Author's note: Rated M+ for strong graphic sexual content.
"This world is not made for you
They're trying to catch you
Running is a victory
Run boy run! Beauty lays behind the hills"
- Woodkid
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"We're here."
That was Kenshin who just said that to me.
I open my eyes to a painfully average hotel room. Kenshin really hauled ass with that truck back there to get us here as soon as possible. I had to quite literally yell at him at a certain point to slow down and he manages to do so the closer we got to our final destination. As much as I enjoy him when he gets physically wild in bed, it scares me when that same energy is carried out outside of the bedroom. I know what I've signed up for when I agreed to be his boyfriend, but sometimes, his antics scares me.
Regardless.. I'm happy that I'm out of that place and here with him instead.
I take a few steps forward, looking around. The hotel Kenshin decides to rent out for us this weekend is incredibly plain and a little on the smaller side. Not to mention, it is located quite far away from both of our respective homes, in order to retain as much privacy as possible. Everything happened so quickly tonight, that I'm feeling a bit dizzy from it all. I stand near the bed, looking at it for a couple of moments before gingerly sitting down on it with an uneasy grunt. I don't know how I am supposed to feel right now. On one hand, I'm glad I get to get away from my father and be here with Kenshin. But on the other hand, I know that I've officially opened Pandora's box, and so much is about to change for me.
Kenshin watches me as I tinker these thoughts inside my head. He quietly and deliberately walks towards me and sits down next to me, rubbing his hand on my back. He leans his cheek against the side top of my head, mumbling under his breath, "Are you okay, hon?"
I nod, whispering back, "Yeah. I'm just.. I'm just a bit at a loss for words right now."
He is quiet for a moment before chuckling, "Yeah. Tonight was fucking insane. But.. we did it. We got you out of there. Aren't you happy?"
I sigh, "Yeah. I am. I just need a moment."
"Sure," He wraps his arms around me to give me a squeeze, "I gotta call Aoshi and see what's up with them. Do you need anything?"
I gulp, "Bathroom."
I feel sick all of a sudden.
He unwraps his arms away from me so that I can stand up from the bed, his hands on my body to help me over the wobbliness of my legs. He is frowning at me in concern but I disarm him with a weak smile, as if telling him that I am going to be okay. He watches me intently as I anxiously make my way towards a door that leads to the bathroom, closing the door behind me. I turn on the lights and can see that there is a stand in shower, a sink for one person, and a toilet. Again, completely and painfully average.
I rush towards the toilet and kneel before it, grabbing the sides of the seating as I start to breathe in and out deeply. My hands are starting to shake. I did it. I completely disobeyed my father in a way that I've never done before in my life. I've finally rebelled against him in a way that I know I can never take back, even if I regret it later on. This is it. The course of my life and my future as I know it will change forever. I can't go back.
I can't..
...
"Haurgh," I dry heave into the toilet, feeling something coming up along with the sting of hot tears in my eyes from that, "Mmh.."
I manage to spit something out, before taking another deep breath. Okay. It's fine. I'm fine. I'm going to be okay.
"Soujiro?" I hear his voice on the other side of that door, "Are you alright?"
I groan, "Yeah.. I'm okay. I'm so sorry."
He is quiet for a moment before I hear him again, "Can I come in?"
I hesitate where I am kneeling over, swallowing another wad of saliva that feels like vomit. I nod and reply, "Y-yeah.."
He silently opens the door and watches me where I am at, walking over slowly so as to not overexcite me or make me too nervous. Once he is standing over me, he crouches down on his knees to once again rub my upper back with his hand gently. We look at each other carefully, and everything feels too quiet for my taste. I heave once, and then shut my eyes to swallow whatever that was down. Kenshin takes his time to formulate his thoughts after witnessing that carefully, trying to not rouse anything too much so as to accidentally throw me over the edge.
"Aoshi said they found a lot of.. bad things from that company," Kenshin gulps, trying to smile but it looks too jittery for my taste, "He and Shakku are going to compile it all and have us look over it maybe on Sunday, if you're okay with that."
My lower lip trembles slightly at that news, but never the less, I sigh, "Okay. I.. kinda knew they would say that."
His hand that was on my upper back now moves towards my shoulder blade to give it a comforting squeeze, "Do you wanna take a shower with me? You look pale. Maybe the hot water will calm you down."
"Kenshin.." I whisper, feeling my sides trembling in warning now, "I feel.. so scared.. why?"
He looks into my eyes in ill ease, "I guess.. because you know this is the end of your old life."
I exhale, looking back into the toilet, and manage to spit out some more saliva. I really want to throw up now. Kenshin is right. This is the end of my old life as I know it. Once Aoshi and Shakku shows us what exactly my father has been doing this entire time, my whole world will crumble down into pieces. I already know that my dad has been doing some shady business on the down low. I know that it involves the lives of innocent children. But yet, a part of me wanted it all to be fake so that I can keep up with this charade. I wanted things to still continue, so that I can still have it all: the wealth, the glory, the acceptance from a father who can give his son the ultimate future, if only his son can promise him in return a legacy in the form of biological grandchildren.
And on the side.. sex with men. Or, since I'm now in love, sex with one man, who is kneeling down next to me.
Kenshin..
"Come on," Kenshin helps me stand up from the floor now, "Let's take a shower."
