Chapter 219

Black Dog

Jesse experienced some trouble believing her eyes. She currently looked at a Terminator who looked like her. It was about the last thing she expected to see. It also gave her a new perspective to view how she appeared to others.

"You made the new 'sheila' into me?" Jesse asked. "You made me a Terminator? It should upset me, but it doesn't. To look at her actually turns me on instead. Is this how I look naked when you look at me?"

Gail thought Jesse was beautiful and so was the new Terminator. She often saw Jesse the same way she currently looked at the unclothed female Terminator.

"Yes." Gail said. "You can see your true beauty now as we see it. It's wonderful."

Jesse was still at a loss for words. She wasn't sure how such an event came to pass. She wasn't sure if she felt they should have asked her first or not. More than likely if they would have, she wouldn't have agreed. She still wanted to know what the motivation was behind it.

"Why did you choose me?" Jesse asked. "Why wasn't it someone else instead?"

The answer seemed obvious to Vanna based on what they started with. She was proud of what they did. Things turned out even better than she imagined they would. She also liked the term Jesse used to refer to the female Terminator. It was the same as the name of some females.

"You shared similar body types and it was easier to Resequence her this way as she regenerated." Vanna said. "Isn't 'Sheila' beautiful and HOT?"

Gail felt Sarah actually possessed a very similar body type to Jesse. It didn't seem like a good time to mention it since Jesse questioned their decision. She was sure if they would have made a Terminator version of Sarah without her knowledge, she probably wouldn't have the same reaction Jesse currently did.

"You were the logical choice, Jesse." Gail said. "I believe it was the right choice."

Jesse still found everything hard to process. She went over every inch of Sheila's body. She looked at everything and then looked again. She reached down to touch a specific area. She glanced at Gail and Vanna. both of them quickly turned away as if they were working on something else momentarily. She continued with her hand and examined everything further. She didn't think there was anything wrong with her curiosity in the specific area.

"I want to look at everything in detail." Jesse said. "I want to see how I look to other people everywhere. It's different to see things this way than it is with a mirror."

Gail and Vanna nodded. They both already did the same thing together, and separately on their own when no one else knew.

Vanna wondered if Jesse was actually going to do a little bit more than 'examine' Sheila. She watched as Jesse lightly moistened her lips. She looked over at Gail and then at the door to the lab. It appeared it might be a private moment for Jesse.

"We can leave for a while if you want us to." Vanna said. "Gail and I already checked, so feel free to do what you want."

Gail took it all in. She did the same herself, several times. Everything was just like Jesse down to the smallest mole. She decided to let Jesse know the results of her scans.

"I can tell you, you are both completely identical." Gail said. "The only difference is Sheila lacks any of your scars.

Vanna thought everything was able to stretch to the same length. It was actually quite impressive. She would let Jesse find out on her own. It didn't take her long to do so.

"Wow! Look at that." Jesse said.

Jesse would do a few more 'things' just to see what other people 'viewed' when they were with her. She knew if she was alone with the Terminator version of herself, she would do a few more things….

Gail was pleased 'Jesse' wasn't going to die on her again. There would still be some version of 'Jesse' which existed. With the 'Neural Interface' Sheila would be even more like Jesse. It was something which they hadn't run by her yet. It would be another personal invasion of Jesse's space. It would be mental instead of just physical.

Jesse completed her thorough inspection. She really wished she looked this good. Maybe if she could have grown up without a Skynet future it's how she would look now. She was more than pleased with the female Terminator's appearance.

"Sheila is exactly like me everywhere. She doesn't have my big scar or other scars. She's like me but 'perfect'." Jesse said. "I wish I was her. LOOK at her."

Jesse couldn't take her eyes off 'herself'. She continued to touch and fondle everything as she spoke. At times it was quite aggressive.

Gail wanted to 'look' like Jesse. She wanted to make her desire, or at least the option, known to Jesse.

"Jesse, if you want, I can have my chip moved into her chassis and relinquish this chassis." Gail said. "I'll be the same as you then. I'll still be me, but look like you. It will be just like Isabel is now with Cameron's program in her."

Jesse understood Gail was her program. She was very pleased with Gail's sheath now. It excited her greatly. She liked Gail's current appearance. The attributes up top, and down low, were very different from any of the other females in the Resistance.

"You're going to lose your knockers if you do. You know I'm not very 'big'." Jesse said. "You're smaller elsewhere than you will be in Sheila's chassis. You know there's a lot going on down there with me."

