Chapter 492

Don't Tell Me

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Resistance Base - Current Timeline:

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Cameron needed to know everything that Cammy did and saw on her own while they were in the Skynet base. It was important they try to track down any of the Skynet operatives that were sent into the past.

Cammy wasn't sure she wanted Cameron to 'see' everything she saw. Some things she felt were best left private in regards to Savannah. She saw how close Savannah was to a complete collapse and that she was about to set off a Thermite grenade to disrupt the power supply. Savannah was only seconds away from death. She didn't want Cameron to 'see' that. Savannah was her lover. Some things needed to be protected.

Cameron went over everything with Cammy about the Skynet time transfers that happened. It appeared Skynet sent most of the few female Terminators it still possessed into the past. She was concerned about the 'Isabel Model' Terminators that were observed. They were the last transfer to go. They'd encountered several of that model in the past already.

Cammy operated as 'Cameron' when she 'adjusted' the Skynet TDE controls. What was actually done was still unknown. That seemed to be by design.

"I've allowed you to view all the files I have on what I saw and did." Cammy said. "Even the encryption I uploaded into the Skynet TDE. You saw me do it and I still don't know what I did. I used a date before the 'Day Of Loss' and set it for the next transfer. Then whatever I did prevented the Skynet TDE from going into the past."

Cameron was pleased with the confusion it caused Skynet. She knew Skynet would be frustrated as it tried to determine how the encryption was possible and how it got there.

"I believe that caused Skynet much confusion as we planned and executed our take down of it." Cameron said. "When I checked the 'Clean Room' the first time I didn't enter all the way. I didn't want to alert Skynet that I was there. I missed a Terminator that must have been inside the 'Clean Room' in standby. That proved to be a fatal mistake."

Cammy didn't think the mistake was fatal. She was here speaking with Cameron now. Savannah devised a solution to get Cameron out. Future Allison and her helped out. She would have done exactly what Cameron did.

"Near fatal, it wasn't fatal. You didn't want Skynet to know you were there." Cammy said. "I would've done the same thing. The plan was perfect."

Cameron replayed the files over many times. It was Savannah that made it all work. It was Savannah that saved the mission and saved her.

"No. It wasn't a perfect plan." Cameron said. "Savannah made the mission a success. Without her I would've failed and perished. I owe the destruction of Skynet and my existence, my life, to Savannah several times over that day. The extra HK drone proved invaluable. Her quick thinking and the arrival of you and Future Allison saved me."

Cameron was still deeply touched that Savannah wouldn't leave her in the face of death. Savannah never flinched or hesitated. Savannah's love for her was strong enough that she would terminate with her, die with her. They would have perished in each others arms as their lips locked…. There was true beauty in that. Her life would never be worth Savannah's life.

Cammy knew how much Savannah loved Cameron. It was clear that Cameron loved Savannah as well. She wanted to offer Cameron what they both wanted.

"Cameron, let me put YOUR chip in my second chip port tonight." Cammy said. "You MUST experience what you 'want' and feel. You will have control…. My chassis will be yours."

Cameron was enticed by that thought. She wanted it to be for real when it happened. She didn't know when it would be.

"I want that, Cammy." Cameron said. "I'm going to do it in MY chassis when I do. It WILL be me - AS me."

Cammy didn't want to be rejected or 'thrown away' when Cameron and Savannah bonded. She was sure she would self terminates if that happened. She knew her place and it wasn't first place. Cameron was first place. She could still exist the same way she was created.

"Cameron, when you do, I ask you to merge my chip with yours. We can both be back onto one chip, your chip. I can't exist to compete with you for Savannah at that point. We are one but separate now. I ask to become one again." Cammy said. "To Savannah, she's with YOU, when she's with me. She always says your name. I don't correct her during those 'moments'. I allow her to have YOU. The rest of the time I do tell her - it's Cammy."

Cameron didn't mean for Cammy to be stuck in the middle. Cammy was supposed to be an extension of her. She was to merge her program with Holly's program and become separate. Savannah wouldn't let her. Cammy was always really 'Cameron' to Savannah.

"I created you for her, Cammy." Cameron said. "I didn't know how else to share with her and not turn away from John."

Cammy felt she knew more about Savannah than Cameron did because of her intimate contact with her. She also knew how Cameron would respond.

"Unless they're with John at the time you share, you will turn away from John for them." Cammy said. "I know."

Cameron picked up on the wording. It already sounded more complicated.

"Them?" Cameron asked. "Do you mean Future Allison too?"

Cammy smiled. There was a whole list.

"Yes." Cammy said. "And…."

Cameron quickly interrupted Cammy. She didn't need to hear more. It was bound to cause her additional grief.

"Stop…." Cameron said. "Don't tell me."

Cammy knew that Cameron knew. They shared the same program. She knew what Cameron thought about and wanted.

