Chapter 963

Profound Intensity

Cameron was on her knees. John was behind her. Everything was intense for him. Cameron already tired him out earlier with their previous sexual activity. He was close to a 'finish' but he wanted Cameron to 'make it' first.

John was already exhausted. He was close, real close. He didn't know how much longer he could hold out.

Cameron backed down on top of him and took over. He lay flat on the bed now. She finished him off in seconds but still kept going.

He squirmed around wildly beneath her. He was ready to beg her to stop. The profound sensation was very great and intense.

John was sure that if he was a Terminator that he would have overloaded at this point in time.

Cameron looked back over her shoulder. It pleased her immensely to see John at the height of ecstasy. She quickly finished herself and slowed to a stop. She rotated around on top of him. She wanted to make sure that all of his vital signs were good. They were.

John lay back in a state of exhaustion. He was unable to formulate any speech. He could barely see. He'd never experienced anything like that. He needed to think to breathe. It was almost like his body forgot how to breathe.

As soon as Cameron saw he could breathe on his own, she bent down closer and gave him a kiss. She held the kiss and deepened it. She felt him squirm a little more underneath her and release the kiss. John gasped in a mouthful of air. She watched his chest rise and fall heavily. She could see his eyes start to focus again.

"John, THAT is what the girls can feel." Cameron whispered in his ear. "They often do. They can do it two or three times in a row, one after another. Some can even experience it ten times in a row. Just imagine how that would feel."

John could hardly imagine that, especially over and over. He thought he would die as it was. He wondered if Jesse took it so far that she really needed CPR. He'd heard rumors about that occurring. He thought it was possible after that experience. He was sure if he was able to experience THAT ten times in a row that he would 'break on through to the other side'. He really hoped that somebody would give him CPR and bring him back to this side. If not, it would be one Hell of a way to go out.

"Really?" John gasped.

Cameron made a point of listening to all the girls before. She noted John's heartbeat was still extremely elevated. She could feel it started to slow. She thought he was going to need a little additional rest.

"Really." Cameron said. "I'll notify John Henry you will be in a little later today. There's nothing currently pressing in the Command Center anyway."

John felt himself start to recover. A little delay would be welcome. The Command Center seemed about the last place that he wanted to be right now.

"Thanks." John said.

Cameron was satisfied John would make a full recovery. He still looked a little weak.

"I will be back and we can shower together." Cameron said. "You need to rest up some."

John tried to move. He didn't think his legs would support him just yet.

"I don't think I can stand." John said.

Cameron smiled and gave him a quick kiss.

"I'll let you rest." Cameron said. "We'll do it again but this time I'll give you the full treatment."

John's eyes opened wide with anticipation. He wasn't sure that was possible. Maybe he would make sure Cameron knew CPR before she started again.

"How could anything be more intense than that?" John asked.

Cameron flashed John her sly smile.

"It can and will be." Cameron said. "I promise."

John attempted to sit up but ended up plopping back down on the bed.

"I'll be waiting." John said. "I don't think I could go anywhere anyway."

Cameron felt that John let his PT slip more than a little bit. That was going to be something he would need to rectify.

"You need to build some stamina." Cameron said. "I think you've been taking it a little too easy for a little too long."

John felt he'd probably been a little too lax about many things.

"I think there are a lot of things I need to do." John said.

It wasn't Cameron's place to judge but John needed to be in 'tip top' condition in the event Skynet ever took control. As far as the bedroom went, it seemed recently he would only give her two or three minutes at the most before he was done. She would like to think that he left her high and dry but it did neither. It left her feeling low and with other things to deal with on her own.

"You have slacked off a little." Cameron said. "I like to finish too."

John was aware he didn't think about Cameron's needs. He just wanted some quick release and took it whenever he could. He didn't think much about Cameron because she was his wife. It didn't seem like it was important. He just wanted to get it done and get along with his business.

"I'm sorry about that." John said. "I know I should have lasted a little longer sometimes."

John knew he often didn't last long enough to get Cameron there.

Cameron didn't want to make a big deal about it. It was water under the bridge at this point.

"It happens." Cameron said.

