Chapter 1043

It Is Private

John could see how playful Claire really was. This was the first real chance he was able to be alone with her without anyone else around. There was a lot of charm to her. She was pretty, cute, playful and very sexual. The smile on her face went a long way. Other than Savannah, Summer and Young Allison, there weren't a lot of smiles to go around. The Resistance base wasn't a happy place. That was mainly due to the fact it was rooted in reality. There was nothing happy about the reality of Skynet.

He thought he was as guilty as everyone else when it came to smiles. There usually wasn't much to smile about. Cameron was often away fighting the war. When she did he was often left alone. He didn't think it was the aloneness that caused the lack of a smile. He thought it was what caused the aloneness that was the problem.

Two figures walked into the commissary. They were Savannah and Young Allison. They both took in the scene with John and Claire. It didn't take a lot of imagination to know what they were both thinking. It was clearly written all over their faces.

'The party is over.' Young Allison wanted to say but didn't.

Young Allison saw her mother was 'hitting' on John. She knew that was Cameron's doing.

She glanced over at Savannah and could see she saw it too but kept her composure. She knew it was her 'place' and Savannah's 'place' as well. The only trouble was it wasn't their 'place' yet. She knew she couldn't compete with her mother in bed with John at this time. She only had her youthfulness to offer. She lacked the experience and knowledge that her mother possessed. She'd read about plenty of bad 'first experiences' by females in Cosmo. It was best not to think about it. Cameron taught her how to play the game.

"Hi, Mama. Hi, John." Young Allison said with a smile.

Savannah smiled at all of them.

"Hello." Savannah said.

They all exchanged pleasantries.

Claire got up to get some food for Young Allison and Savannah.

"I made breakfast for you today." Claire said. "I know you usually do it, Allison."

Young Allison looked squarely at her mother.

"We'll share the burdens, all of the burdens." Young Allison said. "We will anyway."

John wasn't sure but it seemed Young Allison was a little upset at her mother. He didn't realize she was mildly jealous. He was unaware of the true depth of Young Allison's feelings and the extent of her nightly 'conditioning'.

Savannah could see it wasn't shaping up well for any of them. She would try to get everyone back into their corner. She didn't want any trouble in front of John. She turned her attention to Claire.

"Thank you for making something for us." Savannah said. "That was very thoughtful of you."

John didn't care for the change in the atmosphere in the commissary. He thought he should leave and check on operations.

"Thank you for the omelet, Claire." John said. "I need to get to work."

Claire reached over and touched his arm as he got up.

"Already?" Claire asked. "Savannah and Allison just got here."

Young Allison sat down across from John and Savannah sat next to her.

John felt more than a little uncomfortable. He didn't want to seem rude in front of Claire or the girls.

"I guess I could stay a few minutes longer." John said as he sat back down. "I don't have far to go."

Claire gave the girls their food and they thanked her. She cleaned up the dishes and excused herself.

Cammy could see Savannah was in the commissary. She'd watched her for a few minutes. She felt she'd seen enough. She headed that way to be with her.

Claire walked out and saw Cammy headed in that direction.

Claire stopped Cammy.

"Hi, Cammy." Claire said.

Cammy looked over Claire's shoulder towards the commissary.

"Hello, Claire." Cammy said.

Claire could see where Cammy fixed her gaze. It wasn't on her.

"The girls are alone with John." Claire said.

Cammy looked concerned.

Claire wanted to stay longer but the 'Natural Order' popped into her head at some point. It was actually from her nightly 'conditioning' but she didn't know that. She responded to the thoughts that came up at that time. It was that the girls belonged with John and Cameron.

"I left so I wouldn't be a distraction." Claire said. "Maybe we can leave them alone for a little bit."

Claire took Cammy's hand and started to lead her away. Cammy looked back over her shoulder towards the commissary.

"Where are we going?" Cammy asked as she looked back again.

Claire responded to her 'conditioning'. She needed to take Cammy elsewhere. The girls needed to be alone with John.

"We're going away for a few minutes anyway." Claire said.

Claire understood her place. That wouldn't stop her being an addition to John if she got the chance. It was a compulsion that existed deep inside of her. She knew one thing about food and believed it carried over to people. Everyone liked 'dessert'. The compulsion inside of her grew. She was ready to give John whatever kind of dessert he wanted. She was ready to try all of those things again. That surprised her some because she didn't like two of them. She would still make them available to John.

Anna and Sarah were out with Jan and Summer. Jim followed them.

They did some mild exercises and a little running at the park.

Sarah looked around the area for signs of any trouble. She didn't spot any. She looked back at Jim. She returned her attention to Anna.

