Chapter 650

A Few Minutes

Previously:

Cameron was very worried about the continual growth of Skynet. It seemed every time they knocked it down, it sprang back up. She experienced what humans knew as 'depression'. She was as unable to deal with it as she was her other budding 'emotions'.

She wanted to stay close to John. She needed to protect him in the present. That 'function' would fall to others in the future. She knew her termination was only a matter of time. She could 'feel' it. It wasn't something that she wanted to shy away from either. It was just how things were going to be. The future was always knocking.

Cameron came by to see John and perform her 'wifely duties'. Once John was 'finished' she would leave. It was usually only for three to five minutes. She could fit it into her schedule from time to time. She was more of a recipient than a participant.

She felt obligated to be with John. It was just part of her 'job' now it seemed. She was sure Future John must have programmed these 'feelings' into her. The only problem was that she couldn't find the programming. She asked both Cammy and Cam to search as well. She wanted to find where they were hidden and delete them. Future John must have programmed her to 'love' Past John – HER John, so he wouldn't be alone. The fact she was with him is what ended up making him 'alone'. There was a selection of females, both human and Metal, available to John. Because of her and John's past actions with Future Riley, he didn't partake in the variety of bountiful booty.

Allison, Vanna, Jesse, Claire and Savannah were all available to him. He shouldn't ever have to be alone. There could be one or more females at his side every night. She needed to protect the future. There was a WAR to fight. That was her job. She tried to fight it herself. She didn't want to spend hours laying in the darkness doing nothing while John snored next to her.

Cameron decided if Allison wanted to go to her future that she was going to bring Future Allison here. Future Allison knew what to do since she was already doing it…. If Future Allison took over 'this function', it would allow her more time to fight the war. There was something disturbing her thoughts. It was very annoying and persistent.

"…Cameron…."

"…Cameron…?"

"…CAMERON…?"

Cameron opened her eyes and looked around. She remembered where she was. She allowed John the use of her chassis to 'expend' himself. She'd disabled all of the 'pleasure receptors' on her sheath. The pleasurable sensations were too easy to 'get lost' in. He must've already finished. She was glad it was over. She would deal with everything else and then leave.

"What?" Cameron asked. "Are you done already?"

John wondered why she always said that. It was like her chassis was there but she wasn't. Maybe that's why he'd stopped all the foreplay.

Cameron picked up her underwear, pants and shoes. She grabbed a couple tissues on the way out. She silently left. She didn't even remove her top or bra anymore. Once she was in the hallway she finished dressing and headed off to fight the WAR. She tossed the tissues in the trash.

'What a waste.' Cameron thought.

She was irritated these five minute interruptions cost her time she should be concentrating on Skynet. The war didn't take 'comfort' breaks. How was she supposed to do everything on her own. There wasn't enough time.

Presently:

John lay in his bed alone. He stared at the ceiling in the darkness. He reflected on the day's events and how he'd endangered Cameron and then Savannah and Cammy by extension by being out in the field. Cameron, who was in a dangerous situation, sent all her help to him.

He wondered where Cameron was at now. John knew of the internal demons Cameron needed to face daily. She tried to protect him and the future, fight Skynet and its offshoots and worry about everything and everyone else.

At least Cameron stopped by earlier for a few minutes. That was all the time he needed anyway. It saved him the effort of having to do it himself - again. It looked like 'Rosie' would get the night off, at least for now anyway.

John drifted off to sleep.

Savannah lay in her bed alone. There was a new life growing inside her. It wasn't 'hers', even though it was in a way.

She got up. She felt so conflicted. She knew what she was supposed to do. She knew what she needed to do. She knew what she must do. She knew what she wanted to do.

She stripped off her bed clothes and underwear. She wanted to see the damage that was done to her body. It seemed to get worse and worse.

She looked at herself in the mirror. Her body was still a mass of bruises. Cammy told the specialist she'd been in a car accident recently when he asked. He didn't seem convinced. At one point she was afraid Cammy might terminate him. She needed to remind Cammy they might need his services in the future.