Cameron could always replay a file but it was never the same as the real thing. She would try to be alone so she could 'finish' herself off at that point. She actually liked the control it gave her. She was aware Allison also liked self control. Now that she thought about it, it seemed all of the girls did.

John wanted to be with Cameron again. He just wasn't able to perform right now. He wondered where she was off to but figured he'd better not ask. He hoped to do better when she returned. He wanted to make sure that he had a sufficient amount of time in which to be able to be fully recharged.

"Take your time." John said.

Cameron looked back over her shoulder as she headed out the door.

"I'll be back." Cameron said.

Earlier:

Anna remained in the bunker and busied herself with Resistance matters. She was a little upset Savannah spent the night with Young Allison. She knew that nothing sexual occurred but she was still very uncomfortable with it. She knew she was jealous. She was aware one day that would be how it was all the time and they would be true partners. That would only push her further to the back burner and away from Young Allison. She needed to remind herself that she couldn't take what wasn't hers. She didn't think the reminder did much good.

Cammy noticed how Anna reacted and knew what she felt. It was what she often felt. She decided to speak with her about it.

She took Anna aside and told her this is what she went through ALL the time as Savannah visited her various lovers. Savannah encouraged her to experiment as well. She explained at first she was uncomfortable doing THAT. She soon found it to be very rewarding and pleasurable. She began to make use of Savannah's down time to seek out others.

Cammy wanted to offer Anna some hope, even if she didn't know for sure what would happen.

"After Savannah and Young Allison mate, you'll become Young Allison's lover also." Cammy said.

Anna wondered when that was going to be. It could be years away. That was no encouragement. It was depressing.

"That's still a long time from now." Anna said.

Cammy saw the plus side to that. She would be able to be with Anna then.

"When it does happen, we will be able to share as well, when they do." Cammy said. "It will give you something to look forward to."

Anna looked at Cammy. That did give her something to look forward to. She was still deeply troubled by her current appearance.

"Look at me?" Anna said. "I feel like half a female now."

Anna lifted her shirt for Cammy to see.

Cammy thought it looked fine. She wished she would have known Savannah when she looked like that. Cameron should have spawned her a year or two earlier for Savannah.

"THAT looks beautiful. You'll 'grow' with Young Allison." Cammy said. "She will depend on you for guidance and strength."

Anna was already hopelessly in love with Young Allison.

Cammy could see there were three factors at play as far as it went with Anna.

"That's the 'Savannah' and 'Cameron' in you." Cammy said. "As well as yourself."

Anna felt very short changed about everything. She knew there was a way around some of the problems. She produced a tether.

"Please share some of your files with me." Anna said. "Cameron has blocked everything from me."

Cammy could see there were going to be a lot of problems.

"You know that's forbidden." Cammy said. "Each infiltration unit must be with a human female first before sharing with another infiltration unit."

Anna was desperate for more.

"Take my chip out and place it in your second port." Anna said. "PLEASE."

Anna was aware that if Cammy allowed it, she would be able to experience everything that Cammy did as it happened when she was with another female. She wouldn't have any control but it wouldn't matter. She would feel whatever Cammy felt. It would be as if she'd done everything herself, even though she was just along for the ride.

Cammy wasn't sure exactly what Anna was after.

"Do you desire to be with Savannah?" Cammy asked. "She's part of your programming."

Anna felt she could offer Cammy something she didn't have access to.

"Cameron is the other part. I can give you an 'inside look' at Savannah this way." Anna said. "We both have what the other seeks."

Cammy understood that Anna would offer her the 'Neural Interface' files with Savannah. She didn't have to download them but she could at least view them. She would be able to experience a part of 'Savannah' that she previously didn't have access to.

She was hesitant to proceed on her own. She wanted to get some additional input first.

"I'll discuss this with Cameron and Savannah." Cammy said. "Young Allison will be disappointed you didn't wait for her."

Anna was painfully aware that she wasn't part of any of Young Allison's immediate plans to be with someone. Young Allison's plans were very specific and now unchangeable.

"She commanded me to make sure she remains 'untouched' by anyone but Savannah, Cameron or John." Anna said. "I'm to physically prevent her from having 'contact' with anyone else."

