September 2019.
"I've loved you since the moment I saw you in that arena in Detroit. I didn't expect to fall in love again. But that moment I saw you there was something about you. I fell in love with you Karen. You changed my life for the better. You opened my heart again." Shane said.
Karen agreed to couples therapy. They have been going weekly for the last several weeks. Shane's travel schedule was getting lighter and they were spending more time together as a couple and more importantly with the boys as family.
"Shane you know I love you with all my heart. You were the one that I gave myself too. Shane you helped me realize I was good enough for love and all these amazing things in life. I chose to marry you because I gave you my heart." Karen told him.
"Then why did you sleep with Jon?" Shane blurted out.
"Shane take a deep breathe." Dr. Patterson said. Shane did as he asked and took a deep breathe in and out. "Karen is there a why? I think Shane needs to hear that. I know you've told him you are sorry and you both are making progress but I think he still needs to hear it so he can finally try and forgive."
Karen bit her lip as she looked at Shane. She placed her hand on her belly and took a deep breathe in and out before she started to answer the question.
"I wish I could give you a good answer to the why Shane. But I don't have one. I wish I knew why I did it. I wish I could say that it was because I was to drunk to know any better. But I did I knew it was wrong but it felt so right. I know that is cliche and not what you want to hear at all. I am not saying it to hurt you Shane. I have to be honest with you and myself. He's just Moxley." Karen explained as she had tears in her eyes.
"Do you love him?" Shane asked looking at his pregnant wife.
"Shane please." She said softly.
"Damn it Karen." Shane said shaking his head. "You do love him." He said rolling his yes.
"Shane remember no judgment here. You both agreed that honesty was the only way you would be able to make this marriage work. Karen do you having feelings for Jon?" Dr. Patterson reminded them as he jotted down some notes.
Karen just nodded yes. Shane let out a low growl.
"I'm sorry." Karen sniffled.
"Karen remember you don't need to keep saying you are sorry. Feelings for people happen all the time. Married or not you can't control your feelings for someone. What matters is how you handle them and what happens with you and Shane moving forward. Remember Shane what happened in the past is just that in the past. You both agreed to try and work on your married that means both of you need to work on moving forward." Dr. Patterson explained to the couple sitting before him.
"So you love him?" Shane asked looking at his wife.
"I love and care about him because he's my friend. But you Shane are my husband. I gave you my heart and I married you because I love you. I know what I did was horrible and there is no excuse for it. But I love you and I don't want to lose you." Karen told him.
"I love you too Karen. But this isn't easy for me. To know that Jon Moxley of all people slept with my wife." Shane stated an angry tone in his voice.
"I know Shane. I can't say I am sorry enough. I know I hurt you. I know I broke your trust and hurt our marriage. I never meant for that to happen."
"I know Karen. I trusted you. That's what hurts the most. I trusted you to go on a trip with friends. I am not stupid I knew you would see Jon. He is a friend and he was an employee of WWE. I thought I could trust him too. But clearly I couldn't. That's what pissed me off the most. Is that he slept with my wife knowing full well that we are married. He didn't seem to care at all. Apparently you didn't either." Shane told her.
"Shane I know. I broke our marriage vows and I am trying everything I can to make this right between us." Karen said.
"Everything but the one major thing I asked of you." Shane shot back.
"What was that Shane?" Dr. Patterson asked. "What is the one things she isn't doing that you asked?"
"Not having contact with Jon Moxley. I asked her not to see him anymore." Shane stated.
"I haven't seen him Shane. He had surgery a few weeks ago and asked me to come to Vegas. I told him I couldn't." Karen told him.
"Don't be a smart ass Karen. You still talk to him. He texts and calls you daily. So to me it's like you are still cheating on me."
"Shane I only slept with Jon once and I regret it."
"I know you do. But when you talk to him or text him and not talk to me. It hurts just the same. I need you to be my wife not his best friend." Shane told his wife.
"Karen can you do that? Can you cut Jon Moxley out of your life?" Dr. Patterson asked.
"You want be to be totally honest here?" Karen asked him.
"Yes." Dr. Patterson said.
"I don't know. I love you Shane you are my husband and you have my heart. But Jon is my friend cutting him out of my life just doesn't seem fair." She said softly.
"Fair? Really Karen fair? You slept with him. You slept with him and now I am not even sure that the baby you are caring is mine. That's what's not fair." Shane snapped.
