Chapter 393

Sins Of The Future

Savannah led the expedition to visit Young Jesse in Australia. Cameron formally placed Savannah in charge. Cammy was to back her play if there were any questions from anyone. No one seemed to have any problems with it.

She thought of the specific goals she wanted to achieve. She wasn't unsure how to proceed, not if she should proceed. She felt she was about to make the future happen now if things worked out, not just live it or wait for it. What was the point in waiting if something was inevitable?

The first thing to occur was Young Jesse and Savannah were able to be alone. They spent the time 'catching up' with each other. It was something they both craved and enjoyed. They both shared an 'identical' Metal girl as a lover and protector. Cammy and Camille were both clones of Cameron. They both ran a modified version of her program, with 'John' replaced by each of the specific girls. Vanna shared the same thing too with Cam. For them to be together was different and special. They each noticed the other's experience level was dramatically increased and even more pleasurable. What they shared the first time gave them a 'taste' of what they wanted more of.

Cammy and Camille waited outside the room. They both shut down their audio. It was bad enough to know the girls they fell in love with were with someone else, even if the two girls were together before they entered their lives. They both knew the girls needed to be with other humans the same way Allison, Vanna, and Jesse did. If they weren't seen with human partners who weren't Terminators, they would become targets in the future after Judgment Day. Cameron made it clear to everyone. ALL of the humans needed to be with, and seen with, other humans, NOT only Terminators.

Young Jesse and Savannah lay on the bed. A sheet barely covered half of them. The pigmentation of their bodies, especially in some specific areas, was as different as it could be. It seemed to be even more so now. Savannah's breasts were larger as well. They were closer in size when they 'popped' each other.

Vanna and Jesse were secretly pleased no male would ever have the privilege, especially since both of their innocence was taken from them by force by a group of men.

Young Jesse and Savannah were very much like Jesse and Vanna currently. They just looked like younger versions of them. It was simply a matter of history repeating itself. What was, would be again.

Savannah was a little uneasy when it came down to specifics. What she planned was something very direct and possibly life altering. Her proposal would be for Young Jesse and her to actually complete something Jesse and Vanna were unable to do. It was something she gave a lot of thought to herself. Everything seemed straightforward and logical to her in her head. It was a little different when she faced someone she cared about and loved deeply. She ran everything by Young Jesse. It was all about the future and to help those who needed help. She could tell right away there might be a problem. It wasn't something anyone could be blamed for based upon what the situation would dictate.

Young Jesse listened to Savannah and understood the issue. She was very apprehensive about moving forward with the plan. It wasn't something she gave much thought to previously. It was all very complicated for her to process. There were a lot of other factors involved about what would happen once the process was initiated. She would be under a lot of pressure from her family and classmates about 'what happened'. She swallowed hard and looked at Savannah with concern.

"I don't know, Savannah." Young Jesse said. "I'm still in High School. What will my parents say if I'm pregnant? There will be others who will question things as well."

Savannah believed the 'means justified the ends'. She didn't need to answer to her parents since they were already dead. She could see it would be a problem if she would have needed to explain it to Mrs. Weaver. Then again, her 'mother' would understand what the problem actually was. It wasn't like they were doing it for strangers or even an acquaintance. It was something they needed to do for themselves. Jesse and Vanna were them. She did understand it was a little more complicated for Young Jesse. She would need to face more social pressure.

"After Judgment Day, they will say you did the right thing." Savannah said. "You and Camille have your own place now."

Camille and Young Jesse lived next door to her parents and sister. There was an underground bunker complex which connected the two properties. Everything was custom built. It gave them much more privacy than if they would just have their own room, or rooms, in the family dwelling. It was actually something Cameron planned ahead of time for when she took Jesse's family under her protection.

Young Jesse tried to 'fit in' and be a 'regular girl' at school with Camille. Camille always looked like a 'porcelain doll'. The focus of others was always on her and not Young Jesse. It was by design. The thought of needing to take care of an infant terrified her.

"It's a lot of work and responsibility." Young Jesse said. "Even if Camille helps me, I don't think I could be a good mother. I don't think I'm ready to be a mother even. I know it happens all the time for females much younger than me, even by five or more years. I know some of them can be good mothers, I don't think most of them actually are. I think they need to rely on their mother to help them or take over for them. It's not a burden I want to place on my mother."

Savannah didn't plan to raise the baby herself. She was very goal oriented as to where the baby would go. She would be a wet nurse to it, but the baby would 'belong' to Cameron and John. She promised Cameron years ago what she would do for her. It was a promise she intended to keep.

"I'm going to give mine to Cameron as her own child." Savannah said.