I look at him, at a loss for words. But there's really nothing else to add anymore, now is there? I nod and he leads us both towards the walk in shower, which is not as fancy as the ones that I am used to, but at least it has enough space to hold us both in at the same time. I am mute as Kenshin helps me out of my clothes before he undresses in front of me, and as he keeps his eyes on me.. I evade his eyes by looking at the floor instead.
It's honestly crazy how strong he is, despite what Aoshi probably told him on the phone already. I should take it as something to comfort me right now, in the midst of this inner storm brewing inside of me. Right now, Kenshin is my rock in my time of trouble.
I just wish I could be as strong as he is.
He turns on the water and it feels deliciously soft and hot against my skin. I sigh. Maybe he's right. Maybe a shower is exactly what I need right now. It's not that either of us are dirty right now, but letting the water melt the stress away is what will help us right now. That, and the nausea, of course. Kenshin embraces me as the water washes us both, and I worry that this is going to ruin the bandages on his face.
"Kenshin, your face," I lean back to take a look at his right now, "Won't the water mess up the bandages?"
He shrugs, grinning, "It's whatever. I packed extra ones in my own bag. And there's a convenience store not too far from us if I need anything else. We'll be alright."
I have to wonder how the stitches look under those bandages. They're probably waterproof, since they're clinging on for dear life despite the hot water pouring in on them. He wastes no time in turning me around so that he can give me a massage, which is really too much at this point; he has done so much for me already, in just the span of under twenty-four hours, that to have him now give me a massage to get me to calm down is making me feel guilty more so than relieved.
"You really.. don't have to do this, you know," I grunt, though I can feel myself relaxing happily as he applies pressure on my shoulder blades with his hands, "Kenshin.."
He is quiet for a moment, concentrating on this task at hand, but then he responds happily, "I don't mind! I thought you looked stressed out, so I wanted to make you feel good. You don't have to be shy with me, Soujiro. I'm your boyfriend, remember?"
I blush, gulping. That's right. I'm his boyfriend. Of course. He continues this for the next several minutes, and I hate to admit it, but I am starting to feel a lot better. The water combined with his massaging is helping me to let the tension go, bit by bit, until I finally sigh deeply and contently. At that sound, Kenshin gently slaps his hands on my shoulder blades, beaming, "There, much better! I'm gonna go see if the TV in the room works. Do you want to stay here for a while longer, Soujiro, or do you want to come out?"
I chuckle casually, "Nah. You go on ahead, I'll catch up in a bit. The water feels too nice to leave."
He laughs, "Alright. I'll bet out there waiting."
Before I realize, I'm all alone in that shower stall. The water continues to come down hard on my skin, and I close my eyes with a relaxed sigh. This is just what I need, honestly. As the water continues to wash through my hair, I let myself contemplate on what the future will hold. Now that Aoshi, Shakku, and a couple of their friends infiltrated my father's company database system, whatever it was that he was hiding from the world, has now come to light. Once my father realizes that I'm not home, though, he will surely start to blow my phone up.
Which can only mean that I will be able to threaten to out him for his crimes. I have just what I need to control him rather than letting him control me or Kenshin. I ought to thank Kenshin and his crew for what they've come up with today. It is thanks to what happened tonight, that I am going to be guaranteed a life uninterrupted with Kenshin Himura. I get to date him freely, so long as I have the intel to ruin my father's life with. I can just be who I am without any fear. My dad would know better than to mess with me now.
I turn off the water now. I wonder what Kenshin is watching right now. He did a great job riling my father up tonight during dinner, really; I ought to thank him for that. I step out of the shower stall and grab the complimentary towels to dry myself off. The humidity of the water has fogged over the mirrors now, and I wipe it with my hand to look at my face. I think I look fine, for what is worth. I dry my hair with another smaller towel to get it at least semi-damp. I see, on the floor near the door, my pajama set. Kenshin must've snuck it in there while I was lost in thought in the shower. I smirk.
I think I'll just walk out wearing nothing at all.
I open the door, the steam of the heat pouring out from the bathroom and into the bedroom. This hotel room has a hallway that leads into a small kitchen, but other than that, it feels like a cramped apartment. Not that I mind, of course. I like being as close to Kenshin as possible. He is lying on the bed, which thankfully has more than enough space for the both of us to sleep in together, and is now watching TV. He seems to have put a movie on to watch out of sheer boredom, and I hear the dialogue of the film as I walk at a leisure pace towards him, my eyes squarely on his face. He turns his face before his eyes did, and upon seeing me completely naked, his eyes travel from my crotch before sailing all the way up. Once it lands on my face, though, his eyebrow cocks up questionably, and I bite down a giggle at that.
"You didn't see your clothes in the bathroom?" He asks, chuckling under his breath.
I don't respond as I continue to come up towards where he is lying now, my eyes still on his face. He looks up at me, still confused.
"I'm still kind of wet, so I'll put them on when I'm all dry," I shrug with one shoulder casually before turning over my shoulder to look at the screen, "What in the world are you watching?"
"Oh. It's a movie. Constantine, I think it's called."
I turn back to him, "How's your face?"
"Hm?" His eyes are back on that television screen, "Oh. Yeah. It's alright. It doesn't hurt."
I am silent as I watch him. I'm not sure why, but I don't like that he's watching TV now while my emotions are still in a fray from all that's happened tonight. But that's okay. I'll show him who's more important than a stupid movie. At that thought, I crouch over to start kissing his cheek, which makes him stiffen from that contact alone. I keep kissing random spots on his face and he slowly turns his face towards me, which grants me access to his lips with my own.
