I watched the latest episode of The 100 today. They killed someone off. I can't believe it. I'm at a loss for words and I really don't want to think about it so here's another chapter. Please no spoilers for the show in the reviews..

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Chapter 17: Ride or Die

Clarke's P.O.V (4am):

I didn't know how long I had been asleep for but I slowly opened my eyes taking in my surroundings. My head was resting on Octavias shoulder, who was resting her head on Lincolns and there was something warm and kind of heavy on my lap. I was sitting in the back of the Charger, which was moving slowly along the rough terrain of wherever the hell we were. The low hum of the engine and the ground rocking us back and forth was almost soothing enough to put me back to sleep. I lifted my head off of Octavia's shoulder and looked down to see Warin laying across me and Octavia's laps. His head was resting on me and it caused me to smile at how peaceful he looked. I gave one of his ears a gentle scratch before holding up my watch to see the time: 4:05am.I turned around to look out of the back window to be greeted by the bright lights on the roof of the buggy right behind us. I squinted to see who was driving and could faintly make out that it was Kane. I turned back around and peered to the front of the car. The dim light from the screen in the middle of the dashboard was enough to light up the darkness of the car's cabin. I squinted my eyes to see what the words said on the screen: 'No bluetooth device connected'. I turned my gaze to the right. Murphy was curled up in the front seat with his head resting on the door and his hand cradling his wounded arm. His pistol was sitting in the cupholder. I moved my head so I could see Raven. She looked exhausted, but at the same time happy as ever to be finally driving a car. She had both hands on the steering wheel and glanced over at Murphy with a smile, which is when she saw me.

"Mornin' sleepy head." She said quietly and in a very tired voice. She gave me a small smile and then turned her attention back to what was in front of us.

"Hey." I replied in an equally quiet voice with a smile. "You look exhausted, Raven. We should switch off."

"You don't know how to drive though."

"Just tell me what to do. I'll figure it out." I stated and she gave me a small smile.

"I'll survive for now. When the sun comes up I'll switch off but while it's still dark out I'd prefer to take over."

"If you say so." I laid my head back onto the seat and pet Warin as I stared out the window. We weren't going fast, which made sense since this car was clearly not built to go offroad. From what I could make out in the pitchblack morning we were still in the desert but the ground was much flatter and harder than when we first left the Wasteland.

"Argh" I heard Murphy from the front, his head moved from the door to his seat.

"What the hell was that?" I asked and Raven just chuckled.

"I have no clue. He's been doing it all night." She reached over and placed her hand on his cheek rubbing small circles on his cheekbone with her thumb. I could make out a smile forming on his lips at her touch. It was sweet. My mind shifted to Bellamy now. I didn't even know if he was okay yet. The last time I saw him was when he was standing up in the buggy and taking shots at the rogue army. He could have been hit by an arrow or spear and just tended to it himself which he might not have done properly which could lead to an infection which cou-

"Clarke, you okay?" Raven asked, looking at me through the rearview mirror with concerned eyes. Probably seeing the worry on my face. Both her hands were back on the steering wheel now. I met her gaze in the mirror.

"Yeah. Just.. worried."

"Well that's nothing new." She gave me a smile which I returned and then turned her glance back down to focus on driving. "As for now.. We got nothing to worry about. Just relax for once Griffin. You deserve it." I smiled at that, even though I didn't agree with her.

"Thanks but I slept for, what?" I looked at my watch again and did the math. The last hour I saw before I must have dozed off was 10:05. "6 hours? That must be the most sleep I've gotten since, God, since my father was floated."

"Guess this whole car thing was a pretty good idea, huh?" Raven asked, I could hear the smirk in her voice.

"Yes. It was. I never doubted you." She looked at me through the mirror again and I could tell she was smiling at me from how her eyes were squinting. Her gaze shifted to Murphy who was stirring awake.

"Uggghhh. Clarke, do we have morphine?" He asked, slowly sitting up straight.

"No. And if we did I wouldn't be giving it to you." I answered.

