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The latter part of this night is perhaps a little too ... harsh, which is why I warn the readers among you.
There is mild abuse and mental illness.
I will warn you again of the part if you cannot bear it.

Well, I don't want to stop you for long and wish you a lot of fun on my eight night ^^

I remember very well how Alayna showed Sheba and me the old world of her to us.
Her world, which she loved so much and then simply destroyed because of a stupid misunderstanding.
Their world, which was not far away from us, had only three or four small changes that no longer existed in ours.
5 great religions that had spread throughout the world, and of which I had never heard before.
194 countries divided into seven continents that I had never heard of before ...
I didn't even know the continent's names.
And about 6,500 different languages, which could be divided into nearly 300 genetic units – 180 actual language families with more than one language and 120 isolated languages.
Even of them I had never heard of.
Moreover, only humans and no other species lived in their world.
"These religions and these different races that existed in my world at that time caused hatred, violence and eternal war among men. Back then, when I was still living among them, and they were honoring me, because I had saved humanity more than once, creating a kingdom, and making myself rulers, I had no idea why the people among each other hated each other so much. Nor had I noticed that there was a group that wanted to overthrow me," Alayna said, showing us the images from 10,000 decades ago.

...

It was so peaceful.
I lived with people and could see them living together.
It was just amazing to me how people behaved among themselves.
However, it also made me very sad when more and more people went the wrong way and discriminated against or even shamed their peers.
Once, it would have come almost to the point where a world war would have broken out if I hadn't interfered and dispersed them.
Since then, people have wanted me to become the guardian of this world and protect them from danger, strife and war.
They saw me as God, worshipped me as a God, and gave me riches and honor.
However, I was not interested in this.
I lived with some people on an island called Japan.
There we created a kingdom, which I gave to the name Hikarishi.
It was to become the center of the world, where people could be carried away, wished able to be fulfilled and shed light on their lives, which was also called Hikarishi.
The City of Light.
This city was simply to become the paradise of the world, which I had imagined.
And in the beginning it was also the paradise of the earths.
I lived in a stunning palace, which was in the north of the city, and from there I was allowed to live with some people.
"Holy God! A few women have turned up again who want to give you a performance!" one of my guards said to me, so I allowed them to enter with a smile.
He bowed to me and immediately let in three beautiful women who were in charming clothes.
"Our divinity, we have rehearsed a special dance for you and very much hope that you will join us!" said the black-haired woman in the middle, then nodded to her cameramen as I just nodded.
I was interested in what these women wanted from me and leaned me back to my throne as they gradually took off a piece of clothing and danced in front of me splinter fiber naked.
Again, there were such whores who had tried to circling me, to go with them the covenant of unity, which was also meant differently by the word sex or sexual intercourse.
But I wasn't interested in anything like that.
I am also a God and live forever, which is why I did not need any by my side who would walk with me the covenant of unity.
So I continued to watch them and felt only the desires of my advisers standing next to me.
They were also human beings and had to reproduce.
The women approached me and danced around me, or around me, took my hands and pressed them on their breasts or butts.
I literally felt my advisers looking at me envious and envying me.
No wonder!
I didn't look bad and I was always charming towards women.
On me!
I am also a God and I just love every person in this world.
Whether male or female, everyone was special to me.
As the women slowly came to an end, I asked my advisers to get three blankets so they wouldn't get a cold and clapped.
It was something I wasn't interested in, but the three had set out to awaken my desire.
"You did a great job!" I said, smiling, so my advisers clapped after giving them a blanket.
"Oh! Thank you, your divinity!" said a blond-haired woman, snoring.
"And? Could we convince you to be an accompaniment for you?" the brunette asked me, so I slightly bowed my head and shook.
"No. Sorry."
I felt my advisers staring at me questioningly and confused.
The three women also stared at me inquiringly and confusedly.
I was a god, but I was stuck in a male human body, so everyone wanted me to have a woman by my side.
But I didn't want one.
Because I loved all people.
I couldn't and didn't want to love a single person anymore, because I was afraid that if I did, people would be offended and no longer respect me.
So I didn't let human feelings get to me at all.
Besides, I didn't even know such feelings, because no one taught me them.
I've only ever seen them.
"But, you're a man, and to preserve your memory, you have to choose a partner," the black-haired woman said.
I just gave her a smile, which charmed people and loved me.
I lifted myself up from my throne and went to them.
"How old would you appreciate me?" I asked them, so they looked at each other and then circled me.
I was about 1.67 cm tall and had a weight of about 36 kg.
In the meantime, I was wearing different clothes, as my last one was destroyed during a fight.

I wore a narrow blue slightly see-through cape, which I held around my neck with an oval ruby and beaded chain.
As a top I only wore bandages around my chest this time, because my last one had only disturbed me and was burned anyway.
I also wore a long, wide Sirwal in white, wore a beige cloth around my hips to transport my wooden stick, and my usual brown boots.
I also wore a golden flute, which I had tied with a simple string on the cloth around my hip in memory of my deceased "friends" who had traveled with me and helped me create this kingdom here.
To make you realize a little bit that I had something noble about me, I wore gold chains on my head, which I attached to my white turban, which I had wrapped around my back of my head and put a feather on it, and which was attached to three oval rubies at the front, which I personally found ridiculous.
But my advisers advised me to dress like this, because otherwise people would think I don't respect their desire, which I actually did.
I also continued to wear my shorthair hairstyle, which I had cut one, but improved by Shania.

