Chapter 953

I May Fail

Gail returned to the Resistance base. She was pleased to be back and displeased to be back. The knowledge she possessed as to the location of the nuclear weapons and the danger they represented to Savannah troubled her.

She was a little surprised when she was contacted by CamNet. She was given a few pointers and suggestions. She decided to follow up on them.

John looked at one of the security monitors and noticed that Gail was in the hallway. He could tell by the look on her face that she was troubled. He was sure it was more than one thing that bothered her.

"I see Gail is back." John said.

John Henry hoped John didn't call her in and start to question her. She'd most likely acted under the direct orders of CamNet or Cameron. If John tried to order her to give up information, there was going to be a problem of some type. He was ready to call for Savannah's assistance if anything developed.

"I hope there won't be a problem." John Henry said.

John thought about what John Henry said. John Henry indicated to him that questioning Gail would create one. He was sure of what was already done. He was sure that it would cause a problem of some type. Since Cameron was involved, if he created an issue there would more than likely be some type of 'punishment' to follow later. The 'punishment' would usually lead to a long encounter with 'Rosie Palm'. She knew that whatever Cameron did he wouldn't be able to do anything about anyway. In the end it would be like chasing the wind.

"I think we both know she stashed the nuclear weapons for Cameron." John said. "I'm not even going to ask."

John Henry decided to downplay his earlier statement some and deflect the train of thought.

"There's that too." John Henry said. "I actually meant what was occurring in her room."

John knew what was occurring in her room. There were a lot of smoking hot naked female bodies in there right now. He thought he could go there and smooth things out.

"I don't think it will be a problem." John said, as he stood up. "Maybe I should head down there and avert any issue. I don't think there will be any problems if I'm there."

John Henry tilted his head slightly. He was afraid John would open a new can of worms if he went there, especially if he was invited in. None of the Metal girls could say 'no' if he asked them. It was doubtful Jesse or Claire would either. He wondered who John would start with first. He was sure it would be one of the two human females. The most logical choice would be Claire. She was seldom around the base and most likely wouldn't be as available as she was now at any other time. He hoped John would think his actions through first.

"Are you sure that's all you'd be 'doing'?" John Henry asked.

John realized he was getting ahead of himself. The little head was doing the thinking and the big head was in 'neutral'. That seemed to happen a lot.

"I don't know what I was thinking." John said as he sat back down.

He still wanted to see them all together.

"Gail isn't headed to her room." John Henry said.

John wondered why not.

Gail passed by the room next to where Vanna was at. She heard Allison in there with Cam. She knew it wasn't Cameron. She figured it was Cam, since Cammy was with Savannah still.

It made Gail wonder what it would be like to be with someone who looked exactly like her everywhere. She would really like to meet the human version of herself. She would want to share with her too. She would want to see what she was 'like'. It would be as others saw and experienced her.

She approached Riley's door and paused. She needed to ask herself what she was doing. She already knew the answer. She was doing what she wanted. She gently knocked. She waited a moment and entered.

Right away she spotted a beautiful sight. It was Vanna with Precious. Vanna was holding Precious and looked very content.

Gail decided to 'play it cool' at first.

"I came to see if I could be of assistance." Gail said. "It seems everyone else is 'busy'."

Vanna understood what Gail really just said. It was that Gail and her were 'available' for each other, if that's what she wanted.

Vanna looked at Precious.

"She's sleeping now." Vanna said. "Maybe I'll put her in her crib."

Gail wanted to assist Vanna.

"I can do it for you." Gail said.

Gail noted Vanna's top was open and her breasts were exposed and showed clearly. They were noticeably larger than Savannah's at this point. She was sure the nipples were even pinker than normal. There could be several reasons for that.

Vanna saw Gail look. She didn't know Gail was comparing her breasts to Savannah's. She looked down at her exposed breasts. She then looked over at Gail's massive breasts. They were still contained in her top but there was no mistaking their massive size.

"I will never catch up to you in size." Vanna said.

Gail realized that Vanna noticed where her eyes had been moments ago.

"I'm sorry." Gail said. "You look so beautiful."

Vanna stood and carried Precious to her crib and gently laid her down.