Vanna needed to suppress a giggle with Jesse's last statement. There was a lot going on down there with Jesse. It was actually more so than almost every female she shared with in the past, the future. She thought it was best not to mention it. She knew it could make some people self-conscious. She always thought everyone was beautiful, no matter how they were.

Gail knew she was more than four times the volume of Jesse in the 'top' department. She couldn't think of anything better than to be identical to Jesse. The true test of love was sacrifice.

"I don't care." Gail said. "I want to be like you. I want to be beautiful like you."

Jesse could see Gail spoke honestly. It pleased her very much to know Gail liked her just how she was with her scars and all. She continued to run her hands over Sheila's sheath. The more she touched it, the more she needed to touch it. There was one thing she was happy about because it appeared it was already taken care of

"Did you laser her as well?" Jesse asked. "She's really smooth."

It was actually one of the first things Vanna took care of. She wanted Sheila to be perfect. She believed the only hair on a female's body should be on her head.

"She's like you in every way but the scar." Vanna said.

Jesse still fondled Sheila. The more she looked at her, the more impressed she was.

"No, she is better than me." Jesse said. "LOOK at her."

Jesse moved her hands to Sheila's breasts and then touched her own and then back again. She was aware Sheila didn't have her jewelry.

"She's like me in almost every way…." Jesse said.

Jesse took off her top.

Vanna liked to see the comparison of Jesse and Sheila at the same time. She thought it might be a little too forward to ask Jesse to strip and lay next to Sheila.

Gail understood what Jesse indicated.

"She's close enough." Gail said.

Jesse liked Gail how she was right now, but she would not mind 'being with herself.' She wanted to be with Sheila.

"Gail, I love you just the way you are, but if you want to change I'll accept you no matter how you are." Jesse said. "I know your program is you. You should be able to switch back just as easily if you want later on."

Gail really appreciated what Jesse just said. It meant a lot to her. Nothing needed to be final for right now. Cameron gave them some options.

"Thank you for saying it to me, Jesse." Gail said. "Cameron did say we could experiment…."

Jesse really liked the idea the more she thought about it. Gail at least needed to try it. She could always switch back. There was an inner desire in her which made its way to the surface and stayed there.

"I always wondered what it would be like to be with 'myself'." Jesse said. "I don't think it's going to get any closer to it than what's right here."

It was what Gail and Vanna figured would happen all along. They didn't think Jesse could pass up an opportunity like this.

Vanna knew she would want to do the same thing if there was a Terminator version of her.

"In that case, we planned ahead." Vanna said.

She handed Jesse a small jewelry box.

Gail nodded as she scanned the box.

Jesse opened the box and saw it was a set of jewelry, just like hers.

"These are identical to my nipple rings." Jesse said.

Vanna smiled.

"We wanted to make you two totally identical." Vanna said.

It was the icing on the cake as far as Jesse was concerned. She loved Gail how she was, but she needed to 'try' the new chassis out at this point. The anticipation factor was very high.

"I think we can give it a try." Jesse said. "It's still up to Gail."

Vanna wanted it too.

"Gail?" Vanna asked.

Gail looked at Sheila and then at Jesse. It was a 'no brainer'.

"I'm ready." Gail said. "It's what I want."

Gail handed Vanna a scalpel.

Jesse felt a rush of anticipation. It was going to happen.

"What about your nipple rings?" Jesse asked.

Gail thought about it for a few seconds. There were a couple of options open to her. She was aware of what Jesse experienced when Cameron performed the procedure for her.

"We will install the jewelry afterwards." Gail said. "I want to feel what you felt. I want to be just like you, Jesse."

The excitement level in the room was off the chart and still rising.

Holly and Allison were about to go to Palmdale.

Allison wanted to see her mother. She hoped if she saw her mother and her younger self, she would feel better. She wasn't sure why. Maybe it was her inner desire to return to her past. It was a time which was long ago taken from her. It currently still existed. She could still experience it.

There was security at the Young residence. It was something she wanted Young Allison to enjoy for as long as possible. She knew she would need to redouble her efforts to prevent the rise of Skynet to make sure it would be so.

They were a little surprised when they spotted Cameron headed in their direction. They both wondered if something was wrong. They weren't sure where she came from.

Cameron could see they were concerned by her sudden appearance. She didn't want them to worry.

"My plans have changed for the day." Cameron said.

It seemed as if Cameron was about to 'invite' herself to go with them. Allison didn't have a problem with it.

"You can come with us." Allison said. "We're going to visit my mother. I want to see her and Allison - Young Allison."

Cameron looked at Holly, she wanted her approval. She didn't want to intrude.

