Chapter 13: Who is the enemy?
Note: Just to let you readers know I've included a small sex scene in this; I've indicated where it starts and ends with:
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This is in case you're not into that sort of thing.
Noire is still just standing there with the same neutral look. I am hearing even more quotes said from the footage, as well as seeing flashes of the footage shown. Ohhhhhhh no! My head, goddess it hurts badly, I feel as if I've gone completely insane, it's too much to bear. What's next, is Reznov gonna be in my head? Ohhhh!
"11,9,12,12,0,12 ,1 ,4 ,25 ,0 ,2 ,12 ,1 ,3 ,11 ,0 ,8 ,5 ,1 ,18, 20,100" I hear the chant that Neptune did in my head again, which she repeats constantly much to my annoyance. I see Noire's name change colour constantly between red and green, as my hand is slowly, almost in a jerky motion reaching for my gun. I see in my HUD telling me to press square repeatedly to resist. There is no square for me to press but I resist with all my might and…., phew my hand stops trying to reach for my gun. While at first I am deeply relieved to say the least, I think it will try again, and it will be even harder to resist the cries from my brainwashing to do the unthinkable.
I notice Noire also trying so hard to resist her hand, from reaching her own gun that's holstered. I can sense from her facial expressions and body language, her struggle, her inner conflict inside her.
"What's the matter Black can't sleep? Not that I care! Why don't we have a duel, I've always wanted to fight you!" Noire says to me, this time she spoke like a tsundere, a bit cocky and arrogant.
Dammit what's going on? Why is she speaking to me like this? My head aches even further. Ohhhhhh! I don't like this; this is the Noire I was hoping I wouldn't have to deal with. The one that would be nasty to me, the one that would be horrible and would demand me to fight her in her nasty tone. What's going on? It is a shame how the way she is does suggest that Neptune could be correct. Not only does my body want to kill her, but even my mind is changing the way I am. Ahhh. My head is really hurting now, oooh.
This is Noire? What kind of snobbish goddess is she? It's not that I'd love to fight her and teach her some manners or anything. I'd love to put that girl in the silly…..
Gah. I need to keep fighting this, come on Black you need to fight this not given in to this nonsense, you can see through the BS that Neptune puts in the series and you see the same…. Ooh hmmm Ok, maybe thinking about the goodness of Noire might help.
Noire is am...aw….am…..aw….a….a. I can't even think clearly.
Ok what about she is the be…be…..be… … No, that won't work either.
Somehow despite the pain and the inner conflict, I manage to respond to this.
"Had a bad dream, not that I'm bothered, and sure I'd love to…." I speak in exactly the same tone as her, showing aggression and sarcasm in my voice and body language.
I find myself crouched holding my head, as I'm going more and more crazy as my mind can't make up its mind on Noire regarding whether she's friendly or not, and the numbers in my head don't help. I can see the same inner conflict in her too; she's trying to fight it as well. I can see her holding her head in her hands as well.
"What…..did you dream about Black, are you ok?" She speaks more politely this time, but I sense the constant change of tone in her voice due to her inner conflict.
"I….Ahhhh!" I try to speak but my conflicting mind makes it difficult as it hurts me so much.
Now my hand is wanting to reach the gun again, and I try to resist by pure will power, as does Noire.
"11,9,12,12,0,12 ,1 ,4 ,25 ,0 ,2 ,12 ,1 ,3 ,11 ,0 ,8 ,5 ,1 ,18, 20,100." Neptune's never ending chant is louder than before, making it harder for me to focus.
I see my purple numbers around as well, and I feel my will is getting weaker as my head ache is getting increasingly painful at a significant rate. Despite this, I'm thankful that my gut is still telling me, encouraging me to fight this. Even if Noire does act like a tsundere, she is my goddess; I must protect her no matter what. Everyone is innocent until proven guilty. I must see the true Noire for myself.
