Chapter 215

Three Of Us

Cameron left the lab. She made plans for the new female Terminator which was captured. She was going to need a little work first because of the damage.

She was positive she wanted to make a duplicate of herself. It would actually be a clone. The more she thought about it, the more she liked the idea. This time they would share an identical appearance. Her appearance couldn't be an excuse for John any longer not to touch her in her duplicate form.

She was still very upset over the way he previously disrespected her program in Isabel-Cameron. She was her program, not her appearance. It seemed very difficult for John to comprehend. It created quite a source of contention between them. She was satisfied now there would be a way to eliminate any discrepancies or complaints.

Cameron told John of her plan to create Cameron II. She was very excited about it. There would be two of her. She made sure he understood everything would be identical. There would be no difference between them.

John wasn't ready for a discussion of this nature. He already knew where the path led. It always led to a fight. They' went through this before, even if some things were slightly different. He wanted to make his position clear to Cameron before she acted.

The prospect of them being side by side on the bed, while he switched from one to another, and back and forth, was somewhat intriguing, even as ridiculous as it sounded.

"I don't want 'two' of you, Cameron." John said. "It will be a nightmare. I want you just the way you are. There doesn't need to be two of you."

Cameron immediately felt frustrated. She wondered if John ever listened to her. Sure he heard her, but did he ever listen? She tried to explain it again.

"It ALREADY is a nightmare. There ALREADY are 'two' of me. You need to accept it. It's a reality." Cameron said. "Isabel wants time with you as well. John, Isabel IS 'me'. Our programs are identical. There's nothing different about us other than our appearance. I'm doing this by choice. Isabel is your wife too. You must honor her as such. You must perform your duty as a husband."

John didn't know how to make Cameron understand how he saw it. It didn't matter if Isabel ran Cameron's program. She still wasn't Cameron. Only Cameron was Cameron.

"Cameron, it's not the 'same'." John said. "It's different. It's still a copy of you even if it's identical. You're not a copy of anyone."

Cameron felt John's rejection of Isabel was the same as him rejecting her. They were the same program and updated often to remain the same. If the programs were identical and remained identical, Nobody was a copy. She didn't understand why he was unable to comprehend it. It was all very logical and straightforward to her.

"It's the same for me. You're disrespecting me. I'm a machine. I'm not a woman. My program is me. A copy of it is too. It matters not my sheath for me to be 'me'. I could be in a male chassis and it would still be ME." Cameron said as she became increasingly frustrated. "Isabel is ME. She wants to be with you. You're our husband. We're the same program. I'm my program wherever it's at. Why can't you understand this?"

John didn't know where to go with it. He didn't think Cameron could handle him being with a 'copy' of herself. He needed to think about her well being as well. It wasn't all fun and games. He understood what Cameron said and claimed she wanted. He didn't believe when it actually occurred it would be what she really wanted. Once it occurred it was too late to undo.

"Why is every guy's dream really a nightmare when it can actually happen?" John asked.

Cameron didn't like his statement. She was angry now. John was very disrespectful of her program. It was her essence. She thought about Vanna's suggestion to Resequence Isabel's sheath instead of the new damaged female Terminator. It would be much faster to Resequence Isabel's sheath than it would be to wait for the new Terminator to regenerate and Resequence.

The more she thought about it, the more it irritated her. John was previously with Duplicate Cameron. Duplicate Cameron was terminated. She was there now. When he was with Duplicate Cameron, it wasn't actually her because she was stuck in time when it occurred. She really didn't see what the difference was between Duplicate Cameron, or a clone of her with an identical program and sheath.

"Fine, deny me my alone time with you. Once I Resequence Isabel's sheath, we will be identical." Cameron said. "Then you will never know if it is 'Cameron Prime' or 'Cameron II'. Maybe I'll use 'Cameron Too' or 'Cameron Two'."

John wanted away from the conversation. It was a no-win situation for him. He was angry now too. Cameron accused him of not listening to her. He wondered if she ever listened to him.

"You'll do whatever you want, so go ahead and do it." John said. "I really don't care anymore."

John left.

He decided to look around for one of the girls. He really didn't care which one he found first…. It was time to be with someone who wasn't 'insane'. It was what Cameron wanted him to do anyway.

Why not?

What could it hurt?

No, really.

What could it hurt?

Jesse returned to her room earlier after she found Gail at work in the lab with Vanna. As horrified as she was with the appearance of the damaged female Terminator, she was excited about the parts of her which weren't damaged. She thought about it once she returned to her room and took care of business herself. She decided to go back and see how Vanna and Gail were doing with her.

She came out of her room and almost bumped into John. She wasn't expecting him. He looked upset. She hoped to be able to cheer him up.

