Chapter 1001

Something For Myself

Savannah wanted all the Metal girls to reunite with their lovers. Cameron wanted to stay out with her. She insisted Cameron return to spend time with John. She also encouraged her to seriously think about going on the cruise with just John and no one else. She told Cameron again that she wasn't going to go with them.

The rest of the Metal girls returned back to the base. Only Cammy and Savannah stayed out.

Savannah wanted to follow up on the homeless people that assisted them with information. She was especially concerned about Susan. She was the homeless female who'd assisted them the most. The abuse that was done to Susan previously, didn't sit well with her.

Cammy wanted to return the shirt to the homeless man that gave it to her because she only wore a bra at the time. It was a kind gesture by someone who seemed to have so little.

Savannah watched Cammy neatly fold the dirty shirt.

"Are you going to give that back to the man?" Savannah asked.

Cammy would have liked to have washed it first. She felt very uneasy when he insisted she take it. She thought the feeling was 'guilt'. She thought refusing it would be insulting to the homeless man and make him feel bad about himself because the shirt was old and dirty. How could she take something from someone with so little to begin with?

"Yes. It was nice of him to loan it to me." Cammy said. "I really appreciate the gesture that he made. He was concerned about my appearance and that someone may try to take advantage of me by only wearing my bra."

Savannah could see that Cammy was 'touched'. She thought that was a good thing. It appeared Cammy could feel 'empathy' in her own way. She hoped that was a positive influence from her.

"Sometimes it's nice to have help." Savannah said. "We can stop at Sprawl-mart and pick them up some new clothes. It won't take that long."

Cammy tilted her head slightly.

"I'd like to do that." Cammy said. "I want to do that. Thank you for suggesting that."

Cammy wondered why she didn't think of that on her own.

She checked with John Henry for the closest Sprawl-mart. It was only a mile away and on the route to where they were headed.

Savannah climbed in the back and made sure everything was stowed and covered. They would only take their Tasers and sidearms with them.

Cammy pulled into the Sprawl-mart parking lot. The store only recently opened. It was still relatively early in the morning. They went inside and headed for the clothes department.

Savannah wanted to do something nice but she didn't want it to produce negative results.

"I want to dress Susan up nice but I don't want her to be assaulted because she looks nice. I'm also worried about her physical appearance. I know that has to bother her. Her face is really messed up."

Cammy brought up an image of Susan's face from her files. She could tell there was some permanent damage but the most recent beating is what was most evident. She wanted to give Savannah some reassurance.

"I think her appearance will improve when the swelling and bruising goes away." Cammy said. "I don't think she'll look like a twenty something though. Some of the damage may be permanent. It's evident that her face was beaten severely before."

It sickened Savannah to know someone would try to disfigure the face of a young woman just to make her unappealing to other males. She was glad that Sheila busted up the Ogre in the way that she did. She still would have liked to have used the knife herself on him. If a situation like that ever arose again, she was going to be the one to use the knife and make sure they knew why she was using it as she used it.

Cammy and Savannah picked out things for the four homeless individuals and prepared to leave. Before they took off, Savannah made a few calls and spoke with the store manager.

Savannah and Cammy arrived at the homeless shelter. They checked on Susan and the homeless men that were concerned about her well being. They were all able to get cleaned up and eat a few healthy meals.

It was evident that the homeless shelter was better than living on the street. It still appeared to be a rather depressing place to be. There would probably still be some petty theft and minor arguments but no one in the shelter needed to worry about being assaulted or killed.

Savannah gave the package with new clothes to Susan. Susan looked inside and started to cry. Savannah gave her a hug and held it for a short time.

Cammy wanted to distribute the new clothes to the three men. She first gave the folded shirt back to the man who'd lent it to her and thanked him. She then gave each of them a bag with new clothes. They were all deeply emotionally touched. They were all very thankful.

Savannah took Susan off to the side and talked to her for a while about going into rehab. She promised that once she was 'clean' that someone would help her get her life started again. Susan agreed to try it.

Cammy contacted CamNet and arrangements were made for Susan to get into rehab. They explained to the men that they wanted to try to help Susan a little more. All of the men were very appreciative of that, one more so than the others. It was clear possessed deep feelings for Susan. They left the men behind after they were both thanked again by all of them.

