As Daryl was taking me somewhere, all I could hear was all the negative thoughts flying all over my mind till I heard Carol's voice entering my mind, ' She always said she wanted to be just like you. That you were super brave and nice and even fun. That nothing scares you.'
I shut my eyes tighter as tears started to come down my face again but then opened my eyes again to see that we were back at the pound. I turned to look toward Daryl as he turned to me, " Why did it have to be her? It should've been me instead." I said as I looked at him as tears continued to go down my face.
" No, it shouldn't." Daryl said as he shook his head to me.
" It should've been me, if I hadn't left her and let Rick handle those walkers. Sophia would be alive and happy right now! But she's not and it's my fault! " I yelled at Daryl.
" You don't ever think like that! It was not your fault, you don't take responsibility for what happened to Sophia!" Daryl spat at me. We just stared at each other for a while as he was breathing heavily and I noticed that his fists were clenched and were turning white.
" If you want to hit me, go ahead. Not like a few have in my life already have." I said as I looked at him then to the ground waiting for him to hit me or something. But nothing happened and I looked back at him and I could see in his eyes that he was sad for me but his face says another thing entirely.
" You want to know something. My step dad was right about me." I said.
" No. Anything that your step dad ever did to you or said to you was ever right, so get that through your damn head!" Daryl yelled at me which made me flinch.
" If I wasn't alive, none of this wouldn't have happened!" I yelled back at Daryl.
" Get them thoughts outta ya head right now. You have proved that son of a bitch that he is wrong. I've seen it and I know that you know that yourself. What would Rick think if he heard you talking the way you are talking right now?" Daryl yelled as he was getting close to me.
" Daryl please! I don't want to live with this guilt! I don't want to see Rick, Carl, Dale, Glenn or anyone die! I wouldn't be able to handle that pain if that were to happen to you!" I screamed.
" Me?" Daryl questioned me as he looked at me in shock in one moment till he glared at me again.
" Yes Daryl, especially you. You are the thing that is keeping me sane. You are the one that makes me feel safe. I can't lose you too!" I yelled at him as I started to cry my eyes out. I heard Daryl's footsteps getting closer to me and I looked up to see Daryl drop his crossbow to the ground next to us and then I looked over at him to notice how close he was standing in front of me and the next thing I know is that he grabs my arms and pulls me towards him and wraps his arms around my waist and held me very close.
" And you think I can just watch you just die as well?" Daryl asked me as I went stiff in his arms. I was about to say something to him till he pulled away a little bit and placed his lips onto mine. It didn't take long for me to kiss him back. He brought his hand behind my head and then pushed me up against a tree. We continued to kiss till I needed air, I broke the kiss and I looked up at him as Daryl leaned in and rested his forehead against mine and looked me in the eyes.
" If you don't want to lose me, then I can't lose you either, Sam." Daryl whispered to me as he was looking into my eyes.
" Okay." I said as I whipped the tears away from my eyes. Daryl lets go of me and picks up his crossbow from the ground and then turns back to me and takes my hand into his and we start to walk back towards the camp.
When we arrived back, I released Daryl's hand and looked up at him and gave him a small smile while he gave me one back till his face went back to normal and started to walk ahead of me to help the others bury the bodies. I know that Hershel wants us gone after what Shane did, but we couldn't go since it wasn't safe to go back on the road again.
" Start gatherin everyone up for the service." Daryl said once we were done getting the bodies in the ground. I brushed off the dirt that was on my hands and placed the shovel to the side.
" Me and Daryl are going to get Carol." I said as I looked over at Daryl who nodded at me.
Daryl took the lead to the RV with me following right behind him, where Carol had disappeared for hours. I still had a feeling that she was still blaming me for what happened to her little girl. But I wasn't going to let her get to me like all the others in the past. I stepped up my pace and got in front of Daryl to get to the RV first.
I climbed the RV steps and opened the door and went inside with Daryl right behind me to see Carol was sitting silently at the small table staring out the window. Daryl hopped up on top of the kitchen counter while I leaned against it. Me and Daryl just looked at her in silence for several seconds waiting for her to say something, but she didn't so I cleared my voice, " We're ready when you are," I told her and when she just shook her head no, " Carol please, we'll all be there for you." I said to insure her.
" Why?" Carol asked us as she finally looked over at us while she shrugged her shoulders.
" Cause that's your little girl." Daryl said slowly.
" That's not my little girl. That's some other…Thing. My Sophia was alone in the woods. All this time I thought…she didn't cry herself to sleep. She didn't go hungry. She didn't try to find her way back. Sophia died a long time ago." Carol said in disgust towards us.
" Carol, Sophia would've wanted you to be there for her. You're her mother and she is still your daughter. You need closure for both you and her, Please Carol." I begged her.