"Hey, love, what's wrong?" Jesse asked as she looked at his face.

Jesse adjusted her loose top so she could have a 'nip slip' easier. She did almost instantly. She was pleased the entire breast was showing. She was sure it would help refocus John's mind. It would certainly give him something else to think about.

John watched a breast 'slip' out of Jesse's top. He couldn't help but look. He lost his concentration momentarily. He soon regained it with much difficulty.

"Cameron…." John said. "That's what's wrong."

He was unable to take his eyes off the breast which popped out with the nipple ring. The urge to reach out and touch it was overpowering. He didn't want to seem intrusive or sexually aggressive.

He knew Jesse 'offered' it to him to do so. If he touched the breast and jewelry, he wouldn't be able to stop. The lure was very strong and powerful.

Jesse noticed John look at her exposed breast. It excited her greatly. He seemed transfixed with it. She hadn't been with a male in a long time. It was longer than she could ever remember. She wanted John. She was going to take him. She could feel herself ready. Cameron told her only a short time ago the next three days were her 'window'. She was being driven by hormones and lust.

"John…." Jesse said, as she moved towards him.

John saw what was happening. Jesse was so HOT. Everything about her was HOT. He often 'thought' about her. Her new jewelry made her even hotter…. The desire to do more than look was always very overpowering. It was something which needed to be touched to be fully appreciated. He briefly wondered if it was what a fish experienced when it spotted a lure. No, it thought it was just going to get a meal. He knew it was still a lure. It was a lure for something else.

'LOOK at it. It's right there in front of me. It's calling me.' John thought.

It was too tempting and it was all Cameron's fault.

John wanted more. He started to lift his hand.

Earlier:

Cameron removed her hand from Jesse's neck.

She gave Jesse her prognosis.

"You have a high chance of becoming pregnant in the next three days if you act." Cameron said. "Now is your chance to move your life forward."

Jesse faced Cameron. She understood what Cameron really indicated. It was to be with John, not any other male. She couldn't help but swallow hard at the prospect.

"Are you sure, Cameron?" Jesse asked.

Cameron checked her files. Nothing was different. She would offer Jesse what she wanted, in return for Jesse doing what she wanted her to do.

"Yes, it's what must be done. I can't rely on anyone else to save John from assassination in this timeline." Cameron said. "Once you have mated and move in with us, I'll be there as well for 'both of you'."

It was Jesse's dream to be with Cameron. She didn't know if it was true or not. It was something she really wanted on several levels. She would let John have as much as he wanted. She knew it wouldn't be for very long. Males were only good for so much before they were done. It would be her way to get closer to Cameron and share with her. It was what she strongly desired. She still needed to consider the prospect Cameron would become enraged if she was with John and terminate her. When she was in the past, the future, death always lurked around the corner. Where she was now in the present, the prospect of a future was possible.

"Will you be with both of us all the time?" Jesse asked, still very worried. "You won't kill me later on will you? It's possible you might 'forget' what you wanted me to do."

Being terminated by Cameron was a fear Jesse developed from the first time Cameron indicated she should be with John. It was as fearful as it was exhilarating. She could imagine having her neck snapped right as John made her finish. What a way to go.

Cameron didn't want Jesse to think along those terms. She tried to make light of the situation.

"I won't, not at least until you give birth." Cameron said.

Jesse turned a little pale.

Cameron smiled, and then laughed at the look on Jesse's face.

Jesse felt an uneasy smile cross her face. Maybe to be with Cameron would be worth her life. Some things were worth dying for. Cameron's love was one of them.

There were other issues as well. There were other people too. She wasn't as selfish as she used to be, even if she still was to a certain extent.

"What about Gail?" Jesse asked. "There's Vanna and Allison too."

Cameron didn't have a problem with Jesse's sex life. She believed there was room for everyone.

"You can spend as much time with her and them as you need to be, as long as you're at John's side most of the time. He MUST have a human female at his side. We have to protect him, Jesse. YOU have to help me, Jesse, PLEASE."

Jesse could see how anguished Cameron was over it. She felt like a 'second stringer'. She wanted to remind Cameron what she really wanted.

"It should be Allison and Vanna who are, as it is in your future." Jesse said. "It's the real 'Natural Order'."

Jesse was excited but still scared.

Cameron believed she covered all of the contingencies. There was currently more than one option available to her.

"I'm making sure Young Allison and Savannah are both protected as well for what will come." Cameron said. "They won't fail me once they are older and properly 'conditioned'."

Jesse knew it was more like indoctrination, or 'brain washing'. She was ready to give it a go. She needed to make sure she wasn't about to sign her own death warrant. It was still a real possibility. She didn't want to die for nothing.