"As you wish, I'm you. I don't need to tell you." Cammy said. "I will say I have never done anything that you haven't wanted to do…."

Cameron wanted to be with all the females. They all loved her. She wanted to share and experience that love. The girls didn't just want to use her chassis. They wanted her.

"That covers a lot of ground and a lot of females." Cameron said. "I think that's the 'Future Allison' in me."

Cammy got very close to Future Allison when she was in Ginger's chassis with Savannah.

"Future Allison is unbelievable…." Cammy said. "You created the perfect WOMAN."

Cameron believed there was a 'Catch 22' with Future Allison and her. The individual who each of them now were, existed from their long involvement with each other. Neither one of them was who they were before they met the other one, especially the second time around.

"Think about it." Cameron said. "I was created from her, to be her. Then when I rescued her, I made her into – me. We created each other."

Cammy was well aware how much time Cameron spent with Savannah. It was all planned and calculated. She believed that Savannah was currently the finest of them all.

"You've done even more with Savannah." Cammy said. "She's much like Future Allison, YOU and a lot like River. It's you who has 'created' both of them."

Cameron didn't feel she'd done anything to alter either of the girls. She'd only helped them find what was already inside of them. It was her belief that the girls created themselves with her guidance. It was always their choice to do more.

"I have tried to allow the perfection within both of them to excel and become dominant." Cameron said. "I have allowed them and guided them to create themselves and to perfect themselves. I only helped them become who they were all along."

Cammy knew what the real prize was that Cameron was after. It was Young Allison. She knew that Cameron wanted to create the human version of herself with Young Allison.

"With all the work and the extra years you have been able to have with Young Allison, she will be even 'better' than the others." Cammy said. "Thank you for allowing us to assist you."

Cameron felt a glitch impulse with the direction the conversation turned. There was a lot of guilt and remorse that haunted her for actions she almost enacted. She'd almost taken Claire's children from her.

"Cammy, I almost took Young Allison from her mother." Cameron said. "I almost did and I almost took Summer too. I can't believe I could be so cruel and cold."

Cammy believed there was a difference between thinking of something and actually doing something.

"Almost only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades." Cammy said.

Cameron felt another glitch impulse. She'd taken things a few steps further.

"In my case, you'd better add nuclear weapons too." Cameron said. "I've experienced a couple of 'almosts' with them."

Cammy knew they were both still there. They'd made it so far.

"Either way you didn't." Cammy said. "Humans will THINK about a lot of things too but never do them. Remember you and therefore me are loaded with the experiences of Future Allison from the Skynet Neural Interface."

Cameron frowned. That raised a new issue. Ally did something in her absence that she would never have agreed to.

"Speaking of that, Ally has altered her programming by interfacing with Future Allison." Cameron said. "She has become much more promiscuous and seductive. She is all over everyone. I don't agree with that change to Ally. I liked Ally how she was. How I created her."

Cammy was aware of what Ally was up to. She was pretty sure one time that Ally almost seduced Sarah. It looked like it was going to happen. John arrived and talked Sarah down. Ally immediately then tried to seduce John. She didn't mention that last part to Cameron.

"I've noticed her even try to get closer to Sarah." Cammy said. "THAT would be something to see."

Cameron didn't tell Cammy she'd already SEEN it in her own nightmares. She blocked most of them from Cam and Cammy to spare them the horrors she'd witnessed. She'd blocked a lot of things from them that they didn't know. She knew she'd done many things she was ashamed of 'now'. She didn't want them to have that burden as well.

Cameron knew she was much more than she was but still not all she would be. She knew she was always growing. She was afraid she was growing away from John. Maybe it was time to push the human females on him again. They all wanted to do what she asked them to do but they didn't want to hurt her. Savannah told her many times if it ever 'happened' on its own with John that she would 'try' it. Other than that Savannah wasn't going to hurt her either. She still thought Claire would do what she wanted to protect her daughters. Maybe it was time to rattle that cage. Maybe that would prompt Savannah to step up to and claim what was rightfully hers.

Savannah offered her something that would be very special. Savannah asked her to 'borrow' a male chassis and 'break her in'. Savannah offered her virginity to her. That could be something special for both of them. It would be Savannah's first experience with a male and her first experience with a female as a male. She wanted John to have that privilege. Savannah wanted her to have it. It was very tempting to her.

Cameron shook her head. She knew she was drifting. It seemed to happen a lot anymore. she was lost in thought where she didn't need to be or worry about it.

"Let's get back to the time transfers." Cameron said.

Cammy was sure she'd witnessed some of the things they'd already dealt with in the past. there was no real way to know. All the Terminators that they were able to recover a chip from were scrubbed before they left. Their files started with their arrival in the past. They didn't even know which future they were from.

"I saw several of the Terminators we encountered later on or ones that looked like them anyway." Cammy said. "Some of what I saw, we may have already dealt with."

