WHATS UP! Hope everyone's having a fantastic week :) Went back and edited a few of the chapters so I hope the font and organization is a little better! Let me know what you guys think of season 7 so far! I like it :D. No spoilers for others please! LOTS OF STUFF IN THIS CHAPTER!

Reviews:

GinnyWeasley09:I know what you are talking about, I'm worried for that character too! And after watching episode 4 and the promo for 5 I'm worried about another person...

Great chapter! I feel bad for Raven though, wish the car would've worked.

Answer:Right!? Especially after the last episode! Ahhhhh! Thanks for the support and quick review. It really means a lot to me! :)

Aetobccrc:Great story so far! Looking forward to Raven working her magic on that car!

Answer:Thank you so much :)! Thanks for reading, hope you stick around!

wolfyisuwuqueen (Instagram): Awesome story so far! Any reason you chose the 2014 Charger specifically?

Answer: Thanks! And yeah I chose this car because it's what I own in real life so I can go more into detail with it! :)

Song for this chapter is "Salt and the Sea" by The Lumineers

Chapter 13: Our Feelings

Murphy's P.O.V (5pm):

Honestly, I wasn't sure what to expect.. I mean I knew the car wouldn't start.. I think.. But I guess Raven slamming her palm against the steering wheel wasn't a good sign..

"So.. What do we do now?" I asked looking back and forth between Monty, who looked deep in thought, and Raven who was staring intensely at the steering wheel. "Ahem.. Can you guys speak out loud?"

"Shut up Murphy." They said in unison. I shrugged and started to walk away when Monty scared the absolute shit outta me.

"I got it!"

"Jesus!" I exclaimed after jumping, I walked back to the two so I could listen.

"Sorry.. But instead of finding a new battery.. Why don't we just recharge this one?" He stated and Raven gave a crooked frown.

"We don't really have the materials we need in order to do that." Monty grinned inhumanly wide after she said that.. Seriously.. It was creepy.

"When Jasper and I were checking out the residential area we found a section of about four solar powered houses."

"Would that work?" Raven asked with a hopeful look.

"Yeah it would! They probably have extra solar panels somewhere around the house that weren't destroyed by the bombs. If we can get our hands on one we can hook it up to the terminals of the battery and I'm sure, with a little sunlight, we can get it charged up."

"So we're going to charge the Charger." I stated with a smirk but they both gave me unamused looks. "Fuck you guys I thought it was funny." I said crossing my arms.

"Monty you're a genius!" Raven exclaimed and I think I saw him blush in an 'awe shucks' matter. "Alright let's set up a team to go get the panel."

"Shouldn't I go since I know where it is?" Monty asked.

"Nah. We still need to figure out alternatives for fluids.. I can't do that without you. We need someone else." Raven said. I picked theabsolute worst time to scratch my head.. "Ah thanks for volunteering Murphy." She said grinning widely. I sighed.

"The things I do for you.. I'm gonna have to start calling you the new princess from now on." I stated and she rolled her eyes with a smile. It made my heart skip a beat.. Especially with what she said next,

"I don't want you going alone though so we'll need someone else."

"Didn't know you cared about me that much Reyes." I joked with a smirk.

"Noooo I just don't think you can carry a whole solar panel on your own." She retorted back with an even bigger smirk. I knew she didn't mean that by the way she looked when she said it.. She really cares.. Someone actually cares about John Murphy.. Weird. Bellamy walked up to the three of us, trailing a finger along the side of the car as if to make sure it was really there.

"So what's the news?" He asked.

"We think we can get it working but we just need to get a solar panel to charge the battery." Monty stated.

"How are we going to get a solar pan-"

"Murphy can fill you in on that while you guys head out to get one." Raven said placing her hands on my shoulders and planting me next to Bellamy who just looked at me with a confused face. I chuckled and patted his shoulder.

"C'mon Blake. Let's get this over with." He hesitated but followed me, grabbing his rifle from where it leaned against a truck as we walked past it. Right as we made it to the garage door I heard footsteps behind us and turned around to see Clarke and the wolf running up to us.

"Where are you guys going?" She asked, I knew that was more a question for Bellamy by the look she was giving him so I stayed quiet and hunched down to grab the handle of the garage door.

"Raven and Monty need solar panels to charge the car's battery so we're just going to get one." Bellamy answered.

"Should I come?" She asked looking back and forth between us. I just stared back with my hand still planted on the handle.. I didn't care, I just wanted to get this done.