Cammy knew orders could be changed.

"She can rescind that command as she feels what you're feeling." Cammy said.

There was a look of sadness on Anna's face.

"No. She can't" Anna said. "She made the command that both her and Savannah need to rescind it at the same time." Anna said. "Neither one can do it on their own, even if it's an order."

Cammy found that hard to understand. Young Allison would be severely restricted with her sexual development now. It showed a deeper emotional love rather than anything physical. It took a lot of strength and determination to make that decision.

"Young Allison did this to herself?" Cammy asked. "Her love for Savannah is greater than we've imagined then."

Anna could see all the roadblocks in her way now. There was absolutely no easy way around them unless Young Allison became active with Savannah, Cameron or John. None of that seemed likely either anytime soon.

"Her commitment sure is." Anna said.

Cammy wanted to check on Young Allison and Savannah. She headed up the bunker stairs and entered the hallway outside of Young Allison's room.

Anna followed Cammy up. She wanted to know what the girls were up to.

They both listened outside of the door for almost an hour. There was no activity of any type.

"Savannah is awake now. Young Allison soon will be." Cammy said. "I will get breakfast ready for them."

Anna quickly excused herself and headed back down into the bunker.

Cammy wondered how with a love like that, if she would still be able to be in Savannah's life once Savannah and Young Allison were mates.

She remembered that Young Allison told her she wasn't a threat to her. Maybe Young Allison herself wasn't a threat to her but Young Allison's love sure was.

Derek wasn't sure of the direction things were headed. It was clear Riley needed help. He wasn't sure if this was the right way to do it. The girls were all willing to help but they needed to live their own lives too. Samantha was an option that might be what everyone needed. It also might not be.

Derek took Riley back into their room.

"Are you sure you want to try this?" Derek asked.

Riley felt that she was a big burden to everyone. She was willing to give anything a try at this point.

"If she can help me, I do." Riley said. "I hate to keep bothering the girls."

Derek remembered how things were in the past, the future. Most of the things about the future were ugly and depressing. There were a few things that weren't.

"Vanna enjoys this." Derek said. "In the tunnels, she always used to help out the few females with babies that lived."

Riley wasn't really sure how anyone could enjoy taking care of an infant. She felt it was a very daunting and overwhelming experience. She appreciated Vanna's help but she knew that Vanna belonged to Allison and Allison belonged to Vanna.

"Allison will be very lucky to have Vanna at her side when her baby is born." Riley said.

Derek didn't look very happy. He understood the difficulty the girls from the future all went through.

"It may not be born." Derek said. "It seems both Vanna and Allison were damaged by Skynet toxins. It could have been some of the abuse as well."

Riley cringed at the mention of abuse in the future. It brought back very unpleasant memories for her. She was aware it was a lot worse for Vanna and Jesse than it was for Allison or her.

"Every female I knew was abused at some point. Some were even abused by the Resistance sometimes." Riley said. "We all became 'women' as we were held down by a group of men. ALL of us. We were all still girls physically and emotionally."

Derek was well aware of that. They tried to protect the females but at some point something always happened. There was too much hopelessness for some. There were plenty of Scavengers. Females sent to work camps were abused by the Grays before the other detainees started to abuse them as well. Suicide was often a welcome escape for some females.

"Cameron and General Weaver changed all that." Derek said. "Cameron told me she worked on fixing that in every future she was in and even now in this timeline."

They knew Cameron went after sex traffickers whenever there was a slack in the Skynet related activity. Cameron wanted to deliver a blow to future Scavengers whenever she could. In the present, they couldn't comprehend a Terminator in their presence. She knew that sometimes Sheila and Ally accompanied her. The other Metal girls did as well. Even some of the male Terminators went with them at times.

"Cameron is like no other." Riley said. "I love her so much for everything."

Derek understood the deep commitment Cameron held for all of them. It was more than just a job for her to deal with Skynet and the other problems of the future. It was personal.

"We all do." Derek said. "We all do."

Nobody knew it was Cameron's goal to change every Metal Hater into a Metal Lover.

Un-repented Metal Haters experienced a short life span when Cameron was around. She figured at point that if they wanted to hate her, she might as well give them a reason. They could think about it in the seconds it took for them to be terminated.