" I'm not going. Now please leave me alone." Carol said as she shook her head to us and looked back out the window.
I was about to say somethin else to her, but Daryl grabbed my shoulder and I turned my head to look at him, " Let her be. C'mon." Daryl said as he got off the counter and walked out of the RV. I looked back over to Carol and then I followed right behind Daryl.
We walked silently back towards the graves. I was upset at Carol for not coming to her daughter's funeral. What kind of mother wouldn't go to their own child's funeral? I just shook my head as everyone was gathering around the graves which represented Otis, Sophia, Hershel's wife and step son. I took a deep breath and stood by Daryl waiting for someone to say anything but no one did. It was just silent for a moment, then people started to leave the area till it was just me and Daryl the only ones left. Daryl then started to walk away till I turned and grabbed his arm and he turned his head to look at me, " Where are you going, Daryl?" I asked him.
" I just need to be alone for a little while, Sam. I just need to clear my head. I'll find you later, okay? Daryl said as I nodded my head and released his arm and watched him walk away. I looked back at Sophia's grave and I got down on my knees and placed my hand on the cross.
" I'm so sorry for leaving you alone. I shouldn't have left you, but you're in a better place now. Happy, hopefully. I'm going to miss you. I'll make sure that Carl is safe along with everyone else. Goodbye Sophia." I said as I placed my hand to my lips and then placed it on her cross and I got back up on my feet.
I started to head back to the house and I saw T-Dog and Andrea loading up the rest of the bodies into the back of the truck to burn them. I walked over to Andrea and helped her throw one of the bodies into the bed of the truck. I am not like her but I wasn't going to let her do this by herself, " Thanks Sam." Andrea said to me as she looked over at me.
" Just trying to help out, Andrea." I said as I looked at her but then I walked away from her so she could continue to do what she was doing. As I was walking around the camp, my eyes landed on Daryl and I noticed that he was moving his stuff away from the other but it wasn't only his stuff but mine as well,' What in the world is he doing with my stuff right now?' I thought as I walked over to him.
" Umm, Daryl? What are you doing with my things?" I asked him as I got close to him with a confused look on my face and he stopped what he was doing while looking at me.
" I'm moving your stuff with my stuff, is that a problem?" Daryl asked and I noticed that he sounded a little irritated when I asked him.
' What is wrong with him? He was fine just a moment ago.' I thought as I was even more confused.
" Daryl…I didn't even ask you to move my things for one, Two when did you decide that you were going to make decisions for me?" I asked him as I was starting to get as irritated as he was. But I think I only made him even more irritated then he was before because he forcefully dropped my stuff on the ground and started to pace back and forth.
" I don't have to ask for your permission to move your stuff, if you don't like it, tough luck. I already made the decision and you're not changing my mind." Daryl said as he stopped pacing and he grabbed my stuff and started to walk away from me but I got right in front of him and yanked some of my stuff out of one of his hands.
" You think that you could control me and tell me what I am doing to do and what not to do, just how my step father did. You got another thing coming, Daryl Dixion!" I yelled at him as I got in his face.
" Like your step father? I ain't nothin like him!" Daryl yelled as he got back in my face.
" Oh really? You think it's okay that you get to make my decisions for me. Tell me what I'm going to do, whether I like it or not. You're making a huge mistake and I love you, I really do but you're making it hard for me. I've been controlled all my life and I'm not going to let you start to do so!" I yelled as I pushed him away from me.
" You shut your fucking mouth right now girl! I'm nothing like him!" Daryl growled as he got close to me again after I pushed him.
" No Daryl! I'm not going to shut up! If you're going to do what my step father did to me! Then you are just like him and I hate it!" I screamed in his face.
" Shut up!" Daryl screamed back and the next thing I knew, I felt a sting sensation on my left cheek and I fell to the ground along with the stuff that was in my hand.
I slowly sat up and placed my hand on my cheek as tears started to go down my face, " Sam…" I heard Daryl's voice crack and I slowly looked up at him to see that he had fear in his eyes. But as I was looking at Daryl, I couldn't see Daryl in front of me anymore. All I could see was my step father with an evil look on his face and I started to back away from him in fear.
" Sam please…" Daryl said as he noticed that I was backing away from him and he started to walk towards me but I got on my feet very quickly and I took off running. I kept running till I ran into someone and I fell to the ground very hard.
" Sam? What's wrong, are you okay?" A female voice said and I looked up to see that it was Lori. And I think she noticed my tears on my face as she offered her hand to me and I accept it and she helped my off the ground and then she wiped the tears off my left cheek.
" Hey, why are you crying? What happened?" Lori asked me but all I did was look away from her so she couldn't see anymore tears going down my face.