But that is the true Noire the arrogant, war mongering abusive…
Ahhhh. I wish these conflicting thoughts would just go away now, but they don't and instead they are getting worse and worse. I'm amazed I can keep this up, but I don't know if I can hold out for much longer. There is a part of me that wants to sleep, but I'd rather not face another nightmare. All I can do is try and answer…..her.
"I dreamt I was arrested in a house, then I…ah….. Then I dreamt I was with Neptune and Nepgear." I try to speak despite my pain, but my tone is conflicting from nice to nasty as is my body language.
My head is at a breaking point; it's probably due to my mind being messed up, with the numbers and what Neptune and Nepgear have said. My body and my mind must be trying to work this all out as it's conflicted, my mind thinks horribly; my hand wants me to kill her. And it's only my diminishing will power that is fighting this poison in my mind.
"Neptune and Nepgear…what did they say?" Noire sa… I'm unsure I think Noire is trying to be nice and present herself in that manner, but some of it sounded like she's the tsundere, as does her body language if that makes any sense.
I must keep speaking; at least it doesn't hurt to talk.
Yeah talking nice to someone that…
"They said to me….." I say with no comfort. I think this might be the first time I said a phrase in a nice tone during this time, and I know I'm able to present myself as nice in my body language too. This is good, I need to keep it going and be nicer.
That's no good being as how she doesn't dese…..
I'm afraid right now, very afraid. What's going to happen to…..oh what does it matter?
I wish it would end, if I can just keep talking as nice as…
"….that you're evil, worse they showed…." I pause thinking it's best to speak in parts. Even though the inner conflict makes this rather difficult, as well as the clear brainwashing and negative outbursts of thought.
Why are you not fighting this nasty woman?
What makes it worse is I don't feel comfortable saying this at all. I feel ever so terrible, and my mind is in such unbearable pain. I cannot give up though; I must fight it with all my strength, even if I fear that due to what's happening to Noire, we'll end up fighting each other or worse.
Which is just as well being as…
"…Proof, I don't know, I'm confused, and I want to believe you're innocent. I am so sorry Noire but… Are you able to tell me and prove to me you're the good goddess, not the evil one?" I say to her as nicely as I could but with sorrow in my voice, I barely managed to hold off any negative outbursts that pop into my head.
I expected Noire to understandably lash out angrily and aggressively from this, especially with what I remember from her in the series, and what I've been seeing right now. It would have been the straw on the back. But amazingly she doesn't, though I sense her inner conflict encouraging her to despite trying to keep it at bay.
"If it's any comfort my dreams must be similar to you." Noire is trying very hard to fight her demons, as again, her tone is constantly changing in her speech as is her body language.
Because of the fact we both had similar dreams and told each other this, I feel the demons are going a bit. The fact that we are telling each other what happened, as opposed to letting our demons take control, suggests that we still have faith in each other, which we need to have at all costs if this is to be fought and defeated.
And with this, as odd as it is my head ache appears to have gone completely which is such a relief let me tell you, the numbers can no longer be heard or seen. I don't even feel any inner conflict anymore. This appears to be the same with my heavenly benevolent goddess Noire. It pleases me that I think this, and not have other thoughts of mine conflicting my opinion.
She's no longer holding her head and I can no longer sense her demons. Though she appears to be back to her kind self, I sense sadness in her.
"I also dreamt I got arrested, in what must have been the first home where we lived together as young children, and then I dreamt that I saw Neptune and Nepgear. And they told me how evil and horrible you were how you were responsible for kidnapping them, and taking them to an unknown location." Noire speaks with much sorrow; I can tell she's very upset from her body language, and her trying not to cry.
Perhaps that's part of why she's able to resist, because she has been told a similar thing to me, and doesn't want to believe it. She believes otherwise instead from her memories and gut instincts. It's interesting how she's having similar memories to me as well. If only we knew more, but hopefully we can learn more, alas it's not the time as we have this brainwashing to deal with.
I walk closer to her in an attempt to comfort her.
"You want to believe I'm good don't you?" I say to her sounding calm and pleasant.
