Chapter 123

Everyone Is Different

Cameron was much happier the last few weeks for a change. Things with John and the girls were back to normal. She really did understand the love of all of them better. She saw each of them sacrifice their personal desires and wishes. Instead, they tried to help her to help herself. Sacrifice was the true test of love. When one is willing to give up anything, even the thing they want most in life, to help or protect the one they love, it showed they put the one they love before themselves. She witnessed it first hand. She was a part of it.

She replayed her time with River. She reviewed to what River told her about how other people feel. River helped her to see she was no different. The problem was because she 'felt' things more, and wasn't able to let go of things. River explained 'time' helped dull the pain of past events for most humans. For her, each past event was as if it just occurred. The pain was always just as intense. It was what caused her so much distress and trauma. Every bad thing which ever happened to her, would replay as if it just happened, one after another, after another, at full intensity. River explained it would drive a person insane if it was how every bad event which ever happened was viewed and felt.

Cameron often believed she suffered from mental illness. There were times when she thought she was insane because of the way she felt. It was because of the way she felt things, which caused her to feel in such a way.

River helped her develop a filter to slow those memories down, so she wouldn't feel the pain as intense. It worked to some extent. Still, there were times when things seemed to creep through. Everything was in her mind and always on her chip.

It was time to set everything right and recognize things were different. Cameron knew she was better than she'd been acting. There was one big hang up to correct now since she could filter her past. She tried to work on it before. She wanted to do better. It was time to do the right thing.

Cameron sought out Riley. She found her in a few minutes.

"Hello, Riley." Cameron said as she smiled at her.

Riley was pleased to see Cameron. She always thought Cameron looked beautiful. She knew Allison and Cameron shared the same DNA. They shared the same appearance as well. Somehow Cameron always looked more like a beauty queen than a Terminator. She always looked better than Allison.

"Hi, Cameron." Riley said.

Cameron tried to make Riley feel at home as part of the group. She couldn't blame this girl for what another version of Riley did to her. It wasn't THIS person. Riley wasn't Future Riley. Future Jesse was just as responsible for what happened, as well as the way it happened. She didn't hold it against Jesse. She knew these people weren't the same ones who hurt her, even if they evolved from the same person.

She wanted to reach out to Riley in a meaningful way. She wasn't sure what she wanted to do, or how to do it. There were a few ideas which crossed her mind.

"Can I come by your room later on?" Cameron asked.

Riley wasn't sure why. She was afraid to ask. She didn't want to create any animosity. She was a little curious as well. She didn't need to be reminded about what curiosity did to the cat.

"Sure." Riley said.

Cameron smiled at Riley.

"I'll see you at three then." Cameron said as she walked away.

Riley didn't know if she should be scared or feel happy. She was unsure what was about to happen. Cameron seemed genuinely happy and friendly. She felt she needed to make it up to Cameron what another future version of herself did to her. She didn't think it was a good time to point out that if John hadn't been so lustful and greedy, none of the bad things would have happened in the first place. She knew John let the little head think for the big head.

She was aware it was a problem for most of the males in the future as well. There it was a little more extreme. With an uncertain future for everyone, some people were willing to take more than they should. They didn't seem to care what happened to other people along the way. As long as they were able to achieve their satisfaction, they didn't really care about much else.

They were even some men who abused her, who apologized as things were about to happen. They knew what they were about to do was wrong, they still did it anyway. She could understand the fear of death some of them faced going forward. It was something she needed to face as well. She didn't need to face it at the hand of others on top of everything. She was told by other females to not resist or attempt to fight it. They told her if she just let it happen, it was over in about a minute. It usually was. They would simply pull their pants back up and leave, as if nothing happened.

Riley waited in her room. She was unsure what was going to happen. She straightened her room and made her bed. It was something she didn't normally do. The results didn't look perfect to her. She checked the time and did both of those things again. She was satisfied this time. She didn't want to look lazy or sloppy. Growing up there never was a bed to make. She was lucky to have a blanket on a cold night. She wanted to make a good impression on Cameron.

She hoped Cameron wasn't going to harm her. She didn't think so, but the thought crossed her mind. It wasn't a pleasant thought. Cameron was very nice to her for the last few weeks, real nice. It was like she cared about her. It was something no one did in the future. At best she was someone to use for their pleasure. She reflected on how no one ever cared for her other than the minute or two they 'used her'. It was only ever other females who tried to please and satisfy her. It was something she sought out as well.