"Shane I know that. I am sorry. This isn't easy for me either. You think I like this? You think I like myself for what I did to you and our family? This is suppose to be one of the happiest times in our life and I turned in into a nightmare. We've been trying so long to have a baby but you were resistant. It wasn't easy for me when you told me that you didn't want to get checked out. After my body was poked and prodded. We tried the infertility drugs and I had a bad reaction. All I ever wanted was to be a mom. When you told me that you knew it wasn't you and we had that bad fight. I just needed a break I needed a get away. So me and a couple friends went to Vegas. I never intended to sleep with Jon that just happened. I am not trying to make excuses but it's just what happened. I drank to much went to his house and I let the physical attraction to him get the best of me. It wasn't my best moment. I didn't think to ask him to use anything and we know I wasn't on anything because we were trying so hard to get pregnant. Shane I realize this isn't easy for you and I also realize that it's all my fault." Karen told him.
"Karen what I can't understand is this need to be a mom. You are a mom to three boys. How was that not enough for you?" Shane asked her.
"Shane you know damn well I love our three boys with all my heart. I love being their mom. But I just wanted to experience having my own child. When we got pregnant in 2017 we were so happy. I know I failed my body failed us. I lost our little peanut. You stood by me and we grieved together. It took so long for me to get pregnant again. I don't know why I am sorry I thought it was you. But after getting tested and trying the infertility treatments. I was losing faith in myself. It was more mental for me. I didn't understand why it was taking so long. When I would try and talk to you about it you kept telling me it would happen when it happened. I know you were trying to be supportive but it didn't help me mentally. I should have been honest with you then. But it was just hard because I felt you pulling away from me." Karen told him being open and honest with her feelings.
"Karen I wasn't trying to pull away from you. I just couldn't understand why getting pregnant was so important to you. I felt you pulling away from me. I tried to understand but you wouldn't talk to me about it."
"Talk you? I tried Shane. I told you how much I wanted to share this experience with you. I even told you that before we got married. I told you being a mom was something that I wanted. I love the boys but I wanted to experience this with my husband if we were blessed. I just couldn't understand why you shut me out? Why you didn't want to get tested." Karen said.
The room went silent for a few moments.
"Shane can you answer her?" Dr. Patterson asked him.
"I didn't want to admit my age alright? I know I am getting older now. I didn't want to admit that maybe I was the problem and I couldn't give my wife the one thing she wanted. Something that I wasn't sure money could buy us. I didn't want to let her down. Even more than that thou I wasn't sure I even wanted another baby." Shane said.
"What?" Karen asked looking him.
"Shane? Can you explain?" Dr. Patterson asked jotting down more notes then looking at the time.
"Honest is what you want fine. I am 49 years old with three boys. Two of whom are teenagers and Rogan is 9 years old. I wasn't sure I wanted to start all over again. When we got pregnant back in 2017 I was unsure but a little more excited at the idea of having a baby. But then when we lost our baby. I grieved our loss but then apart of me thought maybe this was for the best that I wasn't meant to father more children at my age." Shane said.
"Why didn't you just tell me that?" Karen asked him.
"How was I suppose to tell you that? I know you are still young and wanted to have a baby. I didn't want to break your heart and tell you that I was just done having kids. The idea of having more kids never crossed my mind before I met you. Marissa and I were done we had our three boys. But then I met you and we go married. Life was renewed again."
"Before we end our session today Shane I need you to be honest how do you feel about this new baby?" Dr. Patterson asked.
"When she told me she was finally pregnant again that anxiety came back. I wasn't sure I could do this start over with a baby. I was excited don't get me wrong but that fear was there. That all changed when I heard our daughter's heart beat for the first time it all melted away. It didn't matter any more. I knew I could do it because I had the most amazing wife who I loved with all my heart. We were finally going to have our healthy baby." Shane said.
Karen sat there in tears hearing her husbands words.
"I had no idea you felt that way at all Shane. I wish you would have just told me. We agreed to be honest from the start." Karen said as Dr. Patterson handed her a tissue.
"I was honest with everything but my fear. I am a McMahon we don't show weakness. I was being weak. But hearing our daughter's heart beat and seeing her on that screen I knew that none of that matter that I was going to be a father again. I want to be a father again. I love you Karen you are my wife and I want us to be happy again to raise our family together."
"I love you too Shane." She told him as he leaned over and kissed her lips softly.
Several Days Later:
"Shane no matter what this test says know that I love you." Karen said sitting in the Doctor's office holding his hand.
"I love you too. But I am worried about you Karen your BP was really high today." Shane said kissing her hand.
"I know I am going to do everything Dr. Jones says. I have to for this little lady." Karen said patting her 31 week baby belly. Shane placed his hand on top of her as well.
Dr. Jones came back into her office.
"I am so sorry for the delay on these test results." Dr. Jones said opening the envelop.
"It's alright. Thank you for getting it done so quietly and discretely." Shane stated.
As Dr. Jones read over the test results.
"Based on the test results and analysis provided Shane McMahon you are this baby's biological father." Dr. Jones stated.
"Hell yes!" Shane blurted out with relief. He pulled Karen into a kiss and put his hand on her belly. "I love you Karen! I love you Gracie McMahon."
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