Vanna was aware of what Samantha requested to do when her sheath was Resequenced. She'd heard the conversation between Samantha and Cameron earlier.

"I think Samantha wanted to speak with you privately." Vanna said.

Allison looked at Vanna for a long moment.

"Do you know about what?" Allison asked.

Vanna didn't want to get into the specifics.

"I know part of it." Vanna said.

Allison waited for a little further explanation. There wasn't one. She decided to prompt. Vanna.

"Spill it." Allison said.

Vanna didn't want to get involved. She was worried she could influence Allison's decision.

"It's very personal to her." Vanna said. "I think you should speak to her privately."

Allison looked over to where Samantha was seated. It was kind of spooky to see her just sit there and do nothing.

"Can I do that now?" Allison asked.

Vanna picked up Precious and carried her back into Riley's room.

"Yes, just say her name." Vanna said and closed the door behind her.

She wanted to give Allison and Samantha some privacy and not be an influencing factor in the decision that Allison needed to make. She personally thought it was a good idea on several levels. She didn't want Allison to know what her main one was. It was to be with a Terminator version of her mother.

Allison wasn't sure where this was going and what was so important. Vanna made a point of leaving her alone so the decision would be hers alone. That wasn't a good sign either. She liked Vanna to be a part of her decision making process. It was time to see what this was all about and get it over with. She sat down in front of Samantha.

"Samantha." Allison said.

In fifteen seconds Samantha's eyes opened.

"Hello, Allison." Samantha said.

She was a little surprised that Samantha knew who she was.

"Hi." Allison said. "Do you know me?"

Samantha tilted her head slightly to the side.

"Yes." Samantha said. "I have information from Cameron, Cam, Holly and Gail."

Allison looked a little uncomfortable.

Samantha quickly deduced what Allison's concern was.

"Their 'personal files' were blocked from me." Samantha said. "Whatever was private, is still private."

Allison was aware of what happened in Vanna's room.

"You've made some of your own files." Allison said.

Samantha smiled and she thought about it.

"I have." Samantha said. "They're all beautiful."

Allison didn't want to hear about them in any detail. She knew that her mother had been in there as well.

"Keep them to yourself." Allison said. "They're yours alone."

They shared some small talk for a while. Samantha knew what Allison was there for. She decided to get down to business.

"I need to have my sheath Resequenced for security reasons." Samantha said. "I know about the trouble with Isabel's sheath."

Allison knew her mother and Young Allison were in grave danger that day. Summer was too but she wasn't born yet.

"I understand that." Allison said. "I know we experienced a close call before because of that."

Samantha thought Allison was ready to hear the proposal.

"I spoke with Claire, your mother." Samantha said. "We both decided on what DNA I would like to use. I want you to be part of the decision."

Allison didn't like where this was headed. She immediately thought of the younger girls.

"Please tell me it is not Summer's DNA." Allison said. "Or Jan's or Precious…."

Those were possibilities Samantha hadn't considered. Now she would. She only knew what Precious looked like as an infant.

"I hadn't considered those choices." Samantha said as she tilted her head slightly. "I may if my choice is unacceptable to you."

Allison wasn't sure why she was there and Vanna just left.

"It's not me is it?" Allison asked. "Is it Vanna?"

Samantha didn't want Allison to be stuck in some guessing game. It was time to lay it out in the open.

"I've selected Claire as my DNA choice." Samantha said. "She asked me as well, independently."

Allison didn't say anything at first. She tried to picture her mother as a Terminator.

"I'll need to do an updated 'Neural Interface' with her." Samantha said. "She asked me for that as well."

If her mother asked, there needed to be a reason. Allison wanted to hear it.

"You said she ASKED you?" Allison asked. "Why?"

Samantha thought the reasons were rather clear and straightforward.

"Yes." Samantha said. "She wants to make sure if Judgment Day happens that her daughters, ALL of them, still have a 'mother' that's 'alive' and able to protect them. A 'mother' that can protect them from everything."

Allison started crying.

Cameron returned to John's room, their room.

John was still beat. He hoped Cameron would have been gone a little longer.