She glanced at the room next door as she passed by the door.

"Is that Allison next door?" Vanna asked as she exited back into the main room.

Gail already previously determined that.

"Yes." Gail said.

Vanna wondered who her 'competition' was.

"Who's with her?" Vanna asked.

Gail didn't say anything. She didn't want to create a 'problem'. It was Vanna's lover that was in there with Allison. She let the silence speak for itself.

Vanna understood the silence and Gail's tact.

"It's Cam…." Vanna said.

Gail didn't want any hard feelings created in Vanna's mind. She decided to choose her words carefully.

"I didn't check." Gail said. "It could be Cammy."

Vanna may not know who it was but she did know who it wasn't.

"We both know it isn't Cameron." Vanna said. "Do you know if it's Jesse?"

Gail would have preferred if the conversation took a different direction. She was very uncomfortable where it was at.

"Jesse is currently tied up with Claire and the other Metal girls." Gail said.

That still intrigued Vanna. She wondered if anything might have changed from when she glanced in earlier.

"Is it all of them?" Vanna asked.

Gail didn't want to get sidetracked earlier.

"I do not know." Gail said. "I didn't want to check."

Gail and Vanna were both on the same path now. That path led to each other.

Vanna motioned for Gail to sit.

"I understand." Vanna said.

Vanna gave Gail a 'once over'. She was ready for a little action on her own. She decided to make her move. She sat on Gail's lap facing her. Her top was completely open. She looked into Gail's eyes for a moment and kissed her.

Gail was surprised at Vanna's forwardness. She was pleased even more.

The sweet kiss was welcomed and returned.

Gail was even more surprised when Vanna leaned back a little and offered her a breast to kiss or suckle. She often did the same thing for Jesse. She took a strong pull from both of them. She found it interesting that Vanna and Jesse actually tasted different. Vanna seemed to have a slight 'sweet' taste to hers. She found both of them very pleasant to suckle from.

Vanna was pleased to see Gail become visibly excited. It was what she wanted to happen. She also knew what Gail really wanted. She was unaware it already occurred. She wanted to make her an unmistakable offer for later on.

"If they're still 'busy' when Riley gets back, you can visit me in my room." Vanna said. "I'm HER, too."

Gail didn't want to compromise Savannah's honor and didn't mention their recent 'coupling'. She did know they were both the same individual but as people, they were two different people.

"You're both 'different' even if you were the same at one point." Gail said. "I love her."

Vanna could see that Gail clearly did love Savannah.

"I know." Vanna said. "She will share with you one day."

That statement surprised Gail somewhat. It also made her curious. She wondered if Savannah ever actually said anything.

"Did she tell you that?" Gail asked.

Vanna felt that if she could read anyone, it was herself.

"No." Vanna said. "I can tell. She doesn't want to hurt you."

Gail understood what she meant. Savannah was 'spoken for' several times over and could only share and not make any commitments. Savannah made that very clear to her before they actually did anything.

"I know of her destiny and obligations." Gail said.

Vanna knew it would happen. She knew Savannah was going to wait for the right time for Gail. That could wait. She was here now, available and ready. She really wanted to get a hold of Gail's breasts.

"It will happen." Vanna said. "I'm here now."

Gail looked toward the door. They were about to be interrupted. She didn't want to cause problems for anyone.

"They're coming." Gail said.

Vanna looked down at her exposed breasts. Gail was still fondling them.

"We can go to my room." Vanna whispered.

Vanna stood and buttoned her top.

She went in and checked on Precious again.

Gail stood and straightened her clothes quickly. She wiped the back of her hand across her mouth to make sure there was nothing there to give away what she'd just done with Vanna. She left the room so she could meet Derek and Riley away from Vanna.

She greeted Derek and Riley when they entered. Like always, she noticed both Derek and Riley check her breasts out. They were covered but she was sure both of them 'saw' them in their minds. She made sure that everyone was able to check them out from time to time. She was pretty sure that Sarah and Riley were the two to check them out the most in those situations. She was willing to share with either of them but that had to be their choice, not hers.

Vanna heard Gail talking to Riley and Derek.

Riley entered the room.

"Hi." Riley said. "How is she?"