"Can you watch the girls for a little bit?" Sarah asked.

Anna watched what Sarah did and deduced what she wanted to do.

"Sure." Anna said. "You want to go on a longer run now that Jim can go with you."

Sarah always worried about the fact that in Cameron's future. She died in 2005 from cancer. She embraced every preventive measure that she could find.

"I do." Sarah said. "I want to stay in shape."

Anna was a little worried about Sarah. She started to raise her hand towards Sarah's neck but stopped before she made contact. She didn't want to create a problem. She wasn't normally around Sarah since she was usually in Palmdale.

"May I?" Anna asked.

It was clear she wanted to scan Sarah.

Sarah wasn't used to being scanned but she knew that Cameron asked her to allow some of the female Terminators to scan her from time to time. If they were able to detect any negative changes, they would let her know. So far there hadn't been any.

"I don't mind." Sarah said.

Sarah liked to get a quick 'check up' every now and then. It beat going to the doctor's office. She wanted to be around as long as possible for John, Jan and Kyle.

Anna quickly did a scan. Everything seemed OK.

"I'll take care of the girls." Anna said.

Jim previously hung back from them. That was no longer the case. He walked up alongside of Sarah.

"We've found out it's better if Jim runs next to me, rather than in back of me." Sarah said. "Someone thought he was chasing me once. John Henry picked up the 911 call and quashed it. You know how some people are…."

She didn't know it actually happened a number of times.

Sarah looked at Jim. She bid farewell to Jan and started it out on her run. Jim was alongside her.

Anna watched them go. The 'Cameron' in her knew some people felt that way about Terminators once too. Prejudice and hate didn't need to be based on skin tone.

The root of prejudice was ignorance, lack of understanding and the lack of tolerance.

Claire led Cammy away from the commissary.

Cammy looked back over her shoulder one more time. She wondered where they were going. She thought it would be better if Claire was with Hanna. She wanted to go back to the commissary.

"Where's Hanna?" Cammy asked.

Claire already knew.

"She's busy." Claire said.

Cammy didn't like being led away from Savannah. She needed to put up with it because it was the 'Natural Order'. She wouldn't stand in the way of Savannah's destiny for that. She didn't see any reason to rush things along. She thought they would all happen in due time. It didn't look like she would be able to delay anything today.

She would like to share some alone time with Claire while Savannah was busy with Young Allison. She'd shared with Claire in Cameron's future while she was in Ginger's chassis. She actually liked being in Ginger's chassis for almost a year. Her appearance was very much like Savannah in that chassis. It was also a Restorator chassis. It was equipped a superior neural network sensory system. She also liked the much larger breasts that Ginger's sheath possessed. She noted that everyone she was with did as well. Claire didn't have a problem when she'd transitioned back into her own chassis. She felt Claire responded even more passionately to her then. That was probably because Claire saw her as 'Cameron'. It didn't matter. She enjoyed being with Claire. She liked the way Claire responded to her touch as well as the way Claire touched her. There was no reason she couldn't squeeze in a little alone time with her right now.

"I'm not busy." Cammy said.

Claire looked over at Cammy. She knew an invitation when she heard one. It had been a while since she'd been with Cammy. She was ready for a little refresher.

"I'm not either." Claire said. "Would you like to walk me to my room?"

Cammy didn't want to be inadvertently interrupted. She didn't want Savannah to see her with Claire, especially if she was with Young Allison. She didn't think that would go over very well. It appeared that Young Allison became jealous quite easily.

"Will Summer or Young Allison go there?" Cammy asked.

Claire knew that was always a possibility. She really didn't think it mattered because she was aware both of her daughters spied on her plenty of times. She didn't see anything wrong with it because she was 'conditioned' nightly not to worry about it. She was 'conditioned' to embrace it.

"They might." Claire said. "They all know what happens."

Cammy was more worried about Savannah being with them.

"We can use Holly's room." Cammy said. "It's a little out of the way."

Claire wondered why they would use Holly's room.

"Do you have a room?" Claire asked.

Cammy drew the short straw as far as a room went, she went directly from the lab table to her assignment upon her activation.

"I only have Savannah's room." Cammy said. "Cam and I share space for some of our things in another room. We were both assigned to Vanna and Savannah upon our creation."

Claire thought Cammy was there on her own free will. Her statement made it sound like an assignment. It made her wonder about Hanna. Cameron actually gave her the choice of Hanna, Ally or Sheila. She was enamored with Allison's lover Vanna at the time so she picked Hanna. If she had it to do over again, she would've picked Sheila because she was sweet on Jesse now. She wanted to know more.

"Aren't you there by choice?" Claire asked.