"You're back already?" John asked.

John sat on the bed.

Cameron approached him. She stopped in front of him and smiled.

"I told you I would be." Cameron said. "If I wasn't out fighting the war, we could do this every night, all night."

That sounded good to John but he doubted he could sustain a level of 'activity' that high. He figured he could work back up to be able to finish seven times a night. That's how it was when he was younger.

"I know you have more important things to do." John said.

Cameron wanted to make a point. It seemed John often forgot her true nature. Sometimes she felt she was merely a receptacle for John's 'little soldiers'. She figured if it wasn't in her that they would just end up in a tissue anyway. No matter how one looked at it, it was a waste.

She'd tried to remind John before what she was when she allowed him to cut into her sheath to check the shielding around her power cell. She didn't need to damage her sheath in that manner. John did a pretty good job of that by sending her in to get his mother out of jail. If the way she looked after she emerged from the jail didn't remind John that she was merely a machine, nothing would.

"John, this is what I am. This is what I do." Cameron said. "I'm a machine. I'm not real. I'm not a woman."

Cameron stripped in front of John. She stood naked before him. All of her beauty was on display.

"I look like HER but I'm not HER." Cameron said.

Cameron moved next to John. She kissed him. She literally took his breath away with the prolonged and deep kiss.

She rolled onto her back. She pulled John on top of her.

"It's your turn now." Cameron said.

Their eyes were locked.

Cameron wanted to give him something to think about. She thought if he did that it would motivate him. She didn't mind being her as he pounded away on top of her.

"She's going to look just like this, John." Cameron whispered.

She moved his hands up.

"These will be REAL." Cameron whispered.

Cameron moved his hands down.

"This will be REAL." Cameron whispered. "Everything will work."

John didn't need to be reminded that Cameron was a machine. He always knew that from the day that Cromartie tried to kill him in Red Valley. Cameron took bullets that were intended for him. She shielded him with her chassis. She came to his rescue in the truck and drove him away. He knew what she was from that point on. He never forgot. It was the fact that he saw her as more than just a machine that was what made her special.

"You've told me all this before." John said. "I still love you."

Cameron said nothing.

John hoped she would have repeated the words. She didn't. He wanted to hear her say it.

"Do you still love me?" John asked.

Cameron looked over at his face.

"I'm here aren't I?" Cameron asked.

John wanted an answer. He wanted to hear her say it. Even if she said she didn't love him, he wanted to hear her say it. He wanted her to say something.

"Do you still love me?" John asked.

Cameron reminded herself that sometimes love was about sacrifice. She didn't want what was best for herself. She wanted what was best for John. If she needed to sacrifice a little to do that, so be it.

"I do." Cameron asked. "It's because I love you, I want you to SHARE the REAL things with me for both of us. I want you to have the best."

John didn't think there could be anyone more perfect than Cameron. Sometimes they butted heads but it usually wasn't over a serious issue. He wanted to do more and she wanted to keep him safe.

"I already do have the best." John said.

Cameron was aware she could never be a real human female no matter what happened. She could provide John with the next best thing in her place. That was her goal. That was her mission.

"Not yet but you will." Cameron said.

Cameron pulled John on top of her. She wanted him to take her. She wanted to be taken by the one that she loved. She didn't want to be a 'stand in' but that's what she'd always been. It was the same for Future John.

"This will have to do for now." Cameron whispered. "Let me be her. Pretend I'm her. Everything is the same, it will be. It will be even better…."

Cameron knew love choice and sacrifice. It was her choice to sacrifice for John so he could have the best and what was 'real'. She hoped to be able to share with all of them too. She'd tried her hardest to help the perfect females create themselves as the perfect females for John. She'd tried to do the same for John too. She wanted the best for herself as well.

Profound Intensity

When a heart beats true
It seeks out another one
It's looking for love
Not just to have fun

When those two hearts meet
Will they bump and collide
Or with each other
Will they try to abide

That's the question of time
Time is the one constant force
It never gives up or slows down
What changes is one's own course

Does one back away
Or stay with their heart
That's the only way to know
If it's the end or the start

Only time will tell
If it's destiny
As each new day
Is met with profound intensity

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