Derek and her were on and off. At least Derek would spend enough time with her for her to reach 'heaven'. Derek was a good man, but he was still lost. She knew he was hung up on Jesse still. Then again, he always did eyeball Cameron, everyone did, Man, Woman, and Machine. Only Gail and Holly didn't at first, but now they did too. They'd become friendly to her as well.

She liked being around the Metal girls. They were unlike Cameron, or the male Terminators. They did things differently and acted differently. They were both created as Restorators by Mrs. Weaver. They were also from her future. They were never Terminators under the control of Skynet.

Riley's mind drifted some as she waited for Cameron.

Riley remembered back to one time when Gail and Holly were at the base together. It didn't happen often. They were arguing. The nature of the argument surprised her. It was sort of funny, but serious at the same time. She couldn't help but listen in.

Gail and Holly faced each other.

"Mine are bigger than yours, Holly." Gail said. "It makes me more desirable."

"Mine are better proportioned. My nipples are smaller and pinker." Holly said. "Size isn't everything. Mine are more beautiful. It makes me more desirable."

Riley walked up after she'd listened for a short while. She wanted to get in on the conversation. She casually strolled into the area as if she didn't know what they were discussing.

Gail saw her first and called her over.

"Hello. We want your honest opinion." Gail said. "I want your honest opinion."

Riley wanted to see where things were headed. There was usually a stern look on Gail's face. When Gail did smile, her smile was beautiful. It wasn't very often.

"OK." Riley said. "I think I can be honest."

Holly looked pleased Riley would help. She thought some human input would be a good choice. To always have the same argument with Gail was actually irritating. Nothing ever changed with either of their arguments.

"Thank You." Holly said. "We want someone who's fair to be the judge."

Riley could see they were both very competitive right now. She was very curious as to the direction things would go.

"What do I need to do?" Riley asked.

Holly and Gail looked at each other. They both wanted to be the victor.

Much to her surprise and delight, Gail and Holly stripped off their tops.

"Who has the most attractive breasts?" Gail asked.

Riley was as surprised as she was impressed. They were both very voluptuous.

"Wow!" Riley said.

She was a little stunned they did it. She was even more surprised at how HOT the two 'machines' really were. They looked better than anyone in her future she'd ever seen in person.

"I can say you are both really 'built'." Riley said.

She wasn't so sure her choice of words was the best choice, since both of them were actually constructed or built. She hoped they would take it as a play on words.

Gail stepped forward and arched her back slightly. It made her breasts incredibly prominent.

"Whose are bigger?" Gail asked.

Holly took a more demure approach. She stood next to Gail and smiled.

Riley actually thought it was very sexy.

"Whose are prettier?" Holly asked. "Maybe more attractive is the proper word."

Riley couldn't believe her good fortune. It was too good to be true. She hoped to make the most of the situation. She asked if she could touch them. She knew a chance like this would probably never happen again.

She also always wondered what the breasts of a female Terminator really felt like. She'd read about implants for human females. The results were often less than stellar. Everything on the Metal girls was synthetic. She reached out and touched both of them at the same time. She couldn't believe the rush of excitement she felt as she did.

Riley was surprised. Their breasts felt just like the human one's she'd touched before. She too found comfort in other females in her future. They knew what it took to get the 'job' done. Females seemed to be the only ones who could 'return' feelings of love. Not only did they feel the same as a human female, she marveled at how unblemished everything was. Most of what she touched in the future was marred with sores, or scar tissue, usually both. It was just the way everyone was.

Gail's breasts were softer, squishy, and bouncy.

Holly's were firmer, tighter, and more solid.

Riley looked around and no one was in the area. An idea popped into her head. She figured it couldn't hurt to advertise a little. There was always a chance one of them would be a little more curious.

"Let's go in this room here." Riley said.

Once they were in the room, Riley took off her top.

The Metal girls looked at her and at each other.

"Your breasts are 'different' too." Gail said.

Riley wanted to get them to explore some. She figured there was only one way to make an accurate comparison between each of them.

"Touch mine and touch each other's breasts. It's no big deal really. It's beautiful. It's what all females have. They all look and feel different. Every female is like this, they are all different in size and shape. No two of them are ever the same."

They did touch Riley. It seemed they both liked Riley's breasts the best. It may have been because Riley allowed them to touch her breasts. It was the first time they touched a human female in such a manner.

Riley thought she liked the look of Holly's breasts the best, but she didn't say so. She didn't want to 'close' any doors if the Metal girls ever wanted a 'little more'. She would be willing to give it a try, if they wanted to explore some. She wasn't sure what would happen. She wasn't even sure what could happen. She was willing to find out.

