I have no excuse. I can blame life or University but I'm not. I might take a break. Not from writing but from current arc. It just that... there are times you might get inspired to write something else. So yeah I have writer block for the Rumi POV. And working on Yukino POV base off of a doujin. Yeah cleaning it to be a bit, to lower a bit of adult level.

Edit: Actually this was my third time I edit this and just post a few minutes ago but I notice it did not save some of the changes...

Edit: Ok, I edit for the fourth time today. Well actually three but I'm done now at 7:51 pm central time. If you find a mistake or I do I might edit it again in the future.

Edit: 8/30/2018 at 5 pm central time. I have errors

I'm in total bliss. I just watch the best film with people who care about me. This Pan-san movie is my favorite. I relaxed my back against the couch. I have a smile on my face.

"Wah! That was actually such a good movie!" Said Yuigahama-san.

"Yes, that was probably my favorite Pan-san movie so far and I don't say that lightly either," I replied.

"I bet you said the exact same thing about the others when they came out too…" Spoke Hikigaya-kun.

It is fortunate that the lights were still off. Even though I turn toward him, I can tell that my face is beet-red from embarrassment. It really can't be help, the Pan-san series keep getting better with every new movie they release.

"It's not my fault that each subsequent movie is better than the last. I'm just being honest about my praise for the Destiny Company's efforts. They're truly masters of the craft." I replied.

"Right… The craft of animating cartoon pandas really is a dying art…" Said Hikigaya-kun (This part crack me up).

There was silence in the room… I feel dejected. His words hurt me. I know he called me a demon superwoman but I'm still a girl (I still find this weird since I'm actually a guy). The fact that the person that I like might not enjoy the movie I pick. I want to roll myself into a small ball because I'm scared of what he might say.

"Does that mean that you didn't enjoy the movie?" I asked him.

"What? Nah. I actually really like it." Replied Hikigaya-kun.

"Oh… Really?" I replied.

I was surprise but I felt relief. I see, so you did enjoy it.

"What, you think I'd lie about something like this?" He said as he raised an eyebrow.

"No. I believe you." I said.

"Ah!" Yelled a Yuigahama-san. "If even Hikki liked it, then that's proof that it was a great movie!"

"Hey now… I like plenty of movies. They're just ones' you guys haven't seen before," Replied Hikigaya-kun in a defensive tone.

Well most of the movie he might like are anime movies. Well there are other film that he might like but I rather not know that the guy I like was watching pornographic films.

"Uh huh. Oh! What time is it?" Asked Yuigahama-san.

That was a bit too loud, well it is Yuigahama-san. I check my phone and responded.

"It is 9:40 pm, Yuigahama-san."

Yuigahama-san simply close her eyes and then gave a short nod.

"Ah, okay… It's getting late. I think I should probably head home now, then." Replied Yuigahama-san.

As much as I wanted her to stay. She has to go shopping and pack her luggage for her family vocation. I am sadden about that.

"Yes. I suppose it wouldn't do to keep your mother waiting. You should also be well rested for your shopping trip tomorrow." I replied.

"Yup," Yuigahama-san said as she stood up and began to stretch. "Owahhh~" as a yawn escape her mouth and once she was done. She turns around to face me and then gave me a huge hug. She was really warm. Well it might be because of her chest that were squeeze between us but I rather believe it is warm because of her warm personality.

"Thanks for everything Yukinon! The party today sure was fun, huh?"She asked.

"Yes. It was no problem at all Yuigahama-san." I hug her back lightly, "Ah, but did you really have that much fun though? All we did was watch a movie?" I asked her.

Yuigahama-san rested her face on my shoulder and hummed happily before saying, "Of course I did. Any time I get to spend with my friends is the best time I can imagine."

That was embarrassing Yuigahama-san. Even I can tell that my cheeks are red from that. I was force to mumbled that under my breathe, "I see". To confirmed my idea. Which is mostly being that it was embarrassing to admit but I also had fun with her. I notice that Hikigaya-kun turn away from our display of friendship and I can see his cheeks and ears were heating up too.

Yuigahama-san finish her hug with me and turn to Hikigaya-kun and gave him an equal embarrass statement. "Thanks for coming too, Hikki. Without you, the party wouldn't have been the same."

"Ah…Yeah." Hikigaya-kun replied was short but I knew he felt embarrass too since he awkwardly rubs the back of his neck as he turns away from Yuigahama-san.

