Chapter 540

Pains

Holly returned the manned drone to the hanger. She helped to service and rearm it. She was in no hurry to face Cameron or Allison. She took her time and did as much as possible. She knew how this day was going to end for her. Maybe it was best to get it over with.

She was aware Cameron was rendered inoperative in the operation. That would probably fall on her shoulders. She knew it was her foolishness that caused her to need to be taken away from the operation. She was responsible for Allison's actions as well. If she'd remained at her post, Ally or Sheila would've piloted the manned drone. There would've been full coverage at the locations.

Holly knew Cameron wanted to speak with her. She went to her now unused room. She'd straightened her room up and made sure everything was cleaned up and put away. She got everything ready for her punishment. She waited in the darkness as she sat on the bed. She replayed her files with Allison, both of them. She was totally captivated by Future Allison. It was HER Allison but everything was 'different'. It was all better somehow, even though they were the same person.

She relived every moment of her life with Allison. She was lost deep in thought as every moment came to life and was relived just as it happened the first time.

The bed moved slightly.

Holly jumped a little when someone sat next to her on the bed.

It was time to pay the 'Piper'.

They both lay back and stared at the ceiling in the darkness.

Holly felt her hand taken in another's hand.

They both lay there like that for over an hour. No words were spoken.

Holly felt a gentle squeeze on her hand.

'Here it comes….' Holly thought.

Holly hoped deactivation and chip extraction would be swift. She wouldn't oppose it. At this point she welcomed it. She just wanted the peace of oblivion.

Young Allison cleaned up and went to her room. She could study, practice or sleep. The choice was hers. She chose to study for an hour before going to sleep. She knew Anna would practice with her tomorrow anyway. It was more fun to practice with Anna. It was even more fun to practice with Savannah….

She was aware of most of what happened tonight. She found most of it disturbing. She wanted to better follow the operations and what Savannah and Cameron were doing. That is where she wanted her training focused. She knew she needed to be at Savannah's side.

There was one big obstacle. She wasn't 'old enough' in all their eyes for 'everything' she was ready to do. It was all the things she NEEDED to do to protect the future.

She felt there was no task she couldn't do. Her body was young to them but nature dictated otherwise. She was ready to do as Savannah previously did. She didn't like to be held back. That was the fault of her mother, Allison, Savannah and Sarah.

None of them wanted her to 'grow up'. She was 'grown up'. They just didn't understand it. Cameron understood it and trained her accordingly. The Metal girls all understood it. She was secretly 'conditioned' as an adult every night. She thought it was her body that 'called' to her to act. It was really what was 'planted' in her mind that 'called' to her.

Cameron wanted her genetic material to be harvested and implanted in her mother to nourish and deliver the baby. That was the baby that Cameron wanted.

Young Allison didn't know this but the thoughts were planted deep in her mind.

Anna entered Allison's room after knocking.

"Did you change?" Allison asked.

Anna smiled faintly.

"It's hot out." Anna said.

Allison lay on her bed.

Anna came over and lay next to her.

Allison moved over slightly to give Anna more room.

Anna moved closer to Allison anyway.

Allison looked at Anna. She thought how Hot she looked. She knew that Anna was 'Cameron' and 'Savannah'. She knew the only thing Hotter than that would be Cameron and Future Allison as Metal. It was what Cameron was supposed to be….

Anna look over at Allison slightly.

Allison knew this wasn't a 'social call'.

Earlier:

Cameron went with Savannah to the door to her room. She gave her a hug and Savannah winced.

She knew the hug was less force than she'd given Savannah earlier. She knew that meant the bruising and swelling was a little worse. That was typical in an injury of that type.

"I'm sorry." Cameron said.

Savannah managed a shallow smile. It was the best she could do.

"I'm fine." Savannah said. "I'll manage."

Cameron looked at her for a few moments and entered her room. It was clear to her that Savannah needed help. Sure Savannah could 'manage' but she was only going to aggravate her injuries more. That was unacceptable to her.