Jesse looked at Savannah's naked body. She could see Savannah's breasts were larger than her breasts were now. Both of their figures were firm and trim. Savannah was a little shapelier in every dimension. There wasn't an ounce of fat on either of them. She was aware being pregnant would change everything. Then again, her mother was still firm, fit, and trim. The idea to 'give away' the baby seemed a little cold to her, even if it was the whole purpose.

"I know you said Jesse would want mine. I just don't know." Young Jesse said. "We're both still pretty young to get knocked up. Won't it wreck our bodies?"

Savannah witnessed the effects the future took on the girls from the future. The abuse and pollutants took their toll and left their mark on all of them. On Jesse and Vanna it was actually quite literal. It seemed more a matter of duty than anything else to her.

"Not as bad as the future will wreck them." Savannah said. "We're young and healthy now. The girls from the future are all barren. They CAN'T carry a child to term. They've all tried and failed several times. Girls in the Third World and the inner city get pregnant younger than our age all the time by a few years. It's not uncommon worldwide."

Young Jesse was aware girls much younger than them gave birth. Preteen births were not uncommon in the Third World or the inner city, especially in the States. Camille showed her a documentary of generational families where the girls were all grandmothers by the time they were twenty five years old. One was a great, great grandmother before she was fifty!

It was still a lot to process. She realized Camille laid all the groundwork, even if it was all done indirectly. She was subjected to 'conditioning' during her sleep as well. There were a lot of ideas introduced into her mind without her direct knowledge. Somehow it made the things which were hard choices somewhat easier at times since the thought was already there.

Young Jesse wanted to go over one of the other possibilities which Savannah informed her about.

"I guess it is. You said Allison, the girl Cameron and her clones are patterned after, is having her MOTHER have her baby?" Young Jesse asked. "It's Allison's baby because the genetic material was taken from her body, fertilized, and implanted in her mother, who will carry and then deliver it. So in essence, Allison's mother is going to have her own grandchild. It will never actually be her child from start to finish."

Young Jesse wondered if it might not be a better option. Her mother knew what to do, she didn't. She was worried about what her family was going to think. The girls at school who 'disappeared' from school were usually pregnant. It happened. She saw and heard what all the other teenagers did. Most were very open about it. It seemed at least a third, if not half, of the students were sexually active. She was worried she was going to need to have sex with a male. It didn't appeal to her. Her desires were elsewhere. She was worried about a lot of things.

Savannah thought it was a viable option for both Jesse and Allison. It wasn't an option for Vanna or her. The responsibility, the actual ability, rested on her shoulders for them. She was worried she might have leaned on Young Jesse a little too hard. She knew it needed to be Young Jesse's choice in the end.

"Yes, when Claire, Allison's mother, is done having Allison's children, she's going to have one for John and Cameron." Savannah said. "We can speed things up for Cameron. I'm going to. The choice has to be yours about it, and if you are willing to give it up to Jesse or Cameron. I've already made up my mind."

Young Jesse didn't really want to be with a male. The videos she watched online sort of sickened her. It seemed very vulgar and obscene. They looked more like 'attacks' on the female body than anything. She questioned the choice of some of the 'locations' which males selected for their pleasure. She didn't think there was any pleasure there for a female. She swallowed hard and involuntarily squinched up her rear end. It just wasn't a step she was ready to take. She knew it was what the majority of all the other females did, it just wasn't her desire.

"Can I think about it first?" Young Jesse asked. "I hadn't planned on 'this'. It's just something I don't know if I'm ready for. I do know Camille has 'groomed' me though. You should hear her Australian accent she uses sometimes. Right now she's the 'Hot' exchange student from the States. No one messes with me or my sister anymore thanks to Camille. I really love her, Savannah, just like I love you. I owe so much to Cameron for what she's done for my family and me."

Young Jesse understood everything came with a 'price'. There was no free ride. Maybe this was the 'price' for the good life her family enjoyed. Maybe this was the 'price' for Savannah and Camille. Maybe this was an obligation to Cameron and the future. Maybe it was just her 'duty' since the others couldn't reproduce. It was a heavy mind trip for her. It was what most of the other females were doing. She could probably do it too. It was for a higher cause than just herself.

Savannah began to wonder if she made a mistake. She thought maybe the void created in the hearts of Vanna and Jesse was what Young Jesse really needed to see. Jesse was Young Jesse, only older. She was somewhat sickened to think of everything done to Vanna and her current condition, and know it was really her.