"Soujiro..?" He mumbles, touching my cheek with his hand gently, "Are you feeling better now?"
I nod with a hum and I continue to kiss him, to which he thankfully lets me. Our sighs and moans are quiet in contrast to the louder sounds coming from the television set, and I have to wonder how thin the walls of this hotel room is. With the rooms we used to stay in together, I always made sure that the walls were soundproof so that we can be as loud as we want without worrying about the consequences. But I'm not stupid. I know that with cheaper things comes with inferior design, so I know I have to be very careful now.
I lean away from him and climb onto the bed, mounting myself on top of him with my face near his crotch and my ass pointing right towards his head. Sometime during my showering, Kenshin has put on his cozy lounge wear that consists of a dark t-shirt and long sweatpants. I guess he thought we'd be exhausted and would retire into bed early, so of course he would put on this movie so that I can maybe fall asleep to it. It's actually kind of sweet that he would think that.
But he's wrong. I'm too much of a sex crazed nympho to want to go to bed so soon.
"Ah, wait, Soujiro, I.." He has his hands on my hips to steady me as I busy myself with untying the strings of his sweatpants now, "Are you.. sure you want to..?"
I nod, "Mm hmm. I do."
I can feel his body stiffening up again, along with something else. Something that I am desperate to get to as I finally pull down his sweatpants to reveal his hardening cock right in front of my face. At the risk of sounding like a cheap slut, I've had my share of dicks over the years. But none of them could compare to this beauty right here. It's just the right size and thickness. The lightest fuzz of red hair on his pelvic area adds such a cute touch, that it drives me insane with desire every time I see it. And not to mention how amazing it tastes in my mouth.
"I propose a challenge tonight," I announce, my breath hitting against his cock which makes it twitch and grow harder by the second, "We're going to make each other cum just with our mouths."
"S.. Soujiro," He sounds desperate to have an orgasm already, gripping the sides of my hips, "Are you sure about this?"
I look over his shoulder pointedly, growling, "Don't tell me you want to watch that stupid movie instead!"
He gapes at me dumbly for a second before chuckling, "No no, I want to do you, it's just.."
I find the remote control of the TV and look at the buttons on it. Upon finding the mute button, I point it towards the screen and hit it so that the sounds are cut off before I angrily throw the remote to the side. It hits against a table, and I don't know why, but that made Kenshin flinch, probably in awe of my sudden aggressive behavior. I scoff at that thought before leaning in to start licking his cock, starting from the base and traveling up towards the head, as slowly as I possibly can. At that, he tenses up again, quickly exhaling in surprise from that action alone.
"Fuck.." He whispers, rubbing his hands over my buttocks. I moan at that, spreading my legs out so that he has an idea of what I want from him; he readjusts his lying position and lifts my lower body closer to his face so that he can start eating me out, his tongue deliciously tantalizing against my hole. I sigh, my body shivering at the feeling of his wet tongue poking and probing my hole.
I move my lips slowly to another side of his cock before dragging my tongue from the base all the way up to the tip of his head. I am very slow with my movements as I do this, relishing the way he tastes, the way he stiffens at my tongue, and the way he groans under his throat. I am back to the base and am now in another side of his cock and I repeat this, again, being as deliberate and measured as I possibly can. I want to coax his orgasm to come slowly so that it will crush him once it arrives, no matter how long it'll take to get here.
I move his cock with my hand so that my mouth can face the front of it now, and again, drag my tongue from the bottom to the top. He meanwhile forces his tongue into my hole, moaning as I also exhale in pleasure from that. I honestly want to believe that he hasn't ate anyone else like this before, but I know he's had a promiscuous past before me. And I can't really fault him or be a hypocrite about it either, thanks to my own checkered past. I guess I should be happy that he's so talented with his tongue because this feels so fucking unbelievable. I wonder if I can cum through just my ass being ate out like this?
I moan as I tilt my head to the side and open my lips so that my mouth and tongue, completely drenched in my saliva, take hold of his cock lightly and merely move my face from side to side, not really taking his entire dick into my mouth but just enough so so that I can hear him whining either in impatience or in pleasure. Or both. He's probably wondering what I'm doing to him that I'm not doing my usual deepthroating crap. Again, I just want to coax his orgasm to come as slowly as possible.
"Soujiro..!" He whimpers pathetically as he buckles his hip upwards in some feeble attempt to get me to suck his dick like normal, "What are.. what are you doing?"
I let go of his dick with a smirk, kissing the skin before responding seductively, "I'm trying to torture you, silly. You've been a bad boy and I need to punish you."
He starts whining again before groaning, "What? Whyyy? I did everything for you tonight!"
I start to giggle and decide to just ignore him before carrying on my torture session. My mouth and tongue are barely grasping his cock as I move up and down slowly, letting my tongue slide on the sides of his dick gently as he continues to take in sharp breathes with each consecutive movement. I make sure to keep moaning and sighing so that the air and vibrations make this feel even more pleasurable for him, but not enough so that he can cum as quickly as he likes. I keep doing this for at least another minute or so before I lean back to look directly at the head of his cock, taking the base of it in one hand and rubbing the slit of his head with one finger. In one delicate movement, I thrust my fingertip into the slit, coating it with his precum.