Cammy and Savannah took Susan to rehab and checked her in. It was a facility that didn't allow self checkout. At least it wouldn't in Susan's case. CamNet made an arrangement for five times the normal fee for them to keep her there until she was clean and no longer dependent. Susan was to be given special care and treatment. There would be arrangements made for a cosmetic surgeon to visit her as well. There was a very good chance her former beauty could be restored somewhat.

Savannah told Susan she would make sure someone visited her every few days. CamNet said it would be taken care of. Savannah and Cammy wished her well and they headed off.

They passed a delivery truck from Sprawl-mart. It was headed to the homeless shelter with half of the clothing inventory from the local Sprawl-mart. CamNet picked up the tab with some of the money that she'd confiscated from the Syndicate casino accounts. They were the accounts that when the Syndicate complained, would show that the accounts never existed. Their money was just gone without a trace.

Cammy could see that Savannah looked happy and cheerful. That pleased her. She felt pleased by the overall experience that they'd just gone through as well.

"Where would you like to go now?" Cammy asked. "You must be hungry, tired and sore."

Savannah was all of those things. She wasn't going to say anything or even admit it.

"I'm fine." Savannah said.

Cammy frowned a little bit. Savannah's response reminded her too much of Cameron. She knew Cameron was a bad influence on Savannah.

"Remember it's not just you." Cammy said as she glanced at Savannah's lower belly. "You carry a very precious cargo. You have Vanna's baby to think about."

Savannah didn't think it was a big deal. Her body was in good physical condition.

"I'm fine, Cammy." Savannah said.

Cammy headed back to the base.

Savannah was quiet for a long time before she spoke. She didn't want to cause a problem but there were things she needed to do.

"I need to see CamNet." Savannah said.

Cammy said nothing. It was clear that she didn't want to take Savannah there.

Savannah didn't like the distress that she'd caused Cammy. She wanted to make her position clear.

"I know the 'Cameron' in you doesn't agree." Savannah said. "She may not always like the way I do things."

Cammy looked at Savannah. She felt she was her own individual as well. She didn't want to be a Bitch like Cameron was.

"I don't either, as Cammy." Cammy said.

There wasn't much Savannah could say. She needed to honor her obligation.

"I promised to do this for CamNet." Savannah said.

Cammy knew what it really was.

"Is this only to keep CamNet away from Young Allison?" Cammy asked. "Are you going to 'trade' yourself?"

Savannah felt she needed to protect Young Allison and not have her emotionally damaged in an unhealthy 'love' relationship with a super computer. That was before CamNet was provided with a chassis.

"I need to protect Young Allison." Savannah said. "I'll do whatever I have to do to protect her."

Cammy knew of the deep unbreakable love relationship with every Savannah Weaver and Allison Young. She was aware every Savannah Weaver would do whatever she needed to do to protect every Allison Young. There was more than one timeline to prove that.

She couldn't help but feel a little jealous. It did bother her. She knew what would happen with Savannah and Young Allison from the moment of her creation. She understood it was a part of the 'Natural Order'. If nothing else it was the 'Natural Order' for every Savannah Weaver and Allison Young.

"You really love Young Allison." Cammy said.

Savannah could feel a tingle deep inside of her that touched her heart.

"I do." Savannah said. "I've loved her from the first time I saw her."

Cammy wanted to warn Savannah. She was well aware of how the machines thought. They were very relentless in the pursuit of a goal.

"CamNet will not let up." Cammy said. "Whatever you do may only be temporary. You need to understand that."

Savannah did understand that. It wasn't a pleasant thought either. Right now, it was what it was.

"It was an unhealthy relationship for Young Allison to be 'involved' with. She was inexperienced and vulnerable." Savannah said. "It was wrong. She was taken advantage of. I understand what CamNet must have experienced being trapped inside of a metal box. It was still wrong to do."

Cammy loved Savannah very much. She didn't like to share her with anyone but she did. Savannah taught her to share with others as well. It was a very beautiful experience.

"I won't stand in your way." Cammy said. "I never have."

Savannah reached over and squeezed Cammy's arm gently.

"I know and appreciate that." Savannah said. "I've been with many of the girls. I don't regret that at all. I wanted you to understand and be able to do the same thing."