"We should be fine. You stay here and help the others go through more vehicles for supplies. We'll need lots, especially if this whole car thing doesn't work." He stated motioning to the others trying to get into the other cars. I couldn't help but notice an angry Lincoln getting fed up with the pry bar and straight up punching the window.. That man is an animal.. Glad he's on our side.

"Alright.. I should probably go check on Lincoln's hand. Take Warin with you. Please stay safe." She said looking at Bellamy with pleading eyes. If I was into the princess.. Like at all.. That look would drive me crazy. But I'm not so instead I looked at Bellamy to see his reaction and he gave her a very wide smile and nod to which she returned. She then turned her gaze towards my direction and added "both of you." It felt good knowing she cared so I gave her a quick smile and a nod.

"Don't worry Clarke. I'll have him back in time for your honeymoon." I said and she just shook her head with a smile. Bellamy glared at me once she was gone and then crouched down to help me lift the garage door.

"What?" I asked innocently.

"Why do you have to say that shit?"

"Oh Bellamy.. You should know me by now." And with that we lifted up the door and made our way out into the wasteland.

Bellamy's P.O.V:

Murphy and I just left the parking garage where Raven is trying to revive a, to be exact, 135 year old car. I don't have much faith in it but I do have faith in Raven so I'm going to let her try for a bit.

"So.." Murphy said breaking the pleasant silence as we walked. "You and the princess are getting close."

"We've always been close, Murphy." I said wanting to get this conversation over with.

"Eh not this close.. I mean now whenever I see one of you the other is right there." I sighed after he said that but then I remembered something..

"You're one to talk. What about you and Raven?"

"Bellamy.."

"I mean since the bear attack she seems like she actually doesn't hate you."

"Well risking your life for someone does that, I guess." He said with a smirk. "Don't change the subject. This is about you and Clarke." Whenever I hear her name I can instantly picture her and my heart flutters. I shook the thoughts out and focused on climbing up a mound of rubble we had to get past.

"What about us?" I asked willing to amuse him for a bit. I held my hand out to help him up since he had to carry Warin and he accepted it as he spoke,

"Don't act like you don't have feelings for her, man. I see the way you look at her."

"Why do you care so damn much?" I asked. He shrugged.

"I don't. Just making conversation." I stopped when we made it to the top of the mound and turned to him as he placed Warin down.

"What's going on with you recently? Not taking Clarkes canteen right away, pushing Raven out of the bear's path, apologizing to me.." I asked with a raised eyebrow. "Are you dying?" With that Murphy sighed,

"Not that it matters.. I'm trying to be different. Kay, when I was out there with that lunatic Jaha I realized that I let you guys get to my head.. And that I.." He cleared his throat and said quietly, "that I need you people." I felt a smile slowly form on my lips and looked down to hide it.

"Well for what it's worth.." I looked back up at him. "You're doing a pretty good job." I stated and he nodded with a small smile. Maybe Murphy's the one I can actually share my true feelings with. I mean there's Monty, who's always too busy thinking.. Jasper, who's always too fucked up to retain anything.. My sister who doesn't talk to me much anymore.. Lincoln who probably wouldn't get it.. Raven who I feel would 'try' to push Clarke and I together.. And then there's Kane.. and I'd talk to Warin about my feelings for Clarke before I talk to him about them. "I have a serious problem Murphy." I said as I hung my legs over the mound and got an apple out of my bag.

"What is it?" He asked, actually sounding concerned.

"I'm in love." Was all I said before taking a bite out of the apple.

"So do something about it." He said sitting next to me and taking a drink from his canteen. Warin laid down next to me and I placed a hand on his head as he panted.

"I can't."

"You know she feels the same way about you right? We can all see it." I gave him a blank look. "You can't tell me you're that dumb." I didn't know for sure. I mean yeah we're close but what if she just wants to be friends?

"Even if she did feel the same way.."

"Then why don't you jus-"

"Because I'm scared! Okay?" I snapped at him then took another bite to gain control and looked back at the street we came from. "I'm scared, because in this shitty world it seems that if you love someone.. You lose them. One way or another." It took Murphy a while before he said anything but I heard the metal from his canteen clang on the ground as he placed it down.

"I have feelings for Raven." I looked over at him with a cheeky smile. "Look, I don't know how it happened but it did… and I'm scared too. I mean I fucking shot her man." He said standing up with a rock and whipping it at the road below. "I'm also scared because I don't want her giving too much for me. I don't want anyone else I care about to die because of me." I sat there staring up in disbelief.. John Murphy was opening up. He was actually showing me his vulnerable side.