Though Kenshin tries his best, he keeps twitching and protesting helplessly, opting to eat my ass out more intensely in a vague attempt to get me to suck on his cock like normal, to no avail. I'm not letting up so easily tonight. I want to watch him fucking explode tonight.
"How dare you come into my house tonight, looking so damn good, and then acting like an asshole to my father? Disrespecting his home and his family like that? Unbelievable." I angle my mouth over the head of his cock, taking two fingers to separate the slit so that I can protrude my tongue into it. At that, Kenshin whines louder.
"Fuuuuck," He moans, "Soujiro, not.. arrgh!"
I stop doing so, just so I can tilt his cock forward into me and have a look at his frenum and sigh into it, "This right here.. is my favorite part of the cock."
I start tonguing that sensitive area, and Kenshin finally has had enough and smacks my ass in retaliation, making me cry out in surprise. I whip my head around to glare at him, and he starts gnawing on my ass cheek, making me gripe, "Kenshin!"
"You started it! What you're doing feels so.. so..!"
"Good?" I moan seductively, going back to my work as I start to kiss and suckle on his frenum hungrily, making him also moan in ecstasy, "Someone told me that you got arrested when you were younger because you stole food from a grocery store. Is that true?"
"I.. I.. yes!"
"Bad boy." I chide him playfully before heading back down to the base of his cock to start rubbing my lips and tongue in an eating motion, making sure I hide my teeth from this so as to not hurt him. I move up slowly as I continue to gnaw on him and slobbering my tongue over the skin, saliva overflowing and pouring down all over his pelvic area and his balls. He starts to groan louder and humping his hips upward, though he knows that I won't stop this bullshit and he's slowly getting with the program with the way he tries to bite down his whiny noises now.
"What else did you do before you met me?" I am now back up where his head is at, slapping my tongue over it in all directions softly, "Hmm?"
He exhales sharply at that, gripping my hips helplessly, "I broke curfew a bunch of times.. mmm.."
I start to suckle on the head of his cock languidly, saliva pooling out from the bottom of my lip, "Mm hmm. What else?"
"Arrgh, fuck! Me and my friends did egging and we TP-ed a teacher's house before.. hah, shit!"
I suckle on his head more intensely but not necessarily harder. He is withering and sounds like he's dying at this point. But never the less, he continues with his confessions in between sighing and moaning: "I got suspended a lot.. I ran away from home for days at a time.. I was drinking and vomiting on people's properties.. had the cops chase after me and manage to get away from them.. I was smoking before I turned sixteen..!"
"God," I moan, licking his head casually now while shaking my head, "You really are a menace to society, aren't you? I'm doing the right thing here tonight punishing you like this, then, wouldn't you agree?"
"Haah! Soujiro.. I..!" He grabs my hair and shoves it downward clumsily, thinking I'll somehow give him his relief with a deepthroat so that he can finally cum, but all it did was make my face meet his inner thigh only, "Please... enough already.."
"Bad boy!" I growl before biting his inner thigh gently but with enough firmness so that he can let go of my hair. He decides to just gently comb through my hair while I go back with licking the sides of his dick slowly and softly, and I suppose he's resolved to just let me what I needed to do to him. Between his sighing and quiet moaning, my mouth and tongue are creating loud squelching sounds as I am licking, suckling, and gnawing on his cock between my lips. His body keeps quivering through every new move I do with my "fake" blowjob since he is not able to look and see what I'm doing to him.
It makes this experience all the more intense for him.
I am back on the head of his cock, suckling on the side of it while I am rubbing three fingers on the base of it. I can feel the cum swimming through the veins where my fingers are lying on, and I know his orgasm is almost here. I moan as I feel Kenshin going back to eating my ass out, and I lie my hands and kneecaps on the mattress to levitate my body up from his to carefully lean backwards. I lift my upper body up so that I am in an upright sitting position, but making sure I keep my lower body raised somewhat so I don't crush his face from my weight; I really don't feel like going to the hospital by re-breaking his nose or doing anything detrimental to his healing.
I let the back of my head fall back and my mouth hang open, eyes fluttering closed in sheer pleasure from his tongue fucking my ass now. God, this feels incredible. I love having sex with Kenshin so much, it's unreal. I've had a good time with other guys back then, but for some reason, Kenshin is the first and only guy I've been with who really goes up and beyond with his performances in bed. I feel like we're extremely compatible because of this. We do get along outside of the bedroom, don't get me wrong. But being with him sexually always makes me wonder if there really is a God out there, because otherwise, I have no way of explaining the miraculous pleasures I experience with Kenshin that feels cosmic or other-worldly.
After a few moments of this, I lean back down attentively to my resumed position so that I can go back to slobbering all over his dick. I take the other side of his dick with my lips and tongue and continue the eating motion with it, again, making sure to hide my teeth so that I don't hurt him. I am near the top of his dick before my tongue sticks out and I merely move my face side to side, reaching the head before I open my mouth a little wider so that I can just let my tongue dance over it haltingly. Saliva continues to pool out of my mouth, completely coating his dick with it.
"God.." I hear him moan and my eyes flicker backwards in bliss from that.
"So," I sigh, whispering in between licking and suckling his cock, "Do you get it yet? That I have to do this to you, you low life thug? I'm the nice boy here.. you should be thankful that I'm helping you out like this.."
He moans and sighs in return, "Yeah.."