Cammy was with many of the girls herself too. It just seemed right at the time. In fact anytime with any of the girls, Metal or human seemed right. There was plenty of love to share between all of them. She was aware from personal experience that it was Cameron who actually sacrificed the most.

"Cameron wants you to feel loved and wanted. She never wants you to feel lonely." Cammy said. "She's sacrificed for you."

There were times Savannah felt very guilty about that. She knew that Cameron wanted to be with her and she wanted to be with Cameron. It always seemed that something got in the way. She understood Cameron wanted to be with her on the cruise if she went. It just couldn't be like that. Cameron needed to stay close to John. Maybe it was she who sacrificed now in that regard. It also bothered her to have Cameron or Cammy take her to see CamNet.

"I know that. You're sacrificing too." Savannah said. "I'll keep all my promises to Cameron. I swear it."

Cammy felt differently about that. She believed what Cameron did to Savannah was even worse than what CamNet did with Young Allison.

"It was wrong for Cameron to make a young girl promise her children and her love." Cammy said.

Savannah did know that she was young when she made those promises. Maybe she didn't fully understand either of them. She did believe she understood about love. Cameron didn't make her make those promises. She made them on her own. She didn't see any reason why she couldn't help Cameron when she would be able to. She loved Cameron. Love often involved sacrifice. The one thing that she wasn't aware of when she made the promise as a girl to give Cameron her children, was how much it would actually affect her emotionally. Events made it easier for her to justify her actions.

"I would still do the same things again." Savannah said. "They were the right things to do. I needed to help 'myself' too. I would want that same 'help' for me if I was barren like they've all been made by Skynet."

Cammy was unsure of what exactly her place was or was going to be. It looked very bleak once the 'Natural Order' was established. Four people in a relationship would be very crowded. She was sure that John would want to spend as much time as he couldn't with Savannah and Young Allison. She believed that was because of the emotional response that he would be able to feel from them. She loved both Savannah and Sheila dearly. There was a major difference in the way each of those relationships played out. One was very much based on an emotional level. The other one was based very much on a physical level.

"What's going to happen to us, to me?" Cammy asked.

Savannah looked at Cammy and felt a strong tightness in her throat. The way everything seemed to change, she no longer had an answer for that question.

"I really don't know anymore." Savannah said. "I really don't."

Cammy sat in silence for a few minutes. What was there to say? It was clear her time was limited. She didn't think anyone liked to face the prospect being cast aside. She saw that they were in the neighborhood of one of the large indoor malls. An idea popped into her head. She quickly glanced at Savannah.

"I'm going to stop by a 'high end' jewelry store." Cammy said.

Savannah had been lost deep in thought about the complexities in her life. She wondered how much of what she needed to do was love and how much of it was now an obligation.

"What do you need to stop for?" Savannah asked.

Savannah wondered if Cammy was going to pick out a set of heavy gauge and large diameter nipple rings. She hoped so. She felt the larger the diameter, the better it would be. She pictured Cammy wearing a 'see through' tube top with a set of large diameter nipple rings. She thought it would make a bold and distinctive statement about Cammy.

Samantha was active and checked on Riley and Precious.

"Is there anything I can help you with this morning?" Samantha asked.

She thought maybe she would need to go back into standby.

Riley was very thankful for all of Samantha's assistance.

"You've already helped a lot." Riley said.

Riley was pretty sure that she would have buckled by this point in time if she wouldn't have received all the help that she'd received.

Samantha noted that Derek wasn't around.

"Where's Derek off to?" Samantha asked.

Riley felt she'd placed a big burden on Derek's back as well. She didn't want to restrict him from his normal activities and duties.

"He went on a recon mission with Kyle." Riley said. "He offered to stay and help me but I told him I was good."

Samantha tilted her head slightly. She looked at Riley.

"Are you?" Samantha asked.

Riley didn't feel as overwhelmed anymore. She felt hope again. She wanted to do better. She wanted to be better.

"I'm trying." Riley said. "You've helped me greatly."

Samantha smiled at Riley.

"Vanna is on duty to come if Precious needs her." Samantha said.

Earlier Riley looked out into the hall when there were multiple joyous reunions going on. All of the Metal girls were back from an operation and no one was damaged.