Yuigahama-san has a huge smile and then turned back to me, "Alright Yuikinon, I'm gonna get going now. I just hope it doesn't like snow or something on my way back."

"Do you want me to walk you home?" Offered Hikigaya-kun.

Yuigahama-san shook her head, "Thanks, Hikki but I'll be ok. The station's not too far from here."

He nodded, "Alright. Later then."

"Okay. Bye bye!" Said Yuigahama-san

I walked Yuigahama-san to the door.

"Yukinon, good bye!" Said Yuigahama-san

"Yes, Yuigahama-san, good bye. And sweet dreams too." I replied

The door close behind Yuigahama-san. It was at that time I realize that I'm alone with Hikigaya-kun. I thought he would be a gentleman walk Yuigahama-san even when she rejects his offer. Well it is not a bad thing, I can spend more time with him. Naturally he is a coward so I'm not worried that he would take advantage and attack me. But I won't mind if he got the guts to be a bit forceful and k-kis-… w-w-what I'm think of? Yukino get your mind out of the gutter. I have to calm down, I'm still a host. Even if Hikigaya-kun is the boy I like, I still have to treat him as a guest. I can't favor him over the others.

"A-Ah…" Said Hikigaya-kun with his voice cracking.

"What's the matter Hikigaya-kun?" I asked

I was wondering how he was feeling since his voice did crack. I was curious because it appears that he was nervous. I was also nervous but he appears to be more nervous than me. Does that mean he is concerned about me?

"Ah, I guess I should get going too then, huh…" He muttered as he stood up from the couch and grabbed his coat.

"Hm? Do you have something to do tomorrow morning as well?" I asked

I'm surprise that he has plans. Well I'm hundred percent certain that he not going to meet a girl tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about that. Well if I have to guess he will laze around and sleep in.

"Ah… no, not really…"

"Oh. I figured as much. You having plans on a Saturday morning would be quite the Christmas miracle indeed." I interrupted him

"Hey now, I've got plenty of things to do tomorrow. First, I'll sleep, then I'll sleep, then I might have some dinner before sleeping again. Now that you mention it, I actually have a really long day ahead of me." Retorted Hikigaya-kun

At first, I was bit sadden to hear he plans but it turns out that he really was going to laze around his home. This cause me to chuckle a bit. "I should've known better than to expect anything more from the master of idleness himself."

There was comfortable pause between us.

"So, do you need to help Komachi-san with her homework or something" I asked

I just want spend more time with him and maybe get the courage to ask him on a date. I want to know if really does important plans for tomorrow.

"Huh? Komachi's homework… No, she doesn't need help…" Replied Hikigaya-kun.

He appears to be confused rather, I might be showing my confusion too.

"So why the rush then?" I asked him

He looked up, his onyx eyes were focus on my eyes. I have no idea what he was think about.

"Ah… Well…" He began to speak while rubbing the back of his neck, "With Yuigahama-san gone, you know… I just don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything…"

He averted his eyes to the floor. I remain silent, I was a bit surprise. I knew he can be considerate.

"Oh." His consideration for me was something new that my only reply was short lived.

"Alright. I'll get going then. See you later." He said as moving toward the door

I-I have to stop him.

"…I'm not uncomfortable, Hikigaya-kun."

He stops mid-step and turn slightly toward me.

"O-oh."

He appears to be taken off guard by my words. We have spent those past few years around one another. I know perfectly well that he has change.

"…I-if you like, you could stay a while longer?" I asked him without realizing that I have raise my arm slightly. When I realize how foolish it might appear, I immediately lowered it. Awkward… Yukino, that was just plain awkward gesture you just did. What would Hikigaya-kun think about it?

"Err… Sure." Nodded Hikigaya-kun

He retook his seat on the couch. I have to leave the room, to calm down. Seeing how he has an empty tea cup. That was the best way to escape.

"…Would you like some more tea.?"

He replied in a mumbled. I nodded and collected the tray and teapot. I left to the kitchen. I heard a small sigh behind me. In the kitchen, I boiled some more water. Yukino, it is alright we all know that Hikigaya-kun is a coward he is not going to attack us. Even if we want him to be a bit forceful… No let not think about that. This is the perfect time to ask him out. This the logical thing to worry about now. Sure, we have our alone time, it is not frequent but there is time it would be just Hikigaya-kun and I in the same room. Just reading, enjoying the atmosphere. Most of the time Hikigaya-kun is always surrounded by us, get taken away by Isshiki-san for student council work mostly manual labor, private talks with Kawasaki-san but that turn out to be tutor sections, Komachi, Hiratsuka-sensei, or Zaimokuza-san and Totsuka-san (I was going to follow others' running gag of forgetting Zaimokuza's name and in the just called him Chuuni-chan. But for this story line, he does not appear).