I endure with this happily, now really focusing the head of his cock with vigor and focusing the tip of my tongue against the opening slit. Kenshin remains eating me out while pushing his hips upwards in steady, hypnotic thrusts to go along with my snail speed licking. He seems to finally get where I'm going with this, and I can even feel his tongue going through my hole softer and slower than before, which seems to create a very mouthwatering feeling for me. I groan helplessly against his cock at this, one hand leisurely fondling his balls, and the other rotating around the base to coax the semen through.
I travel down to the side again, really sucking hard at this point and going faster with my hand around his pelvic area, when suddenly, I feel his body stiffening and he gasps in intervals. In a few heated seconds, I feel something hot and wet splashing on the side of my face and hair, and his hands gripping my hair passionately as he hides his face against the pillow behind him to muffle out his cries of rapture. His cum continues to spurt out off and on from the head of his cock, and I hurriedly come up to place my mouth on it to drink it, moaning with euphoria.
"God!" He yelps against the pillow still and I groan in joy, his cum sliding down my throat, "Fuck!"
"Mmm, Kenshin.." I finally come up with a sigh, licking the head to clean it up some more. More new cum keeps oozing out from the slit to which I happily take it all in into my mouth. My hands grip his cock to squeeze it up to make sure I am able to take in all that's left of him. He is shivering and groaning helplessly meanwhile, his body in the throes of the after effects of his orgasm that I lovingly gave him only mere seconds ago.
Once I am sure I got the very last drop out of him, I get off from him and turn around to face him, no doubt half of my face and hair completely drenched in his cum. He is watching me with astonishment, reaching out to touch my waist as if he was an avid traveler who has finally reached the top of a great mountain and discovered an ancient miracle of some sort. We are both breathing in and out deeply, drinking in each other's eyes and wanting this night of passion to continue.
...
Actually, I take it back.
Fuck God.
This is better than Him and heaven combined.
"Out of all the bad things you've done so far," My voice is breathy with carnal longing, "The worst you've done so far.. is the fact that you're here.. fucking the CEO's son."
He sits up by his elbows and growls, "Yeah? And what are you gonna do about that?"
I move in and climb over him so that my ass sits on his chest and my kneecaps are under his arms, before I grab the top of his head and taking the base of my cock to shove it into his mouth. I groan in lasciviousness as he takes it in without struggle and starts to suck on my cock, and I steadily start to thrust my hips in and out.
"I'm going to fuck your face, of course," I sigh, tilting my head back as a shiver runs down my back from his suckling, "Finger my ass. Hurry."
He wastes no time in taking one hand to grab my ass cheek to pull it apart, and the other hand to start fingering me without abandon. I start moaning wantonly and without a care in the world, deciding that I don't care who hears me anymore. Nobody knows us here. I'm fretting over nothing. I'm free now! I'm free to do whatever I want! I can do and be who I want, at long last! It's all thanks to this redheaded boy who's giving me indulgence beyond my wildest imagination.
"Are you willing to do whatever I ask you to, Kenshin? Huh? Are you going to do whatever it takes to make me happy?" My voice sounds so strangely high to go with the mind numbing pleasure I'm experiencing inside my body now, but I don't care. I feel amazing.
He moans but manages to hum positively at that, to agree with my questions. He begins to finger me deeper and faster while I keep thrusting into his face, saliva now pooling over the corner of my mouth. I must look like an insatiable slut right now, but still, I don't care. My mind is hazing over with my senses goes into overdrive. Every time we have sex, I swear we try to take things to the next level; how do we make each other cum faster? How do we make it come harder? Make it feel better than the last time?
It's all too much..!
"Haaah!" I finally exhale as my body convulses, arching my back as I cum into his mouth, and I grip his hair to steady myself as I continue to tremble from my orgasm. All the while, Kenshin grabs my hip as he is forced to drink in my cum, a first for him. I continue to gasp and shiver as the last spurts of my cum leaves my body and I carefully sit on his chest completely, his fingers slowly leaving my asshole carefully. I look down and gingerly take my cock out of his mouth and he immediately goes into a coughing fit, some of the cum splattering on my stomach.
"Kenshin?!" I jump up and take his face into my hands, "Are you alright?"
He coughs a couple of times, nodding, "Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.. holy shit."
I blink, brows furrowing and I start to chuckle, "Oh man. I'm so sorry. That was your first time, huh?"
He sneers at me and coughs a few more times, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He doesn't reply to me, but I waste no time in getting off of him and help him sit up straighter, rubbing my hand on his back to make sure he feels comfortable. Finally, he takes a deep breath and snickers, "Was I good at it, at least?"
"Dude," I giggle, "You're amazing at what you do. And you swallowed it like a champ. You'll get used to it."
"Fuck you," He sighs, "Goddamn, that was awesome, but now I'm beat."
I also sigh but with a more happier note to it, "Yeah. I'm going to wash up if you'd like to join me."
He looks at me now, with an expression that I'm not sure I'm able to read. Does he want to tell me something? Do I seriously look that unhinged with all this cum on my face and hair? I frown at him, silently asking him what the hell he's looking at, but he swiftly pushes me onto my back, taking me by surprise.
"K-Kenshin?" I grab him by the upper arms, "What are you—"
He cuts me off by kissing me on the lips, despite the mess on my face. I struggle and writhe under his passion and he takes the hint after a moment of that by pulling away, both of us already out of breath, "Soujiro.."