"Whyyyy?" He whined, turning his head to me. His mop of hair going in all sorts of directions which he quickly raked his hand through to fix when he saw me looking at it.

"Morphine is only for, like, lost limbs or if you have a knife sticking out of you."

"Any harder of a swing and my arm would have been gone." He mumbled.

"Oh don't be such a baby. Lincoln got shot with an arrow and he's fine." Raven said motioning to Lincoln in the back who was slowly waking up with Octavia.

"Lincoln. Settle something for me." Murphy said, turning his body to where Lincoln sat behind him. Raven and I groaned. "If we had this magical drug, called morphine, that would take away the pain from your wound and make you feel fucking fantastic, you'd use it right?"

"That seems like something used only for emergencies.. An arrow shot is not an emergency." Lincoln answered, causing Murphy to sigh. "Wait. Do you think you need this magical drug?" He asked with a judgmental smile that caused Raven, Octavia and I to laugh.

"No…" Murphy lied.

"Suuuurreee." Octavia smirked as she pet Warin's back.

"Alright alright. Let me take a look." I said scooching forward closer to Murphy. He put his arm across the armrest, in between his and Ravens seats, and I started unwrapping the dressing I used to bandage him up when he first got into the car. The wound looked fine but it was definitely in the scabbing process which was why it was so painful. "Looks good. But it's going to feel painful for about another day or so until it's scabbed over." He nodded his thanks and I rewrapped the dressing.

"Oh! I almost forgot!" Murphy stated after I was finished before picking up his bag from where it sat in front of his feet on the floor. He started rifling through it until he pulled out some sort of device. "Check it out Raven." He said handing it to her.

"A cell phone!? Where the hell did you find a cell phone?" She asked looking at him then back out the windshield.

"I have my ways." He said with a smirk. "I also found… The charging cable for it." He pulled out a long white wire that was attached to a block plug.

"What are you waiting for? Plug it in!" She encouraged him as she opened up the armrest in between them. He plugged the block somewhere inside the armrest and then plugged the cable into the bottom of the phone.

"Now we wait." He said as he placed the phone down then placed a hand on Raven's inner thigh, which I couldn't help but notice caused her to shiver slightly. She turned to him and the two of them shared a small smile before she placed a hand over his and went back to focusing on driving. I sighed quietly and then turned my attention out the back window again. The bright lights on the buggy made it impossible to pick out who was who. So far I knew the driver was Kane but I couldn't make out which of the dark figures was Bellamy. It really didn't help that all four of them had long dark hair. Raven pressed the brakes lightly as we went over a big bump and the light from her braking caused the buggy to light up red. It was only for a second but it was enough for me to see that Bellamy was in the passenger seat sleeping soundly. I smiled to myself knowing he was finally resting. He deserved it.

"Don't worry. He'll come to his senses eventually." Octavia said quietly after she followed my gaze out the back window.

"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to play dumb. Does she know? Am I that obvious with my hopeless want for her brother?

"He's an idiot but I know he doesn't want to make the same mistake twice." As she said that sentence each word got quieter and quieter as she slowly lowered her head back onto Lincoln's shoulder.

"What do you mean? What mistake?" I asked, but got no response. "Octavia?" Again, no response. I guess after living life in battle mode she goes to sleep pretty fast when there's no battles evident at any moment.

There was silence for almost an hour. The sky was just starting to become a brighter blue color when Murphy decided to pick up the phone and scare the crap out of all of us.

"IT'S WORKING!" We all jumped out of our quiet thoughts and Raven swerved a little before regaining control.

"Hey I'm driving here!" She stated.

"Yeah yeah, sorry. Check it out." He held it up for us to see. The screen was still black but there was some sort of logo in the middle of it. A white apple with a bite taken out of it.

"Um.. is that it?" I asked looking at him and then back at the phone a few times.

"It can't be.. I mean right?" He started pressing every button on the device and tapping the screen. "C'mon you bitch." The screen went black again but then turned on with some sort of lock screen. It showed the time on the top: 4:58am. And it's background was of some sort of forest. There were words on the bottom 'Swipe up to Unlock'. "Oh… My… God." Was all Murphy said before swiping up on the screen to be greeted by small squares with pictures on them.