" I just need some time alone right now. I'm fine, I promise." I said as I looked back at Lori and smiled and then I walked away from her. I kept walking till I found a tree and I sat down and I just cried my eyes out . A few hours have passed and I was a lot more calmed down and I decided to walk back to where the others were at and I also just avoided Daryl interlaly. It was starting to get really dark and I found out that Rick and Glenn left to go look for Hershel. That was when I found out about Beth going into shock. And I was starting to worry about them when they haven't made it back yet.
I saw movement from the corner of my eye and that was when I noticed that Lori was going toward a car with a map in her hands and I walked over to her, " Lori are you going after them?" I asked her as I got close to her.
" Yes, I am. We need Hershel now and they should've been back by now." Lori said as she opened the driver side door and got in the car.
" Hey Lori, wait a minute." I said which stopped her from starting the car and looking at me.
" What is it?" Lori asked me as she watched me as I walked over to where my crossbow was at and I picked it up and then I walked back over to her.
" I'm going with you." I said as I walked over to the passenger side door and I opened the door and got inside with my crossbow on my lap.
" Are you sure about this?" Lori asked me as she started up the car.
" Yes, I'm sure. Rick's in trouble and I'm wanting to help. Rick saved my life, it's my turn to do the same for him." I said as I looked over at her and gave her a small smile.
" Alright, but I think you should let someone know that your like leaving though. Like Daryl or someone else." Lori said as she looked over at me with concern in her eyes.
" I don't think we have the time to tell anyone and me and Daryl are not talking right now." I said as I looked out the window not looking at her. I could feel Lori's eyes on me for a while till she looked away from me and started to drive. As I was still looking out the window, I saw Daryl still moving stuff to his new location away from the group. A tear started to go down my face as we drove away. A few hours have passed and both me and Lori haven't said a word to each other and I looked over at Lori to see her driving while having the map out at the same time.
" Hey Lori, do you need any help?" I asked her.
" No, I got it." Lori said as she was looking at the map still while trying to drive.
" I'm just trying…" I said as I touched the map but Lori yanked it away from my hand.
" I got it Samantha!" Lori snapped at me as she turned her head to look at me.
I just looked at her and then I nodded my head to her and just as I turned my head to look at the road, I saw a walker right in the middle of the road, " Lori watch out!" I screamed as I braced for impact as Lori tried to avoid the walker.
The car flipped and when the car landed again, I hit my head against the ceiling and all I could see was darkness before I passed out.
Daryl's P.O.V
I was messing with my arrows while mentally punishing myself, 'I hit her. I fucking hit her. I'm a goddamn idiot! I'm no better than my goddamn father! I don't think she is going to come near me after this, even if she does love me.' I thought as I shook my head and I looked up to see Carol walking over to me as I threw my arrows down to the ground.
" We can't find Lori and the other's aren't back yet either." Carol said as she was trying to catch her breath when she got close to me.
" Yeah. That dumb bitch must've gone off looking for 'em." I growled as I picked up some wood and placed them into the fire that I had a blaze.
" What?" Carol asked me in shock.
" Yeah, she asked me to go. I told her I was done being an errand boy." I grunted as I turned to look at her.
" And you didn't say anything?" Carol asked me with a shocked look on her face.
I didn't even say anything as I continued on with what I was doing, " Don't do this. Please. I've already lost my girl." Carol said as she walked closer to me.
" That wasn't my problem neither." I said with anger in my voice as I turned to her and glared at her and then I walked past her.
" You acted like you didn't care!" Carol said as I turned to look at her.
" Cause I don't." I said as I growled at her and started to walk away from her again.
" Well, maybe you should." Carol said to me as she got right in front of me which stopped me in my place.
" Why's that?" I asked her as I glared at her.
" Cause Sam's missing as well." Carol whispered which made my eyes go wide.
Lori's P.O.V
I started to wake up and as my vision started to clear, I looked around in an unfamiliar place. My whole body ached and was in pain, then the memories of the crash filled my head. There was a walker in the middle of the road and I tried to miss the walker and then the car flipped. I looked over to my right, to see Sam and my breath started to quicken.
Sam was being held by the seat belt, but she was completely upside down and blood was pouring from her head.
" Sam?!" I called her. Sam was completely out. I reached over to her and placed my fingers on the side of her neck, hoping that she was alive and when I felt a pulse, I felt relief flow through me. It was faint but it was still there. I tried to reach for her seatbelt to get her down, but I couldn't even get it to click and I was getting frustrated that I couldn't even get her down.
Tears started to fill my eyes as I was looking at the girl that my husband dedicated his life to help. Here she was at the point of death and it was all my fault. I heard a moan in front of me which made me look over to see a walker grabbing a hair.