There was something else Riley wanted to make them aware of if they weren't already. It was her 'favorite part' on every female. She figured if nothing else, it would pique their curiosity. It would hopefully make them want to explore a little more. She believed the encounter would prove to be most fruitful if it was one on one.

"I'm not going to show you mine down there." Riley indicated between her legs. "They are all 'different' too. Every single one of them, on every female, is different in some way. The size, shape, texture, coloring, and especially the pigmentation changes, are all different."

Gail and Holly looked at each other.

They both started to take off their pants. There was a new challenge to be waged. They were going to see which one of them was more beautiful 'down there'.

Riley hoped their new interest would spark some additional follow up on at least one of their parts. If she was going to show something, she planned to use it.

"I'm going to go now." Riley said.

Riley put her shirt back on and left.

She did pause at the door and looked back. She really liked what she saw. Much to her surprise, Gail was very compact and trim. Holly was a little different in several ways. She felt they both looked better than her. She actually believed both of them looked better than her in every way. She needed to remind herself everyone was different. It wasn't just what someone possessed, it was how they were able to use it which mattered.

She continued out the door. She was relieved she didn't see either one of them the rest of the day. She did hope the next time there was a personal encounter with one of them, they would want to make a further comparison. She knew she was going to come up a little short, but since they liked what was up top, they would probably like what was elsewhere as well.

Riley smiled to herself as she walked away. In fact, she needed to go to her room right now and take care of business. It was something she seemed to do quite often.

Riley smiled at the whole chain of events. She also needed to think about what was about to happen now as she sat in her room and waited. She was pretty sure Cameron wasn't there to do any type of comparison.

The knock at the door startled Riley.

She snapped back to the present.

Cameron opened the door and walked into the room.

Riley wondered if Cameron was there to kill her. She didn't think so, but the thought was still in the back of her mind.

"Hello, Riley." Cameron said.

She was relieved to see a smile on Cameron's face. She flashed one as well.

"Hello, Cameron." Riley said.

Riley thought things seemed good so far. She was still alive. Her neck hadn't been snapped. Well, not yet anyway.

A more serious look developed on Cameron's face. It seemed like it was about something important.

"Riley, I want to apologize to you personally if I've ever treated you poorly, or meanly, for something you didn't do." Cameron said. "I know you weren't involved with the earlier events."

Riley thought Cameron looked sincere. Maybe she'd better come clean about everything. The thought for a 'little more' crossed her mind several times. She didn't want Cameron to catch her in a lie.

"I did sort of try a few times." Riley confessed. "Nothing ever happened. I guess I read more into it than was there."

Cameron knew as much.

Sometimes events drove themselves.

"It happens." Cameron said. "All's well that ends well."

She wanted to make Riley look Tight and spend the evening with her. She wanted Riley to feel 'special', at least for a night.

It was Cameron's attempt to 'reach out'. Her previous attitude toward Riley bothered her. It was her own doing. It wasn't the fault of Riley.

River told Cameron she was better than what she made herself feel. It was time she made some good feelings for a change. It was time to look at the overall picture, not just a spot on it.

Cameron carried a bag with her along with some makeup supplies. She set the makeup supplies down and opened the bag.

"I got you a few things." Cameron said.

Riley was very surprised. No one ever gave her anything. She felt excited.

"You did? Thank you, Cameron." Riley said. "I can't wait to see."

Cameron took everything out, one at a time. The last two items were a sexy bra and skimpy panties.

Now Riley was really surprised. It was about the last thing she expected to see from Cameron.

"You can put them on." Cameron said.

Riley couldn't believe what she just heard. She was a little hesitant, even if she didn't want to be. Cameron wanted her to get naked in front of her.

Cameron sensed her hesitation. She thought maybe if they were on an equal footing, it would make things easier.

"I can take my clothes off if it makes you feel more comfortable." Cameron said.

Riley was even more surprised. The thought excited her greatly. Nudity was actually nothing new to her.

"I'm good." Riley said. "Nudity was common in the future."

As Riley removed each piece of clothing, Cameron neatly folded them.

Riley stood naked before Cameron.

Cameron took in every detail on Riley from head to toe and back again. She saved all of the files. There was one area she would have liked to inspect a little further. She wasn't going to ask in this setting to do so. She hoped Riley would offer to show her a little more.

"You're very beautiful." Cameron said.

Riley smiled.

"Thank you." Riley said. "I'll never be as beautiful as you."

Cameron was pleased to hear Riley's response.

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." Cameron said.