Savannah threw on a dress and nothing else. She headed out. It was one of the dresses she kept for River. She liked the carefree feeling it gave her.

She went by everyone's room but they were all quiet. She stopped in front of John's door and listened. It was quiet. She'd been by there when it wasn't before…. She turned the door handle. It was open. All she needed to do was push it open and walk in. It was time….

Savannah was afraid the more her body was damaged, the less John would ever want her. She knew it was being damaged on the outside as well as the inside. She was very aware the real damage that was being done was in her mind.

The manned drone received damage in the latest operation.

Gail worked to repair the manned drone.

Cameron came up behind her.

Gail stood and faced her.

Cameron moved forward and hugged Gail.

"I want to thank you for being there for me, earlier." Cameron said. "You saved me a lot of damage a few times. That was a risk to you."

Gail didn't see it as a big deal. It just seemed to be part of the job.

"You needed assistance. I was able to render it." Gail said.

Cameron was still grateful anyway.

"Thank You, no less." Cameron said.

Gail smiled at Cameron.

"You're welcome." Gail said.

Cameron thought Gail looked very pretty when she smiled. There was seldom a smile on her face. That just seemed to be her nature. She was the least 'emotional' of all the female Terminators. It did make her wonder if being with Jesse was part of her delayed development. Jesse was very sex oriented as opposed to emotional needs. It seemed that Gail followed that same path. She thought there might be a solution that could help Gail out.

"Savannah wanted to thank you too." Cameron said. "She knows you were there for her."

Gail looked away. She felt a little self conscious.

Cameron reached out and gently turned Gail's face back to hers. She understood what was troubling Gail. It was a problem that she'd faced often. Many of her current problems were based on her lack of activity and trying to hide who she really was.

"Never be ashamed of your feelings." Cameron said.

Gail was ashamed of her feelings. They were feelings that she didn't believe she'd ever be able to act on. Somehow that made it all worse.

"I can't help it." Gail said. "I love her."

Cameron wanted Gail to know that Savannah tried to find her when she returned to the base.

"Savannah looked for you earlier…." Cameron said.

Gail was tied up earlier. Jesse was 'all over' her when she returned. It seemed Jesse needed to release some sexual tension. Jesse always seemed to have a lot of it. Every time when Jesse needed to finish it always needed to be multiple finishes one after another. She was able to give Jesse thirty two in a row one time. She only stopped when Jessie stopped breathing. The breathing ability returned after a series of chest compressions. It took a long time for Jesse's vision to come back and for her to remember how to speak.

"I needed to reassure Jesse I was undamaged and fully functional. I showed her until she fell asleep or passed out." Gail said. "She's sleeping now. They worry about us as much as we worry about them."

Cameron wanted to 'reward' Gail. There were various ways to do that. She wanted Gail to see that there were more things than just sexual things that two people could share.

"Maybe you can go by and see Savannah." Cameron said.

Gail's eyes widened and she perked up.

"Isn't she asleep?" Gail asked.

Cameron passed by Savannah's room several times. Savannah's earlier sadness at the combat site bothered her.

"No. She's troubled." Cameron said. "She wants to talk to someone."

Gail was a little confused. Savannah already had someone 'assigned' to her. They were supposed to meet all of her needs including all of her sexual desires.

"Isn't Cammy there?" Gail asked.

Cameron was a little upset with Cammy. She'd heard what Cammy said to John and that didn't please her. She was more than willing to send Cammy away when she asked to go.

"No. I sent her to the Palm Springs area earlier. She was very upset about something." Cameron said. "She asked to go."

Bob and Jim worked alongside Gail the entire time Cameron talked to her.

"We can finish up here." Bob said.

Cameron took the tools away from Gail and started to work with Bob and Jim.

Gail cleaned up. She straightened her clothes and left.

Bob watched Gail walk away. He was a little concerned about her.