"I saw all the girls were paired up with their lovers." Riley said. "Their Metal lovers, that is. Everyone looked very happy. The atmosphere of joy made me feel happy as well."

Samantha was unsure if that statement needed a reply. It did indicate that Vanna and Jesse would both be 'busy' for a while.

"Give the girls plenty of notice if you can." Samantha said. "How's your production?"

Riley looked down at her breasts with contempt. They just didn't work like they should. She knew that she shouldn't complain because at least she could have a baby. So far none of the other girls from the future were able to do that. She didn't want to seem negative when everyone was there to help her.

"The same or less I think." Riley said. "I hate to bother the girls."

Samantha was able to observe how emotionally uplifting it was for the other girls.

"Nonsense…." Samantha said. "This is something that both Jesse and Vanna want."

Riley felt a little guilty about her earlier thoughts. The girls indicated to her what a positive experience it was for them.

"They both told me that they didn't feel valueless anymore as females." Riley said. "I think Cameron also did this to help them get past that. Cameron was able to help me and help them both at the same time. Cameron is a very special individual"

Riley didn't know Cameron actually wanted to accomplish several things by doing that. The main one was to get Vanna ready for her own child. The one Savannah carried for her.

Samantha was aware that Allison was going to need assistance as well.

"Cameron also did it for Allison and her baby." Samantha said.

Riley swallowed hard with that statement. She felt even guiltier than she did previously.

"I hate to ask but how is that going?" Riley asked.

Samantha frowned slightly.

"Not well." Samantha said.

Riley didn't think it would be a problem in the end.

"Cameron will fix it." Riley said. "She fixes everything."

'Except herself….' They both thought.

John was tired out and 'spent'. 'Little Willie' was wasted right now, he needed a rest.

He'd just spent the last few hours with Cameron. They'd made love four times.

They'd started out with the traditional 'missionary position'. That was when Cameron reset her files to relive their wedding night again. At that point in time it was literally her 'first' time. She'd been as excited as she was apprehensive. He'd been anxious to be with her and wanted to get started right away. He wanted to knock one off since he hadn't 'relieved' himself the previous night. She told him she wanted him to do the 'other things' first like the girls do with each other. He needed to give himself a little kick. He shouldn't have been so greedy to get started. He knew he needed to think about her needs as well. He wanted her 'first' experience to be pleasant for her as well. It was.

Once Cameron was able to relive her 'first' time, she reset her files. She could tell John was going to need a little help. She took over the next three times. The first one was the 'reverse cowgirl' where she faced away from John. The next one was the 'cowgirl' where she faced forward towards John. She was able to bend down and kiss him as he fondled her at times. The last one was 'animal style'. She was the one who provided all the motion. In each of those three instances. She didn't stop until she was satisfied. It had taken her quite a while to 'start up' John. It was a reminder to her that the female body was far superior to the male body for multiple sexual encounters. That was in reference to the human girls and not just a female Terminator. She could literally make love until her power cell ran out or her systems overloaded from too much pleasure and shut her down. She thought it would be a beautiful way to 'go out'. She was ready for more. John was not.

"We still have nine hundred and ninety six more ways to try." Cameron said.

John looked down at 'Little Willie'. He was aware that name seemed very apt right now.

"I'm pretty well drained." John said. "I can't keep 'up' with you."

Cameron smiled at John. She was very pleased to spend time with him. She was glad Savannah suggested it.

"Tell me more about our honeymoon." Cameron said.

John had carefully looked over all the information CamNet provided to him.

"We can take a California coastal cruise." John said. "It's only seven days and we're still close to home if anything happens."

Cameron was very pleased to hear John say that. The idea came from him this way instead of from her.

"That's a wonderful idea." Cameron said.

John wasn't sure how things would play out. He didn't know who else would go along or what type of security would be needed. He didn't think they would need much security on a ship that was out in the ocean most of the time.

"Do you want anyone else to come?" John asked and then quickly added. "I mean go with us."

