BPOV
"As you know... I wasn't exactly looking for a serious relationship when I met you," he said.
Wait!
That looked like the start of a breakup speech!
My heart started beating so fast suddenly!
Yup, he was going to end this!
He seemed pissed off with everyone, and I guess he just wanted to get rid of everyone, including me!
And he just mentioned that he regretted dragging out his previous relationship for so long! But well, that was his best friend and girlfriend of eight years, so she was worth fighting for!
And me? Well, I was really nothing in front of her! And considering I had pissed him off by accusing him of cheating on him, I guess it made sense that he wouldn't want to give any further effort in this farce of a relationship!
Fuck my life! Just when I thought I wanted something serious from our relationship, I had to fuck something up!
But what could I even do if he didn't even want it?
Should I apologize to him?
But it's not like only I was at fault!
He had fucked this up more than I had!
He was the one who had kept me in the dark!
I looked at him and it looked like he was trying to figure out how to say this to me! He was rubbing his hand in his hair and biting his lip... He seemed nervous suddenly, and he hardly got nervous!
Shouldn't I make it easier for him?
"Edward... I know what you're trying to say," I said.
"You do?" he said with surprise.
"Well, it's not too hard to guess..." I said.
"Oh! I guess I didn't realize I was being so obvious," he chuckled weakly.
I sighed silently.
He seemed so relieved to hear that!
"I guess so," I said.
"Great! So I guess it makes it a bit easier then!" he smiled.
Was there any point in opening up about my feelings now?
It was pretty clear that he didn't want this!
What was the point of telling him about my feelings?
But shouldn't I try to fight to save our relationship?
No, I guess I shouldn't!
What was the difference between his ex and me then if I did the same?
Wasn't she also trying to 'fight' for their relationship?
"I guess so," I said again.
"I've been thinking about this for a long time now," he said.
Excuse me?
Like... what?
I didn't see that coming!
What exactly did he mean he was thinking about breaking up with me 'for a long time' now?
Like what was the point of asking me to come here and creating this mess!
"I didn't think we'd be having this conversation here, but I didn't want to delay it further," he said.
Wow!
Just wow!
"I'm glad we're having this conversation right now," I said.
"Yeah!" he smiled.