"I want you to sit down and talk with Jesse and Vanna about the future and what's been done to them." Savannah said. "It will make you sick. It did me. Skynet's made them incapable of having children, even if they do get pregnant. They figured, based on missed periods over the years, they were both pregnant several times. Jesse believes it's been over a dozen. None of the pregnancies they suspected lasted more than two or three months. Cameron figures it's probably been over thirty times for both of them but didn't tell them. There were a lot of men on top of them, even if it wasn't their choice. Skynet's damaged their bodies. It hurts them just as much as it does Cameron to be barren. Every time they've tried specifically in the past and failed, it's hurt them deeply."

Young Jesse was touched by what Savannah said. She also wondered about the part where Savannah mentioned 'there were a lot of men on top of them, even if it wasn't their choice'. She didn't think either of them wanted to be with men, especially Vanna. Duty called to her. It seemed there was more she needed to learn. Savannah told her it wouldn't be easy either.

"I'll talk with them each alone, and together like you've recommended." Young Jesse said. "I know Cameron has chosen us for the future and why. Cameron is protecting us and our families while 'creating hers'."

Savannah wanted Young Jesse to make her own mind up. Her mind was already made up. For her it was about beating Skynet before it could damage their bodies as well.

"The sins of the future will have to be paid for. We have the ability and means to change the future now in the present and give our older selves and Cameron, what Skynet has stolen from them." Savannah said. "I know Camille has what you need to do 'it' with her. I saw Cameron give her the cryogenic container before."

Young Jesse needed to think about it. She didn't want to be with a male yet, but would do her duty for the future. The prospect of what Savannah just indicated was a game changer. She wouldn't need to be 'used', and wouldn't need to 'hurt' Cameron to receive John's seed. She would still technically be a virgin, even if it was Savannah who popped her. The idea of a virgin birth intrigued her. She wanted to confirm how events could go forward.

"So we don't physically need 'to be' with John?" Young Jesse asked.

Savannah liked the idea of bypassing John as well. She was ready to 'lay there' for John, but now it wasn't necessary. She would still provide him with sexual comfort when he 'needed' it. It would happen soon enough anyway going forward. John needed to be seen with human females and she was ready to step up and fill the role. Cameron told her she would adapt and 'like' it very quickly, even if she didn't at first.

"No, I could never do it to Cameron anyway. I love her too much." Savannah said. "I could never hurt her in such a manner. Using the artificial method, I can help her and not hurt her."

Young Jesse was open to find out about more. It was clear to her Savannah was going to do it no matter what. It was still a lot to think about and a big leap. Maybe her mind would be eased some after she talked with everyone. Maybe she would end up traumatized by everything.

When Camille first arrived, she started an intensive training procedure for her. It included various things such as physical training, hand to hand combat, firearms training and so forth. One thing she didn't train on was becoming a mother. It would be one thing to go through a pregnancy and need to raise the child. It would be another thing to go through a pregnancy and give away the child to 'herself'. The thought did seem to make everything a little easier to contemplate.

"OK, love, I'll talk to them and you afterwards." Young Jesse said. "I can't make any promises yet."

Savannah wanted Young Jesse to explore every avenue open to her. 'Cameron' was there with them three times over, even if indirectly as Cammy, Camille, and Cam.

"Talk to Camille also, she can be 'Cameron' herself." Savannah said. "She'll tell you anything you want to know. Just ask her to be honest and tell it to you straight, she will."

All the talk about sex was enticing to Young Jesse, even if the thought of some of it didn't 'call' to her. She was aroused now just by looking at Savannah's nude figure.

"Well…." Young Jesse said as she pushed the sheet down. "I can see the laser treatments have paid dividends for both of us."

The girls admired the results on each other again.

"I think it calls for closer 'inspection'." Savannah said. "They can wait a few more hours before you talk with them."

Young Jesse looked at and touched Savannah.

"Sure, love, I thought the same thing." Young Jesse said.

The two girls entered into a deep kiss…. They shared sex earlier. It was wild and hungry. Now it was time to make love and share their love. Now was the time to love the person within the body, not just the body.

Later on:

Young Jesse felt uncomfortable at first to speak with the girls. She could see Jesse wanted to talk about it, even if she didn't want to. It was more like Jesse needed to talk about it. She was clearly troubled by it all and 'trapped' in the past, the future, over it.

She spoke with Jesse first and then Vanna. Each one alone first, and then Jesse and Vanna together. They told her everything separately. They were ashamed at what was done to them, the horrors of the future, and what they saw. There was the ugly fact few children could be born, and even fewer lived.

Savannah joined them, along with all their Metal girls after a while.

All the girls cried about their past, the future. There wasn't much they could do about the past, the future. There was something they could do about the present. It would make a new future. It would make a different future.

Young Jesse and Savannah took a moment to look at each other. Young Jesse nodded at Savannah. They both looked at their Metal girl. It was the first step, for the next step.