"She's never been the same since she was in the fight with those two Terminators." Bob said. "She's 'damaged'."

Cameron knew that the damage wasn't real physical damage.

"No, Bob." Cameron said. "Only her heart is damaged."

Bob tilted his head slightly.

"She doesn't have a heart." Bob said.

Over the years Cameron learned many things about 'feelings' and love. Most of them were very painful to learn. She did learn that she wasn't alone about the way she felt most of the time. It was true that the human heart only pumped blood. That wasn't where the pain emanated from.

"The 'heart', is really the mind, Bob." Cameron said.

That revelation sounded more serious to Bob than he'd originally thought.

"Do you mean that her chip is damaged?" Bob asked.

Cameron was aware that the issue was much more complicated than simple physical damage to a Terminator's chip. She believed that her own defects Illustrated the problem that she'd stated.

"I wish we could blame it on that." Cameron said. "The damage is in the mind and it NEVER goes away. Look at what it's done to me."

Bob cringed a little. He hoped to never suffer as he'd seen Cameron suffer. He never thought a Terminator could be in such pain.

"I have. That's why I refuse any 'advanced' programming." Bob said. "Every male Terminator has refused it."

Cameron felt a little defensive. She didn't believe everything was her fault. It was a fault that was built into her. It was the result of someone's ill advised programming.

"It's part of all the female infiltration unit's programming." Cameron said.

Bob didn't really want to get into that topic. He was curious though as to why Cameron would want Gail to do what he knew she wanted to do.

"Why did you send Gail away now?" Bob asked.

Cameron was aware that Savannah and Gail were both troubled. She believed that they could help each other because they'd developed a special connection. Gail's emotional programming was very limited. Savannah knew how to reach every Terminator.

"Both Gail and Savannah need to talk." Cameron said.

Bob was aware that humans used many metaphors to describe sexual acts. Cameron seemed to be privy to all of those.

"Do you mean just to talk?" Bob asked.

Cameron actually believed in this instance that was what was needed for both of them.

"Yes." Cameron said.

Bob learn to recognize sexual desire when he saw it. It was easier to spot in humans but the female Terminators all displayed it as well.

"I think Gail wants to do more than 'talk'." Bob said.

Cameron believed that everyone was free to choose their own sexual partners. Over the years she'd learned that no one owns anyone. When someone felt that they owned someone else was when the real problems started. That was something that she'd learned firsthand the hard way.

"That's up to them." Cameron said. "I would encourage that."

Bob, like everyone, knew that Cameron wanted to be with Savannah herself. They also knew the extent of her jealousy.

"Doesn't THAT bother you?" Bob asked.

Cameron looked at Bob and smiled. She never ever wanted Savannah to feel like she did. She wanted Savannah showered with love. She did everything she could to make sure that that happened. She tried to make sure that every female was with Savannah.

"No, actually it doesn't." Cameron said. "I never want Savannah to feel alone. The more love she feels and shares is good for her well being."

Bob needed to say what he thought. It was a question that begged for an answer.

"Why can't you go to her?" Bob asked. "It's clear to everyone you both want to."

Cameron developed a far-off look in her eyes. She knew the depth of Savannah's devotion to her. It truly was love like no other. Savannah promised that she'd never abandon her. The sad part about that was she'd watched Savannah to stay to 'die' with her when she could've left. It truly was love like no other. Savannah never thought less of her or shied away from her when she was damaged, no matter how bad the damage was. Savannah loved her for more than just her appearance alone. That really meant something to her. She believed that even if her sheath was gone and all that left was her metal endoskeleton that's Savannah would love her no less. She didn't believe John would do the same thing. She was sure John only loved her appearance.

"When that happens, Bob, and it will, I'll never leave her." Cameron said. "None of this will matter to me any longer and we will leave this time period."

Bob thought that seemed like speculation. He didn't see anything factual in that.

"How can you know that?" Bob asked.