"Oh no way! It still has all it's Apps!" Raven said excitedly when she glanced over. My gaze shifted to Lincoln now who had both his hands on Murphy's seat to hold him close while he peered over Murphy's shoulder.

"What is this?" He asked, looking at Octavia then back at the phone.

"It's a cellphone. We never had them on the Ark but we had tablets that basically did the same thing." Octavia answered while we all watched Murphy tap on each of the apps to see what they did.

"What does it do?" He asked.

"Lots of things." Raven answered while she kept her eyes focused on the trail. "It's main use was for the user to be able to call other people that had cell phones. You could call or message people who were on the other side of the planet and talk to them if you wanted to." Lincoln just looked at it in awe as Murphy seemed to finally find what he was looking for. An app which the picture was a white square with a purple music note in it.

"Mhm and that's not all they were used for!" He exclaimed as the app loaded. When it did I could see a few different options listed to tap on under the title 'Library'. Murphy pressed the first option which was 'Playlists' which opened a new page with more options: Chill, Alternative, Rock, Colby's Playlist and Classic Hip Hop. I realized now that it was an app for music. He tapped on the Alternative playlist which brought him to a page with a bunch of downloaded music. "Oh hell yeah." He said as he scrolled through the music. Raven glanced over at him with a content smile, I'm guessing at the sight of seeing him happy. She then started tapping options on the car's screen in the middle of the dashboard. 'Aux'. "What should be the first song we hear on Earth ladies and Lincoln?" He asked, turning to us with a face so bright I couldn't help but smile back.

"I never listened to much music." Octavia stated. "Just whatever CD's Bellamy would bring home."

"CD's?" I asked. Murphy snorted at that.

"Yeah. That's all us Farm and Factory station kids could get our hands on back on the Ark. I bet, growing up on Alpha Station, you had nice surround sound speakers on your roof." Murphy stated. It was true. And I hated that these amazing friends of mine weren't treated the same, if not better, than I was.

"Yeah. We did." I said, my voice racked with guilt. Murphy's eyes turned to me now. I was expecting him to tell me how 'perfect' my life must have been or remind me how horrible he was treated but instead.. he smiled at me..

"Must have been amazing." I wasn't sure what to say so I just returned his smile and nodded.

"We have music." Lincoln stated out of the blue and we all looked at him. "Drums and flutes. We use it to tell stories."

"We'll just wait until you get a load of our music my friend." Murphy said before turning around to look at him. "It might just make you grow some hair back on your head." He smirked but it didn't last long since Lincoln growled at him. "You know what? Let's let fate decide!" He concluded before tapping the option that said 'Shuffle' and turning the volume knob up on the car. I moved closer, as close as I could with a 165 pound animal on my lap, to see what was playing. 'Favourite Boy by Half Moon Run'. As soon as I heard the drums I sat back and let the music block out all of my thoughts. I could tell it wasn't just me trying to do this as I looked around the car. Raven was tapping her hands on the steering wheel as Murphy was nodding his head while air playing a bass guitar. I turned to my right to see Octavia closing her eyes with a half smile while she slowly pet Warin. Lincoln was staring at the seat in front of him, void of any emotion, but once the singer sang the first few words his expression broke out into a small smile. I couldn't help but smile at his reaction. My smile grew when I saw Murphy abruptly stop nodding his head and look at Raven. She was still tapping the steering wheel to the beat and quietly singing along. Murphy leaned over the armrest between them to place a kiss on her cheek which caused her to smile widely at him. He went back to singing along and nodding his head after that. I was glad that we could all zone out and forget about everything we've done and been through.. Even if it is just for a bit.

Bellamy's P.O.V (5am):

I jolted awake after we must have hit a big bump. I quickly looked around to make sure everything was alright and we weren't under attack. I was sitting in the front seat of the buggy while Kane drove. The sun was just starting to come up, causing the sky to be a brighter blue color, but it was still dark out. It was cold this morning, especially since we didn't have anything to cover us from the cold air except for the windshield. I turned around to see Jasper and Monty still fast asleep. Jaspers head was slumped on Monty's shoulder and Monty just had his arms crossed.