"We'll see what happens. I'll try." Jesse said. "Are you sure this is what you really want? I want you to really think it over and all of the implications. It's a big step, Cameron. Once it's taken it can't be undone."

Cameron was sent back to protect John. It was her function. What she wanted Jesse to do was one way to protect him.

"It's what's necessary for the survival of John Connor." Cameron said. "MAKE it happen. If YOU can't pull it off, no one can. You can go ahead and put your top back on. I'm really pleased at how HOT you look. Your examination is complete."

Cameron released Jesse's breast. She was 'examining' it during the entire conversation. She did both of them at the same time, except for when she scanned her briefly.

Jesse was very excited because Cameron gave her a 'breast examination'. It was suggested by Cameron before they started their conversation. She mentioned it was something which afflicted Sarah in a different variation of the timeline. She briefly wondered if Cameron ever gave Sarah an 'examination'. She would really like to watch it happen when it did. Right now she was pumped full of endorphins.

"Anytime, love." Jesse said.

She was beyond excited when Cameron asked to see her topless and examined her again. Cameron asked to see how everything healed up and told her she would examine her whenever she thought she needed it. Cameron wanted to make sure she was safe and healthy.

Cameron smiled as she left. She knew Jesse was now more motivated than ever. She knew the 'breast exam' ploy was only to excite and motivate Jesse. It was a form of manipulation. She was a cyborg. It was what she was programmed to do. The goal was to always complete the mission. She found it somewhat intriguing as well. She checked to make sure everything was normal. It was something important. It wasn't lost on her as she examined Jesse that her breasts could actually do something, unlike hers. Jesse's breasts were real. They could nurse an infant. Hers could be little more than pacifiers.

Jesse needed to go back to her room and change her knickers. The ones she wore were a little worse for the wear now. They were headed straight for the wash. Her earlier observation of the new female Terminator's undamaged parts, and Cameron's examination, were going to require a little 'release' on her part.

Jesse had John right there at her room. He wasn't getting away, not this time. She was still highly aroused from her encounter with Cameron, the new female Terminator, and what she just finished doing. She was good to go right now, in more ways than one.

She pulled John into her room and closed the door. Her top was off in a flash. She hoped it would keep him from leaving. She just needed to get him to the bed. She would do everything.

John looked at Jesse's topless form.

'That's so hot.' John thought.

Jesse was upon him as quick as her top was off…. She slid her pants off. She pulled her underwear off with them. She was ready for John right now. Her body acted on its own at this point. The 'call of the wild' took over. Nature dictated how she should respond in such a situation.

John watched. Her smooth area excited him even more. He heard she underwent the same procedure as Vanna. He could see now it wasn't a rumor. He knew where he was headed first….

He moistened his lips slightly as he started to reach for her.

John snapped out of it. It was very hard to do. It was what he wanted. It was right in front of him. It was what Cameron told him to do. The episode with Future Riley was always in the back of his mind. He blew it once. He needed to regain control.

"Jesse, I can't." John said.

John wanted to share with her but he just 'couldn't'.

Jesse waved her hand in front of her naked body.

"How can you say 'No' to this?" Jesse asked.

John really wanted Jesse. She was RIGHT THERE in front of him. He needed to show restraint. He knew he was close to being seduced. His body called to him to 'take' her. The 'call of the wild' affected him as well. His body responded as nature dictated. He swallowed hard.

"I can assure you it's with extreme difficulty." John said. "You know I love Cameron."

Jesse KNEW it's what Cameron wanted. Cameron all but begged her to do it. Cameron clearly 'ordered' her to do it. She verified it with Cameron more than one time to make sure it was what she really wanted. It was.

"It's what SHE wants. You know it. Take me, I'm 'ready'." Jesse said. "I mean it literally."

John hesitated. He knew how quickly things could happen. He strongly doubted he would last more than thirty seconds.

Jesse wasn't about to give up without a fight. She tried to pull John to the bed. It never crossed her mind how ironic it was. It was what was done to her many times before by others.

John knew he was going to lose control. He was sure things were probably larger now than they may have ever been before. It certainly felt like it in the confines of his pants.

"Jesse - STOP." John said as he backed away.

Jesse needed John right now. She would let him do anything. She didn't care if she 'made it' or not. She was so excited she would probably be 'sent to heaven' as soon as he started. It might even happen before he did. It would probably be when he first touched her. She doubted it would matter where it was. She wanted to give him some options.

"Just make it a quickie then. Do it animal style. You won't have to look at me. It will just take a minute, maybe less." Jesse said. "It's the real thing, John. I'm ready. 'IT' is ready and waiting. I want you. I NEED you."

