"Maybe the feelings for you old master left you weak

If you have not been able to overcome your past".-Darth Sidious Series Obi-wan Kenobi

Chapter Ten

Polis Massa

Remote station

At the hidden station on the Polis Massa asteroid, the surviving Jedi had hidden from the eyes of the Empire.

"We have lost... the Sith have won, if we go out to try to stop Darth Sidious, this time he will eliminate us definitively" Yoda next to Obi-wan who had a worried face about everything that happened.

"So what should we do now, Master Yoda? Just hide like mice and nothing more" Obi-wan asked, getting a little annoyed at the idea of hiding from the Sith.

"Not to hide… but to prepare for a future battle. Your duty is to prepare your former Padawan. Teach him to control the connection he has with the Sith Lord, you must."

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After the talk with Master Yoda. Obi-wan sets out as soon as possible to prepare Anakin, to control the dyad and not allow Sidious's influence to end up corrupting the young Jedi.

"Anakin, the time has come, I must help you... you must learn how to control that bond in the force... but there is something else I have to tell you." Obi-wan had great regret inside and Anakin could notice that.

"What's wrong teacher?" But Obi-wan just walked up to his former Padawan and hugged him.

"Forgive me Anakin... I failed you. Everything you have suffered has been my fault."

Anakin was speechless at his master's spoken words "Don't say that master, none of that matters anymore."

"Yes, it matters a lot... because what is happening to you is the result of that. I will not let anything bad happen to you Anakin, I will heal you and we will keep you safe."

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It was time for them to leave Polis Massa, Padme along with her children hid from the eyes of the empire. Leaving for some outer rim world... if Palpatine looked for them he wouldn't find them, for now.

"Anakin, do you really think it's a good idea for me to hide and you be alone?" Padme held her children in her arms before boarding the ship.

"I know, and I don't like being separated from you. But I managed to save your life, and our children, and I don't plan on losing you to Palpatine now." Anakin hugged Padme.

"Anakin, where will I go?" Padme asked with her voice shaking at the farewell, she didn't know if she would see her husband again.

"They will open a camp to gather resources on a world far away from the outer rim, on Yavin 4, that is where you will hide with the Padme children." Padme was a little worried and unsure, but she knew it was necessary.

In the hangar there was a ship waiting for them along with all the people, mostly women and children.

"Take care Anakin, don't let Palpatine influence you down the dark path...I love you."

"Me too Padme... but now I have my master who will help me... we will meet again" Padme received Anakin's hug and the goodbye kiss to each of her two children.

Coruscant

Republic 500

Tomorrow (Eleventh day after the collapse)

Protected in his chambers, Sidious wakes up suddenly, unable to remember for a moment what had happened.

Once again he felt that strange sensation, where the light side called him once again, but with more force. This caused Sidious to feel disgusted to his core, trying to hold back the bile that had risen up his throat.

Through his communicator, he spoke with Sate Pestage asking what happened last night.

"Your majesty, yesterday we found you unconscious in your office, with the help of the guards we transported you to your chambers"

Sidious cut the communication, and took a few minutes to reflect on everything that had happened. How his plans bore fruit, despite having destroyed the Jedi Order and claimed the galaxy, crowning himself Emperor... he wondered why he felt empty inside.

Getting up from the bed, he went to the nearby mirror, and saw the same face with which he had deceived and manipulated everyone in the galaxy.

For the galaxy, Palpatine's face was that of a grandfather who sought the common good, who cared about his loved ones and others rather than power, which was the only thing that mattered. That man never existed, he was only a mask to hide his true dark and perverse nature, the nature of Sidious.

He hated this face for everything it represented, for Sidious Palpatine's face was that of a weak person who gave up power for his friends. But what was not, would be nothing again. It was no longer worth pretending, the Jedi were dead, they had all fallen into the web that he had woven for many years.

But no matter how much he tried to deny what he felt for Anakin, it was impossible to deny his feelings for the boy.

There was remorse inside him, for what had happened with Anakin, he didn't want to admit it but the more he denied himself those feelings grew more and more, in the depths of his soul.