"Good sleep, Bellamy?" Kane asked quietly. I placed the gun I must have been cradling down between my feet and looked over at him.

"Yeah. At least when I actually did sleep." I used my thumb and index finger to rub the sleep out of my eyes before focusing my gaze on the car in front of us. "How long have you been driving?"

"Raven stopped about three hours ago to check on us. That's when I traded off with Monty." He answered, cocking his head back to motion to Monty in the back.

"How's Murphy and Lincoln?"

"They're fine. Everyone in the car was fast asleep when we stopped." I was relieved to hear that Clarke was finally getting some sleep. My attention was turned back to the Charger immediately when I realized I was hearing what sounded like music coming from the inside of it.

"No way…" Was all I said.

"Is that…" Before Kane could finish his sentence I heard something on the car open which caused the music to get louder. Murphy's head popped out of the sunroof and then the rest of his upper half. He spread his arms out when he saw us looking at him and sang his heart out.

"AND I DON'T KNOW HOW IT STAAARTED! DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVEEE!"

"You got the phone working I see!" I said to him. Speaking loudly so he could hear me over the car's engine and the wind.

"Ah you sound like you were doubting me Blake!" He crossed his arms on the roof as if it were a table. His hair was flowing on either side of his face from the wind. He turned his attention to Kane. "Sorry you gotta be stuck with the pessimist old man!" Kane just chuckled and shook his head. Murphy laughed before disappearing back into the car.

"He's good to have around." Kane said out of nowhere.

"Murphy? John Murphy?" I asked, making sure I heard him correctly.

"Yes. He may have done some bad things.. Things that are hard to forgive. But his gleeful spirit and carefree ways are sometimes what people like us need in our lives."

"Yeah? And who are 'people like us'?" I asked, sitting back in my seat and crossing my arms with an amused expression. I'm nothing like Marcus Kane..

"People who know there's always something to fight for. Who will do anything to protect the people we love as well as the people we don't."

"There's a big difference between you and I, Kane." I glared at him now. "I know when not to follow orders." He closed his eyes gathering himself for a moment before opening them to focus on the car in front of us.

"Bellamy. On the Ark there were rules. Rules that, most of the time, I didn't agree with. Month after month I would see people getting floated. Then it turned to week after week and then day after day. My job at first was to hold back loved ones. To keep them from wanting to float with…" He trailed off, swallowing and closing his eyes for a second again to collect his thoughts. I just watched him, trying to keep my expression unreadable. "Then my job was going to be switched to the guard who pulls the lever and I just couldn't do it.. Yes. I was there when they floated your mother. I held you back so you couldn't say goodbye to her and I will forever feel and be guilty of that. But I didn't want that to happen. I didn't-" He slammed his palm against the steering wheel. "I should have spoken up to the higher ups. Say something. Fathers, sons, mothers, daughters, wives, husbands.. I never wanted to be the one holding people back from sharing their last moments. I never wanted to be the reason they were in their last moments. But it was all I knew growing up in a guard orientated family." He scoffed at that. "It wasn't until the culling that I realized it was too much. That the people who are willing to give up their lives for their loved ones were better people than I.. and that they deserved.. So much more." He finally looked at me now. His face full of regret and genuine guilt. "So now I say to you, Bellamy. I truly am sorry for not speaking up for your mother." I didn't know what to say so I just held his gaze and nodded with a tight smile. I thought the whole time that Kane really believed in all those deaths. But in reality it killed him on the inside. He really was just following orders.

"Have you apologised to Clarke yet?" I asked after a few minutes.

"I wasn't there for her father's execution. I didn't want to be." I didn't say anything to that. Just raised an eyebrow hoping he would realize that wasn't my point. "But she thinks I believed it was what had to be done." He answered for me.

"Exactly. And Murphy? His father was floated for trying to save him. How is that justified?"

"You're right, Bellamy. It's time for me to ameliorate. I guess that's another reason I decided to continue this trip."

