throughout the house, we freshened up and left to begin the day of what I had planned for us.

We went to the Tristan Crist Magic Theatre for a magic and comedy show, a few museums, and then a little bit of shopping, downtown.

I wanted to share places I liked to go when my family and I were here on vacation. Bella was special to me, I think even more than I initially realized, and I wanted to share a part of myself I've never shown anyone, outside of my family.

We ended our evening out at, Oakfire, a cozy restaurant with a lakeview. We shared Calamari for an appetizer, Bella had Chicken Parm and I had the Sausage Vodka, which neither one of us finished.

The cleaning service my parents used for years, to keep the house up, during the times we weren't there, I'd asked them to set up tea candles and flowers everywhere inside, and candles outside around the cabana bed, while Bella and I were out for the day.

Chocolate mousse was one of her favorites, so I had that set out with red wine, next to the cabana.

Once we arrived back to the beach house, I unlocked the door, and Bella walked in first.

Her fingers touched her parted lips. "Edward, this is—how, when did you do this?"

I walked up behind and placed my hand on her waist. "You like it?"

She spun around and faced me. "I love it."

I released a breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I'm glad you like it."

Yes! I inwardly pumped my fist.

I gave her a chased kiss on her lips and grabbed her hand. "Come on, there's more."

We continued through the house, out the back doors, to the private beach, hand in hand.

Bella took a few steps back. When she turned and looked at me with welled up tears in her eyes. "Everything has been so beautiful, Edward. Thank you for making it special for me." She stood on her tiptoes, put her hands on the nape of my neck, and pulled me down until our lips met, in a soft kiss.

After a few minutes I pulled away from our kiss because I had something I needed to say. "Because you are special, Bella, to me, and don't you ever forget that. I love doing things like this for you, I love you, baby." I looked intently in her eyes, so she knew I meant every word I said.

About a month ago some rumors got back to Bella that some of my previous… conquests had put out once they saw how serious I was with Bella. I stopped at nothing to prove to her that I was all in, with her, us.

She ran her fingers through my hair. "I love you too… so much."

I crashed my lips into her, picked her up, I needed to, had to be closer to her. She wrapped her legs around my waist, as our lips slowly moved in sync. The kiss started out slow, but eventually graduated to an intensity that felt like our bodies melted into each other's.

Bella pulled away slightly. "Edward, I want you, now."

I searched her eyes, there was no doubt there. I only saw assurance, confidence.

"Are you sure you're ready?"

She shook her head. "Yes, I want this."

This was my first real relationship, the first woman I loved, outside of my family, and the first female that made me wait. I willingly waited, refused to push or rush her into bed. I knew from the first time I'd met her; she was different, she was worth the wait.

But tonight, she wanted to give herself to me.

That within itself meant the world to me.

She wanted me to be her first and hopefully her only.

My pulse raced, as my heart hammered against my chest.

Bella gently stroked her cheek against mine. I closed my eyes and inhaled the lavender shampoo her hair always smelled like.

With her legs still wrapped around me, I walked over to the bed and sat down with her in my lap.

I ran my hands down her back. "I want this too, Love. But I'm not rushing you. I'll wait as long as you need me to."

She laid her forehead against mine. "I don't want to wait any longer, this feels right, you feel right. Make love to me, Edward, here, tonight."

Without another word between us, Bella pulled at the hem of my t-shirt, pulling it over my head, after I raised my arms.

Her petite hands rubbed across my chest.

I closed my eyes and savored her touch.

She tilted my head back, nipped and sucked along my neck, as she softly rubbed my arm with her other hand.

A soft moaned escaped from my mouth.

With her warm breath and tender kisses along my neck, my hands ached for the need to touch her, explore.

I slid my hands underneath her tank top and cupped her breast in each hand. I tweaked her nipples through her bra.

"Edward." Her back arched, exposing her neck to me, as she threw her head back.

I trailed down with opened mouth kisses along her neck and shoulders.

She rolled her hips against my throbbing dick.

"Bella." I softly sighed, against her neck.

She pulled me by the nape of my hair to her lips, ran her tongue across my bottom lip.