"I don't know what's wrong with me, since Anakin came into my life, I feel weak..." Sidious declared to himself, but a voice inside him began to speak to him. It wasn't the dark side that spoke to him, but the light side. Why weak? Because you were moved by Anakin's presence. Maybe you are not as bad as you thought, you have even become human and the presence of that boy took your heart by surprise. You're loving him, you finally want the child, Palpatine. Sidious remained silent. You can't deny that when you met Anakin, that boy was just like you when you were his age. You can't deny that it moves you because deep down there is a little bit of love for Anakin. That love could do you very good, it can help you heal many wounds... Anakin is like your son and he came to see you as his father. Sidious felt for the first time in his life what sadness was, he knew the feelings but never experienced them because for him they represented weakness and a Sith Lord was not weak. But for a moment he shed tears down his face, the emotion causing his anger to explode, launching rays of force into his rooms. Destroying some of his art pieces, but that didn't make it any more important.

After calming down a few moments later, he tries to come to his senses and not get carried away by those feelings. Sooner or later he would eliminate that connection with the light side, it was not possible for a Sith to abandon the dark side. The dark side would not free someone who by mutual agreement has been claimed.

"A true Sith will never be able to abandon the dark side, I will not let you ruin the thousand-year plan, much less mine, Anakin." Sidious, in a fit of hatred and fury, told himself that he could not allow himself to feel something like that for someone. not even for Anakin. What am I going to be loving, that idiot? It hurts me to experience his naivety, his innocence... he couldn't stand it. I see it and it's like seeing myself from that time. I was like him, we shared many things together and like him, my mother loved me too. I'm seeing myself in him, and it horrifies me to think how blind I was. And now I'm here crying, crying because I can't love my child, because I can't love him. Because he is me... and I'm dying of envy to see him so innocent, so tender... so good. Anakin was just a tool, an object to achieve his goal. In reality he was never going to keep his promise to save Amidala's life. It was the only way to do things, following Plagueis' Sith teachings. Others don't matter, only the self matters, no one else except you. How could he be happy about the crumbs of affection that I threw at him? How could he be happy with a lie? How could you believe me? I only wanted him only for his power, because he is mine, he is only a tool in my plans. It was the only thing that mattered to me. But I can't, what that brat is doing to me, he's stronger than me. And I hate him… I hate him so much because I can't love him.

But what Sidious didn't know was that the dyad had opened and Anakin had heard everything Sidious said, even the feelings he denied and threw out of himself.

Tatooine

Jundland Wastes

Tomorrow (Eleventh day after the collapse)

According to what Obi-wan had taught him in his new training. It was to keep that connection with Sidious closed as best as possible. But it was involuntarily that it opened and as much as he wanted to close it it was impossible, but what took him by surprise was feeling Sidious's thoughts.

Anakin felt pain within his soul, one he had not felt again after his mother's death.

Hearing how Palpatine hated those light sensations, how at the same time he felt love for him... he hated him like nothing else in this galaxy.

Sidious exclaimed that he could never allow himself to feel love, not for him or for anyone else.

Anakin couldn't stand it, and he cried... it hurt him, but he definitely understood that in Palpatine there is no longer salvation or hope in a being so corrupted by the dark side.

The link remained open for a moment longer, until it just closed.

Without anything else, Anakin knelt on the ground and cried, until Obi-wan found him in that state.

"Anakin, what's wrong, tell me?" Obi-wan approached Anakin and hugged him to comfort him.

"He... never... never loved me, never... never loved me. He just wanted to use me... I'm worthless to him... he didn't really want to save Padme's life... he... used me..." Anakin cried in Obi's arms. -wan and his teacher tried to console him.

"Anakin, I told you... the Sith have no hope and they don't change..." Obi-wan hugged Anakin tightly, it was clear that his friend needed a helping hand to lean on now.

"I wanted to help him... I loved him... he was my father... he was my father" Anakin let out all his pain as he remembered Palpatine's hateful words directed at him.

Does Palpatine admit that he is emotionally attached to Anakin? And Anakin is hurt by the sudden truth, and now Padme must go into hiding with her children.