"Why did you stay with us? Even though you know this could all be for nothing and you could get into serious trouble with the Chancellor?"

"Well. Back to what we were talking about before.." He turned to me with a small smirk. "I now know when to not follow orders." I smiled at that and now realized.. Maybe Kane isn't so bad after all.

We drove for about another hour before Raven slowed down and eventually stopped, putting the car in park. Kane followed suit and all the doors opened on the Charger before everyone started piling out of it. Clarke was the first person I laid my eyes on, as perusal, when she popped out of the driver side back door with Warin following close behind. I didn't know what I was doing, before I knew it I was out of the buggy and hugging her. Her arms wrapped around my back and she connected her hands, holding me tight.

"Hello to you too." She chuckled before I pulled away and cleared my throat.

"Sorry."

"Never be sorry for hugging me." She stated before hugging me again. I held her by the waist with one hand and clasped my other hand around the back of her neck. I wanted to stay like that forever but Jaspers groaning brought me back to reality.

"What is wrong with you?" Octavia asked him.

"Goddd I feel like craaaaaaap!" He said sitting sideways back in the buggy. Raven chuckled, she looked exhausted and I could tell she was from the tone of her voice.

"Tell me, Jasper. Have you taken a break from drinking since you started?"

"No.. Not since we got back to Arkadia after the Mountain last week." Now it was Murphy who laughed.

"Ohhhh buddy! What you're feeling right now.. Is a hangover."

"I've had hangovers before.. This is something else. I think I'm dying." We all shared a laugh at his overreacting.

"Oh you're not feeling just any hangover." I decided to contribute to this conversation. "What you're going through right now is the aftermath of a week-long alcoholic bender."

"A bender?" He asked.

"Yup. Since you just stopped drinking cold turkey after a week straight of downing alcohol.. You're not gonna feel so good." I answered.

"The liquor is just now getting flushed from your system. The hangover's caused mainly by the ethanol in the drinks you've been having. It's a diuretic. So drink as much water as you can because you're probably really dehydrated." Clarke answered and I couldn't help but smile at her.

Everyone walked their separate ways to find a place for a bathroom break before we regrouped again.

"My God, Raven." Kane stated. "Have you gotten any sleep?"

"Gee, thanks for reminding me how awful I look Kane. You don't look too sunny this morning either."

"Raven. Have you slept since before we left for the Wasteland?" Monty tried asking now. She sighed.

"No." We all gave her a sympathetic look and she rolled her eyes. "Did we find any coffee or any forms of caffeine? Just hand over some of that and I'll be fine."

"Raven, I know how excited you are about getting this car running and being able to finally drive." Clarke said. "But you've been up since 6am yesterday. The adrenaline you have will run out and you could pass out." Raven groaned.

"Ughh why do you have to be right all the time?" Clarke just chuckled.

"I'm pretty awake now." Monty stated. "I'll take the wheel for you." Raven just nodded very lopsidedly. She walked over to the door that Clarke came out of and practically collapsed onto the seat.

"I'm gonna go with her." Murphy said before getting in the back of the car with her.

"Alright, Lincoln. What's next?" I asked and he nodded at Clarke who whipped her pack around to her front so she could unzip it. She pulled out a pretty big piece of paper.

"Lincoln and I made a map in the car when we left the parking garage so we could have a better idea of where we're going." She placed it on the hood of the buggy and Kane and I held it down from the wind. (A/N: Sorry to make a note like this but just wanted you guys to know I tried my best with explaining their route using Google maps. It's probably not entirely accurate but I just thought since it's the apocalypse it's basically a straight line to Calgary.) Everyone else crowded around it as I took in the illustration of the states, or what used to be the states, that we were going to be passing through. Clarke did her best to label the ones she knew but there were some that were still blank. From what I could see we came from Shenandoah Valley, Washington and we were in West Virginia now. We covered so much ground now that we had these vehicles. Clarke had a line drawn, probably with help from Lincoln telling her our route, from the Shenandoah Valley area to Calgary, which was a place in Alberta, Canada apparently. Clarke drew small boxes with lines pointing to certain parts of the route line. In each box there was a sketch. In the first box there was a picture of that Wamplei bear that attacked us, then the next box had a sketch of a Grounder army marching. I realized these boxes and sketches showed us what our dangers were in each area of our journey. Lincoln must have told Clarke what else we could come into contact with because she had sketches in places we haven't been yet.

