Chapter 1044

Thoughts

John was somewhat surprised by Claire's abrupt departure as soon as she'd brought the food over for Savannah and Young Allison. He actually hoped she would have stayed longer. He would have liked another view inside of her shirt when she bent over. He liked what he saw the first time. It seemed as if she'd submitted her personal desires for those of the 'Natural Order'. Maybe Claire didn't want to be the 'main course' but the dessert. That was actually better. They could share all the sweet without the sour. It could be a sex based relationship free from all the entanglements of love. It could also turn into a love relationship without trying. They seemed to just happen. It made him think of Future Riley. That was something that happened out of the total blue. Sure it was orchestrated but he never saw it coming. He still believed that whatever Future Riley was caught up in with Future Jesse's plan that she loved him as he loved her. It was just a shame that she had to die for nothing.

He thought back a little further than Future Riley and of Cheri Westin. Cheri, he hadn't thought of her in a long time. If Future Riley hadn't come along, he would have continued to pursue Cheri. He thought she was actually prettier than Future Riley was. Future Riley took cuts in front of her. Future Riley gave him what he wanted. He didn't know what Cheri's story was but he would have liked to have found out more. Morris said that she was 'damaged goods'. He really wondered exactly what that meant. He felt he was 'damaged goods' as well. He really wondered why he was thinking about Future Riley and Cheri Westin when two hot young females were sitting right in front of him. Maybe it was a reminder to him of the one who got away. Maybe it was a reminder to him of the one who didn't.

John wanted to speak with Young Allison about some of her actions regarding the recent battles they'd fought. Her input contributed greatly to their success. He felt that she overstepped her position in the Resistance but maybe it was a matter of perspective. She was supposed to be one of his top lieutenants in the future. Maybe the future happened a little earlier than he'd realized. He certainly wasn't going to admonish her for her contribution. He knew that she saved lives and machines from damage or termination. He wasn't really sure where to begin.

Maybe he should start by not looking at her breasts. He couldn't help but look there. That's where his eyes were fixated. He knew that she would look like Cameron in a very short time. He looked at her and thought how she looked exactly like Cameron but she was still young. Based on her actions and the reports he received from John Henry, he knew she was young in physical appearance only. He was aware she was highly intelligent, well educated and a very quick thinker. It was clearly obvious that when she 'played', she hit hard and played to win.

John thought in the time it took him to make his assessment of her, she'd probably done the same about him and five other things since. He was glad Savannah was there. He felt comfortable around her. Young Allison made him nervous. He wasn't sure why. It was probably because his desire for her was incredibly strong. He wanted Savannah and he wanted Young Allison as well. He wanted both of them now. He knew that he wanted the virginity of both of them. He wanted to be their first. He couldn't help but think that every time he was around them. He was sure it was because he didn't believe that he was Cameron's first, even if he was as Future John. That wasn't him. He didn't think being with Savannah would upset anyone. He did think being with Young Allison would upset everyone. He was definitely going to have to watch his favorite scenes again as soon as he could. He could clearly see that Young Allison was past that stage.

Great….

Savannah wondered where this conversation was going to go. She wasn't sure how the three of them ended up there alone with no one else around. Where was Cammy? Where was Cameron? Why did Claire leave? If anything she thought she would have stayed. She noticed how her blouse was unbuttoned almost all the way. When Claire brought their food and bent down she was clearly able to see both of her breasts. She figured that was for John's benefit more than it was for hers. She'd expected Young Allison to say something but she hadn't. Why didn't Claire stay to 'protect' Young Allison? If anything, it seemed like she was 'sacrificed' instead. What was her end game here? Was it to show John that Young Allison was still young and Claire wasn't? John could see what promise the future held or he could have what was available, willing and ready now. She knew that Cameron 'pushed' Claire to 'step up'. Why would she 'step back'? Maybe Claire only wanted the dessert or to be the dessert. She actually could understand that. It was always much simpler to be with someone for a short period of time, satisfy each other and then move on to the next one. There was no hassle, there were no strings attached, there was just love to be shared. Besides, who didn't like getting their bell rung?

She smiled to herself to see John was uneasy because only Young Allison was with her. Maybe she would leave the two of them alone for a few minutes and see what happened. Young Allison didn't seem nervous at all. Young Allison previously mentioned she knew how to handle John with what Cameron taught her. She knew that interactions with real people could become complicated very quickly. She knew that Young Allison lacked experience. It made a difference when emotions and feelings started to become involved. One could know everything in the world and still get caught up in them.