Vanna looked down at Precious in her crib.

"Precious is sleeping." Vanna said.

Riley looked at Precious. She bent down and gave her a small kiss on her cheek. She followed Vanna back to the main room.

Derek and Riley thanked Vanna and Gail.

Vanna and Gail left. Gail saw Vanna glance at the room Allison and Cam were in.

Gail wondered what thoughts were going through Vanna's mind. She didn't want to ask.

Vanna reached down and took Gail's hand.

They headed for Vanna's room….

Gail noticed that Vanna picked up the walking pace.

Vanna was in a hurry to get started.

Gail smiled.

Life was good.

Savannah was still troubled by the events of the last few days. She wanted Young Allison safely at home and away from all danger. She knew it was good for Young Allison to get out every now and then but she didn't like her being involved in an operation. She liked it even less when that operation involved a nuclear weapon that exploded.

"I want to get Young Allison home." Savannah said.

Cameron noticed Savannah's concern.

"We will, soon." Cameron said. "She's enjoying herself."

Cammy noticed Savannah's concern too and wanted to offer Savannah what she really desired. She thought maybe the two girls should be together instead of each of them with a very scary robot from the future.

"Let me call Anna over so you and Young Allison can spend some more time together." Cammy said.

Savannah could see that Young Allison and Anna were happy and appeared to be having a good time in each other's company. She thought it would be rude and selfish to break up the fun the two of them were having with each other.

"No. They are having fun." Savannah said. "I like to see them happy. I'll feel better when Young Allison is at home and secure."

Savannah didn't realize it was exactly how Cameron felt about John. Cameron was always near panic when John was out in the field. She felt the same way about Young Allison.

Cameron decided to address the real issue. It wasn't so much about the here and now what was going on in front of them. It was about what went on previously

"You're still worried about what happened earlier." Cameron said.

Savannah felt there were a lot of unanswered questions regarding everything. A lot of it just didn't add up for her.

"I am." Savannah said. "I don't know what happened. Nothing should have been that way."

There were more than a few things that troubled Cameron as well. She'd given both Cammy and Sheila specific instructions to follow.

"Cammy and Sheila were ordered not to make contact with any of us in the past." Cameron said.

Savannah felt that was part of the problem. It was another thing that didn't add up.

"That's just it." Savannah said. "Cammy and Sheila retained no recollection that it happened until the last minute. It was the events as they unfolded that triggered the recollections."

Holly could see why it was a problem herself. If protocol or orders were being broken, who was the one behind it?

"So how or when did Young Allison contact them?" Holly asked.

Cameron was aware that Young Allison possessed a lot of power. She didn't believe that she used that power or ability in any type of a negative way.

"Young Allison has the ability to make them 'forget' any meeting." Cameron said. "She could order them on what to do and how to do it."

Savannah still wasn't sure exactly what happened. She trusted Young Allison's judgment as well as her fortitude and honor.

"I don't believe she would abuse that privilege." Savannah said. "Now I wonder if anything went wrong in the past."

That wasn't something that Cameron wanted to hear. She wondered if there was some catastrophic event that occurred where Sheila and Cammy needed to step in to assist them in the past. It could have also been the other way around but it shouldn't have been.

Holly thought it was all speculation without any facts to back anything up.

"But none of you have left yet." Holly said.

Cammy knew that the other girls hadn't left yet but she also knew Sheila and her were in the past.

"I did." Cammy said. "I was with Sheila for eight years in the past."

Holly wanted to know more. There must be more that Cammy could tell them about what happened.

"How much of that do you remember?" Holly asked.

Cameron was afraid this discussion was going to alter the future or the past. The more that any of them knew about the future or the past, was going to influence their decisions and probably produce different results. It wasn't a path to go down.

"I don't want any of this discussed." Cameron said. "We'll do something different when we go back if we know too much."

Cameron was pretty sure that they knew too much already. She didn't see how they could interact in the past now with what they knew about the present. The incident with the mine was a perfect example. Young Alison already knew that everything was way too close when it happened. When she did meet up with Cammy and Sheila in the past she would attempt to correct that. That should have been the case because it already should have happened in the past.