"At least.. let me wash my face first.. you horn dog," I pant, my cheeks feeling warm again from blushing, "There's so much cum on my face."
He groans and leans away to start taking his shirt off completely before using it gently wipe my face and hair with it. I am stunned into silence as he does this, completely in awe that he's willing to use his shirt like this. He must really want to go for another round with me tonight. He throws the shirt away on the side carelessly before taking off his boxers and sweatpants completely, getting himself in the nude for my viewing pleasure. I groan under my breath at the sight of his body before he goes back in to attack my mouth with his, his tongue massaging my own with acuteness.
I don't know how or why, but I'm overcome with the desire to start lifting my legs up and take my ankles towards the sides of my head, my hands then sliding down towards my ass cheeks to spread them out. Kenshin moans in pleasure at this sight, maneuvering himself so that he can take his cock and starts to masturbate near my gaping hole to get himself rock hard again.
"It's so pink." He sighs with lust.
I sneer, "You're disgusting."
"You're the one showing me your hole like this, you fucking whore."
I whine, "Shut up and put it in already."
He sighs deeper as he thrusts himself into me, "God..!"
I exhale in pleasure as the inside of my body is widened from that action, my hole constricting and already pulsating to welcome in his girth. I honestly think Kenshin has ruined me at this point. There will never be anyone else who can make me feel like this again. It only strengthens my resolve to stay with him for life because of this. He is the only one for me, and I belong to him completely. We just fit together so perfectly. I don't care who would feel envious about me saying that; if anything, it only feeds my ego, and I'm glad people would hate me for finding love like this.
It just feels so good to be selfish for once.
He starts fucking my ass hard, and I stare ahead at the ceiling above me in a lust filled daze. I don't think I've ever salivated as much as I have tonight, the way it keeps pooling out of my mouth once again. Every time he thrusts into me completely, I groan and whine in a higher pitch, spit now covering the side of my jawline. Kenshin keeps impaling himself into me while I see his eyes going out of focus now, opting to shut them close completely to focus on giving me pleasure instead. He finally manages to hit my prostate and I groan in bliss, whispering to him to keep hitting it there as he complies happily.
"I've got a new assignment for you this weekend," I suspire deeply in lewdness, "Just dump all of your cum in me. All of it. Every last drop. Do you hear me?"
He whines, grabbing my outer thighs to start pounding into me as the sound of skin slapping against skin is heard in this entire room, "Yeah.. Fuck..!"
I grit my teeth and shut my eyes from the pounding, groaning helplessly. My stomach is doing flips from the intensity of this moment. We've always had rough sex, but tonight feels different than all the others. It's almost as if we are celebrating our newfound freedom with each other and going all out this time. Back then, we had to keep everything a secret. Back then, what we had was illicit and something to keep quiet from all the others. But tonight.. just for tonight.. we can just act like we own the world instead of it owning us. Just for tonight, we are going to be brave and happy and fulfilled.
We deserve that.
We've earned it!
I start to laugh under my breath. This feels too good. I'm losing it. I look at Kenshin who now has his eyes open again, watching me intently and I can't help but keep giggling. I can feel the familiar waves of an impending orgasm rising inside of me. I keep my hands on my ass cheeks to spread them so that he can plunge himself deeper and harder into my hole. My giggle starts to quiet down and I decide to just look at him, trying to titillate him with my eyes and my smile. The only sounds I'm making at this point are high pitch inhaling and exhaling, since I can't help it with the way he's going at it through my hole.
"Oh, God.." Kenshin's eyes roll in the back of his head at my facial expression, now rolling his hips into my hole now, creating a brand new sensation that makes me gasp in pleasure.
"Oh Kenshin.." I gasp, "For fuck's sakes.. please.. just for me? Cum. Please cum. Cum for me. Cum in me. I want your cum, give me your c.."
"Arrgh!" His shoulders starts to quiver and leans right on top of me now, still plummeting himself into me. The ceiling above me starts to produce stars before my very eyes, but I try to stay calm. I let my eyes fall upon the side his face, seeing his eyes still shut as he gripes and groans with all that's going on. He looks so beautiful when he's on edge like this, I swear. His skin that now gleams against his alabaster skin.. the fiery red hair that could only match the fiery passion I feel inside of me for him.. his lavender eyes that always has my breath hitching at the very sight of it..
He leans away to look at my face, admiring my own beauty too. The bed is groaning from Kenshin's pounding, but with where we're positioned at right now, it thankfully isn't letting the headboard bang against the wall from behind. We don't need people complaining about the noise, as much as we wish we could be as loud as we want. We watch each other raptly for a few moments, and I don't know how, but something tells me to close my eyes and open my mouth, so I do; Kenshin groans as I do these actions and he arches forward, gently spitting into my mouth, the saliva hitting against my tongue. I swallow it down my throat gradually, moaning as I do so.
I open my eyes to look at him again, and he looks like he's ready to explode again. It's my time to shine again. I lean in to lick the inside of his ear, breathing deeply into it as I feel his body stiffen from that, "Baby, cum for me. This is mine. Miiiine. Mine. Mine. Your cum is mine. Oh god, please. Give this to me."
"I'm going to—" He thrusts one last time as hard and as deep as he can, finally cumming into my ass, biting the mattress next to my ear to cover his cries of pleasure. I grab his shoulder blades meanwhile as I also cum, crying out in pleasure. He keeps grinding into me despite his cum ending, just to make sure he can get it up inside of me as deep as it can go. I can feel my hips swerving against his in time of his own hips grinding downwards, clawing his back as my mind swims from the everlasting heat that surrounds us.