She nodded, she doesn't cry but I can tell she's close to it.
"I believe you to be good Black, but what they said made sense." Noire replies, her eyes wanting to cry, despite her trying to suppress it, and the rest of her body expresses much sadness.
"Did they show any proof?" I ask her as calmly as I could, considering the situation.
"No they didn't, but they said you kidnapped them. That is why they weren't there; they said you forced them to become evil. Yet when I remember seeing you when I was a toddler, it reinforced my belief that you had nothing to do with Neptune and Nepgear not showing up." She explains to me with much sadness and concern, as her body language stays the same.
At least we had the same pleasant flash back of being together as babies. It's too bad that I struggle to remember anything more other than that event, but at least I know they were fun times.
"Thing is I have no memory of this, although it could of happened. I mean Neptune and Nepgear weren't there when you wanted to confront them. I could have been anywhere before today, I mean I just appeared near PS3 City." I explain sounding quite concerned and perhaps stressed, no doubt my body says this too.
She nodded after I spoke as well as looking at me with much love and comfort.
"Yet despite what our demons are trying to tell us to do. Despite what Neptune and Nepgear have told us, our guts say that we are innocent." I say to her with my tone becoming increasingly confident, and decreasingly stressed, as does the rest of my body.
By now Noire is smiling at me, in fact she's completely returned to her happy flirtatious kind self.
"Yeah we should go with our gut instincts. I think it's perfectly clear we have been brainwashed. The thing is I believe in order for the brain washing to stop, we have to prove that we're innocent, and have not done the very evil things we are accused of. I believe that there are 2 reasons why we're not at each other's throats right now, and that is: 1. Despite what they said we need to confirm that what they said is true, and try to review the evidence. 2. We have such a strong bond that I believe cannot be broken, and our guts are telling us that we're innocent." I explain sounding optimistic now, and happy that it's gone and that there's a way to fight this, and I have confidence that it is a fight that we will ultimately win.
I can sense Noire is moved by my speech as she's smiling, nodding and looking at me with her caring green eyes, with much enthusiasm. In fact she moves closer and closer to me quite slowly. It is wonderful how our own strong free will meant, that our faith in each other was what kept back the brain washing. Yep the friendly idealistic goddess is certainly back, and oh boy is it wonderful and a relief.
"I agree, I can tell you right now that I haven't done anything to harm Lastation or its people. But as you said you need proof and not just take my word. It's OK I understand completely, in fact I prefer for people to see for themselves how great my nation is." Noire approaches me after she finishes, speaking in such a happy tone. She moves slightly quicker with open arms as if she's ready to hug.
I'm so relieved. I expected earlier to have to fight Noire due to the brainwashing, but instead it doesn't look very likely, and if anything the complete opposite of that is to happen. In fact after hearing her say that, I am certain that we won't be fighting each other ever at all, which I would absolutely despise to say the very least.
"I think this must have been from Vert's attempt to brainwash us from earlier today. This must be a special kind, the slow type that occurs when you're asleep. But it does amaze me that we have managed to fight it off." I wonder aloud to Noire, as I try and continue to make sense of the brainwashing.
"Yeah, the thing is I think we're OK for now, but I'm concerned this could happen again." Noire replies in a similar tone, while still walking towards me, arms still out.
By the time we've finished we're both standing close to each other, it is then she gives me a long pleasurable loving hug and I hug her back in the same way. I thought she would feel cold due to the brainwashing but she feels warm, and comfortable, her hair feeling very soft like silk. In fact she looks the same as before even close up, this pleases me greatly to know the brainwashing has ultimately failed to change her as a person in anyway, apart from to be aware of it, and to try and fight it.
"I'm so pleased we're not fighting. And I'm glad you're no longer in agonising pain." Noire says with a huge smile on her face, before giving me a passionate loving long kiss on my forehead.