Maybe she should have advanced her relationship with Young Allison more than she had. The reason why she hadn't done that was because she knew that it would go completely sexual within a matter of minutes. Once they started to kiss and touch each other she wouldn't be able to restrain herself. She was pretty sure that Young Alison wouldn't either. She was willing to bet on the first kiss that Young Allison would touch her at the same time. That was OK too. She would match every move that Young Allison made at that time. That would indicate to her what she would be allowed to do. She didn't think it would be more than five minutes before they were between each other's legs. It was definitely a powder keg floating in a pool of nitroglycerin waiting for someone to light the fuse. That someone was most likely going to be Young Allison. She was a 'cherry bomb' waiting to go off. That's all it would take for everything to explode into a wild physical relationship.

She looked at John and at Young Allison. She realized that if she didn't do something soon that Young Allison was going to bypass her and go after John. She really didn't see how he would be able to turn her down. She didn't believe that any normal male would be able to do that.

Savannah wondered what all Cameron drilled into Young Allison's head. She knew it was plenty. She figured whatever Cameron did with her growing up, she did it three times more with Young Allison. No, probably five times more. Anna was a clone of her physically and with the 'Neural Interface' and she ran Cameron's program as her base program and carried out Cameron's instructions. She was with Young Allison eighteen hours a day. Savannah didn't know Anna was with her an additional four hours as Young Allison slept. She fed her information and knowledge subliminally. She was still unaware that Cameron also conducted that procedure with her as well. That task was turned over to Cammy upon her creation. It was something that Cameron hardwired into Cammy. Even if Cammy didn't want to do it, she was still compelled to do it anyway. Somehow they all believed it was for their own good.

Young Allison started to blink.

A rash of thoughts crossed her mind.

Young Allison watched her mother depart after she'd made John and them breakfast and cleaned up. She noticed that her mother's shirt was unbuttoned far enough that when she bent down her breasts were clearly visible. She'd seen them as well when their food was set down before them. She understood that her mother did that for John's benefit. She also did it in front of her. It seemed like a challenge. She would deal with that later. When her mother left, she'd glanced out and saw her stop Cammy from coming in as she led her away. Cammy looked back twice as her mother ushered her from where they were. She didn't mention that to Savannah, besides John was right there in front of her.

She knew she was jealous of her mother and John being alone. She was also aware that Cameron was using her mother to accomplish her goals, even if it was outside of the 'Natural Order'. She knew Cameron would breed her mother to achieve her goals. She was aware Savannah forbade Cameron from breeding her once she was able to conceive. That wasn't very long away, unless Anna obtained the medical supplies she'd requested to speed things up. That hadn't happened yet. She would have to ask CamNet to make sure she received them. The unspoken challenge from her mother needed to be answered. She knew that she was at a disadvantage in dealing with males in a sexual manner. Her mother had experienced and knew what to do. She was well aware of everything that needed to be done and that could be done. There was still no substitute for experience.

Of all the options that Cameron created, it was HER baby that Cameron wanted for her own child with John. Cameron never said it outright to her but she knew. She was aware that Savannah 'acted' on her own to have a child for Cameron only a short time after she was first able to do so. She didn't plan to wait that long once she was able to conceive. She wanted Cameron to have what she most desired, a child. It would be Cameron's child with John, as Cameron's own. The only way that wouldn't happen, was if she matured in the past. Then she would be older by a few more years when she returned.

Young Allison smiled to herself. She knew with temporal management and a trip to Cameron's base, she could be back there in an hour as a teenager, ready to go. CamNet made her aware that the genetic material she would need was in a lab locally and in Australia with Camille, for Young Jesse. That's if John didn't deliver. That was if John wouldn't deliver it into her himself. She would be able to obtain what she needed, when she needed it.

Young Jesse was a wild card. She was outside the scope of the 'Natural Order' and clearly a 'backup' if something happened to Savannah or her or both of them. That was why Cameron kept her half a world away, to protect her.

She instructed Summer herself about the future and where her place would be in it, if she was ever 'unavailable' to be at John's side. That event would most likely mean that she'd been killed. It wasn't a pleasant thought but she knew that John needed to be protected. Summer could take her place. She didn't know that Anna visited Summer every night after visiting her. Holly and Hanna worked on her education, Anna instructed Summer in her 'other' duties. All of the girls were instructed in their 'other' duties. They would have no inhibitions when it became time to perform those 'other' duties.

She waited for John to start asking her questions but it was clear he was hesitant to do so. She knew if Savannah left the two of them alone he was going to become very uncomfortable. She looked him over and saw he was uneasy in her presence. Cameron instructed her on how to motivate and manipulate all of them except Savannah and herself. She knew if she opened her top up like her mother did and leaned over at the same time as her mother that John would look down her top and not her mother's top. She would meet that unspoken challenge.