He and I take our time coming down from our high, and he leans back to carefully pull his dick out of my ass. I still have my ass lifted and spread with my hands, trying to steady myself so that I don't fall or topple over. There is a massive amount of cum coating his dick as well as around my hole, and he wipes his cock with his fingers to then finger it back into my hole. I can feel the pulls of a smile overcoming my face, my eyelids lowering darkly. He understands the assignment perfectly.
He's going to give me all of his cum to me this weekend.
I can't wait.
"Such a good boy.." I mumble, licking my bottom lip as he slowly takes his fingers out of my ass.
He shakes his head, flicking the sweaty bangs out of his face in one quick swoop, "Man, that was.. I think this is our best sex yet."
"I know!" I whisper, eyes widening in emphasis, before leaning my head back all the way down on the mattress to catch my breath. I can feel him eyeing my hole and making sure to keep swooping any leftover cum that keeps try to ooze out with his fingers, which in return makes me writhe a tad, "Hard getting everything back in, huh?"
"Uh huh. Which is why," He grabs a large pillow to help me keep me elevated and my ass pointing towards the ceiling while my hands grab my ankles on each side of my head, "You stay like this for a few more minutes while I finish watching the rest of that movie."
I scoff, "What! Himura, don't!"
He laughs, "Sorr-eee! You don't wanna make a mess on the bed, now do you? You said you wanted all my cum, well then, that's what you get. Stay like this, alright?"
I snarl in annoyance as he moves away from me and walk around the bed to retrieve that damn remote control, turning the sound back on the TV. I could start screaming, but I know it would only attract unwanted attention from other people next door, so I hold still and keep quiet instead. Much to my fucking annoyance, of course. Kenshin chuckles to himself as he walks back around the mattress at my face, before lying back down on the mattress away from me to continue watching the film.
I turn my head to look at the television screen, which is basically right in front of me, and decide to just watch the movie with him. It was nearing towards the end now, anyway. We have the rest of the weekend to enjoy having more sex or cuddling, so I guess this isn't so bad. It took around ten minutes before Kenshin comes back to check in on me, and he helps me get up from the bed, before we head off into the shower to wash up and get ready for bed.
We are now in the shower stall together. It doesn't have any fancy ceiling attached shower heads, or even a place for any of us to sit on, but it's fine. I probably sound like a snobby piece of shit for all the things I keep noticing about this hotel room, but I guess it can't be helped. I was raised in luxury and it's something I really enjoy. It's something that I am keeping in the back of my head, as well; when I finally take down my father and the enterprise, where would that leave me, financially speaking? It's possible I could sue him to high heavens for all the crimes he's done against me, but I don't think I'll be able to enjoy the social life of a billionaire's son anymore.
But maybe that won't matter in the grand scheme of things. Maybe I was never meant to be rich forever. Being rich meant I had to play a part that wasn't me at all. I tried my damnest to ignore my natural inclinations, but all it did was made me miserable. I only like men and that's never going to change. I am never going to find women attractive, no matter how hard I try, or how much I prayed for it happen. Only the Gods above me know of how much I wanted that to change, to appease the world around me. When I tried to have sex with that girl years ago, it was difficult for me to even start getting hard. I was so embarrassed, and she tried to laugh it off, but I wanted to just die right there. Die or at least yell at her to stop laughing at me.
I could have done anything to change. But change never happened.
I watch Kenshin as he suds us both up with soap to wash our bodies, his hair now a dark blood red against alabastrine skin. The sex we had tonight felt extremely intense, and he's trying his hardest to wash us both thoroughly. I smirk to myself, shaking my head. I have faith that he will always take care of me, no matter how hard the shit will hit the fan soon. I'm more concerned on how the psychological impact this entire situation will have on his mind, since it's clear he hasn't exactly lived an easy life. It's something we have in common for the most part, and something that makes intimacy between us easier.
He rinses us both off and he places his hands on my shoulder caps, looking at my body intently before slowly descending towards the floor until his kneecaps slap against the tiles. He embraces my middle towards him, and I look at him, blinking in confusion.
"Kenshin?"
He doesn't respond at first, the water loud in our eardrums. Soon, he looks up from where he sits at me and, with moony eyes and blushing cheeks, mumbles, "Soujiro.. I absolutely.. adore you so much."
"H-huh?" I blink rapidly, my face feeling hotter than before. Where did that come from?
His eyes waver before he shuts them close, going back to hugging me again. We're quiet for a while, but he suddenly mumbles again, "I worship you so much, Soujiro. Making love to you always feels amazing and out of this world. Please.. please.. if there's anything I can do for you.. anything at all.."
I gape at him, stunned into silence as he takes his sweet time to look back up again, his face the most beautiful I've ever seen before in his earnest declarations of love and worship towards me. We look at one another, suspended in this situation that separates us from the rest of the world, in a sphere of ultimate devotion and obsession, and right now.. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to answer him right now, when I feel so vulnerable like this.
But, he wastes no time finishing his thought as it escapes his lips: "Please, just let me know. Right now. I'll do anything for you. Anything at all."