I must admit, now I feel very happy to know that despite our demons we're still together. Now my mind is in complete control and my pains have vanished, and my HUD is not infected with conflicting information and numbers, I feel more relaxed knowing that my CPU is on my side. But I know to be weary of it coming back, and now I have to convince my demons that Noire is innocent from Neptune's accusations. There is also the matter of being ready for Vert's future invasions of our land.
"Likewise, I'm glad you're ok now but how long will this last though? We'll have to think this through in the morning." I reply to her in a calm friendly manner.
"Yeah, I reckon that seeing each other face to face in the bathroom and talking about our dreams helped us fight our demons. Why don't we sleep together in the same bed?" Noire proposes to me with a caring smile.
I find myself coming to the conclusion that it's debatable as to whether I should. I would love the idea of sleeping with Noire, it would be really awesome and novel to be able to sleep with the goddess I admire and love completely. I wouldn't be surprised if she loves the idea of sleeping with me as well, and perhaps we could get to know each other even more. Maybe we can even appreciate each other even more than now. But what if we kill each other in the night? Then again it could happen whether we sleep together or not.
I do agree with her though, seeing each other face to face reminded us as well as our guts, that we are not the enemy of each other, we are absolute allies. Despite my brain washing and what I have seen, I don't believe Noire to be corrupt at all. I have seen her for myself and the surroundings which she controls, though I'll need to investigate this.
"Sure, I have got an idea though, why don't we sleep while linking arms? It's a long shot but maybe we'll get to be in the same dreams together, so we can both witness the dreams together. What do you say?" I suggest to her while smiling in a friendly manner.
"Sure I'd love to do that. Sounds like fun. I apologise for the tsundere act, I'm not a tsundere and I feel so awful for letting it come out. I know how much you hated my portrayal in the series." Noire says this with much sincerity, still hugging me affectionately after all this time, and smiling all this time too.
"It's OK Noire it's the brainwashing, if it makes you feel better I was having trouble controlling my own thoughts." I respond to her in the same tone as her.
After which she kisses me again out of love and forgiveness for a long time. It is then that she rests her head on my shoulders, before letting go as we head to her bedroom. I don't mind at all though, I really do feel as though there is a strong loving romantic bond between us, and I can sense that she actually genuinely loves me very much and I love her as well with the same amount. It makes me ever so feel great to know that she loves me too, as it's such a contrast to the series where she made out she didn't love the player at all, and instead it was the opposite.
The bedroom looks really similar to mine, with the same bed and similar sort of wonderful view. We both get in the comfortable bed together, relaxing ourselves and getting really comfortable, and after which we link arms and legs, binding each other together.
"Are you comfortable Noire?" I ask her in a caring friendly manner.
She nods playfully as she rests her head on me in a distinctive flirtatious manner.
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She then has that wonderful warm smile on her face, as if she enjoys my company and wishes to give me more fun and pleasure. She then starts hugging me for a very long time, I return the favour and we are stroking each other, her long layered white hair covering the entire back of her body, feel ever so silky, soft and smooth and also shine so brightly. I feel as though all my senses get to appreciate Noire for how flawless she is. My eyes see her beauty, her hands feel how soft and silky she is, my ears hear how kind, posh and attractive she is and my nose smells how lovely she is thanks to her perfume.
Although I've always smelt her mysterious yet aromatic captivating perfume from various distances even up close, this is the closest I've ever smelt it. I realise now that she is completely covered in the heavenly scent that oozes of smells that have joined my favourites. I think Noire has noticed me appreciating her fragrances and I know she loves this, she even gestures for me to smell the perfume she wears on her person, and that nowhere is off limits.
I think she wants to make love with me and I don't blame her at all. To be honest I always wanted to return the favour considering how amazing and fun it would be, as a strong sign of our love, but I wanted to see if she would be cool with it, and it thrills me to know that she is.
We both kiss each other with much pleasure for a very long time, as a sign of our massive love for each other.