I parted my lips, giving her access. Our tongues gently stroked into a dancing rhythm.

Warmth infused my body.

I pulled at her tank top from the back, slowly, until she released our kiss and raised her arms so I could completely remove it.

There was nothing, no one, more bewitching than Bella, to me. From the moment I saw her, she enthralled me, and now to see vulnerability in her eyes, that I couldn't resist, my eyes traveled from her face to her collar bone, delicate in the candles, down to her sweetly curved mounds, waiting to be exposed, fondled and teased.

I ran my hands across Bella's stomach, then up her back and unhooked her black lace bra.

Her pink-tipped, firm breast burst free, and I captured one of her aroused peaks into my mouth, while I kneaded the other one with my hand.

Bella threw her head back. "Oh, god, Edward, yes."

She gripped my hair and pulled it, hard.

I continued to circle her hard nipple with my tongue.

"More, I need more." Bella said as she grinded against me.

I fumbled with the button on her shorts, with my free hand, but she took matter into her own hands, unbuttoning her shorts herself.

She ran her hands up my arms to my shoulders and squeezed.

I released her tit, understanding the teasing was over, she wanted more.

Bella looked deep into my eyes, while she unbuttoned my jeans.

She slid off of my lap and stood in between my legs, toeing out of her sandals, and completely sliding out of her shorts.

The moon, a glowing yellowish white, loomed large, in the clear picturesque sky, countless stars spread across it. The gentle sound of the waves hitting the beach almost sounded like a lullaby, beautiful, captivating, but it still couldn't compare to the work of art, painstakingly drawn with passion and tears, Bella, that stood in front of me.

I was mesmerized. I couldn't look at away. I was drawn to her like bees to honey. She excited and calmed me all at once. She had become my new addiction, my drug, without me ever knowing it. Her touch, voice, presence, they intoxicated me. I wanted nothing more than to claim her, mark her as mine, only mine.

I stood up, kicked my shoes off, unzipped my pants, and slid my pants down to the sand, standing in only my boxers.

Bella studied me from head to toe, biting her bottom lip.

"Like what you see?" I smirked.

She nodded as a slow smile spread across her face.

Almost instinctively our bodies were drawn to each like magnets, we reached for each other simultaneously.

I spun her around, lightly pushed her back with my body, as she fell on the bed. She scooted to the top of the bed, while I removed my boxers, and quickly grabbed a foil pack from my wallet in my jeans.

My dick finally felt free from all its constraints.

Bella's eyes widened, and I smiled.

Bella laid back with her legs slightly open.

I crawled on the bed towards Bella.

I didn't take her panties off yet. Instead, I kissed her through her panties, and squeezed her slits lightly with my lips.

Then I softly ran my tongue over her folds from the bottom to her clit.

Bella's breaths were heavy with soft whimpers.

I moved slightly lower and kissed along her inner thigh, slowly moving down to the inside of her knee, switching to the other leg doing the same thing.

"Edward, please." She begged.

I had set a slow pace to build up the anticipation. I wanted to take my time and worship every part of her body all night, if she'd let me.

I placed my fingers on both sides of her hips and slowly pulled her panties down, discarding them.

"I can't wait to taste you."

I gradually kissed and licked her pussy and clit, using the edge of my lips making little contact, constantly teasing her.

"Fuck!" She raised her hips off the bed.

I tightened my hands around her thighs to hold her down so I could take her over the edge.

"I'm going to make you come so hard, Bella."

I flattened my tongue and moved my head up and down, in a steady rhythm.

She squeezed my head between her legs. "Aaaaahhhhhh."

I pulled her legs apart just enough to continue and inserted a finger inside of her to bring her to her orgasm.

As much as I enjoyed pleasuring her with my tongue, I had to be inside of her. I couldn't wait any longer.

Bella gripped my hair. "Oh, Ed-ward, I'm gon-na…" Her body shook, as if electric shocks shot through.

Before she came completely down, I kissed up her body, while my hands explored.

Her eyes were hooded. "I can't get enough of you touching me."

"Baby, I love how responsive your body is to me, as if you were made just for me."

"I need you inside of me, please Edward."