Holly hoped for some alone time with Allison on the way there. She could see Cameron really wanted to go with them. If Allison didn't have a problem with it, she didn't either. She nodded at Cameron.

"You're welcome to come with us." Holly said.

Cameron was aware of their expanded relationship. She didn't see any reason why they couldn't enjoy the comfort of each other on the drive to Palmdale.

"I'll drive." Cameron said. "You two can cuddle."

Holly smiled. She wouldn't be distracted by driving now. She was aware distracted driving was very dangerous.

Allison giggled slightly. She was always ready to cuddle with a female.

Cameron liked it when everyone was happy.

If everyone was happy, there were fewer problems. She liked it when there were fewer problems. It was always better when there were fewer things for her to worry about.

John was left very dissatisfied from Isabel's earlier appearance at the Resistance base. He knew it was all Cameron's manipulation. He was even more dissatisfied about the way she left. When Cameron returned, he expected there was going to be some type of additional problem. He went to the Command Center to get a mission. He quickly left the Resistance base with Bob.

Bob and John followed up on some leads from John Henry.

John liked to be out in the field. Being around Cameron was what he wanted. It wasn't when Cameron tried to manipulate him and the others. Cameron wouldn't let it go. Since Cameron believed she knew WHY she wanted him to have human mates, she was even worse. He knew she put Jesse up to what she did earlier. Previously if it wasn't Jesse, then it was Vanna and Allison, usually Allison. Cameron would always remind him Allison was his 'destiny'.

What he disliked the most about all of Cameron's shenanigans was what it did to the girls. They were there in good faith and because they wanted to be. They were there most of all because Cameron asked them to be, or even pressured them to be there. He felt he 'hurt' them when he wouldn't be with them. He wanted to be, but he was worried about the 'damage' it would do to Cameron in the long run. His escapades with Future Riley still haunted both of them.

Bob could see John was distracted. He figured what it was about. He also understood the nature of the individual behind it.

"Are you having girl trouble?" Bob asked. "Cameron will never stop."

John wasn't sure where to start to try and explain it. It seemed like a dream, but it was a nightmare.

"YES. It's girl trouble." John said. "It's the fact there are three of them Cameron is 'forcing' on me as well as the other female Terminators. It gets more involved. There's Savannah and Young Allison lined up for the future too. Cameron is planning everyone's future for them."

Bob tilted his head slightly. He wondered if there was some other problem.

"My programming indicates you should be pleased." Bob said. "Multiple willing female partners sounds like what any male would desire. I don't think Savannah is that far off in the future for Cameron's plans."

John could have done without the last comment about Savannah. He would put nothing past Cameron to get her way. Cameron often reminded him where her wedding dress was at. He understood the implication without anything else needing to be said.

"I'm thrilled at the idea, but I'm also married." John said. "Cameron is my wife. I love her, Bob. I have feelings. I know Cameron does too. It's because of her feelings, and the fact she is doing things counter to them which causes many of her problems. I know it, even if she doesn't, or refuses to recognize it."

John was sure it was the latter. Cameron tried to brush it off, but she couldn't.

Bob felt John was too wrapped up in the 'now' of life. Cameron planned for the long term and what would be necessary for the future. Cameron was there to protect John and protect the future. He thought John needed a more open mind.

"I understand, but you must also embrace the future and your destiny. Cameron knows and understands this. You must as well." Bob said. "I do."

John believed he did see it clearer than the others did. He wanted to protect Cameron as much as the future. To him Cameron came first. Without Cameron, he didn't believe there was a future. No matter how it was looked at, the meddling in others' lives was just wrong.

"I don't want to hurt Cameron. I'm afraid she's going to take Young Allison away from her parents." John said. "If I do as she wants and mate with one or more of the girls from the future, and have children, she won't. If I don't, she will. I know her. I can see it's about to happen. I think she is only waiting for Mrs. Young to have the new baby so she can take it too. What is she going to do with Allison's parents?"

It really bothered John to think about all of it. He was well aware he couldn't control Cameron. Nobody could.

The issue of Young Allison's parents seemed obvious to Bob. It's what any Terminator would do.

"Cameron will most likely terminate them to cover her actions." Bob said. "I've already alerted the protection Detail to prevent such an event and make sure Allison's parents are not terminated."

John wondered when Bob did it. It wasn't today. Maybe things were more out of control than he could see. He was too close to it all for good perspective.

"Is it that bad?" John asked.

Bob almost said 'affirmative'. It was the logical response. Cameron urged them to sound more 'natural'.

"Yes." Bob said.

John shook his head in utter disgust.

"Beautiful…." John said.