The water was done boiling. I pour the water into the teapot and added some tea leaves to brew. I walked back to the living room. He was still seating down, it appears that he was thinking.

"Would you like any milk with your tea?" I asked him

"Nah. I'll take it plain please." Replied Hikigaya-kun

"Really? I've always thought that you were a fan of sweet things" I said with a small chuckle.

I place the tray of tea on the table, I began to pour red tea into the two porcelain teacups.

"Yeah, I guess that's true…" He replied

He really does like his sweets. I mean he really like Maxx Coffee, he enjoys eating my bake goods, the chocolate that I made, and Maxx Coffee. Yes, I place Maxx Coffee twice. Really now, if we break the fourth wall, you all read the light novel or fanfics he always had a Maxx Coffee can. I would not be surprise if he drinks it at every meal.

"I don't know. Maybe it's the nostalgia speaking, but I think tea tastes best plain." Said Hikigaya-kun

Is he talking about our time in the club room? Well base on my knowledge that I collected from Komachi-san. He usually drinks coffee at anytime and at cafes so logically speaking he only drinks it at the club room. It appears that I had paused for several seconds from his words but I started to finish pouring the hot liquid into the porcelain cups. I lifted one of the cups for him and he accepted it with a quiet thanks.

"Nostalgia huh? I'm surprised that such a concept even has a place in your mental vocabulary." I said after I took a sip of tea.

"Well, of course it does. Our environments do end up playing the biggest role in the shaping us after all. If all that time spent drinking bitter black tea with you and Yuigahama didn't end up having an effect on me, that would be highly surprising, wouldn't it?" Replied Hikigaya-kun

So, he really was thinking about us in the club room. This brought me a smile.

"What?" He asked.

I guess I was laughing or something that he had to ask me. You really can't fault me for that. I lately notice myself being more relax when I'm together with them. Well his words did hold some truth to them.

"Ah, it's nothing. Once again, that answer just seems so typical of you," I replied

"Oh" He replied as he sipped at his cup. "Ow. Damn cat's tongue."

This cause me to laugh again. Always hurting yourself. I guess my laughing cause him to comment again.

"Laughing at my pain huh… You could at least try and pretend to have sympathy or something…"

Oh dear. Sympathy from me? If only you knew? Yuigahama-san and I have been giving you hints and yet… Really now, the reason I continue this tease and other interaction with you was because I'm in love with you. If it wasn't for that reason only, even if we are club mates I would have ignore you. I remove my hand from my face that I use cover my smile.

"No, it's not that I find your pain amusing, Hikigaya-kun. Well, not all that much anyway."

I seen you in pain, the hurt you suffer from your peerless sacrificing self. The pain in my heart witnessing you. Currently the pain you are suffering now can not be compared to what you been through.

"You just contradicted yourself right there…" He said

He looked at me. Seeing how he had a curious expression on his face. I explain it to him shortly after.

"I just find it strange somehow," I replied

Strange? Well if you think about it, the lack of communication between us. Even though we don't need to talk, our words still convey to each other…

"What's strange?" He asked

My eyes met his as I turn to face him. He just observes my facial expression. I know he understand what I'm talking about. The vagueness in our communication is just another form of communication between us.

"That despite how little we communicate, how much it seems that we understand about each other." I replied

This unspoken phrase is not need but I express it. For us, it is something special. It might have confused him for a few seconds but he still replied.

"Ah…"

He stayed silent. I guess he was having a monologue moment. I rather not start one of my own. It's better to just sum up my ideas. And that is, we enjoy being non-talkative because we don't really need to talk to enjoy our self or to communicate what we think. I relax by watch him and taking sip of my tea.

"… Well, the Japanese language isn't perfect you know. Maybe it's better like this." He said

He took a quick sip of his tea. Why? Why do you need to drink the tea fast? Well either way his words did make sense. That our way of communicating is not bad at all.

"I think it is." I replied

I can tell I had a big smile behind my teacup. He nodded and a comfortable silence fell over the apartment as we sipped at our warm drinks.

"So…" He eventually said. "What exactly should we do?"