The water drips from my eyelashes down my cheeks, and I can feel my heartbeat rising faster at the sight below me. It is the kind of thing you would see depicted in old world history art, where one subject is at the mercy of the other, and where usually you would witness angels or other biblical creatures surrounding them. I could answer him with something positive and make the angels above us sing, or something horrible and drive us into damnation for life. What should I do? What can I say?
Finally, in a moment of bravery, my teeth grit and I gripe from where I stand, the angels halting and watching: "Don't talk to Kaoru until I am over everything."
...
What?
Where did that come from?
Kaoru?
Why did she.. popped up inside my mind all of a sudden?
Kenshin's eyes widen at that, and his lower lip drifts from his upper lip in surprise. Even I'm shocked at the words that decided to leave my own desperate lips. But I know it has to be for a reason. What we shared tonight, was different from all the rest. I can feel it. From this point on, there will be a lot of changes in both of our lives. Yet, I can't help but think the past might come back to trample us in some way. I can't help but think Kenshin might make a mistake in trying to mend both the past and the future together when it's just not possible.
Because..
Because..
Basically..
...
I am afraid.
I am afraid that seeing Kaoru again, will remind him of a life that was simpler for him. A time in his life when things didn't felt so hard. When he was once younger and had nothing to keep him up at night. Kaoru was with him when he was growing up, along with all of his other friends who never had to fuck him just to make him feel devoted to them. All of that is gone now because of me. Because of what we have. Because of our love.
I am so afraid of being left behind.
Kenshin grunts and isn't sure on how to respond to that at first. The water continues to wash over us idly, blissfully unaware of what is unfolding between the two of us. It is times like this when I wish I could have been born as something else. A feeling, an object, an animal, anything but a mere mortal who is subjected to the cruelties of a society that cannot accept when someone is born differently than all the rest. How I wish I could be the water that washes over us instead of being a boy withholding such enormous secrets inside his heart.
How I wish my life could be so simple.
Kenshin finally gets up, grunting a little as his knees feels heavy from exhaustion, until we look at each other from eye to eye. Those lavender eyes that I've fallen in love with ever since I came across his social media all this time ago. Those lips that I have kissed God knows how many times now. His eyes float towards another area in the space between us, as if trying to think of something, and finally, with his eyes closing and a sigh, he musters a quiet mutter: "Fine, then."
...
Just like that?
'Fine, then?'
I gape at him numbly, unsure if I am okay with just that short answer alone. Does he want to tell me more? Ask me why I would want him to stay away from an old childhood friend for however long it would take me to get over his past transgressions against me? I look at his eyes closely, even taking a short step to breach this distance between us, and his eyes flicker back to me, as if silently asking me what is it that I want. I frown, chewing on my bottom lip.
I couldn't help myself.
"Aren't you going to ask me why?"
His eyes widen just a tad, but he steadies himself and his eyes return back to normal, and he grunts, "Okay. Why are you asking me to stay away from Kaoru?"
"I never asked you to stay away from her. Merely just to not speak to her for a while."
"Will you at least tell me why? So that I can understand?"
Oh, Kenshin.
"Because I.." My gasp and blink flutter as my emotions starts to rise inside of me, "I am just.. so afraid. That seeing her would remind you of the past. The past I want to whisk you away from. I know that.. I know that I have made your life harder now."
He is quiet for a moment, but finally nods, "I understand. But you didn't make my life harder, Soujiro. You give my life more meaning now. Isn't that enough?"
I shake my head, a sad chuckle escaping my lips, "It's not. You have to give me time to get over it. You hurt me so much when you slept with her, Kenshin. It's a reminder of what I can never be."
"Which is?"
"Normal."
That word sounds so bitter from my lips. But it is the truth. His eyes take on a much sadder note in them now, and he wastes no time in embracing me, and I don't know what's come over me, but I start to rub my face in the space between his neck and shoulder. Do I honestly hate myself so much still after all this time? Am I so horrid against Kaoru because I envy her so much? She doesn't deserve my cruelty, but I gave it to her regardless. She would have every reason under the sun to scorn my existence and to never speak to me again. I would never hold it against her for that, either. I deserve her contempt, and much more. It's what anyone else would do in her shoes. Even I would do the same, since I can be such a vengeful person from time to time.
But yet..
I don't want her to talk to Kenshin either. Perhaps I truly am that selfish. I hold onto his body as I feel my shoulders shaking from the impact of my emotions. Yet he holds onto me, to support me. To let me know, that he understands where I am coming from.
"I won't talk to her. I promise."
My eyelashes tremble and I sigh. We stay in that hot shower for what feels like a long time. That's all I needed to hear, really. I feel content that I can even have the time and space to just enjoy the rest of our grooming like this in peace, without having to fear of someone walking in on us.
Like I said, we have the whole damn weekend to do whatever we want.
After showering and brushing our teeth, we put on some clean pajamas and head to bed.
It's nearly ten at night, and since we did get up early today for school like we always do—not to mention the amazing sex sessions we've had tonight—we are completely wiped out for the day. This is the part I miss so much with Kenshin. Being able to just lie on the bed, having him hold me into his arms, and resting my head on his chest while our legs are entangled into one another. It feels so good to be like this with him again. I don't know how long it's been since we've done this, but it feels too long already.
The TV is off. The lights are off.
The room feels just cool enough to lull us into sleep.
I let my eyes flutter close with a sigh, letting myself fall asleep.
...
I hope what I told Kenshin tonight was the right thing to do.
(To be continued)