"I'll help you get ready for bed." Cameron said. "I can see your arm really hurts when you move it."

Savannah didn't want to burden Cameron with her problems. She wanted to stand tall for Cameron. She didn't want Cameron to feel bad about herself because of her. That was what worried her right now.

"You don't need to." Savannah said. "I can manage. I'm fine."

Cameron never heard Savannah complain. Cammy told her the same thing about Savannah. Cammy said she needed to do it anyway for Savannah after Savannah always told her she could 'hack it' or she was 'fine'.

That disgusted Cameron more than a little. She knew that Savannah said those things to be more like her. Savannah wasn't a Terminator. She was a teenage girl. She was human. It was true that she could turn her 'pain' receptors off, even though she usually didn't. Savannah needed to feel her pain and it stayed with her until it was healed.

Cameron went over and took out Savannah's 'night clothes'. She could tell Savannah hurt and hurt a lot.

Savannah smiled at her.

"I'm fine." Savannah said. "I'll be alright."

She wanted to reassure Cameron she was OK.

Cameron felt a glitch impulse but suppressed it. She knew how much Savannah really hurt.

"I'd like to assist you anyway." Cameron said.

Savannah wished that this was the moment that Cameron would 'take' her and they could make and share love. The circumstances were all wrong. She was in too much pain.

"I'll be OK once my top is off." Savannah said.

Cameron helped Savannah get her top off.

Savannah reached back to unhook her bra. Her arm stopped halfway there. There was too much pain to move it any farther. Maybe a little more help would be fine. She turned her back to Cameron.

"Would you?" Savannah asked.

Cameron really wished this was all different. She wanted so much to undress Savannah and share with her. She imagined doing these same things under different circumstances.

Cameron unhooked Savannah's bra for her.

Savannah turned and faced Cameron as she slid it off.

They stood there silently as they faced each other for awhile.

There was an unspoken invitation that would need to be fulfilled at a later date.

Cameron removed her shoes for her.

Savannah finally slid her pants off with some help from Cameron.

Cameron looked at Savannah in her underwear. She wanted to slide those off of Savannah right now. She wanted to open things up and please Savannah. She wanted what called to her. She wanted to be with Savannah. It was right there in front of her.

Savannah looked at Cameron near her legs. She hoped Cameron would remove her underwear. She really wanted Cameron to do more. She spread her legs slightly. The offer was clear.

Cameron moistened her lips lightly as she looked at Savannah's underwear and then her face. She wanted what was there. She wanted Savannah. She wanted all of her and she knew where she wanted to start.

There was a dull 'thump' outside the room.

Cameron was aware Cammy was outside the door, waiting….

Savannah reached down to slide her underwear off. She knew what Cameron wanted. She wanted it too. Currently all her pain was forgotten. Her animal instincts called to her right now.

Cammy listened intently from outside Savannah's room. She could hear everything Cameron and Savannah did inside. She knew that Savannah would slide her underwear down any second. She knew that once Cameron saw what she wanted more than anything that she would take it. The pure and total 'super pinkness' would call to her and she wouldn't be able to stop. That was how it was for her the first time with Savannah. It would be the same for Cameron. They ran the same program after all.

Cameron saw what Savannah was about to offer her. She was going to take it. She didn't care about anything else right now. She watched as Savannah started to slide her underwear down.

There was another sound outside the door.

Cameron frowned. Cammy was right there. She was going to enter the room and ruin everything.

"Cammy will be here very soon with some ointment and pain medication if you want it. I suggest you use it." Cameron said.

There came a soft knock at the door as soon as Cameron said that.

Savannah understood in that second that Cammy was out there the whole time. She knew that Cammy wanted to 'protect' what was 'hers'.

Cammy entered the room.

