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I am sending a huge THANK YOU out to my Beta and pre-reader for getting this back to me so quickly! Also, thank you for your encouraging words with this chapter.
I made a few changes after my beta sent it back to me. All mistakes are mine.
Previously from Chapter 18
"I know it may seem too fast for you and if you don't feel the same about me yet, that's okay. Bee, I've always been honest with you so I'm going to be honest with you now. I was in love with you while you were still with Edward." My mouth fell open. "Yeah, I know that's not one of my best moments, but I was willing to bite the bullet and keep it to myself just so I could keep you in my life, however I could." He used the pad of his thumb to wipe away some of my tears. "Baby, I love you so fucking much—so-called issues and all. You're my forever."
A smile spread across my face that couldn't be contained, as happy tears continued to roll down my face. His words let me know all the dreams—day and night—I had about us weren't crazy. He wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him.
He was in love with me just like I was in love with him.
Chapter 20: Slow Wine
Bella
"Can I share something with you too?" I asked as I cupped his face.
"Anything," Grayson whispered.
He had already proven to me I could share everything with him.
"I've been—" I swallowed the lump in my throat.
"Take you time, sweetheart." He gently ran his fingers through my hair.
I thought about how vulnerable he'd been with me and decided I would do the same. The walls that I'd carefully built around my heart were gone. I'd let my guard down and hadn't realized it because our relationship flowed so naturally.
"I love you too, Gray." His eyes twinkled as his mouth curved into a smile. "I'll admit it scared me at first. I thought I was moving too fast." I paused and shook that thought away. "I wanted to make sure I hadn't made you the rebound guy. You know my knight in shining armor that swooped in and saved the damsel in distress."
"Bee." He shook his head, cutting me off. "You've never made me feel like the rebound guy, and you're far from being a damsel in distress."
"I had to be sure. You know that saying, hurt people hurt people?" He nodded. "I didn't want to do that to be you and me. You're far too important to me. As much as it would've hurt me, I'd rather broken it off with you than take you down a road of pain because I wasn't sure about me—about us."
Sadness clouded his features. "You know I'll do anything for you, Bella, but breaking up…" His words faded.
It bothered me that my words put that expression on his face. "Gray, honey, that's exactly why I waited. I wanted to make sure my intentions toward you were for the right reasons—were for love."
I was far from perfect, but I wouldn't set out to intentionally hurt another person.
His brows knitted in a frown. "I understand what you're saying but that's not you—that's not in you to do." He placed his hand over my heart.
"That's true, but what if I was unaware of what I was doing or maybe even sabotaging out of fear of what happened in my previous relationship?" I nervously moistened my lips. "I know it may seem a bit extreme, but I've asked myself hard questions like this." I rolled my eyes and laughed without humor. "If I'd done this before—"
Grayson placed his index finger over my mouth. "Shhhh." He removed his finger and softly kissed my lips. "That's the past. It's over and done with. We won't let it or him affect us tonight or ever. Listen, we've both made some mistakes, but you've already proven you've learned from them based upon what you just said." His warm smile reached his eyes.
He was right. Once I got past the emotion of it all and decided to stop beating myself up for allowing things to go as far as they did, I was able to see everything clearer. Yes, I had made some bad choices, but I wasn't about to own everything.
"Gray, how is it you always seem to know exactly what to say?" I ran my fingers through his thick locks.
"It's the truth." His eyes were bright and glossy, as he reached for my hand and softly kissed the inside of my palm.
I released an appreciative sigh, as I skimmed along his jawline with my fingertips.
We lay there in silence, but it wasn't awkward. It was comfortable—intimate. At that moment, no other words needed to be shared. I had seen it in his eyes and his touch, as he continued to caress my face.
The more Grayson touched me, the more my body ached—needed him to explore other areas.
"Gray," I said breathlessly.
Our eyes briefly locked before he leaned in closer lightly nibbling my bottom lip.
I'd become hypersensitive of the musk scent he wore, as my own body grew feverish. I briefly closed my eyes and savored the moment while I yearned to be even closer to him.
Just as my longing became unbearable, Grayson delicately ran his tongue across my lips. Almost on instinct my mouth parted welcoming him.
The warmth of his tongue sent a current through my body. I threw my arms around his neck as I lost myself in his peppermint breath and soft lips.
I moved closer to him to erase even the slightest distance between us. This wasn't enough; I felt like even if I crawled inside of him that still would not have been close enough.
I'd never felt like this before.
Desperate with need.
I had never wanted anyone as much as I wanted Grayson.
Our breathing grew faster—louder—as our hands began to fondle.
He rubbed my back until his hands traveled down to and settled on my behind kneading it, as I grounded my body against his, needing that friction.
I softly groaned, feeling the bulge in his pants, as we finally released from our kiss, needing air. When I looked into his eyes that were usually hazel, they were few shades darker, filled with sheer want.