What should we do? Well I would not mind watching another movie but knowing Hikigaya-kun, it would be too late for that and he would not like to over stay his welcome. There is talking but Hikigaya-kun usage of words can be heavy at times. Yes, that is the best option. We just need to talk to each other. It not like we can read a book, knowing our nature. We might spend the night together reading.

"Well, watching another film is probably out of the question since it's getting late. I suppose we could just talk for a little bit." I said.

For some reason, he coughs at my remark.

"Two loners forcing themselves to talk to each other huh? That can only end well." Said Hikigaya-kun

Really now! I hate that term.

"Hmph, don't make it sound like socializing is some sort of exceptionally difficult task for me. Besides, I don't take kindly to that term." I replied.

It not like we are loners. That term doesn't fit us well now. He raised an eyebrow.

"What, loner? It's not like it's a bad thing," He said.

"Still, I just… don't like it," I said with a pout, "Regardless, I can't help but feel that you're slightly wrong on both counts…"

Yes, wrong. We have come far from that time. We are not alone anymore.

"Wrong? How so?" He asked.

Do I really have to explain it?

I started to fidget a bit and I turn away from him a bit, "Well…What you said about us being… That might have been true in the past… but things have changed, haven't they?"

I know my voice was small and timid.

"It's wrong of me to speak for you… but as for me, I feel… that I'm no longer…" I inhale a lungful of air before I speak out, "That I'm no longer… alone."

I gave one of my confident smiles.

"A-ah…"

"I realize that it might be out of line for me to ask this, but… have they change for you as well? Hikigaya-kun?" I ask with soft voice.

He just stared into the distance before he replied. I guess he was taken a back from my question.

"Yeah, of course they've changed. I mean… I guess if we were to judge things by the technical definition, it'd be fair to say that I'm not really a loner anymore, huh…?"

Did he get confuse or something? It is true if you examine our current situation. Yuigahama-san and I are best friends. Hikigaya-kun got closer to us during our time in the club room. Others were drawn to him. He gain relationships; Isshiki-san, Kawasaki-san, Hiratsuka-sensei, Zaimokuza-san and Totsuka-san. As well as us, Yuigahama-san and I trust him. Even now, we held a party for Yuigahama-san and we are currently talking to each other. I consider that as fact that we are not loners, not anymore.

"I suppose that would be technically incorrect, yes." I replied with a smile.

"Yeah"

He seems to be more relax now. He took a sip of his tea. I notice that he turned to toward the window.

"…Huh? Is it snowing?"

. I also turn around when he told me that and saw that it was snowing.

"Oh. It looks like it is. I hope Yuigahama-san made it home safely." I asked in a worry state.

"Well, it's been a while since she's left so I think she should be alright," He offered. "Besides, the snow usually doesn't pick up for a while when it first begins. If it just started, the volume and rate shouldn't be all that high."

That is just un-logical. Where does he pull those unscientific logic from? I stared at this individual with a slight loathing. I know what you might be thinking how can I, Yukino be in love with him. Well he has a certain charm; his eyes do scare many of potential rivals for his love interest. But what made me fall for him was his caring side. He doesn't show it to others but he always cared for Yuigahama-san, Isshiki-san, Komachi, Hiratsuka-sensei, Totsuka-san, Kawasaki-san, Chuuni-chan, and myself…

Well I think I'm going on a tangent. I have to guide this misinform individual.

"That's like asserting that you're more likely to land heads if you flip tails three times first. Without knowing the cloud density and a host of other variables, trying to predict the severity of the precipitation is a fool's errand… Which I suppose explains it all, really" I said.

"Ah… It was just a guess. Geez," He grumbled.

It was really a foolish guess.

"A poor guess" I replied.

"Buzz off," He replied with an eyeroll.

It was not a gesture of irritation. But of content. This just cause me to stay silent.

"So, do you have plans for Christmas?" He asked.

"H-huh?" I lowered the tea cup that was en route to my mouth.

I know that might have heard nervous sounded or weird. Wait! Is this the right time to ask him out? No, he just wants to ask if I had plans. That's all, he has no ulterior method behind his words. I should reply honestly since I do have a certain idea.

I cough once to clear my throat. Set the teacup down. "Well… I have an idea of what I want to do… but nothing is really set in stone so far, no." I replied.

"Ah, I see. The same goes for me," He nodded.