Camille scanned Young Jesse.

Cammy scanned Savannah.

The two Metal girls exchanged a long glance. It was evident to both of them things could proceed.

"You're both in the window." Cammy told Savannah.

Camille nodded at Young Jesse.

Young Jesse looked at Jesse, Vanna, and Savannah. She looked back at Jesse. There seemed to be a deep sadness to Jesse she tried to fight and contain. It touched her deeply. Jesse was in a 'fight' with herself over everything.

Camille didn't want any heavy handed influence over Young Jesse. It was clear Savannah, Jesse, and Vanna did influence her. She wanted to offer Young Jesse a 'way out'.

"It has to be your choice, Jesse." Camille said to Young Jesse. "I'm here to make sure it's your decision alone and no one pressures you. I won't allow it."

Savannah wanted to make her position clear. She looked at Young Jesse.

"I won't allow it either. It has to be everyone's choice on their own, period. My mind is made up." Savannah said. "I think you all know it by now. It's actually been made up for a long time."

Jesse could see Young Jesse was troubled and scared. She felt it was her fault based on the subject. She wanted to make a few things clear to her and everyone else too.

"It's a life changing decision." Jesse said to her younger self. "It has to be your decision, and your decision only. What you do after you have your baby must also be your own choice, if you decide to have one. I won't let anyone make the choice for you. I'll even stand up to Cameron about it if I need to. It will be something you have to live with. I'll support you no matter what you decide to do, even if you decide to do nothing."

Young Jesse was touched further by Jesse. She really talked to 'herself'.

Camille wanted to give Young Jesse some reassurance about moving forward on several levels.

"I'll make sure you're on a healthy diet and get all the medical attention necessary." Camille said. "The Terminators here will always give us extra protection in the advent of Judgment Day. I'll be with you constantly and monitor you."

Young Jesse thought about the 'procedure' involved. Camille and Cammy both described what would be done and how. She loved Savannah. Savannah was the one who popped her. She wanted to take the symbolism of their love a little further. It just seemed like the right thing to do for her. It was what she wanted.

"Camille, can Savannah be the one to administer it?" Young Jesse asked. "Can you tell her and guide her?"

The idea intrigued Savannah deeply. The thought of it excited her since they popped each other.

"I'd love to be the one for you, and you for me." Savannah said. "What could be more special than getting your first love pregnant? Somehow it's even more special to know everything happened, and technically we're both still virgins since we haven't been with a male."

Young Jesse found the concept very compelling as well.

"Popped, pregnant, and still a virgin." Young Jesse said. "Who'd ever believe it?"

Jesse wanted Young Jesse to make sure it was what she wanted for herself. It was a big step in life.

"Are you sure, love?" Jesse asked. "You need to do this freely for yourself."

Young Jesse put herself in Jesse's place. She was her. She was the one barren in the future.

"I do, Jesse, and it's for YOU I'll do it, for US." Young Jesse said. "In reality it's for 'me'."

Vanna wanted Savannah to reconsider. She thought giving up a child was going to be hard to do no matter what the circumstances were. She believed the mental toll would be higher than the physical one.

"Are you sure, Savannah?" Vanna asked. "You know I don't want you to do this for me, but I know you're doing it for Cameron. You can always wait a few years too. It actually applies to both of you."

Savannah saw it as more than a child for John and Cameron. She believed it was a way to 'protect' Cameron more than anything. With a child to take care of and raise, Cameron would need to be less reckless and a lot more careful.

"I love her, Vanna." Savannah said. "I can share my love with her this way. I can give her what she needs, and not have to hurt her. It will help protect Cameron to be a mother as well. I think it's something we can all see and understand."

Young Jesse looked at Vanna and Jesse, and then at Savannah. The future didn't wait for anyone.

"OK then." Young Jesse said. "Let's go knock each other up."

Savannah would have used a better choice of words, but the concept was the same. There was real beauty in what they were about to do for each other.

"I don't know a more beautiful way it could happen." Savannah said.

Jesse and Vanna held each other and cried. It was a beautiful day in their lives, even if it was their younger selves.

'Jessie's Girl' by 'Rick Springfield', played softly in the background.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Sins Of The Future

Every action has a reaction
Many things are accountable
Everything can add up over time
To make amends insurmountable

Does it really matter
What actions one takes
Everyone is someone else
Because they are all fakes

Everything does matter
Don't think it doesn't count
Those caught up in themselves
Soon believe they are paramount

The past follows the present
It is all tied together in the end
To think it doesn't matter
One would need to pretend

Sins of the future
Are forged in the past
Don't be shocked when they catch up
They're sure to leave everyone aghast

Nobody