My sex throbbed at his intense stare.
I craved for his hands—all of him—to be all over me.
"Make love to me," I murmured.
This was new—different for me. I was initiating sex unlike with Edward where he always took the lead, but I wasn't the same person anymore. I knew exactly who I wanted, and it was Grayson—only him.
His hands froze, and he fixed his gaze on me. "Are you sure?"
I wasn't surprised in the least bit by his response. He said from the beginning that he would follow my lead.
"Yes." I smiled. "I love you so much, Gray, and I know I'm—we're—ready."
A slow grin spread across his face as he leaned in and kissed my lips softly. "You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, baby and I plan to show you that for the rest of my life."
Goosebumps slid along the back of my neck when I looked in his eyes and saw nothing but truth and admiration.
"Show me, now." I smirked.
He bit his bottom lip and quickly turned me on my back as he hovered over me. "I believe showing you all night would be a good start." He slowly kissed my collarbone and moved his way down my arm while he massaged my right breast.
"Yes," I whispered.
His lips were warm—tender—against my skin, all while being tortuous at the same time.
He made his way back up, gently licking and biting my neck and shoulder, leaving moist prints and trails.
I tipped my head back exposing my neck to him and he faintly stroked it with feather-light kisses.
My body shivered.
My thong was soaked.
I couldn't take it anymore. I had to feel his skin next to mine.
I slightly raised up, and my hands fumbled with the small buttons on his shirt, trembling with urgency. Grayson realized what I was doing and leaned back on his knees and brought the shirt over his head and threw it on the floor.
I knew he was built when we used to go swimming during camp, but he was definitely a sight to see. He had all the female counselors gawking every time he didn't have a shirt on.
His chest was broad, smooth, and sculpted just like his arms. His fair skin looked like the silk of white rose petals, just waiting to be touched.
Before I knew it, I'd run my fingers across his chest as I stared into his eyes.
He grabbed my hand and kissed the inside of my palm with the same firm stare.
My pulse raced.
I broke our connection when my eyes skimmed his body and settled on what seemed to be the large swelling in his pants.
I imagined what it looked like—what it would feel like inside of me.
I gaped a little longer than I thought. He chuckled. "Do you see something you like?"
I licked my lips before I met his gaze with hooded eyes. "Yes."
The moment had been delayed long enough. My cute little black dress had become an annoyance. I scooted off the bed without another word and unzipped it from the back as far as I could.
I looked over my shoulder and found Grayson watching me. "Will you finish it for me?" I smiled.
He scrambled off the bed and stood behind me kissing the exposed skin on my back, while he unzipped my dress the rest of the way.
I turned around to face him as I stepped out of my dress.
His eyes raked over my body as he took in my black lace strapless bra and panties.
"Bella," he softly sighed. He closed the small distance between us and cradled my head while he kissed me.
I wrapped my hands around his waist and made my way to his belt, unlatched it, followed by his buttoned pants and zipper. I eased my hands into the inside of his jeans and pushed them down.
Grayson pulled back from our kiss and came completely out of his pants and socks.
His black Calvin Klein boxer briefs could not contain his cock because I saw the tip of it sticking out the top.
My eyes grew wide and my heart pounded louder than a sledgehammer as I wondered if it would fit.
He must have sensed my hesitation because he leaned down next to my ear. "We'll go slow." He smirked.
I rolled my eyes, knowing that inflated his ego even more. "I don't know what I'm going to do with you, Gray." I chuckled and shook my head.
He picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he held me up by my bottom. "I can think of a few things." He wriggled his eyebrows and walked us to the bed.
He set me down and I crawled to the middle of the bed. When I turned around and looked at him all playfulness was gone, and he had a predatory expression on his face.
My breath stilled as he made his way to me, pushing my legs apart with his knee and kissed his way from my inner thighs to my lace-covered breast.
His slow caress rendered me helpless, as the soft covers under my back encircled me with warmth.
I tangled my fingers through his lush brown hair as I panted and whimpered.
My body felt weightless as he touched and held me like I was the most precious thing in the world to him.
He tweaked my right nipple as he kissed my left shoulder, working my bra downward, while the dim lighting in the room reflected off of his serene expression.
It had been months since I'd been touched like this—no, correction—I'd never been touched like this before. The touch of his hands on my bare skin set another burst of heat straight to my core. Grayson had woken up something in me that I didn't know was there.
I sat up just enough for him to unfasten my bra and immediately he wrapped his lips around my hardened nipples as his other hand hooked the inside of my thong, working it down. I lifted my bottom off the bed enough to kick them off.
Wanting him to finally be inside of me, I pushed his boxers down as far as I could before he completely worked them off.
"Baby," Grayson said with a sincere expression. "I know both of our tests came back all clear and I know you get your shots, but I can still use a condom if you wanted me to."
