BPOV
"I think I need to clarify a few things before you work on 'figuring things out'!" He said.
Okay, why exactly was he taunting me about 'figuring things out'? I mean, I might have fucked up a lot of things in past, but at this moment he should only be mad at his family, and not me!
But I decided to keep my mouth shut, because it might make things worse and we needed to 'talk' anyway!
And... Was it bad that I still wanted to kiss him right now? I felt we had been just arguing and fighting ever since we came here! I was exhausted! I just wanted to kiss him and forget everything, even if it's just for some time!
God! What was wrong with me! I guess Alice was right about us! Maybe our relationship was just about the 'sex' after all!
Wait! Why the fuck was I thinking about what Alice thought about our relationship! God! How could I allow her to get into my head like this!
"I want to make one thing very clear. Everything I'm going to say is just my past, and it has fucking nothing to do with what I think and feel at this moment," he said.
Okay, I was curious now!
"As I told you earlier, Angela and our families have known each other since forever. She was my best friend! Our mothers thought we'd marry some day and they were over the moon when I asked her out when we were seventeen."
Okay, I was already feeling jealous! Did I really want to know all these details?
Just shut the fuck up, and hear him out! I told myself.
"You know how high school love is.. Everything was great for the first year! Then we went into different grad schools, and I think we still did pretty well for the long distance relationship. Well, at least for the first two years."
"And then we started having differences during the third year. We thought we needed a break from each other, so we took a break. We tried to see other people around this time," he said.
"And then... If I think about it now, I think I did the biggest fucking mistake of my life!" He said angrily.
Oh... What did he do?
"Because I was young and stupid, I thought I was in love with her and this 'break' was a stupid idea! I begged her to get back together and I promised to work harder on our relationship... Well, she agreed at some point and I was on cloud nine!"
Oh!
I didn't like that!
He was crazily in love with her!
I couldn't recall if I ever had such a long relationship. Edward was my longest relationship, and ours wasn't even a 'normal' relationship! God! Something was definitely wrong with me!
"Then we did our Masters from the same school and got internships in the same city. Everything was great again!" He said, "Then we started working and we were separated again. I was in Europe for my job. We started having differences again. We fought a lot, but still kept our relationship going. To be honest, it was hardly a relationship at that point!"
"One day, she suggested that this was not working, and we again needed a 'break' from each other," he said.
Again?
"I didn't see the point of going in a circle like this. I didn't want a 'break'. It was either a now or never kind of thing, so I asked her if we should get married."
Oh!
He had proposed to her!
"She said she wasn't ready for it. I said I wasn't ready for another break, so we should just end our relationship!" he said.
Oh!
"That's it! That was the end!" He said, "I thought I had made it very clear, but apparently everyone is an idiot and they think I'm going to get back with her some day, but that's never going to happen!"