Savannah could see the root of another paradox that could develop. She really didn't see the need for Young Allison to go back at all. She would like to be closer in age to Young Allison but she knew that it didn't matter. It didn't matter to her and it didn't matter to Young Allison. It shouldn't matter to anyone else. It wasn't anyone else's business, it was their business. She could only see the need to go back for Claire or her to accelerate their pregnancies in the present. The only real reason to do that was to prevent Vanna or Allison from going into Cameron's future to be with Allison's baby that Future Allison now had. They could use the TDE and come back right after they left. They could even come back before they left. If they did that they could tell them to watch out for specific things. That would change everything again as to what happened.

"But since Cammy and Sheila were already there, we must have already done everything." Savannah said. "What happens if we never go back now?"

Cameron didn't know the answer. Her directive was to get Young Allison 'ready' for John. She thought she could always choose a different time period to take Young Allison to.

"I need to get Young Allison 'ready'." Cameron said.

Savannah wanted that too but right now Young Allison looked very content. She didn't want to spoil that. She didn't want to see it spoiled by anyone.

"Look at her." Savannah said. "She's happy now as she is."

Holly tilted her head slightly. She contemplated Savannah's words. She understood the negative undertone that they indicated.

"Are you saying she won't be happy as a teenager or young woman?" Holly asked.

Savannah looked at the Metal girls.

"Are any of you happy?" Savannah asked.

The three Metal girls all looked at each other.

Cameron previously went over this issue many times in her own mind. Everything always came back to the same conclusion. Sometimes she wondered if there really was any happiness. Maybe happiness was more figment of the imagination than an actual physical condition.

"There are only moments of happiness." Cameron said. "Much of everything else is painful. It seems most of that pain happens in the mind."

Savannah didn't want to be away from Young Allison for years at a time. That's what could happen when Young Allison went into the past. She'd shared with both Allison and Future Allison. Both of them were older than her. Allison was older than Future Allison but it didn't matter. None of it mattered to any of them. It wouldn't matter to Young Allison that she was older. She didn't have a problem to share with Jesse or Young Jesse. There was an age difference there as well. It just didn't matter. There was no age or number associated with love. Love transcended any such matters.

"That's what I mean." Savannah said. "I want to be there as she grows up but I will always be older than her that way. I want to be closer in age but I know that I don't have to be. We will still love each other the same no matter what."

Cammy didn't see it as a big deal either way. To her, age was just a number. Everyone is ready for everything now.

"You're only a few years older." Cammy said. "Just go for it."

Savannah was aware she was older to start out with. She'd also done a few things that involved the need to spend time in the future. That time in the future added to her physical age. Those were issues where there was no way around the time that needed to be spent in those futures.

"Plus almost two more years I lived in the future." Savannah said.

Cameron's hand started to glitch. She always felt responsible for what happened to Savannah on both of those endeavors.

Savannah came to grips with everything already. She wanted Cameron to do the same. It wasn't something Cameron should worry about. It was done and over with.

"Oh, Cameron, I didn't mean anything bad by that." Savannah said as she took Cameron's hand. "It's OK."

Cameron doubted that it was. It seemed like everything was a problem. Even if it wasn't a problem previously or at the time it's somehow became one later on.

"Is it?" Cameron asked.

Savannah felt she owed her life to Cameron, John and Sarah. It still bothered her whenever she thought about it that both Future Derek and her nanny were both killed on that day. That wasn't her fault other than the fact that a Terminator came to kill her. Those two people died in her place. Was that fair? Was that just?

"It is." Savannah said. "Skynet killed my parents and you saved me. Skynet would have killed me too. I'm alive because of you."

Holly wondered if that was why Savannah was so devoted to Cameron. She believed it was a valid question to ask.

"Is that why you feel obligated to 'serve' Cameron?" Holly asked.

Cameron and Cammy were both appalled at the question. There was no servitude involved.

"Holly!" Cameron and Cammy said at the same time.

Savannah asked herself that same question before. That wasn't it, that wasn't the reason why. She believed the answer was love as opposed to servitude.

"No, it's a legitimate question." Savannah said. "I choose to help Cameron in any way I can. It isn't an obligation, it's love. I love Cameron. I'm not ashamed of that. I never have been and never will be."