Over a month ago we both went in and had an STD ten panel testing done. The more I'd found out about Edward's extracurricular activities, the more I knew it needed to be done.
My doctor had taken me off the pill about three years ago and switched me to the shot because of my heavy periods.
"No, Gray, I trust you." I pecked his lips.
When we started dating, we agreed that we would be exclusive. He told me his last partner had been several months before me and I'd shared with him the last time I had been with Edward.
"You saying that means—" He paused with a luminous glow of happiness on his face.
"—everything to me. I'd never abuse or mistreat your trust in me—never, Bella."
"I know." I smiled slow and easy as I slid my hand down to his toned behind and pressed it against my awaiting heat.
He rubbed his shaft against my wet folds. "Oh God, yes," I cried out as a hunger surged inside of me.
"You're so wet for me already, baby." He bit his lip. "But I want you wetter." He kissed and licked his way down my body until his head was between my thighs.
He blew along my wetness and pleasure radiated through my body. "Shit." I grabbed onto the sheet with both hands.
He spread my legs wider and drove in, flicking my clit with his tongue while two of his fingers were inside of me, working in a steady rhythm.
Feeling like I was going to explode, I raised my butt off the bed and he slid his hands over my hips and brought me back down, holding me in place. "You taste so fuckn' good," he mumbled. He used his free hand and lifted my right leg and put it on his shoulder, giving him a better angle. He withdrew his fingers from inside of me and plunged in with his tongue while he pinched my clit.
"Fuck me!" I grabbed a handful of his hair and rocked my hips into his face. "Aaaaahhhhh," I sighed, lost in ecstasy.
"Baby," he groaned and continued to ravish me.
"I'm going to come," I sobbed.
It felt like I had an outer body experience as my body shook with what felt like waves of electricity, having no control of my release.
Grayson muttered something but I was too incoherent to understand.
As I came down, he continued to lap up everything I gave him.
"That" –my chest heaved—"was amazing." I smiled, looking down at him when he popped his head up.
"Amazing, mind-blowing, heart-stopping," he said as he moved up my body, towering over me as he propped himself up with his arms on both sides of me. "Beautiful." He smiled. "I love you." He leaned his forehead against mine. "I want to take my time and worship you tonight, sweetheart."
I weaved my fingers in his hair at the nape of his neck and pulled him down closer. "I need you." My entire body throbbed for him. He could move slow later.
He answered when he pressed his hardness against my soaked slits.
"Fuck," he grunted. He lined himself up with my entrance. His eyes locked with mine. "We'll go slow, okay?"
"Okay." I nodded.
His thick head slowly entered me. I felt a slight burn, but I took deep breaths to ease the discomfort. He stilled himself so my body could get used to the stretch.
"You okay?" he asked.
"I'm good."
He pushed in more and I wrapped my legs around his waist to give more access.
I gaped at his biceps, and deltoids, as he held himself up, trying not to lie directly on top of me.
A few moments later, all of him was inside of me. I felt myself expand even more. He leaned down and pecked my lips and watched for any sign of pain.
My eyes fluttered, feeling the fullness of his supple length surrounded by my warmth.
I felt Grayson's hot breath on my face as he whispered my name. "Bella, baby." His faced looked heavenly as the full moon shone through the sheer white curtains on him.
He pulled all the way out and thrust back in. "You're—so—tight," he huffed.
The next time he pulled out I clashed my hips with his when he came back. "Goddamnit," he croaked.
He leaned down and latched on one of my perky buds while he twisted and pulled the other one.
We found our comfortable tempo as our hips rolled together in perfect bliss, and sweat ran down our bodies, the air was filling with musk and sex.
He reached for my leg and hiked it up on his shoulder, slamming into a new spot. He turned his head and placed open mouth kiss on my leg.
I started to falter as my walls began to spasm. My eyes flickered, the lids growing heavy, as intensifying sensations that consumed me. "Uuuuuhhhh, Gray," I rasped, while he watched my body tremor.
Grayson started to pound into me harder. "Shit, I feel you clamping down on my cock, Jesus, baby." Moments later, his breathing became rapid and his movements became jerky. "So fucking… Bel…" Watching him fall over the edge above me was the most alluring thing I'd ever seen.
He collapsed on top of me briefly and pulled me on top of him, wrapping the blanket around us both. I relaxed on his chest, listening to his breathing slow down as his fingers stroked through my hair.
I lay in a comfortable silence with our bodies entangled, reminiscing on what just happened when he squeezed my hip. "Bella…" His voice was a little hoarse. "That was out of this fuckin' world." He pulled me closer to him and crashed his lips into mine.
We both moaned into each other's mouths as he palmed my butt and nudged his semi-erection into my thigh.
He pulled back and smirked. "Time for round two."
A/N: So, Grayson and Bella finally had their intimate moment… please share your thoughts.
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