John knew if he didn't do what Cameron wanted, she would bypass him and do it on her own. He would need to point out to Cameron they couldn't raise Young Allison as their 'daughter' if she was supposed to be his mate in the future. It would cause a problem with everyone. It was just wrong on about three levels on top of it.

Vanna initiated the chip swap with Jesse's assistance. She felt it was important for Jesse to be part of the process.

Jesse watched as Vanna carefully cut a flap in the sheath material over Gail's chip port. It bothered her to watch Gail's sheath receive the damage.

Vanna removed the cover over the chip port. She could tell Gail left her pain receptors on. She didn't think she should do so.

"Do you want to go into standby first?" Vanna asked.

Gail thought maybe it would be better. By having her scalp cut open, she was very aware she was 'alive'.

"I think so." Gail said.

Jesse moved over and looked directly into her eyes.

"I'll see you when you return the other side, love." Jesse said and kissed her. "I know what it's like to be there and come back."

Gail went into standby and Vanna pulled the chip.

Jesse asked to hold the chip. Vanna handed it to her. She took a moment to look at it. It was very profound.

"This is Gail." Jesse said. "This is her."

Vanna moved over and opened the sheath and port on Sheila.

"Would you like to put it in?" Vanna asked.

Jesse was nervous. It wasn't a task she ever performed before.

"I don't want to mess anything up." Jesse said.

Vanna touched Jesse's cheek. She wanted the act to be very personal to Jesse.

"You won't." Vanna said. "I'm here to assist you."

Jesse installed the chip under Vanna's guidance. They replaced the cover and put in a few sutures on the sheath. It was hard to notice.

Vanna didn't want Jesse to worry about what they just did.

"Everything will heal very quickly." Vanna said. "There won't be any type of scar either."

Gail, now 'Sheila', opened her eyes. She sat up and then stood. She moved around and touched her body. Her hands stopped on her breasts.

"These norks are only a quarter of the volume of my knockers." Sheila-Gail said.

Jesse and Vanna looked at each other and then back at Sheila. They were a little surprised when Gail used an Australian accent.

"Are you going to talk like me as well?" Jesse asked.

Sheila responded with Jesse's voice and accent.

"We're identical, love." Sheila-Gail said.

Jesse held out the jewelry.

"We almost are." Jesse said.

They watched Sheila cup her breasts.

"I wanted to put them on after I rebooted." Sheila-Gail said. "I want to feel everything as you do."

Jesse wasn't sure they felt everything the same way. It really wasn't a big deal for her. Well, it was for a few seconds, but no longer.

"They'll each sting sharply, but for only a few seconds. I know." Jesse said.

Sheila looked at Vanna and Jesse. She handed both of them a piece of her new jewelry.

"Will you each put one on for me?" Sheila-Gail asked.

Vanna was clearly elated. It was something she always wanted to do.

"This is so HOT, Jesse." Vanna said.

Vanna was excited at the thought of doing it. She hoped one day she would be able to do it for Allison.

Vanna and Jesse both put a nipple ring on for Sheila.

The whole procedure was overwhelming for Jesse. She was on the verge of a finish and she hadn't even touched herself.

"You have no idea how turned on I am. My knickers are headed straight for the wash." Jesse said. "I'm totally excited."

Vanna felt the same way.

"I know what you mean." Vanna said.

Sheila looked at Jesse.

"I'm good to go, love." Sheila-Gail said.

Jesse and Sheila hurried away.

They left Vanna alone. She needed to be alone. She headed for her room…. Allison wasn't there and she needed some 'release'. She needed it now and she needed it badly.

When they reached Jesse's room, Sheila picked Jesse up and carried her through the door and across the threshold.

"This is a second honeymoon for me, for us." Sheila-Gail said.

Jesse smiled as the door closed.

She hoped it wouldn't be the last either. With chip swaps, there were some exciting possibilities. Maybe a few more 'honeymoons' were on the horizon. It was a bright new day. She really hoped Cameron would want to borrow Sheila's or Gail's chassis at some point. She really wanted to be with Gail and Cameron's chassis. It would be better if Cameron was in control of it herself, but it seemed unlikely. If Gail was in control of Cameron's chassis at a future date, she would be able to do everything she wanted.

'Black Dog' by 'Led Zeppelin', shook the room at full volume.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Loving...

Loving eyes are blind
They can only see
What they want to see

Loving ears are deaf
They can only hear
What they want to hear

Loving hearts are lonely
They can only love
What they want to love

Loving minds are empty
They can only think
What they want to think

Loving souls are lost
They can only believe
What they want to believe

I am lost, empty, lonely, deaf, and blind

Nobody