"We will ride for about two more days before we get out of the desert." Lincoln stated pointing at a point on the map that Clarke labeled, Columbus, Ohio. "That's as far as I've ever made it on this journey before I realized it wasn't worth it and turned back to try and get the commanders forgiveness." I took in the sketch next to the point his finger was on. It was one of a snowy forest.

"What's this?" Jasper asked, pointing at the sketch. "Snow?"

"Yes." Clarke answered. "I did my best to show sketches of what Lincoln told me we could come across."

"Good idea." I answered and she smiled brightly at me. I took a quick glance at the other drawings after the snow: A tundra, a crater, another wasteland looking town, and a few more pictures that I wasn't worried about until we got closer to those areas. I skipped the rest until my eyes made it to the very last picture, a rough-sketch of the city of Calgary with a circle around it instead of a square. I smiled at it trying not to get too excited.

"How much fuel do you guys have left before you have to fill up?" Kane asked Octavia and Clarke.

"No clue." Octavia answered for both of them. Monty pranced over to the driver door of the Charger and sat in it with one leg sticking out. He pressed the start button once and started clicking buttons on the steering wheel.

"The information screen in between the gauges says we still have about another 47 miles left before empty."

"We have more fuel right?" I asked to make sure. Clarke nodded.

"Raven and Monty were able to make enough for almost 4 more refills."

"Alright let's get going." I stated folding up the map, nicely, and handing it back to Clarke so she can put it back in her bag. I walked over to the driver side of the buggy. "I'll drive Kane." He nodded and I raised my voice to speak to Monty who was about to start the Charger. "Stop around night time so we can all check on each other and for a bathroom break." I stated and Monty nodded before starting the Charger making it roar to life. A song instantly continued playing and I couldn't wait until I could just sit in the car and listen to some music myself. Even though I was never much of a music guy on the Ark I thought now was a good a time as any to start listening to some. Lincoln sat in the passenger seat to give Monty directions and Octavia sat in the back with Murphy and Raven. I sat in the driver seat of the buggy and turned the key. Kane got in the back along with Jasper and then Warin hopped up and laid down in the empty space between their seats. Clarke sat in the passenger seat next to me. I turned to her and smiled.

"Doing alright?" She asked. As long as she was by my side I'd always be doing alright. Bears, Grounders, freezing forests and whatever the hell else this journey has to throw at us will feel like nothing as long as Clarke Griffin is by my side.

"Never better."

Reviews:

GinnyWeasley09:I can just imagine that last scene so perfectly with them driving out of there while the grounders shoot at them-perfect! And raven and Murphy omg that was great! I can't wait to see what happens next with them.

Answer:Thanks! I'm glad you like it because it did take me quite a while to be happy with it. I kept deleting and rewriting it until I was happy haha. I can't thank you enough for your support on my stories!

The100fan09:Oooo nice exit

Answer:I'm happy you liked it! Like I said in the review above, it took me a while to get it right so I'm glad you enjoyed it!

Ilena Petrova:While i normally dont even like bellarke, this story is really really good, well written,and i have to say i love raven and murphy, love the wolf companion that they got. Would have loved to see how the grounders would have reacted to the cars if they had not been in a battle. I mean they never even saw cars, for them its something unknown. Can't wait to see how much of calgary is still standing in your story, i actually love those stories were they find old world things

Answer:I'm so glad you still gave this story a shot even though you're not a Bellarke shipper, thank you so much! Also happy you enjoy the wolf because I really wanted to add my own character but never really liked OC's so I went with Warin the wolf. About the grounders reactions to the vehicles.. Don't worry! I do have a plan later on that shows what they think about them! Hope you stick around for the last few chapters of this story! Thank you again :)