The women ran around me again and then looked at each other.
"We appreciate you around 15, 16 years," said the black-haired woman.
"Do I look so young to you?" I asked them, smiling, so they just nodded their heads.
I giggled a little, went back to the throne and said, "Well! Then I am about 15, 16 years old for you!"
I laughed and threw myself back.
The three women, as well as my advisers, looked at me in disbelief.

...

"How old were you really, Alayna?" Sheba asked her as she poured herself a mug.
Alayna looked at us and held a finger in front of her mouth.
She looked lost in thought.
"Hmm ... I guess in earth time so about 1000 years. But I don't know how old I was. When you are a God, you really don't have a sense of time, so it was incredibly barren to be a God," she said, shaking her head.
Sheba and I looked at each other and asked them to tell further.
She put her cup back on the table and said that there was nothing interesting from then on.
"Well, my advisers kept advising me to pick a woman. However, I refused to love a single person. Why do you know..."

...

"But your divinity! At some point there is a time when you would be lonely! Everybody needs someone to love!" said my closest adviser.
I looked at him and then back on the table, where there were countless recruiters who wanted me to be their lover.
I sighed and leaned back.
"Dark! I really honor your concerns about me. But I will never be lonely!" I said, looking at it to the ceiling.
"What do you mean, your divinity?"
"I have you human beings! As long as I have you, I will never be lonely! Do you know that every human being has a different fate?" I asked him, so he just looked at me inquiringly.
"Everyone follows a certain path. In the beginning, when one is born, man follows the path that his parents consider destined for him. The child thus follows the will of the parents. However, once this child reaches a certain age, that is the 10 years of the child's life, he can create his own path. But for that, this child has to do a single thing, which can then free him from the will of the parents," I said.
Dark, who was the sixth generation of his family, who had previously accompanied me on my travels and from the little girl I had saved one, looked at me inquiringly and asked me what this was.
I sat upright again and conjured up a pair of Rukh.
One white, one black and one golden.
"Can you see these birds?" I asked back.
He nodded.
"These birds I call Rukh! They each contain a decision that can be made at the age of 10 years! In the white ones, purity and fidelity include: a decision that can only be made if you are loved and have an honest smile. The black Rukh includes grief and hatred: a decision that you can make if you have been hurt or lost someone you loved one. And the golden one contains nothing," I said, pointing to the respective ones.
"Why does the golden one contain nothing?" Dark asked me.
I thought carefully about how I could answer his question without hearing more questions.
"Well, this Rukh is always present. Since the beginning of life. It's part of my magic."
"Does that mean that we humans have your divine magic?" my adviser asked me, so I thought and nodded briefly.
"Yes. You have some magic that I distributed one. However, this Rukh has so little life energy that you can't use it, even if you make an effort to do it," I said.
"And what magic does this Rukh have? After all, I know from my father that you, my God, have several elements," he said.
I smiled and nodded.
"Yes! Although I have over 8 main types of magic, our coat of arms is also an eight-pointed star, but this golden Rukh has a different magic in you."
"And that would be?"
I thought.
It was harder than I thought.
"Let me take you!" I said when an idea came to me.
I shrugged my wooden stick again and pulled out something Magoi from Dark, also known as life energy.
He looked amazed at the small ball of energy hovering in front of him.
I swirled around a bit and pulled out the golden Rukh, who was hiding inside.
I picked up a small test tube and put the Rukh in.
"So, keep your hands in front of it," I said, showing him how I meant it.
So Dark did this and quickly shrugged back when this golden Rukh suddenly turned blue.
I clapped and smiled.
"Prima! You quickly understood it, Dark!" I said, smiling, and then looked at him when he shocked me asking me what was happening.
"Don't be afraid! This Rukh just showed you that you were a blue magician who could manipulate the water," I explained to him, so he got back together and stared at his golden Rukh.
Meanwhile, I clawed out another test tube and placed it next to it.
Again I shrugged my wooden stick and pulled out some Magoi from myself.
Then I swirled the energy ball around a bit and put the golden Rukh in the second glass.
Dark watched me and amazed when my golden Rukh turned red.
"What does this mean, God?"
"That, my dear, means so much that I am a red magician. This means differently, I am very good at manipulating the flames," I replied, and shortly afterwards freed the Rukh, who then returned to her body.
"But I thought you could manipulate any element," my adviser said, looking at me inquiringly.
"Can I do it! But I can manipulate the flames better than the other seven elements!" I said then, putting the two test tubes away.
"And why did they show me, my God?" he asked me.
"Well, maybe because I trust you and you asked me holes in my stomach," I replied, then laughed.
He stared at me before he laughed.

...