I had never wanted anyone as much I wanted her. Ever. With the others it was always just a release, but with Bella it was much more. I wanted to change for her, be better.

I grabbed the foiled pack off the bed and tore it open with my teeth. After I adjusted the condom on myself, I lined myself up at Bella's entrance.

I looked at her one last time to make sure she was still okay; she smiled and squeezed my arm.

I held myself up by my arms, keeping my weight off of her. I slowly pushed inside of her, without completely pushing all the way in, giving her time to adjust to me.

She grasped.

I was nervous, not sure if I'd hurt her. "Are you okay, Baby?"

She nodded quickly, but she wasn't breathing.

"Breath for me, Bella." She released the breath she was holding, and I leaned down and kissed her lips.

My arms trembled.

She closed her eyes and exhaled. "Okay, I'm ready."

Once I had completely pushed inside of her, she felt warm, tight, as if she gripped my shaft like a glove. Being inside of her made everything fall to the wayside, I was present in the moment, it was just her and I. No one or nothing else mattered outside of this moment. I was filled with desire, gratitude, and longing, while I was enveloped in her warm, soft, loving embrace.

I was so lost in the sensation of penetration, Bella rolled her hips against mine, encouraging me to move. "C'mon, Baby." She cupped my face.

I pulled completely out and swung my pelvis against her.

"Just like that." Bella moaned.

I sped up my pace and wrapped one of her legs around my waist for a deeper thrust.

"Oh, god, Edward."

"You feel so fuckn good, Baby."

Bella rocked her hips, meeting my every thrust.

"You're gonna make me cum. Uuuuuhhhh."

"That's right, Bella. I want every last drop."

Our bodies were so close it seemed like we devoured each other, rocking together, skin to skin. Our hands everywhere. Hot slow kisses, our lips sampled each other's necks, her glistening nipples, gently rubbing against my chest, made me even harder.

"Edward, I love the way you fill me up."

I felt the knowing build up in my stomach, what felt like a surge jolted through my body, I knew I was moments away from my release.

"I want to make you cum." I stared in her eyes.

"Ed-Ed-ward, I-I'm cum…" She trailed off, as her mouth opened, and her body rocked.

My climax was right behind hers. I felt a warm sensation in my balls, so I lost all rhythm and plowed into her harder, until my legs went numb and I spilled inside of her. "Bel-la, Bella, Bella." I chanted.

As we both caught our breath, I looked down at her, as I bathed in the warmth of her buttered chocolate eyes, with darker rays fanning out around the bottomless pit of her irises, and small splashes of amber easily missed if you didn't look close enough. Her thick, dark-brown hair splayed across the white pillows, us staring into each other's eyes, as it felt as if our souls became one.

I pulled out of her, rolled on my side, bringing her with me, so we were face to face, and discarded the condom in the wastebasket next to the bed.

I covered us with the white linen sheet. "I love you, Beautiful." I leaned in and softly kissed her forehead. "That was…" I was at a loss of words, it was indescribable.

Bella smiled. "I love you too." Her smile turned into a sneer. "But it won't happen again, Edward because you cheated."

I jerked up, still wrapped in the blanket, with soaked hair and drops of sweat ran down my face.

"Shit." I ran my hand through my hair.

I looked at the clock since the sun had not come up yet. It was four-twenty-seven in the morning, and I didn't have to be up for another three and half hours.

I needed to go back to sleep, but after a dream like that, there was no way I could go back to sleep.

I wasn't ready to get up yet, so I took the time to think, try and come up with an idea.

I had to be honest with myself, things had spiraled out of control so damn fast, I was coming up empty. I had no elaborate plan, no comforting words… nothing.

I didn't have a fuckn clue.

But no matter what, if I had to get used to being on my knees every day, I would, losing Bella was not an option.

A/N: Sorry for the delay with this chapter. I was sick, along with my family… but we're all good now. Also, I didn't like some things I'd originally wrote, so I changed it.

So, now that you have a bit more info about Edward, what are your thoughts towards him? Are they still the same? Did they change? Why or why not. What do you think about the weekend he planned for him and Bella?

How about that Piper?

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