Cammy ran a modified version of Cameron's program. She really didn't think there was a choice. She loved Savannah before she'd ever met her. She loved her because Cameron loved her. She loved her even more when she was with her.

"We could have refused the assignment." Cammy said. "We love our girls."

Cammy looked around the hallway behind them and in front of them. She didn't see the need to advertise who she was with. It would be clear to anyone who saw them what was going to happen. She quickly opened the door to Holly's room and ushered Claire in.

Vanna and Allison finished up in the shower. They playfully dried each other off. There was plenty of touching and kissing as they did so. They entered the bedroom and started to dress.

Allison made sure that she'd given Vanna a complete 'pressure reduction' as they showered. She found it very exciting as the warm water cascaded over them and the shower filled with steam.

The girls were soon dressed. They helped each other as necessary. They quickly made sure that the other one was presentable. It didn't take a lot of work for them to do that. They were always presentable.

"We should go somewhere." Allison said.

Vanna needed to think about Precious. She was aware that she wouldn't be able to do anything for a while after what Allison did in the shower. She wanted to make sure that there would be someone there for Precious if needed.

"Where?" Vanna asked. "I need to check with Jesse and Riley first if we do."

Allison was used to the old days where they could pick up and go at any time. She understood there were new responsibilities. It was easy to forget for her. She wasn't the one nursing Precious. She was usually in Palmdale. Everything was different now.

"I didn't think about that." Allison said.

Vanna needed to work on some things in the lab. She could see Allison wanted to go out. She wanted to spend more time with Allison to do other things and not just use the bed.

"It will only take a few seconds." Vanna said. "I want to go out with you."

Allison smiled.

Vanna made the call and Jesse said she would have everything covered for the rest of the day. She called Cam and Allison called Holly to let them know they wanted to go out.

Allison was a little surprised when her call went to voice mail. That was very unusual. Holly always picked up when she called.

"Holly isn't answering." Allison said.

Vanna received the same response or lack of it.

"Neither is Cam." Vanna said.

Allison figured there was only one reason why Holly wouldn't respond to her call. She actually thought it was a pretty good reason.

"They must be together." Allison said.

Vanna agreed with that assessment. There was one way to find out.

"We can go by and check on them." Vanna said.

Allison would like to see them together but didn't want to be rude. She never liked to have one of her 'finishes' interrupted. It was always hard for her to get restarted from an interruption. It was more of a mental issue than a physical one.

"I don't want to disturb them." Allison said.

Vanna was aware there were plenty of other Terminators around the Resistance base.

"We can find someone else to go with us." Vanna said. "It shouldn't be too hard."

Allison wondered who they would find first. She was a little hungry as well.

"Let's look around and grab a bite to eat first." Allison said.

Vanna looked over at Allison. She thought they were going to do something a little fancier.

"You don't want to eat out?" Vanna asked.

Allison giggled at the statement. She thought they'd already done that…. She quickly realized that Vanna referred to actual food.

"OK." Allison said. "Let's look for one the Metal girls. They're all at the base."

Vanna and Allison headed out.

Cameron wanted to find some Skynet action. There was too much of a lull for her liking. There must be some target that she could do an 'advanced recon' on. She didn't want to call it an assault or combat. That seemed to produce a lot of negative reactions around the Resistance base. The bottom line was if there was a job that needed to be done, she was ready to do it. She felt it was her responsibility.

John Henry thought Cameron looked a little too anxious for an assignment that could turn into a battle. He thought he could refocus her attention a little.

"Anna is alone with the girls at the park." John Henry said.

Bob was aware there were several sets of human females at the base.

"Which girls?" Bob asked.

John Henry expected to get Cameron's attention, not Bob's attention.

"Anna's with Summer and Jan." John Henry said. "Sarah's on a long run with Jim."

Bob was concerned when he heard that Summer was there at the park. She was his favorite of the human girls.

"Maybe I will go there, to the park." Bob said.

Cameron didn't think it was a problem. She didn't want him to worry.

"Anna has it under control." Cameron said.

Bob looked over all of the screens in the Command Center.

"Operations look light." Bob said.

Cameron was aware Summer liked Bob and it seemed he liked her too.

"That would be fine, Bob." Cameron said. "Go spend time with Summer, she adores you."

Bob didn't want to seem overly anxious, even if he was.

"I'm just doing my job." Bob said and left.

Cameron thought about the wording that Bob used. She felt a mild glitch impulse but suppressed it.

"Aren't we all." Cameron said softly as she looked in the direction of the commissary. "Aren't we all…."

John Henry saw the far off look in Cameron's eyes. He thought it was better than her looking at the monitor that showed the body cam footage of the 'action' in Sheila's room. Even though it currently displayed a different image, he was sure Cameron knew. CamNet probably told her.