Cameron possessed files from previous daydreams. She was sure that they were more than daydreams. She believed they were events that already happened.

"I've done it all before. At least I believe I have." Cameron said. "When Future Allison gets here, I'm taking both of them."

Bob tilted his head slightly. He was a little confused.

"Future Allison is coming here?" Bob asked.

Cameron was aware of the problem that she'd created by trying to help Future Allison. She taken something from Allison here that she shouldn't have. She'd taken a child away from her. Claire carried it for Allison. She took Claire to her future and gave that baby to Future Allison. Allison felt cheated.

"If I don't take Claire into the past soon to have Allison's child, she will." Cameron said. "Allison will go to My Future to be with her baby."

Bob was very fond of all the human girls. He enjoyed being in the presence of their company and associating with them. It always left him with a very pleasant feeling inside. He didn't realize that his own emotional programming developed anyway on its own.

"Then what are you waiting for?" Bob asked. "I don't want to lose Allison."

Bob didn't want to lose Cameron either.

Cameron tried to think of an answer. There wasn't one.

"I don't know." Cameron said. "I really don't."

Gail came around the corner and spotted Savannah. She stood outside John's room with her hand on the knob. It was already turned but she didn't enter. She just stood there.

She decided not to say anything or make her presence known to Savannah. She knew where Cameron was and she knew Savannah wanted to make a decision. She tried to make one anyway. It would be a life changing choice.

Savannah finally looked back and saw Gail watching her. She slowly released the door handle and walked toward her.

Gail felt the need to explain herself. She knew that Savannah reached a crossroad and that any choice she made needed to be her own.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to disturb you or influence your decision." Gail said.

Gail could see that Savannah looked so ravishing in that simple dress with her flowing red hair.

Savannah seemed to 'float' towards Gail and hugged her. She was very pleased at all the assistance Gail had provided her with. She understood all of the feelings involved with that. She wasn't sure if Gail did though.

"I wanted to thank you earlier for being there for me and all the other times you've been as well." Savannah said.

Gail was unsure what else to say.

"You're welcome." Gail said.

Savannah was a little concerned about the time. It seemed like an odd time for Gail to wander around the corridors. She was pretty sure there was some 'outside influence' involved. She would let Gail disclose that on her own if she wanted to.

"It's 4:00 AM." Savannah said. "Why are you here?"

Gail thought that question was a two-way street.

"I just finished up some repairs on the manned drone." Gail said. "Why are you here?"

Savannah wasn't really sure herself. It was deeper than just wanting to knock off her first sexual experience with a male. She did want to get 'popped' so to speak even though there was nothing left to 'pop'. Vanna, Allison and Jesse all told her to at least try it once on her own. All of them were assaulted when they were younger. She had a desire to try it for years but somehow it didn't seem that that desire was really her own. It was more like something that she was supposed to do and that always bothered her. She didn't know that Cameron drilled that thought into her head through nightly 'conditioning' for years since she was a young girl.

The true calling of every Savannah Weaver was in a different direction.

"I don't know." Savannah said. "Let's talk elsewhere so we don't wake anyone else up."

Savannah reached down and took Gail's hand as they walked.

It felt so comforting to Gail. It was such a simple thing to do, yet it was so beautiful. They walked along like that for a while.

Gail needed to ask. She didn't fully understand the thought process.

"Why didn't you go in?" Gail asked. "You want to. It's the 'Natural Order'."

Savannah looked at Gail's giant breasts. She was attracted to everything female. She did know that she needed to be careful with what she did with Gail and how far she took things. She didn't want to do to Gail what John did to Cameron.

"I don't know." Savannah said. "I really don't."

Covet

There are those
We may covet
When they become aware
They say cram it

There are those
We may worship
When they become aware
The finger us they flip

There are those
We may want
When they become aware
They see it as a stupid stunt

There are those
We may desire
When they become aware
They throw our heart into the fire

There are those
We may love
When they become aware
Away us they shove

Nobody