"Murphy.. In the world we live in we have to make serious sacrifices for the ones we care about. You're a part of this group now and if we have to.. We will sacrifice things if it means keeping you alive. Just like you almost did with Raven and the bear." He looked down like he was thinking. "And as far as the whole 'you shot her' thing goes.. I think you guys are pretty even now. I mean you did save her life."

"You should take your own advice." He stated picking up his bag. "No matter what if something happens to Clarke you'd be upset." He shrugged. "I say go for it. Make the best of it and all that crap." I sighed and slung my bag around my shoulders and picked up my rifle.

"When the time comes." We started climbing down the back of the mound to get to the houses. "You too, by the way."

"What?" He asked, making it to the bottom.

"Raven. What do you possibly have to lose? Also maybe if you get laid you wouldn't be such an asshole." I said with a smirk as I made it to him and put Warin down.

"Hardy har." He said unamused.

Clarke's P.O.V (6pm):

Bellamy and Murphy have been gone for about an hour which makes sense since they had quite a few obstacles in their way in order to get to the houses. But this is the first time in 5 days that Bellamy hasn't been around and it almost feels.. Unnatural. Everyone was asleep except for Monty, Raven and Octavia even though it was still early I couldn't blame them, it's been a long day for everyone. I was walking past each vehicle they were sleeping in to make sure they we're all okay when Octavia spoke up from behind me.

"Everything okay Clarke?" She asked while sitting on the tailgate of a pickup truck and sharpening her blade, Lincoln's legs dangling next to her. This was probably the first time I've seen him sleep in days.

"Yeah." I said with a smile. "We found a few more cans of food and winter pants." She nodded.

"That's good. You just seem a little stressed is all."

Of course I'm stressed! And being in love with your brother and not knowing what to do about it is not helping! I wanted to say but I just settled for. "Aren't we all? I mean risking our lives on a place that might not exist probably tends to do that to someone."

"True. But either way we might still find a place where we belong." Her statement actually made me feel better about this whole thing.

"You're right." I said with a warm smile which she returned quickly.

"Is my brother back?" She asked with concern.

"No not yet, but he will be soon." She nodded, put her knife away and laid down next to Lincoln.

"Goodnight Clarke." She said, just loud enough for me to hear.

"Night." I replied before walking to Raven who was syphoning gas from a van. I admired the letters on the front of it.

"I wonder what 'GMC' stood for." I stated before turning to Raven who sucked on a hose that was sticking out from the gas tank and quickly put it into a jerry can as the remaining fuel started to flow out.

"General Motors Corporation." She answered after spitting out some fuel that got into her mouth.

"Do you need any help with anything?" I asked.

"Yes actually." She answered before walking over to the car they were working on and opening the passenger door. She popped off a panel under the glove compartment and pulled out a square frame with what looked like paper inside of it.

"This is called a cabin air filter.. and we need it in good shape if we want the heater to do its full job once we hit snow." She said as she handed it to me.

"So what's wrong with it?" I asked inspecting it. She smirked at me and simply flicked the side of the filter and about a spoonful of dust dropped out of it. "Alright.. forget I asked.." Is all I said before sitting in the passenger seat with one leg hanging out and slapping the dust out of the filter onto the ground. Raven walked around to the drivers side where she opened the door and sat in the seat with a screwdriver.

"While you do that I'm going to see about straightening the steering wheel." She said as she hunched over to see the top of the column the steering wheel was attached to and started unscrewing. I didn't know much about cars so I just nodded and started blowing the dust out of the filthy filter. Is that an oxymoron since filters are supposed to be clean? Maybe. Bellamy told me about oxymorons on day two of this trip. They're basically complete opposite words that are next to each other.. Like.. Jumbo shrimp or alone together. Bellamy's new favorite oxymoron is if grounders went to space, grounders in space. It made me chuckle because that would never happen.

"Clarke?" Raven said snapping me out of my own mind. I realized I just abruptly stopped working so it must have been strange to her.

"Yeah?" Was all I said before continuing to get the dirt and dust out.

"I asked if you were alright. You seemed just out of it all of a sudden."

I didn't know what to say. Sure Raven is the only one, other than maybe Monty, that I'm willing to share my feelings for Bellamy with but to me honest.. I didn't know where to start.

"I…" I tried starting. She put her screwdriver down in the cupholder and took the filter out of my hand and put that down too. She then reached over me and closed my door and then hers.

"Go ahead. Whatever's on your mind." She stated with a warm smile.

"I have.. Feelings for Bellamy." I said looking down at my seat.

"Oh I know."

"You do?" I asked looking over to her.