There was another issue that came to the forefront of his mind. He thought about it and the question just sort of blurted out. It wasn't how he expected things to play out.

"Is there any change in policy for male Terminators to become 'active'?" John Henry asked.

That question caught Cameron off guard. She thought it was in reference to the superior female Terminator programming.

"What?" Cameron asked. "Does someone desire advanced programming? I haven't been made aware of that request."

John Henry felt the best course of action was to be direct.

"I'm asking for myself." John Henry said.

Cameron tilted her head slightly. She wondered about the nature of John Henry's request. She wasn't even sure if he referred to a male or a female. She thought she would try to find out with a little tact.

"You want to have 'relations' with a female?" Cameron asked. "Is she Terminator or human?"

John Henry wasn't sure how this was going to play out. He didn't want to get too specific. He didn't want to cause a problem for Sheila.

"It is private." John Henry said. "I just need to know if it's allowed or if I'll be deactivated. All the female Terminators are active except Anna. It would only seem fair that the male Terminators could be as well."

Cameron knew that was true. She was afraid where this was heading.

"John, Savannah and Young Allison are off limits." Cameron said. "Is that understood?"

John Henry was a little surprised that Cameron mentioned John. He realized that she didn't know if he referred to a male or a female for his request. He thought maybe it was better to leave it a little ambiguous.

"Yes." John Henry said. "I don't want to disrupt the 'Natural Order' or step on anyone's toes."

Cameron was surprised it took this long for the issue to come up. She didn't think anything had been done in secret or behind her back yet by any of the male Terminators.

She felt the male Terminators were more advanced now than they started out as. Even without the advanced infiltration programming they were always expanding. She didn't want to encourage them to start having relations but she also wanted to be fair.

"Anything else is permitted." Cameron said. "Keep it discreet. You need to remember it's not all fun and games. I don't want any problems. There are always complications that will arise. I just want to warn you in advance. You've seen some of the problems I've experienced. They can happen to anyone."

John Henry said almost the same thing to her that she'd just thought.

"It's just a question at this point." John Henry said. "You need to understand that even without the advanced programming, the male Terminators are all growing and developing. You know the female infiltration units are as well."

Cameron was expecting something like this sooner or later.

"The human females are to be treated with respect and dignity and never abused. They are much more delicate than the Metal girls, you know this." Cameron said. "Any response to them should be done at a level similar to that of a human male to prevent any type of excessive friction in certain areas. I know they may ask for that but it must be considered. You need to remember that a human male does not last very long during intercourse. There is also an excessively long time before they can perform again. It's very annoying.

John Henry was a little surprised at Cameron's detailed revelation. He'd read some of the complaints that females expressed towards their interaction with males in Cosmo. He'd learn to read articles in there from Cameron as did everyone else. He'd also read what they prefer in a sexual encounter.

"I would treat any female with dignity and respect. Anything would have to be mutual and initiated by the female." John Henry said. "I know that 'stop' means stop and that 'no' means no. I won't be abusive in any way."

Cameron actually expected this question years ago. She was sure John Henry wasn't the only one to want a little more.

"Have any other Terminators asked about this?" Cameron asked.

John Henry knew he needed to tread lightly. He didn't want to cause a problem for anyone.

"No male Terminator has asked." John Henry said.

Cameron could only come to one conclusion.

"Were you 'asked'?" Cameron asked.

John Henry didn't want to reveal any more information than was necessary. He didn't want Cameron to keep 'fishing' either.

"Yes." John Henry said. "It is private."

Cameron could tell John Henry was very uneasy about the discussion. She didn't want to give him a complex or make him shy away from his desires. She'd seen the way that Claire looked at some of the male Terminators previously. She was aware that no human male had ever been able to provide Claire with a finish during intercourse. She couldn't imagine how terrible that must be to have to go through that 'procedure' without any payoff. Sometimes she felt she was like a 'silicone love doll'. She realized Claire must have felt that way every time.

"I can't restrict you from what others are doing except to respect the 'Natural Order'." Cameron said. "I've already disrupted it myself. I advise you to use extreme caution, especially if any human females are involved. They are very fragile both physically and emotionally."

John Henry didn't want to have a love relationship. He wanted to experiment and try out his 'equipment'. It was mainly for educational purposes to him at this point, at least that's what he tried to tell himself.

"I think it would be done more as sex than as a relationship or love." John Henry said.