Cameron was still down by Savannah's legs. She made no effort to move. She wanted Cammy to see where she was and that Savannah partially slid down her underwear. She'd made her point. It was time to leave. She carefully embraced the nearly naked form of Savannah and gave her a long soft kiss on her cheek. Her hand glided careful along Savannah's side catching the fullness of her breast and down her thigh. Savannah's underwear slid down a little further with that move.

"Thank You, Savannah." Cameron said. "Cammy can take over – for now…."

Cameron stood and faced Cammy. She looked at Cammy and Cammy looked back at her.

Cammy knew her time was 'limited'.

"Thank you for you assistance." Cameron said to Cammy and left.

Savannah watched Cameron's head turn as the door started to close and gave her a wink.

Cammy decided it was better not to say anything about Cameron. If she ever forced the issue she knew that Savannah would choose Cameron over her. She pulled Savannah's underwear back up. She was here to assist Savannah at this time.

"You're injured much worse than you will admit." Cammy said.

Savannah lifted her butt up a little and pulled her underwear all the way back up.

Cammy watched her but said nothing.

"Do you or Cameron ever complain?" Savannah asked.

Cammy didn't see how Savannah could compare herself to a Terminator in this regard.

"We can turn our pain off." Cammy said.

Savannah knew that was true but her observations indicated otherwise.

"Do you?" Savannah asked. "I've repaired both of you. I know you've both experienced pain needlessly."

Cammy wasn't sure how to explain it.

"We often don't shut the pain receptors down." Cammy said. "Cameron and I both leave it on as much as possible."

Savannah knew this. She could tell.

Cammy expected a response. There wasn't one.

"Aren't you going to ask why?" Cammy asked.

Savannah knew the drill. The reason sickened her.

"No. I already know." Savannah said. "If you can feel pain, you know you're – alive."

Savannah believed that pleasure could do the same thing but better. She planned to show Cameron that herself one day. She really hoped it was one day soon.

Cammy thought exactly the same way Cameron did. They ran the same base program.

"Yes, it's in Cameron's poems. Let me help you finish getting ready for bed." Cammy said. "I have some medicine and ointment to administer."

Savannah called it like she saw it.

"Thank you, 'Cameron'." Savannah said.

Cammy looked at her with a slight frown.

"Cammy." Cammy corrected her. "It always has to be – Cammy."

Cammy only allowed Savannah to call her 'Cameron' during her special moments of pleasure. 'Cameron's' name softly spoken at that 'moment' meant so much to both of them. It meant everything and said it all….

Holly and Cameron lay side by side on Holly's bed.

Cameron finally spoke.

"Holly." Cameron said.

Holly waited a few seconds before she spoke.

"Yes." Holly answered.

Cameron noted the lag in the response.

"I know what you're going through and feel." Cameron said. "I want you to know that I understand."

There was another long moment of silence.

"I'm sorry, Cameron." Holly said.

Holly moved and reached over for something next to her. It was time.

Cameron felt something placed in her hand. She lifted it and looked at it. It was a scalpel. She understood that Holly was ready for the next step.

"I'm ready for deactivation." Holly said. "Thank you for everything. I love you, Cameron…."

They both sat up.

Holly turned on the light.

Cameron lifted the scalpel….

Anna looked over at Allison as they lay on the bed.

Allison was ready to be 'chewed out' for endangering the mission Holly was on by 'running away'. She didn't know Holly actually did the same thing….

Anna informed Allison earlier that the mission was a success and everyone returned safely. She left out the part about Cameron nearly being terminated. She was fixed now so what was the point? Allison was stressed out enough anyway. She didn't mention that Savannah was shot three times in her vest and nearly killed. She wasn't.

Allison adjusted and moved Anna's hand to her neck. She knew Anna wanted to scan her. It was like a greeting now in a way. She understood they were worried about her and the baby.

She figured she would be reprimanded but it never came. She just wanted to get it over with. She looked at Anna.

"Are you going to yell at me or scold me?" Allison asked.