Young Allison finished her blink.

She saw Cammy and her mother walk away. She turned her attention back to John.

It seemed there were a lot of things that could cross her mind in a short amount of time.

Anna shared a good time with Summer and Jan. Even though Jan was a little older than Summer, it was clear that Summer was much more intelligent. She was sure that was because of the training and instruction that Summer received from the Metal girls when she was awake and sleeping. Young Allison always worked with her every day as well.

They were at the swing set in the park. The last time she saw this setting, she was in the B-25 that Savannah flew with Cameron. Was that really only yesterday? It was. It seemed like so much happened in such a short time.

It was clear that Jan and Summer were the best of friends. Both girls were never around children their own age for very long. They shared a common upbringing full of the same restrictions and threat of danger. The difference was that Jan didn't receive the same 'Metal Instruction' that Young Allison and Summer received. Since Jan was John's sister, her usefulness was limited for Cameron's goals. They weren't Hillbillies after all. Those goals were really Future John's goals. Future John didn't have a younger sister named Jan.

Anna knew what direction Cameron wanted for Jan and Summer as they grew up. It would be another way to have an additional 'backup' reserved for John with Summer. The future is what drove Cameron, the present was only the time in between what needed to be done, sooner or later, and what was GOING to happen.

Sarah was on her run through the park. Jim was by her side. She knew it was never safe but she did feel safer with a Terminator alongside of her. Jim had been with her quite a lot over the years. She felt very comfortable in his presence. It was usually Bob or Jim that accompanied the Reese family wherever they went. Things had been relatively quiet for her personally since they've been at the Resistance base. She wasn't used to such a long time period without being chased by a Terminator.

She was aware that she owed the current period of tranquility in that regard to Cameron and the other Terminators. She really didn't know how long it was going to last. So far her daughter hadn't needed to face any Terminators and run for her life. There were times when she wondered if Jan was overprotected. She'd been trained in the basics as well as how to evade a Terminator if that event ever arose. She hadn't really been trained to fight any Terminators or other Skynet forces.

It was clear to her that both Savannah and Young Allison had received extensive training. She watched Summer interact with Jan. Summer was a little bit younger than her but she sure seemed to know an awful lot about everything. Whatever she talked to Summer about or asked her anything, she knew the answer.

There were a lot of things to think about. She knew that Kyle wanted to give Jan a real life. She tried so hard to do that for John and it never worked out. Skynet always found them. Cameron offered them a way to have a real life for Jan. It could be done in the past. She could do that for Jan and for Kyle. she knew that Kyle would like Jan to have a real life. He grew up in the Wastelands and he never wanted that for her. She could understand that in order to give Jan that life in the past, she would have to leave John. So far she's been unable to do that. She felt compelled to remain at his side for as long as she could. Cameron once told her that Future John said that she was the best fighter that he ever knew. If she turned tail and ran into the past, what would that make her? She didn't think it would make her much.

"How far were you going to run today?" Jim asked.

Sarah looked over at Jim. She realized she'd been lost in thought. She noticed that they'd gone much further than normal.

"I really don't know." Sarah said.

Jim handed her a water bottle.

"I would appreciate it if you drank a little water, Sarah." Jim said.

Sarah could feel she was a little overheated.

She drank a few sips of water.

"I think that's far enough for today." Sarah said. "We can start back now. Thank you for watching out for me, sometimes I get a little lost."

Jim wanted to ask her if she was running from the past. He didn't know that she was running from the future.

Vanna really liked to be with Claire. She was a lot like Allison but much more intense and passionate. If Claire stayed at the base she intended to see Claire a few times a week. She'd been with Claire and Allison before both on the same day more than a few times. She'd found it was better to be with Allison first. If she was with Allison after Claire, it seemed to leave a lot to be desired sexually. She might have to cut back on visiting Jesse as much. She would need to work it all in with Allison there all the time. That's if she stayed.

There was no doubt that Allison was her true love and soul mate but being in an open relationship provided for a little variety. There was no shortage of Metal girls either. She really looked forward to some more time with Holly as well. She would gladly share Cam with Allison to achieve that.

The thing she most looked forward to was Allison's baby. She knew she would be the primary 'mother' to it. That was fine with her. She didn't want to see Allison overwhelmed and flustered by motherhood. She'd witnessed the struggle that Riley went through recently. It was actually quite disturbing. Tending to Precious further proved to her that it was is what she wanted. She did want her own child but she could never ask Savannah to give up another child. She knew how deeply that hurt Savannah and how it would hurt her in the same situation.