Holly was worried about Savannah safety on another level

"What about the anti-Metal faction?" Holly asked.

Holly really 'asked' if Savannah would die for that belief.

"I choose to stand alongside Cameron." Savannah said. "I'll accept whatever fate she is subjected to. I won't abandon her ever."

Holly thought that may be true now but what if Savannah and John produced children. Then what? She knew that humans cared deeply about their children. That could change anyone's focus as to what they originally thought their path or trajectory would be.

"What if you have children in the future?" Holly asked. "What will you do then? That's going to change how you make decisions going forward as opposed to now."

Cameron already heard more than enough. She didn't like Savannah to be put on the spot. Savannah wasn't at those crossroads yet so she didn't need to make any decisions or decide now.

"Stop this." Cameron said. "She doesn't need to make these choices now. Savannah, I'm not worth your life, ever."

Savannah disagreed with what Cameron said. She felt very strongly about her convictions and about her love. If Cameron was going to be 'burnt at the stake' and if she needed to suffer the same fate because she wouldn't give up her beliefs or renounce her love, then so be it. She wouldn't turn her back on the one she loved to save herself. If anyone wanted to hurt or kill Cameron then they would have to do it to her as well because she would remain at Cameron side.

Young Allison and Anna returned to the table. She could see that a very serious overtone hung over the girls.

"Everyone looks so glum." Young Allison said. "It really gives me something to look forward to as I grow more."

The girls at the table all looked at each other. It seemed to go back to what Savannah said earlier.

Savannah didn't want to drag Young Allison into the personal discussion.

"We were reflecting on the past events over the last few days." Savannah said. "A lot happened and more than a few people died."

Young Allison thought that statement was directed at her. She didn't see what good it did to reflect on it. Everything already happened. It was done, it was over.

"We won and they lost." Young Allison said. "Take the win and move ahead. I know my involvement resulted in the deaths of the bikers, the Grays in the warehouse and anyone in the mine. Two people also died of heart attacks from the 'earthquake'. That's all on me and nobody else. Nobody else needs to worry about it."

It seemed to Holly that Young Allison appeared to be the one least affected by anything that occurred.

"Are you troubled by any of those deaths?" Holly asked.

Young Allison felt no guilt for the outcome of any of the events. She felt proud they'd won and won big, with no losses.

"People keep asking me that." Young Allison said. "We did what we needed to do, when we needed to do it. There was no choice involved."

Savannah could see the coolness in Young Allison, maybe it was actually her inner strength. Cameron and other Terminators were involved in all of Young Allison's known life.

"You're stronger than me." Savannah said.

Young Allison doubted that. There was still one test she needed to pass and prevail on. She remembered what Savannah told her about death up close. She said it was very personal.

"I may not be when I need to kill face to face." Young Allison said. "I may fail."

Cameron didn't believe that for a second. She knew that Young Allison wouldn't falter in any encounter.

"You won't." Cameron said. "Your training and instinct will guide you and you will prevail."

Young Allison didn't know how she would do going forward. She only knew that she would do her best and do what she needed to do. Right now she wanted to change the glum atmosphere.

"I hope so." Young Allison said. "Now, let's dance."

Young Allison pulled everyone up.

She placed Holly with Cammy and Savannah with Cameron.

Savannah looked at Anna and indicated she join Cammy and Holly.

Cameron and Savannah both reached out, each of them took one of Young Allison's hands and pulled her to them.

"It's the 'Natural Order'." Holly whispered to Cammy and Anna.

Cammy could see it as well.

"It has asserted itself." Cammy whispered.

Anna couldn't feel jealous and she looked at them.

"It's beautiful." Anna said. "Look at them."

'Book Of Love' by 'The Monotones', set the mood.

Why Does It Matter

I know you talk
I hear the chatter
Maybe try the truth
It's all so much smatter

You turn up the charm
Say what will flatter
You get what you want
Served on a platter

Do you ever care
What you leave in a tatter
What you break
Or what you shatter

Do one's feelings count
Before them you splatter
Taking the remains
Then those you scatter

Why do you worry
It's just natter
No one really cares
Why does it matter

Nobody