"Yup. Pretty sure everyone does honestly." My heart sank.

"They do? How?"

"Well there's a few hints but I think the main one is the way you two look at eachother. You don't see two people give each other that look too often anymore."

"What do I do?" Is all I asked.

"I say.. You tell him. He clearly feels the same way about you and I guarantee you're both too busy trying to keep us all alive to do anything about it. Since we're pretty safe down here you guys have a chance." I thought about it for a second while trailing my finger around the screen in the middle of the dashboard.

"I just don't want to get hurt again." I said barely audible. I saw her nod out of the corner of my eye.

"Remember Clarke.. We both got hurt by the same man." I closed my eyes hard to keep my tears from falling at the guilt I felt but one still managed to escape. "But those moments, no matter how shitty they are, make us stronger." Her voice cracked in that sentence. "We learn from them." I finally looked up at her and noticed she was just staring at the gauges behind the steering wheel.

"You're right. And we've learned a lot being down here." I said earring a chuckle from Raven.

"Almost too much." She added and we shared a laugh. "But seriously. You'll never know if you don't try."

"What if it ruins our friendship?" I asked.

"What if it makes it stronger?"

"Alright. I'll.. Try to bring it up with him." I said sincerely.

"Good." She said with a smile which I returned. "Since you shared with me I guess it's my turn."

"Of course. Anything." I said giving her my full attention.

"I think.. I'm falling for someone in the group.." I instantly knew she was talking about Murphy but decided to play dumb for her.

"Who? .. Monty?"

"No… M- Murphy."

"John Murphy? The man who shot you and blew a hole in our dropship?" I asked.

"Yup. That's the one." She answered with a lazy smirk.

"I'll admit.. He's definitely changed.. Like a lot." I said and she nodded. "I mean saving you, helping me with my stress-"

"What do you mean helping you with your stress?" She asked with a raised eyebrow. My eyes went wide at the look she was giving me.

"Oh! God no! When the guys were interrogating Enton I needed a serious break from everything that was going on and was not feeling good about how we were right back to where we started.. He talked to me and I felt better." I explained and she nodded.

"Him trying so hard to be different is what got me attracted to him. When he apologized to me I gained a little respect for him.. And obviously when he saved me from that bear the respect just grew. But I'll be honest I didn't think the 'new Murphy' would last this long but he's actually been there for me a lot since this trip started. Like literally right now he's out there getting that panel without a single argument." She stated and I didn't realize how much he's actually changed.. John Murphy is a good guy.. Now that's an oxymoron.

"From what I've seen it seems like he's into you as well Raven. He looks at you a lot and seems to be willing to do anything to help you." I said and she looked away from me like she was thinking then looked back at me.

"It just.. Doesn't feel right, you know? I mean my ex-boyfriend died not even three weeks ago. I already went through so much with everything that went on with Finn.. If I fall for someone else and lose them I feel like I'll just.. Shut down and never try for love again." I could tell this wasn't an easy subject for her to talk about and I was glad that she was coming to me about it.

"But if you keep feeling that way then you won't ever try for love again. And either way if we lose someone from this group we will all be heart broken." I said and she nodded with a tight smile and mouthed 'you're right'.

"Thanks Clarke." She said with a smile.

"And thank you." I said as I returned it and we embraced in a hug. It was an awkward hug with the armrest in between us but it was still a warm hug. I was enjoying the moment when Monty scared the soul out of both of us.

"I'm going to die alone." He said sitting up from the back seat.

"MONTY!" We both exclaimed since he scared us, making him jump.

"Jeez sorry! I was taking a nap and didn't want to interrupt your conversation.

"So you eavesdrop on it?" Raven asked.

"Both your secrets are safe with me."

"He is a pretty trustworthy guy." I said to her and she nodded.

"But anyway.. About the fuel Raven.. It's not gonna work as it is." He said as we all got out of the car.

"Well what can we do to make it work?" She asked.

"Glad you asked.. You see, over time the fuel loses combustibility if it's sitting for too long. All we need is to top the gas up with alcohol and BOOM it'll have enough combustibility to last quite a while."

"I say again Monty.. You're a GENIUS!" Raven said and I patted him on the back.

"Thanks guys."

"Where are we going to get alcohol?" I asked and the two slowly looked over to where Jaspers backpack sat next to his sleeping body. "Oh.. right.. Almost forgot we have a raging alcoholic in our group."

"Well.. Shall we?" Raven asked with a smirk to which Monty and I nodded to and began walking over to the bag. Jasper is not going to be happy.. But if it works it will have to be worth it.