Finally my man hood meets her womanhood. Both of us wish for this to happen and we both enjoy it very much, as Noire moans and groans with plenty of pleasure along with me. As well as enjoying this I feel more powerful, I can feel the power between us both. What a novelty to have sex with my favourite goddess, and it's a moment I wish to cherish forever. I look forward to making the most of every second, and making it last as long as possible.
"I've done this a lot of times before for various Lastation males; it's due to me being an amazing leader and having flawless beauty. It's ever so wonderful, I love doing it and they love doing it, and it's so much fun as well, a very enjoyable, thrilling experience. I'm honoured that my people would love to spend time with me and Uni, doing different fun things and making some very memorable moments.
I even had a session where I and Uni along with some males, and some famous females that the very males admired all spent time together doing various activities. It was very fun and it included gaming, driving, cosplaying, eating different newly created food, all sorts. Thing is while I'm doing this with you, I feel even more powerful than I did with anyone else, you are indeed special Black. While I love everyone and everything in Lastation, I love you the most. And I hope that we can be together forever." Noire says to me with a huge flirtatious smile on her face, and her eyes too express much enjoyment.
"So do I, you're very attractive Noire. I can't think of anyone else I'd do this with but you. You're very smart, kind, hardworking, caring and a wonderful leader who does all sorts of things for her people, and they're admire you for it. I think, no, I know you're the best leader ever." I speak with much admiration for her, and I'm certain my body language reinforces what I say.
My heavenly goddess smiles at my compliment.
And so we continue with this pleasure for a significant while enjoying it a lot all the way, but eventually we both fall asleep together in each other's arms, hugging each other with much passion. I feel less concerned now about the dreams I will face as a result of that and the talk that we've had, and this time I shouldn't be facing them alone. I should be facing them with my lover, my goddess, my companion.
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Note: Readers please listen to Call of Duty 4 Modern Warfare Intro while reading this bit:
I am pulled along, while my legs are being dragged on a dusty floor to a car that is opened, my legs are aching significantly as well as my arms which are held tightly.
I look at my surroundings to find an arch in front of the car which looks ever so plain and has been weathered so much. I also see on the floor various crates of ammunition and other wooden boxes likely to be containing equipment or food. I see a guard dressed in a grey suit standing there with an un-customised AK47 in his hands. I look up to see the bright sky with some clouds there.
Meanwhile there is someone I don't recognise talking in a foreign language, but the subtitles appear in my HUD. They sound like it's from a mega phone.
As I am dragged closer to the arch, I see buildings across a street that look ordinary, basic and perhaps in need of repair, and they appear to be shops selling food, though my gut tells me that the quality and quantity is poor.
"Today is the day where we finally witness the fall of Lastation! Along with the fall of their pathetic CPU!" The voice chants with passion along with anger.
What concerns me is the person that said that comment, but what concerns me even more is the fact that a lot of people cheered. Then again I'm patriotic towards Lastation. Who would want to see this place be destroyed, who would hate their CPU and why?
Eventually I get thrown into that car which looks like a standard grey one, nothing fancy about it. It hurts a bit but I'm fine. I look up to see Noire who's still in her HDD form get thrown in with me, she then gets clubbed in the ribs by a stick, only for them to slam the door tapping the car as if to tell it to go. Noire clutches her stomach in pain, as she does her best to conceal the aches from it.
I don't recognise any of the other people, in which they're all dressed in grey suits and wear the same coloured shirts, ties and shoes. I wanted to speak to Noire but my mouth was taped, and it didn't feel comfortable on my mouth to say the least. I wanted to remove it, but the person riding shotgun had their Uzi pointed at us. Neither of us are armed and we don't recognise this place at all, not to mention we felt pain, not a good sign. The commentator talked to us again.
"We thought that Lastation would do everything, all it did was corrupt us all." He speaks again in exactly the same tone.
More cheering, in fact I think it's a bit louder than before. We look outside and just see ourselves in quite a grim city that none of us recognise, with many shops being closed, glass windows smashed up. It looks distinctive but I couldn't tell you what it looks like, we see more of these people armed with weapons cheering with enthusiasm… at our downfall.