Well it not like my plans are definite. There are several places I have in mind that would entertain Hikigaya-kun and I. The research I have done only produce a result that a movie, shopping and dinner was an ideal date for first timers…

Did I hear that right…?

"…So, you don't have any plans either?" I glance at his direction as I asked him.

"Well, nothing that I've explicitly planned out. I might end up seeing a movie if something good comes out though." He replied.

"Oh. I understand," I nodded.

I can include that in my plan. With this I might just use the research result. I have some time I just have to research some movie, restaurants, and stores we can spend our time at.

"It's getting late. I should probably get going now. I don't want to be alone on the train or I might end up becoming the first victim of the holiday season."

Haha… (I forgot what the Japanese onomatopoeia for laughing was)

I cover my mouth with my hand I can't believe that I laugh out loud to that terrible joke of his.

"With rotten eyes like those? I think you'll scare off any predator before he even comes within a hundred-foot radius of you…"

He seems to want to say something about my comment but didn't. He scratched the back of his neck instead.

"Right… Well, actually I guess that's good news. At least eyes are good for something then." He said.

Well logically he able to see through people. I did mention that his eyes do keep potential romance with other girls away.

"Hm, now that's an oddly optimistic thing for you to say."

"Well, I mean things have changed, right?" He shrugged.

"Yes," I nodded.

I found what he says delightful. I'm happy. I saw him stand up. He put on his coat (Originally, I want to him to leave an article of clothing behind but I stuck with the story. What!? Don't you want to know what Yukinoshita would do with it? Well too bad).

"Uh, thanks for everything tonight." He said as he began to make his way toward the door.

"…I had a good time."

I stood up and awkwardly walk alongside him. To think I almost trip getting up and now my stride is weird. We made our subsequent paths to the entrance of my apartment.

"Of course, … It wasn't a problem at all. I had fun as well," I said with a smile.

When we reach the nook next to the door, Hikigaya-kun bent over to slip on his outdoor shoes. After he finish, he stood to his full height and began to initiate the "goodbye phase" that is used in social gathering.

"Alright… I'll see you later." He said.

"Yes, Monday, correct?" I confirmed.

"Yep. See you then."

Hikigaya-kun gave me a slight wave as he said this, I reciprocate the same gesture. We stood there for a few seconds. I believe this might be the right time to ask him. Yes, this the perfect time to request a date with him. I look at his face but that was a mistake. I can hear my heartbeat now. I can't request it. I walk pass him and pull the door open softly. Stupid Yukino... You were so close to asking him out. You coward.

He gave me a final nod and walked into the hallway. I saw him walk toward the elevator. As I saw his back, it gave me some courage again, well not enough to ask for a date.

As he was about to press the button for the elevator, I called out to him. I know it was quiet but I believe he would have heard it.

"Hikigaya-kun?"

He paused where he was standing and turned around to face me.

"Yeah?" Hikigaya-kun asked.

"Be careful out there. It seems to be snowing pretty hard…"

He gave a small grin

"It's not like I'm not used to the snow by now," He answered.

"I see." I whispered.

I gave a smile as a replied, a nod, and then I close the door. I lend on the door. My head was filled what Hikigaya-kun had said. I think he was trying to tease me. He was use to snow. A play of words but it still reach my heart. "I'm use to Yukino by now..."

I got up. I tidy up the apartment. After cleaning, I walked to my room. I undress and then dress in my Pan-san pajamas. I laid down on my bed and hug my pillow. My warm face was blushing. I called out his name.

"Hachiman"

I rolled over and buried my face into my pillow.

"Hachiman"

"Hachiman"

I close my eyes, my conscious was fading into the world of slumber. I called out his name one last time before I lost conscious...

"Hachi…"

"…man"

Well yeah not sure how I feel about that ending.

Here is the list:

1. "Blue moon" By lose

2. "My Clubroom's President is Far More Broken Than I Expected" By FireHero- I'm just taking shots at both author and author of "Shiori-san to Hikigaya-kun" by Veltus
3. "Growth" by Achoopredator- OCs' POV

4. Cultural event (Saki's POV)

5. "One Thing Leads to Another" by Azulito

6. "A Different Turn" by StoryTelleroftheMist

7. "The Second Chance" by Themultislayer

Here some work, I'm doing on the side:

"Kabedon" By JGTrejo

"Rumi's POV: I Met My Crush Again" By yeah myself (JGTrejo) again

"Yukino's POV: Our Sexual Life is Not Expected at all" by JGTrejo. Yeah the title might change in the future.