Jesse was after his pants now as she struggled to undo them. She could feel his 'girth'. It only excited her more. She could almost feel it in her at this point. She was so wound up she was going to 'finish' before she even started. She was frantic to remove his pants.

"You're READY." Jesse said. "I can feel it. I'm really, really ready. It will be a smooth ride for both of us. Please, give it to me, John. I need this too. I want this."

John knew if Jesse got his pants off, there was no stopping. It would happen just like she said. As much as he wanted to gain control, he wanted more.

"Jesse - STOP." John said again. "PLEASE."

Jesse could see John was conflicted. It made her think of all the times others made her do what she didn't want to do. It was a very sick feeling to recollect. It wasn't the way it was supposed to work.

She felt defeated. The past continued to weigh upon her. It was very overwhelming.

Jesse stopped. She only stopped because of all the times when she was young and begged those who 'took' her to stop. They never did. They only beat her, or choked her harder. They never listened. She didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry, John. I wanted to be with you. Cameron wanted me to be with you. I know you wanted to be with me. It is what all three of us want…." Jesse said. "I don't want to force you."

John wanted her so much, but he needed to think about Cameron and her well being. He didn't think she could handle it. It didn't matter what she said or not. He knew how she reacted to things, especially later on.

"Jesse, I do too, but when we HAVE to. Please, not yet for me, and for Cameron." John said. "I know this is what Cameron THINKS she wants, but it's not. I know her. I know it will 'kill' her. She'll see it as being 'replaced'. It will kill her. I can't hurt her again the same way."

The last thing Jesse wanted to do was 'hurt' Cameron.

"OK, love, I don't want to hurt Cameron." Jesse said as she indicated her naked figure. "Look at me. THIS is everything. It's here waiting for you when you're ready and the time is right for you. I want you, but you have to want me also. I don't care if you have Allison and Vanna as well, or any of the other female Terminators. I want you too. Please remember it. It's also for me, for 'us'. I have wants and needs too. I have feelings as well. I'm a person too. I matter too."

Jesse lay on the bed and again offered herself to John.

"Please, John, I'm ready. It will just take a minute…." Jesse said as she still tried to reach him.

John looked at Jesse. He could see his actions, or in this case, inactions, hurt her.

"I'm sorry." John said.

She bent her knees and bowed them out. She made sure everything was ready.

"It's really, really ready…." Jesse said. "We both want it."

John wanted her so bad. He needed to think of Cameron

"I'm sorry, Jesse." John said. "I really am."

John went to leave but stopped at the door.

He wanted it so bad he could almost 'taste' it.

John closed his eyes and left.

Cameron was Tight, but Jesse was HOT. Her description of what was ready and waiting for him sounded so enticing. He really wondered if Allison and Vanna would be the same way….

Jesse watched John go.

"I love you, John." Jesse said softly.

The tears ran down her cheeks.

"He'll be back." Jesse said softly.

She felt very alone now.

"They ALL come back…." Jesse said softly.

Jesse cried at first as she pleasured herself. Soon she lost track of how many times she satisfied herself….

It was the only way to fight the pain of 'rejection'.

It was never enough.

Cameron watched John come out of Jesse's room as he buckled his pants and adjusted them. They must have been off. He wouldn't do it otherwise after leaving someone's room. She knew what it meant.

She glitched, she almost toppled over. Her left hand balled into a fist. In the background of Jesse's room, she saw Jesse was naked lying on her bed…. John's 'little soldiers' must be inside Jesse now as they searched to create life.

All she could think was, 'he did it'. Cameron was disappointed, but pleased at the same time. It's the way it MUST be to protect John. John MUST be protected. The people who wanted to terminate her, wanted to kill him too. She couldn't be responsible for his termination. She was sure she would self-terminate if she was.

Cameron would ask Jesse later if she would like to move in with them. It would be the three of them together. She would have to thank Jesse for doing as she asked. She would reward Jesse with 'herself'. It was something she wanted to try for a long time anyway. Jesse would know how to make her 'feel good'. It was time to move forward with her life.

'Everyone sacrifices for John Connor.' Cameron thought.

'Cathy's Clown' by 'The Everly Brothers', crossed her mind.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Never Learn

Selfishness and covetousness
Narcissistic greed and lust
They override honor
Destroy all trust

What have I done
How many lives destroyed
How many people hurt
Creating an unfixable void

It was what I wanted
No one else seemed to matter
Many years later
Lives it can still shatter

So very stupid
Blinder than blind
So many damaged
So many lives intertwined

These demons can never be slain
It is a defect within the brain
For I almost nearly failed
One day it's GOING TO happen again

Nobody