Cameron saw this as the opportunity to bring more Metal girls along for a potential chip swap. She could use the tether too and not mess up her hair. It was the hardest thing to get right. She thought about the idea of the tether the more she thought about using the Metal girls chassis. She could simply plug in and take over their chassis without physically having to pull her chip out and mess up anyone's hair. She figured she would need a long tether so she could assume any position and not have to look at her deactivate chassis. She probably thought the best place for it would be on the floor next to the bed.

"I don't know yet." Cameron said. "I feel you'd be better protected if there were more Terminators with us. I think that the Metal girls would blend in better."

John wasn't sure how the next part of his statement would go over. It had taken him a long time to appreciate everything that his mother had done for him and all of the sacrifices that she'd made for him. He realized that her entire life from the moment that she'd met his father had been devoted to him. He wanted to do something for her to show his appreciation. He knew it was a small thing but he believed it was important.

"I'd like for Sarah and Kyle to get out too." John said. "I want my parents to try something a little different."

Cameron was unsure what obstacle that would create with her plan to provide John with 'different' versions of herself. She wanted to get her hands on the Metal girl's chassis. She wanted to be somebody different.

"No one brings their mother on their honeymoon." Cameron said.

John quickly realized that the mood was going to sour. He understood what Cameron just said. He knew she was right. No one did bring their mother along on their honeymoon. He needed to think fast.

"I meant if it works out for us." John said. "We can have a few from the Resistance go every week."

Cameron tilted her head slightly. She liked that idea even better. It would give her more opportunities to be with Savannah on one of the cruises. After she was with Savannah, she was going to bring Young Allison too.

"I think that would be good." Cameron said. "That's very thoughtful of you and shows what a kind son you are. Your parents should be proud of you."

Cameron still tried to figure a way to get Savannah along with them. She thought maybe she could get John to fulfill his destiny easier. She was pretty sure that she could get John into a high state of arousal and slip Savannah into his bed again. She didn't think they'd be able to resist each other. She knew that John wouldn't anyway.

John could see Cameron scheming. He didn't know what was on her mind.

"We can think about it anyway." John said.

Cameron was very pleased John mentioned it to her. She hoped enough refractory time had passed that he would be able to perform again.

"Are you ready to drop it down to nine hundred and ninety five?" Cameron asked.

John was aware as soon as he brought up the cruise that Cameron began to stimulate him. At first there hadn't been any effect. Now he could feel that there was one starting.

"If you keep doing what you're doing, I think so." John said.

Cameron lifted her head and looked up at John with a smile.

"My power cell lasts a long time…." Cameron said.

She lowered her head and went back to work. She picked the speed up along with the pressure. She knew that she would have John ready in no time. She considered letting him finish that way. She would swallow and he would be happy. It wouldn't do anything for her.

Cameron moved her head faster and further up and down.

Love was about sacrifice sometimes.

Anna looked over at Young Allison. She wasn't sure of everything she was doing or why. It seemed more like meddling than assisting.

Anna was aware of what Young Allison looked at.

"What are you looking for?" Anna asked.

Young Allison looked at the security feeds from the Resistance base. She was aware that all the groups of girls, both Terminator and human, reunited. She also knew that Savannah and Cammy weren't among them.

"I was just checking out what was happening at the Resistance base." Young Allison said.

Anna figured it was a little more than that.

"Do you miss the others?" Anna asked.

Young Allison missed her sister.

"Yes." Young Allison said. "I miss Summer."

Anna knew Young Allison missed her mother as well. She didn't want to say that specifically so she phrased her statement carefully.

"You miss all of them." Anna said.

Young Allison felt a little bit of a lump in her throat.

"I do." Young Allison said.

Anna wanted to remind Young Allison of a painful reality that awaited her.

"When you go to the past, you're not going to see most of them for a few years." Anna said.

It was a sobering thought for Young Allison. Maybe she wasn't as tough as she thought.

"That's a really long time." Young Allison said. "They've only been gone a short while."

Anna needed to prepare Young Allison for what awaited her.

"That's another thing you must factor in." Anna said.

Young Allison thought about what happened to Allison, Vanna and Jesse. She didn't want that to happen to her or to Summer.

"I want to bring Summer with me." Young Allison said.

Anna knew that was a contentious subject.

"Your mother doesn't want that." Anna said.

There was another issue that Young Allison looked into. She needed some help to do it. She didn't want to involve CamNet but would if she needed to.