I ripped the walker's hand from my hair and I got my seatbelt off and I got out of the car hoping to keep the walker on me and keep it away from Sam. But when I fully got out of the car, the walker got right on top of me and tried to bite me. I started to reach for anything to get this walker off of me, and then my fingers touched something rough and I fully grabbed it and smashed it against its face. Killing it immediately.
I started to try and calm myself once I dropped the thing that was in my hands. I walked over to the side where Sam was at and I was about to try and find a way to get Sam out till I saw a pair of headlights coming my way. I started to feel fear build up inside me, worrying about what was about to happen to me and not only that, but I was worried about what was going to happen to Sam if I don't get help for her soon. The vehicle stopped and the door opened and the person came out of the car and it was Shane and he ran over to me.
" Are you all right?" Shane asked me as he got close to me.
" I'm fine." I said as he was looking over my injuries with a flashlight.
" You're not fine. I saw the car. Let me look at you. Oh, what happened?" Shane asked me as he looked at me.
" Was looking at the map and almost hit a walker." I said as I looked away from him and I placed my hands on my hips.
" Next time stay put, you won't need a map. Come on, I gotta get you back." Shane said as he took a hold of my hand but I ripped my hand out of his hand.
" No, we gotta help Sam. She's still in the car. She's hurt Shane. We have to find Rick." I said as I tried to go back to the car to help Sam but was stopped by Shane as he grabbed my hand again.
" He's back. They're all back. They're all safe and sound." Shane said to me which made me stop and look at him.
" Really?" I asked him with hope in my voice.
" Yeah." Shane said as he kept eye contact with me.
" Oh, thank god." I sighed in relief again.
Shane walked back over to me and tried to pull me towards the car again, " Shane stop! I'm not leaving without Sam! We have to help her!" I yelled at him trying to pull my hand out of hand but he had a grip on my hand as I got closer to the car.
" Lori, I need to take you back." Shane begged me.
" Shane, if I leave her. She will die!" I yelled as I tried to pry my hand from his grip again but he wouldn't let go.
" Daryl's right behind me, Lori. I promise that he is on his way to get Sam." Shane said which made me stop trying to get my hand out of his grip and look at him. Part of me knows that he could be lying, but I know that Daryl would come and help Sam. I got in the car with Shane getting in the car and we left. It took us 20 minutes to get back to the farm. When I arrived, I got out of the car and everyone came running towards me.
" Oh my god, are you alright? What happened?" Carol asked me.
" I was in an accident. I'm, I'm fine." I said, trying to rensher everyone.
" She got attacked." Shane said as he stood right by me.
" I'm fine, really. Hey, where's Rick?" I asked everyone as I looked around for him and no one answered me as I looked at them.
" They're not back? Where are they?" I asked everyone again and I noticed the sad looks on their eyes.
When no one answered me again I looked over at Shane and I glared at him, " Look, I had to find a way to get you back here." Shane said as he shook his head and looked at me.
" You asshole." I growled at him.
" Lori." Shane sighed as he looked at me while shaking his head.
" He's my husband." I said as I got in his face and then I pushed him away from me.
" Lori, I'll go after him. I'll find him. Hey! Now look, first things first…I gotta…I gotta look after you. I gotta make sure that the baby's all right, okay?" Shane said worriedly as he looked at me, which made my eyes go wide after what he said in front of everyone.
" You're having a baby? Why didn't you tell me?" Carl asked as he looked at me in shock. I didn't want Carl to know anything just yet but before I could talk to him. Andrea walked over to me.
" Let's make sure that you're okay." Andrea said to me as she was right by my side.
I nodded my head to her and I started to follow her towards the house until I heard the one voice that I thought Shane said was right behind him, " Hey!"
I turned my head to see Daryl stroming towards me, " Sam with you?!" Daryl asked me while yelling at me.
Then realization of what was going on hit me. I turned to look at Shane and anger started to grow inside of me that my body started to shake. I got out of Andrea's grip and I ran over to him and I punched him right in the face, " You killed her!" I yelled at him as I tried to hit him again but was pulled away from him by Maggie as tears streamed down my face.
" Calm down! Lori! Lori!" Carol yelled as she came over to me.
" What the hell is going on!" Maggie yelled once she let me go once I calmed down a little and I looked towards the others.
" Daryl, Sam's hurt! Please help her!" I begged him as I walked over to him and grabbed his arm.
" Where is she?" Daryl asked me while he glared at Shane.
" She's just off the highway!" I said as tears went down my face. Without saying another word, Daryl ran over to his bike and within seconds the sound of the motor of his bike filled the air and the headlight turned on and he took off towards where I told me to go. I was hoping that he would make it to her in time.
End of Chapter
I hope you enjoy this chapter and I'm watching the serise again while writing this and I'll have more chapters ready. Will Daryl came it to Same or will he be too late.