Open when you get this…
Serena always knew she'd go to work the day after Bernie had deployed. In some way, she can make herself believe that this is just like the times when Bernie has gone away for a few days for a medical conference or to visit an old army friend. But deep down she knows it's not, knows that she won't see Bernie in person for nine months.
She walks into their office and there on her desk is a beautiful floral box full of what look like ivory envelopes. Serena sits down in her chair and pulls it close to the desk, noticing one delicate envelope propped up against the front of the box.
She stares at it, eyes fixed upon Bernie's messy writing on the front: Serena - Open when you get this…
She stares at it a little longer, wanting to commit this image to memory before complying.
My Dearest Serena,
The main reason for writing these letters is because I love you! I love you so much and I want to be able to remind you of that as much as I can. In your moments of weakness. In your moments of joy. When you need to feel loved know that I will always love you. These letters are just here to remind you of that while we are apart for the next nine months. Put them somewhere you will see them often, or carry them around with you if you have to, so you always remember to Open When You…"
I love you and miss you so much already.
All My Love, Bernie,
Your Big Macho Army Medic x
She knows she doesn't have time to respond instantly, she's got ward rounds to do, and a short surgery scheduled but she promises herself this is the perfect excuse to write Bernie her first bluey.
She plans to write to her on her break but of course, all the best laid plans always go wrong. Bernie's red phone rings just as she's about to go and get herself a pastry from Pulses. She's missing her girlfriend, so who can blame her if she wants a bit of comfort food?
She goes into surgery with Raf, naturally taking the lead. He's a good surgeon and she knows it, but it's going to take her some time to be able to give up control to him in that way. She's so used to working with Bernie in that respect, where neither of them really takes control, they just work side by side effortlessly without there needing to be a lead.
After surgery she updates the patient's family and is just thinking that she'll have a break now, and maybe actually write to Bernie, when Sacha comes onto the ward to remind her that she's ten minutes late for the clinical leads' meeting. Thankfully, she can blame it on the emergency surgery.
She spends more of the meeting thinking about Bernie than actually paying attention. Wondering how Bernie's flight was. Wondering exactly where Bernie is now. Wondering how she is ever going to get through the next nine months without her girlfriend.
Normally after a meeting, Bernie will spoil her with coffee and a pastry and kisses if there is time, but she knows she isn't getting that today or for the next nine months and she can't help but feel a little deflated at the thought.
She's professional enough to offer her opinion a few times to make it look like she's paying attention to the meeting but doesn't really stretch herself. She'll make up for it another time but today isn't it.
After the meeting she grabs her own coffee and pastry from Pulses and is this time determined to write Bernie's letter, so she walks back onto AAU and locks herself in her office. She takes her time thumbing through the envelopes in the box, allowing herself to glance at what's written on some of them, from love, to sorrow to anger, although she's not convinced, she'll need to use that last one. She then turns to her own bag and gets out one of the blueys she has in there—she and Bernie had picked up a stack from the post office before her deployment—and her favourite writing pen before sitting down at her desk. She knows she could use the INtouch electronic mail service to send Bernie an email but she wants the first letter she writes her girlfriend to be a handwritten one.
Dear Bernie,
How!? How did you ever get time to think so much about my needs while doing all the things you had to do? The idea of the envelopes has filled my heart with joy and all I can say is I'm so damn lucky that I am the woman you want to share your life with.
I had a quick look through the other envelopes, and I cannot believe all of the different occasions you have managed to cover. I do not have the words to tell you how loved this gesture of yours has made me feel. And you say that you don't think you're very good at romance!
I've got so much more I want to write but I've got to cut this letter short as your red phone is pulling me away from my break, but I promise to write again soon.
All my love, darling…
Stay safe, soldier.
Serena x
The red phone call leads to a complicated surgery. Serena stays with the trauma patient and completes the surgery, even if it does mean that it's two hours past her shift when she finally finishes. By the time she gets home and into bed she's at least so tired and in need of rest that she doesn't have as much time to miss Bernie, so she falls asleep much more easily than she had the previous night.