It made her wonder about the other versions of 'Savannah Weaver' that were out there. There were two Duplicates of her, which was still very hard for her to wrap her head around, along as Future Savannah. More than likely there'd been other timelines created as well since they'd attempted to stop Skynet. She wondered if every version of her other than Savannah was sterile. She really had to think about what Savannah had done for two other versions of herself that couldn't reproduce. It made her love and admire Savannah even more. She understood that she was Savannah but she was glad that Savannah wasn't her.

Allison wanted Holly to go with them but Vanna was OK with the Metal girls staying behind to share with each other and her mother.

Whatever….

It was what it was.

She wanted to get closer to Vanna again. They'd clearly drifted further apart than either of them wanted but that was how it was now. That was her fault for wanting to be with her parents and sister. She couldn't blame Vanna for expanding to 'everyone'. She'd ended up doing the same thing too. Who didn't like getting their 'bell' rung? Now they all did it and no one seemed to have any problems or issues with it. It really was beautiful for all of them.

Allison didn't know how best to get closer to Vanna again. She hoped the baby would help but it might drive them further apart. She saw Vanna was a natural with Precious and would clearly be a better mother than she could ever be. She knew she would need the help and reassurance that Vanna would provide. Vanna was always there for her when she needed her.

She wondered if maybe it was time that Vanna and her put all the others aside, maybe even Cam and Holly too and entered into a committed relationship. It would be the two of them and her baby, THEIR baby. They could have a family like they always talked about. That started not too long after Vanna first 'took' her. She loved Vanna dearly then and still did. It just seemed so many things happened in between and a whole lot of other people. She wasn't even sure how many females she'd been with in the future. It was more than a few. Vanna had been with two or three times as many. She was pretty sure that Vanna had been with every female that wasn't in a committed relationship with a male at some point in the future. She didn't want to take that away from Vanna. She was pretty sure that Vanna needed to be with 'everyone' so that she could escape from her past. Maybe it was best to let things remain as they were and not worry about it.

Maybe it was time to become submissive again to Vanna. That's when their relationship always seemed to work best and they concentrated on each other. She was afraid she'd become too independent now for that. It seemed that Cameron encouraged her to find her own voice and freedom. She wished she would have listened to Cameron when she wanted to make her more like Future Allison. After she met Future Allison, she wished that she was like her.

Now it was time to do what Vanna wanted. She needed to readjust to the way it was. She needed to move backward to move forward. She didn't mind so much as she thought she would.

In their relationship Vanna was always dominant. Maybe it was because Vanna was older and she was young when Vanna first 'took' her. It was what she'd wanted. She could tell Savannah was different. Savannah wanted to be the same age as Young Allison and went out of her way to make sure Young Allison would always have a choice and a voice. Sometimes it was strange how with everything that was the 'same' could still be so different.

Allison and Savannah established a love relationship when Savannah returned from the future. Savannah established one with Future Allison too in the future.

One time Allison noticed Savannah seemed a little down when they made love together. She finally got Savannah to tell her what was bothering her. Savannah wanted to know something but was very embarrassed to ask about it. She thought Allison was most qualified to know. She'd been with Vanna thousands of times. Savannah wanted to know if after having two children if she was 'stretched out' down there. Savannah thought she was but maybe it was all in her head. She didn't want to ask the Metal girls or anyone else. She didn't want it to get back to Cameron. Savannah was worried that John might not be satisfied with her if she wasn't as 'tight' as she could have been.

Allison did notice there was a sight difference in some of the things they did. It was noticeable to her at first but seemed to have lessened over time. She didn't want Savannah to worry about it. It was a natural part of life. She told Savannah everything was the same to her.

Everyone knew that Cameron wanted a baby of her own from Young Allison and John. She also decided to suggest to Cameron that she harvest the genetic material from Young Allison and let her mother carry the child she would want from Young Allison. That way it would be less like 'taking' her child from her and it would leave Young Allison in her 'original condition'. That would leave her with a tight and firm young body until she was ready for a child of her own.

Allison touched her belly. Would this baby stick? She doubted it. It really made her wonder how many of her children Skynet was able to kill retroactively or was it proactively. She really hated Skynet.

Thoughts

Many believe it begins in the heart
It's actually all in the mind
The answers are there
That one must seek to find

To find the correct answer
One must ask the right question
If things take a wrong turn
It will create a bad impression

Through everyone's mind
Many things are mulled
It remains to be seen
What can actually be culled

It seems many things
Can start out as a wish
One begins the search
As they hunt and fish

One's insides may soon
Be twisted in knots
The sad part about it all is
It stems from one's own thoughts

Nobody