Cameron was aware that people could get caught up in what they were doing, especially if it involved sexual relations. She didn't believe there was any such thing as 'no strings attached' or 'friends with benefits'. She thought that might only work in a one time encounter if some type of remuneration was exchanged. In other words, sex for money with a stranger that was never seen again. She was aware that people even got caught up in that.

"These things have a way of creating their own direction other than what you think it will be." Cameron said. "I can only offer you a warning. If you play with fire…."

John Henry was acquainted with the saying. He figured in Sheila's case that might turn extreme on him at some point if he turned her down. She might use a Taser on him and make it so he would be unable to perform with any female for quite some time. He really didn't want his package added to her collection.

"You get burnt…." John Henry said.

Cameron couldn't help but think about all the grief that she'd experienced personally.

"It's inevitable." Cameron said.

Cameron was afraid of the 'feelings and emotions' that could develop with a sexual relationship. She didn't think John Henry fully understood the way things could happen, expand and fall apart. Not everything involved in a relationship was pleasure. It seemed a lot of it was pain.

Cammy quickly ushered Claire into Holly's room. She didn't want anyone to see them go in there. She expected the room to be empty. It wasn't.

Holly and Cam recently just unplugged.

They were naked.

Claire was a little appalled at what they'd walked into. She felt embarrassed and that she'd just intruded.

"I'm sorry." Claire said. "We didn't mean to disturb you."

Claire turned to leave.

Holly didn't see it as a problem.

"Wait." Holly said. "We just 'finished' up."

Holly and Cam made no effort to cover themselves up. Both of them previously shared with Claire and Cammy before. They all understood the female body was something of beauty and nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed about. If anything, it should be worshiped.

Cam and Holly saw that Vanna and Allison tried to contact them earlier. The girls wanted to go out. They told Cammy and Claire what was requested of them.

Claire would have liked it to expand into a four way.

"Do you both have to leave now?" Claire asked.

Cam was a little worried they hadn't responded sooner.

"If the girls need us, we need to respond." Cam said. "We should have done so earlier but we couldn't stop."

Holly would like to make it a four way as well. It just wasn't going to be right then.

"We can all hook up later." Holly said. "Our girls need us."

Vanna and Allison left their room. They were going to go in search of some Terminators to go out with them since Cam and Holly appeared to be tied up. It wasn't long before they made contact.

Allison spotted her mother, she was with someone.

"There goes Cameron and my mom now." Allison said.

From a distance Vanna didn't think so. She would need to be closer.

"I think that's Cammy." Vanna said. "It's not Cam."

Vanna held Allison back.

"Let's see where they go." Vanna said.

They watched Cammy and Claire head for Holly's room.

It all made sense to Allison now.

"Now we know why Cam and Holly didn't respond." Allison said.

Vanna came to the same conclusion as Allison.

"They must be going to do a 'four way'." Vanna said.

Vanna wished she could make it a 'five way'. She knew that was one Hot line up.

No. She was there to go out with Allison. There would be plenty of time for every hook up imaginable at some point. She didn't want to spoil the 'four way' hookup.

"Let's tell Cam and Holly we found someone else." Vanna said.

Allison frowned a little bit.

"You know that's my mother in there." Allison said.

Vanna felt Allison was hung up too much on what her mother did. She thought she missed the entire point about why her mother was there.

"She is no different than us." Vanna said as she reminded Allison. "Her wants and needs are the same as ours. Can you honestly tell me you wouldn't want to be where she was at right now?"

Allison thought it would be a pretty hot hookup.

"OK – OK. I know." Allison said. "It's just the idea."

Allison took out her phone and sent Holly a message she would be out for most of the day. Vanna did the same for Cam. They explained they'd made other arrangements for an escort.

Holly and Cam acknowledged the message and thanked the girls.

Allison saw the look in Vanna's eyes earlier at the prospect of a 'five way'. She knew love was about sacrifice. She would allow Vanna to have what she wanted.

"You can join them if you want, Vanna." Allison said. "It's fine with me."

Vanna understood that sometimes love was about sacrifice. Allison was there and she's what mattered the most to her.

"Not today." Vanna said. "We belong to each other."

Allison smiled and gave Vanna a kiss. She reached down and took Vanna's hand. It was an age old gesture that said so much.

"Let's go find another Terminator and a ride." Allison said.

It Is Private

Everyone needs a few secrets
Some things they don't want known
Everyone has done something
They would rather not own

Maybe they didn't do it
Maybe it was done to them
The truth isn't always fair
It's easy for others to condemn

Often when a story is told
Some details are forgotten
It's more likely than not
They were about something rotten

A half truth is a lie
As are lies of omission
It's a shaky narrow path
When the destination is contrition

Some think it is easy
For others to assimilate
They would rather isolate
When they feel it is private

Nobody