After a bit more driving we turn left and the person riding shotgun took a phone call, I've no idea what that person is saying, I don't even recognise the language, I wonder what language is it, or is it just a made up one for this nightmare? I hear more pathetic propaganda from the commentator. The scenery hasn't changed the bleakness of the place, and there's just endless guards with suits and stock weapons patrolling the area.
"They plagued people's minds with their games; not least they stood in our way, only interested in them. Noire being the worst of them all." He just talks, I find him a bit dull but the people sadly like it and enjoy it significantly.
I felt like hissing and booing to this rubbish, but I feel so powerless to do such a thing. At least it's a dream, it has to be I don't remember this happening, or maybe it did and in this case it just won't come back to me, I dunno. But is it something that may happen in the future? I then see some of those soldiers killing random innocent people, the innocent people must be gamers as they wear more casual clothes and have similar colour schemes to our nation.
I turn to Noire as she also feels helpless, and she's still clutching at her ribs trying to sooth them. She's struggling to tolerate the pain, but she just suffers in silence as what else can she do, other than to not show signs of pain for the satisfaction of our enemies.
"They cause harm to us mentally. And we shall not be harmed mentally!" He starts yelling now and sounds even angrier, which baffles me considering they supposed to have triumphed in this. Maybe the point is to show that they are not to be messed with.
I strongly disagree but sadly everyone is still cheering.
After more driving and turning, not to mention everywhere we look seeing soldiers executing innocents left, right and centre, Noire looks even more horrified and helpless. In fact her body language screams to me how sickened with grief she is at the loss of innocent life. There's just horror everywhere we look, of people dead or dying as slowly and as painfully as possible by means of being shot, and what's worse is that there's absolutely nothing we can do.
"The time has come for us to celebrate, as we have owned Lastation once and for ALL! Noire will always be dumb, she will always fall flat on her face, she will always be humiliated, And she will always be OWNED, and be the nasty tsundere that doesn't deserve to triumph!" He is louder than before now, and he is also enraged as he speaks with passion.
I can't take any more of this. There is even a dog chasing a person growling in such a menacing manner, who fortunately managed to get away by climbing over a fence. But then, I can then hear a gunshot which probably meant that he died.
"Our world has been liberated from Lastation especially Noire, and now we are closer to our goal." He quietens down a bit and calms himself too by the same amount.
Despite all this driving and constant hearing of these stupid comments and cheering at this rubbish, I still don't know where we are, maybe we're probably not meant to know and that it doesn't matter.
"Our armies are ready and right now they are restoring our planet back to its former glory." He says passionately followed by applause.
Former glory? Well, being as Lastation is quite old compared to the other lands, it must mean that these people are what I call anti gamers. Especially considering the significance of their appearance in contrast to the innocents they kill. I also see various soldiers shooting their rifles upwards, yelling and chanting in celebration. The car has finally stopped after what felt like a long time of nothing but carnage. Noire and then I get pulled out of the car quite viciously, only to be stomped in our heads knocking us both out.
Now we've regained consciousness almost as if it was instantaneous, we are dragged along to what looks like a courtyard which is dilapidated to say the least. The architecture is drab and has seen better days. We are surrounded by grim dreary buildings in need of a face lift and hostile troops yelling.
"Just as Lastation got us, we got Lastation." He speaks again in the same tone.
They all cheer, cheering for our execution to happen, with much aggression as if it cannot come soon enough.
"Noire will never be a good CPU, let alone be the main character; she will always be our PET!" He speaks with passion and is the angriest yet, though what he says doesn't move me at all unlike Noire.
We then get tied up to a post in a rough manner, as we see a person who's going to execute us apparently. It's another guy in a suit, so there are no distinctive features and I don't recognise his face. I notice that person has a Desert Eagle pistol in his hand; he then walks slowly to us until at point blank range the person cocks their gun…
I guess this is it; we're going to die in our nightmare but what will happen to us? What does this mean? Is this the end?