Anna tilted her head slightly.

"No." Anna said. "I understand."

Allison doubted that. Love was very complicated.

"Do you?" Allison asked.

Anna believed she was provided with a sound date base.

"I understand more than you think." Anna said. "I'm both 'Cameron' and 'Savannah'."

Allison wondered why she didn't remember that.

"I'm sorry." Allison said. "I don't seem to know anything anymore."

Anna knew Allison's importance.

"You're very important to Cameron and Savannah." Anna said. "You're important to the future and John."

Allison looked over and frowned. That wasn't her.

"No. It's Young Allison that is. NOT Me. " Allison said. "I don't matter."

Anna gave Allison's hand a gentle squeeze.

"You do to Cameron and Savannah." Anna said. "You do to Vanna…."

Allison was pleased to hear that about Cameron and Savannah. The part about Vanna caused her more grief.

"I love Vanna dearly but I think we're – done." Allison said. "Too much has happened."

Anna believed there was an avenue to 'fix' some of that.

"Your mother wishes to move to the base with Young Allison and Summer…." Anna said.

Allison expelled her breath forcefully. There was another point of contention.

"What about my father?" Allison asked.

Anna knew the story. Claire's parents and family didn't agree with her sexual preference. They wanted her to 'grow up' and get married. They hoped that would 'straighten' her out. It didn't. It only made her miserable and depressed.

"Claire's moved on." Anna said. "She only got married because everyone told her she should. You know her preference is for females."

Allison knew. Just as she knew herself the moment Vanna 'took' her…. It was what seemed 'right' to her. Males only abused her. Vanna gave her love and then gave her pleasure. She'd wanted both desperately.

Anna could only speak the facts.

"Your parent's relationship ended with Judgment Day before…." Anna said. "It would have ended the same as it's ended now. It happens to half of all married couples."

Allison thought of her future and all the garbage she needed to eat. There were the times the men found her and cornered her - alone. She wished her parents could have protected her. They couldn't. They were dead.

"I want Allison and Summer to have both of my – their parents, as they grow up." Allison said. "It was what I always wanted for myself."

Anna knew no one could change Allison's future. It already happened. Claire already chose a different path.

"It will be safer for you all to be at the base." Anna said. "Claire isn't going to change her mind about Paul. It's over."

Allison worried about her father. She wanted more for him.

"What about him?" Allison asked. "What about my father?"

Anna figured that Cameron would protect him and provided for him.

"He'll move on. He will have a new life, a better life." Anna said.

Allison was sure how that would be accomplished.

"How?" Allison asked. "With a 'Metal Whore'?"

Anna assumed it would be a female Terminator. She thought if the female Terminator was programmed properly she would make Paul Young a very happy man as she protected him.

"Yes. She will do anything and everything for him." Anna said.

"STOP." Allison said. "I don't want to hear this."

Anna moved her hand away from Allison's neck.

Anna knew that is what Allison DID want to hear. It was that her father would be safe and protected. That meant her father would survive Judgment Day and live….

Allison wondered who it was. Which one of the Metal girls volunteered or if her father was given a choice…. She hoped he didn't select a 'Cameron clone'. That would be 'HER'. She was afraid to ask. She hoped if anything that it was a sheath Resequenced from her mother's DNA. She was sure it would be with a teenage appearance too.

Allison never asked.

Nobody ever told.

Pain

Pain can come in many forms
It may be imagined or real
It can happen in the body or mind
Damage or trauma to either we can feel

Physical damage may often heal
The actual pain fades with time in the mind
It seems the damaged to a mind itself
Is more difficult to heal and leave behind

Some seek physical pain
To know and feel they are alive
What in their mind do they deprive
What madness do they contrive

Mental pain can happen
Without any physical touch
It seems to happen from within
It can scar and hurt so much

It has often been said
There is no gain without pain
When is it better to refrain
To prevent damage to the brain

Nobody