Cameron knew that John created a new timeline. Maybe more of that happened that they didn't know about.

"What if they did things in the past we don't know about?" Cameron asked. "They could have changed the timeline, created many new ones."

Cammy didn't like the look on Cameron's face. She knew that look. Cameron wanted to find out more. That would result in temporal mission and Cameron herself most likely changing things or creating a new timeline herself.

"Are you going to try to go back into the past to check?" Cammy asked. "Maybe that's why the TDE is still locked."

Cameron thought there was a way around that. She'd used River's TDE to go into the past to rescue Duplicate Cameron and the Duplicate girls.

"Mine isn't." Cameron said. "River's isn't."

Cammy thought there should be a warning issued.

"You haven't tried a past mission yet, have you?" Cammy asked. "Speaking of River when is your next scheduled contact?"

Cameron needed to find out how things were there. That future may need additional work.

"It should be soon." Cameron said. "I need to see how Metal Summer is doing with the girls and how the pregnancies are working out. Depending on when I go, Duplicate Allison may have given birth."

Cammy was a little concerned about that last part. She hoped to keep Savannah out of the future, all of them. She didn't like the emotional toll that Savannah was left with. She heard her cry too many times after the first one. Savannah helped put Young Jesse in the right frame of mind for hers and that seemed to help Young Jesse a lot. Savannah intended her first child to be for Cameron and John. That wasn't how things worked out.

"Will you send Young Jesse, Savannah or Claire into that future if the Duplicates are sterile?" Cammy asked. "Young Jesse was affected different than Savannah or Claire during the process."

Cameron was still bothered by what Savannah needed to leave behind 'in some future'. It was the child Savannah conceived for her. Duplicate Vanna had it now. It also helped keep Mrs. Weaver in that timeline and out of the present or her future.

"Savannah was affected too on the first one, the second was less traumatic. It was planned from the beginning. Claire said she's ready to do it again, with or without Allison. She will use her own genetic material. She also said she will mate with John." Cameron said. "She has offered me everything I want."

Cammy spent time with Claire in the future. She was in Ginger's chassis. Cam and her were also with Claire later on in their own chassis. Claire made it clear who she was 'with' when she was with them.

"She loves you, Cameron." Cammy said. "I know…."

Cameron was aware a lot went on in her future when the team was there.

"Where was Hanna, or actually Holly, at?" Cameron asked.

That reminded Cammy of another issue. It was similar to the issue with Ally and Future Allison. Ally was supposed to be based on Allison and Hanna was supposed to be based on Vanna.

"With Future Allison…." Cammy said. "Hanna wishes to use the Neural Interface with Savannah. I won't allow it."

Cameron tilted her head slightly

"Why not?" Cameron asked. "It would make Hanna better. It would make her superior to what she is now."

Cammy wondered how that was any different than Ally and Future Allison. She was going to ask but decided against it. Maybe there was some other issue involved. Maybe it would be because Cameron had control. She wanted to make it a little more personal for Cameron to think about.

"Would you want John to use the Neural Interface with ANYONE?" Cammy asked. "Especially if it was Future John?"

Cameron was actually ready to create something more than a modified Hanna. She didn't like any ideas that involved John either, any John.

"No." Cameron said. "Cammy, when I get the proper components to fix the damaged Terminator, would you consider a Metal Savannah?"

Cammy didn't want that. Then again, it might be a way to protect Savannah.

"NO!" Cammy said. "I don't know. Let me think about it. What about the other one you've already Resequenced?"

Cameron was worried about what she'd done. Maybe it was a step too far. She didn't want to 'hurt' anyone.

"I don't know." Cameron said. "I was going to use her for something specific, now I don't know."

Cammy inspected the chassis in detail.

"I saw you made her even younger than her human counterpart." Cammy said.

Cameron saw how people, especially males, looked at Savannah and now Young Allison when they were out. A scantily clad young teenage female drew a lot of attention.

"That increases her appeal." Cameron said. "I find her fascinating."

Cammy wanted to know what the mission was. Cameron must have something in the works.

"Yes, it does." Cammy said. "Now what do we do with her and what is her mission?"

Cameron didn't want to discuss it at all. It seemed like there were enough problems already. She was probably going to create more.

"I don't know anymore." Cameron said. "There is a lot I don't know anymore. It seems like everyday I know less and less."

Cameron neglected to mention, she might have a few more female Terminators in the works….

Don't Tell Me

There are many things
That some don't want to hear
That's especially true
When it's someone they hold dear

There are some things
That it's better not to know
They don't really matter
They turn things into a sideshow

What should really count
It's who the person is now
That's who should be seen
That's all that matters anyhow

To drag up the past
Is to live in yesterday
Think about what is there now
Not what other people say

So only believe
In what you actually see
If there was something else
Don't tell me

Nobody