She believed John made a choice before. It wasn't her.

Riley put the underwear on first. She didn't wear a bra. She had a little trouble with it.

Cameron moved closer. She reached her hand out but stopped.

"May I assist you and help you get everything adjusted?" Cameron asked.

Riley was extremely excited at the thought.

"I would appreciate it." Riley said. "I've never done this before. You can make sure everything fits properly. I don't mind if you touch me in any way to do so."

Cameron looked at Riley for a moment, and then smiled.

Riley was pleased Cameron explained everything to her as she did it. She was pretty sure Cameron touched everything a few times to do it. She liked the way she looked with the sexy bra on. It seemed to make everything even more prominent.

"This looks sexy and fits perfectly." Riley said.

Cameron smiled.

"I picked them out just for you." Cameron said.

Riley put on the rest of the clothes. She felt she looked beautiful in them.

"These are very pretty clothes." Riley said. "Thank You."

Cameron indicated Riley should sit in front of her dresser with the mirror on it. She was ready to take things to the next level.

"Let's get started." Cameron said.

Cameron took out a hair brush and began to brush Riley's hair.

Riley felt so much emotion right now. No one ever cared about the way she looked, or brushed her hair before, except her mother. She died when she was small. She was impressed Cameron didn't have a single snag the way she did it. It made her feel very special just to have her hair brushed. It was a very personal act of caring.

She watched Cameron work on her in the mirror. She felt so much love for Cameron right now. There were feelings inside of her which seemed to expand out of control in Cameron's presence. She never felt anyone so domineering and powerful before as they acted in a loving manner. There was nothing sexual about it, in the normal sense.

Maybe Cameron was going to fix her up, and then snap her neck. She hoped so. If she was going to die, she wanted to die beautiful and happy.

Cameron finished with Riley's makeup.

Riley looked at herself in the mirror. She looked at a 'beautiful stranger'. Was it really her?

"Wow! I've never looked this good ever, Cameron." Riley said.

Cameron was pleased with her work.

"You look Tight now." Cameron said.

Riley looked at Cameron and said what she felt.

"You always look Tight, Cameron." Riley said. "Nobody is more beautiful than you."

Cameron was pleased to hear the compliment. She knew it was genuine since she currently scanned Riley.

"Thank you. I try." Cameron said. "John likes me to look Tight."

Riley wondered how Cameron knew he did.

"Did John tell you that?" Riley asked.

Cameron touched up a few spots on Riley.

"No. When I scan him I can tell." Cameron said.

She wondered if Cameron just scanned her.

"Do you scan everyone?" Riley asked.

Cameron made a point of doing it.

"Yes. I do some more than others." Cameron said.

Riley wanted to know more.

"Why?" Riley asked.

Cameron could think of multiple reasons why. She decided to give Riley the 'appropriate response'.

"I like to make sure everyone is 'healthy'." Cameron said.

Riley knew Cameron tracked all the other female's reproductive cycles for John. Now she wondered if Cameron tracked hers. She was going to ask, but thought better of it. Cameron was reaching out to her. She'd better not blow it. If Cameron wanted more from her, she was sure she would make it known.

Cameron was very pleased with Riley's appearance.

"Let's go out." Cameron said.

Cameron was satisfied with her work. Riley was perfect.

Riley wasn't exactly sure what Cameron meant.

"Where to?" Riley asked.

Cameron wanted to make Riley feel special. She wanted to atone for her past behavior. River told her she was better so she acted. She wanted to be better. Better was better than worse.

"I'll let you pick it." Cameron said. "I want you to have fun and a good time."

'Your Mama Don't Dance' by 'Loggins and Messina', played as Cameron finished the makeover.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Different But Yet The Same

When they find out you're different
The jackals and vultures circle with thrill
They look for the weak ones
Waiting for the unmerciful kill

Because we're both different
We're both the same
Outcasts shunned and shamed
In a world of torment and pain

Our only crime was to be created
But our guilt remains the same
Afraid of life to love or receive
Seeking comfort in death's shame

I'm not afraid to perish
I don't think you are either
We can find this escape in minutes
Yet we still give life a breather

If I'm insane - please tell me
I need to know truth's lameness
I believe WE can see more clearly
Than those in the fog of sameness

We followed different paths
Some a life if extremes and vice
Fear, hiding and NOTHINGNESS
Do not make tomorrow anything to entice

We started in the same place
We have finished in the same place
Had we lived a different life
It would have made no difference to erase

For we are in an equal place
It is the yin and the yang
The positive and negative
Different but still the same we harangue

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