"I need you to get me some medical supplies." Young Allison said.

There was a long moment of silence.

"What kind?" Anna finally asked.

Young Allison was aware there was a way that she could bring the future to herself quicker.

"I need HGH, estrogen and progesterone." Young Allison said. "I can make myself 'older' this way quicker."

There was an even longer moment of silence.

Anna looked very uncomfortable.

"Is that an order?" Anna asked.

Young Allison wanted things to happen. They weren't happening fast enough for her.

"Do I need to make it one?" Young Allison asked.

Anna was aware they were about to enter shaky ground.

"Yes." Anna said. "Savannah has specifically forbidden any 'hormone management' of your body."

Young Allison felt differently. It was her body. She should be able to do as she wanted with it.

"It is my body, not hers." Young Allison said.

Anna could see her words fell on deaf ears.

"Savannah's trying to protect you." Anna said.

Young Allison was clearly upset at this point.

"Protect me from what?" Young Allison asked.

Anna looked directly at Young Allison.

"Yourself…." Anna said.

Young Allison was clearly in a 'huff' at this point.

"That shows a lot of confidence in me." Young Allison said sarcastically.

Anna saw it completely differently. She thought that Young Allison should as well.

"Or it shows that someone loves you very much, just the way you are." Anna said.

Young Allison felt a twinge of guilt. It quickly passed.

"Did Savannah make it an order?" Young Allison asked.

Anna hoped her next words would have some meaning.

"No." Anna said. "I asked her about that specifically. Savannah said her love for you was all that was needed for you to rethink your decision."

Young Allison understood Savannah's love for her and hoped that love would be strong enough to keep her from altering herself prematurely.

"Savannah said that?" Young Allison asked. "When was this?"

Anna didn't think the time period mattered.

"It was quite some time ago." Anna said.

Young Allison swallowed hard.

"She knew then…." Young Allison said.

Anna didn't think telling Young Allison that Savannah made this clear long ago so that Cameron wouldn't use hormones on Young Allison to speed things up.

Cammy told Savannah why they were headed for the high end jewelry store.

It wasn't what Savannah hoped that it would be.

Cammy thought Savannah would like to present CamNet with what she was going to give her in a fancy gold jewelry box.

Savannah wanted something different.

"I made a wooden box myself for what I want to give her." Savannah said. "It's something I made. I want it to be personal."

Cammy instantly understood the personal touch.

"I saw you working in the lab when everyone was away." Cammy said. "That's really thoughtful of you."

Savannah still questioned her decision at times to allow CamNet to have a chassis. Every time she ran it through her mind, she came back to the same conclusion that she'd done the right thing. What she wanted to do next was an extension of that

"CamNet outside of her server is my creation." Savannah said.

Cammy tilted her head slightly. She'd blamed Cameron for that. She didn't know it was Savannah's doing.

"I thought a mobile CamNet was Cameron's creation." Cammy said.

It had taken quite a bit of convincing to get Cameron to sign on with what she wanted to do. The fact that they were going to be near a jewelry store gave her another idea.

"Cameron may have received a little influence from me along the way." Savannah said. "We can still stop at the jewelry store."

Cammy was a little surprised. She'd never even seen Savannah look in a jewelry store when they passed by one when they went shopping.

"Are you going to get anything else?" Cammy asked.

Savannah thought of an idea that she'd considered before. She decided to go through with it now. She didn't want to cause Cammy any additional stress. She decided to keep it simple.

"I'm going to order something for myself." Savannah said.

Cammy tilted her head slightly.

That was new. Savannah never obtained much for herself. It briefly crossed her mind that maybe Savannah was going to procure a set of nipple rings. She quickly discounted that idea. She knew that Savannah was going to have nursing breasts in a few more months. She was already several months into her pregnancy with Vanna's baby.

Something For Myself

If one truly loves another
They will always put them first
When one won't do that
It shows they're the worst

The true test of love
Is said to be sacrifice
One not willing to do that
Didn't listen to good advice

Things go smooth at first
As long as it remains only two
That often soon changes
When things are knocked askew

One tries to make the excuse
That they are needy
Everyone knows the truth
They're just greedy

Take your fill
Put me on a shelf
Don't be too surprised
When I get something for myself

Nobody