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Chapter 24: Freak.
Lola's P.O.V:
What is this dream, I feel in heaven, but I know I'm awake, I feel like I could fly, but I also don't want to move an inch, I'm so happy, but I can't show it, it's conflicting really, but as I lay my head in his chest…
Everything just feels right.
I can hear his soft breathing, I can listen to the soft beats of his heart, and I feel at home, why?
Why can't I have this every day?
Why can't I have him every day?
My family, I have a brother, a twin, 8 other sisters, a mom and a dad, we're always together, we remain strong In unity, we like it that way, I love them all, really, I do.
But, they oppose my feelings, it hurts me, they will never accept this, they will never accept me, it's souring me to the rest of them really, I don't feel so close to them anymore, mom and dad will always do their best to sustain us all, so I depend on them, but after today… I don't know, I don't feel comfortable around them, my other sisters are now in a similar boat, heck, I don't even know if trusting Lana anymore.
Not just that, I've been doing my research, people don't like it, in general: SwiftyPic, Creddit, Twister, they all say the same thing: "Get help", "Leave him alone", "It's wrong, stop that", "It's forbidden by law", "Gosh, what a freak"
-…Wrong –
-…Forbidden –
-…Freak -
It's official, I am a freak, but I can't help myself.
Why, Linky, why are you so good with me? I treated you like dirt for a long time, I was always competing with you, trying to make you second in the family, even when I was trying to become better thanks to you, I still made your life harder, I was being pushy, possessive and annoying, making problem after problem to force you to solve them, fighting with your best friend, taking time away from you and the others, all because I wanted to grow closer to you, in my own, forceful way.
Yet… you still gave me the time, you invited me to your room, revived this great story and gave me the most special spot on it, accepted my weird interpretation of the characters and played along with me.
You chose me over Clyde, your best friend in the whole world, then showed genuine interest in continuing the story, you created romantic scenes, you detailed a grand plot to keep the story going for long, you even found a way to use the story to interact and share funny confessions and stories with me, you accepted the roleplay, you didn't judge me, you encouraged me, you supported me.
Lincoln… My knight in shining armor, you caught my heart, I may still be a kid, but I'm not unfamiliar with either crushes or family love, this feeling is stronger, it gives me life whenever you accept my presence, and it kills me whenever you avoid me, it distracts me from even my strongest performances when you show up at my pageants, but it also energizes me to perform better, it makes me stay in a child fantasy where you are the knight and I'm the princess, but it also makes me want to grow up faster to catch up with you.
Maybe then you'd notice me… at least I can relate to Lana in that level, though her situation is nowhere near as bad, she isn't as close to Liam as I am to you, she cannot get kisses from her crush just by asking him, unlike me… but when she does… they'll probably be on the mouth, unlike yours.
And it kills me, that you will give kisses to my cheeks or my forehead, but will always miss my lips, I don't have the strength nor the will power to tell you that, I still have my rationality, I know that there's no way that you'll be fine if I told you that, I know that kiss I stole from you the other time was wrong.
… But I would kill for another one, this time coming from you, if only I had a chance…
But wait, what if I do have a chance?
I am Lola Loud, the prettiest girl in elementary school, I can make even some of the kids in the higher grades do my will, I have a bright future as a model, maybe if I try harder, maybe if I use all of my charm on you, can I get your attention?
Plus, you did write a romantic part with us… the brave, handsome captain Triton made a vow with the beautiful princess of a faraway land, he said that he would wish for her eternal happiness, that the love between us wasn't possible, but not because of it being one-sided, life situations just got in between our reunion.
The final wish, is up to me, I already know what I want, but is the real you ready for it?
Suddenly, it doesn't feel so bad, so what if my family doesn't accept it, so what if they abandon me, so what if my very own twin turns her back on me, so what if the entire world goes against me? I will keep the secret, but I'll do it for your sake, my mind has been made up, I can't live in denial anymore, I have to accept this part of myself.
Linky, my prince, If you accept me, I'll be happy by your side.