"It's a decision I still regret. I should never have told him about it..." Alayna said, looking sadly to the golden floor.
"Why?" Sheba asked her.
"Because he was a man who had deceived me at the time," she said, and Sheba, both I could see black Rukh forming with her.
"This monster ...! This monster is trying everything to get stronger power!" she cursed and pulled her fingers at her Sirwal, with the black Rukh multiplying around her.
I decided to change the subject and asked her what you had to do from the age of 10 to get rid of the will of the parents.
She looked at me, smiled, and I saw the black Rukh disappear again.
"Well, every human being follows a certain path, as you know," she began to explain, to which we both nodded.
"When a person reaches the age of 10, two new paths are formed. One is just the white one, while the other is the black one. So you can decide whether you want to remain clean and faithful, that is, not a fallen man, or bow to hatred and grief and thus become a fallen man," she told us.
"And then what is the golden Rukh?" Sheba asked her.
"It's a secret path that you take when you switch back and forth during the two paths. The Rukh cannot decide whether they prefer to be on the good or the bad side. You're half a fallen man," she said, then looked over to Aladdin.
"However, this path is the most dangerous. Once you're inside, you can't get out of your own hands. People play something to you. They lie to themselves and the people they love, and so they slowly end up on a path that should never have been," she said suddenly, looking at us with a serious face.
"What do you mean by that? What is the way?" I asked Alayna.
"This path has no name. It is a way that brings people to ruin. The black Rukh are relatively harmless," she said, looking back at Aladdin.
"There are Rukh who do not follow my will. They are aggressive and want to destroy and wipe out all the other Rukh," she said, looking at her hands.
I looked at her and asked her how she knew it.
But she did not answer, and looked mutely at her hands.
Sheba and I looked at each other and nodded.
"Did you fall into something like that when your closest adviser had betrayed you?" we asked, and we came to the core.
For she shrugged, closed her eyes, and nodded.
She gave a quiet Yes.
She breathed in and wanted to tell us something.
But she kept turning the time up, so we both looked back into the Rukh.

- From here it may get too harsh for some of you, so you can stop here if you can't see your favorite character suffer ^^ -

I heard a beeping.
It was a beeping of heartbeats.
I opened my eyes and was greeted by a bright light.
"The object has awakened. Shall we send it back to sleep, Master?" a male voice asked someone.
I tried to move my head to see who was talking.
But my head and my hands and feet were fastened with some snares.
"No. I have a few questions about it," said another male voice, who came to my mind before I saw his face.
The man who looked at me and smiled at him had red eyes, black short hair, his fringe smiles from his pony touching his eyes and black glasses.
He was wearing a black shirt with a red tie and a doctor's coat.
"Well, did we sleep well?" he asked me kindly, taking a board from the table, which was probably near him.
"Dark …? What ..."
But my neck was so scratchy and rough that no decent sound came out of me.
"As I had thought. The voice of the object is switched off from the whole sleep and so can't say anything," he said, probably writing it on his board and looking at me again.
"Do you know where you are?" he asked me, so I just shook my head slightly, which I just got.
I really didn't know where I was or how I came here.
What had ever happened?
He just nodded and wrote down my answer.
I noticed my voice coming back slowly and so I opened my mouth.
"Dark ... Where... Am... I ...?" I asked scratchy.
Oh damn that hurt!
I had no idea that I could have been in pain at all.
I was a god.
A supernatural being that should not have human feelings such as love, grief or pain.
But I was just in pain.
"Where are you, you ask, my divinity?" he asked me, so I nodded slightly.
"You're in an underground lab," Dark, who was actually my closest adviser, told me only because his ancestors were my "friends."
"Under- ... Earthly... Labor?" I asked him.
He walked off my face and then came back with those little white glue sticking to my chest, abdomen, calves, thighs and arms.
Then he went back and told others to do this fork, whereupon I saw other faces.
It wasn't until now, when a hand from one of the people, at my lower region, touched me, that I was splintered.
I tried to see what they were doing.
But I was shackled.
"What ... Have... Your... with me... before?" I asked, and then only heard Dark's voice.
"You ask unnecessary questions here, object! Whoever asks questions here is me alone!" he said, and I felt such a sinister smile on his face.
Object?
He never called me that.
I heard him rise from his chair and go somewhere.
"It will hurt you a little bit. But if you're good and continue to answer my questions, I'll be gracious and not hurt you, object!" he said, changing a switch that I heard.
I then felt a slight tingling in me.
Strange?
I shouldn't feel anything like that.
"Well, who are you really, object?" he began to ask me.
"(Hä? How please?) But... You know who I am," I said, then screamed as the switch was pressed down.
A stinging pain went through my body, so I blew up slightly and screamed loudly.
"You're supposed to answer my question, object!" said Dark.
I didn't understand what that was supposed to be and why he asked me who I was.
He knew me!
He knew from his parents and grandparents who I was!
So why did he want to know who I was?!
"God! I am your God!" I cried in response, hoping to stop this pain, which I was unaware of, which worked, because I heard the switch pulled up again.
I was breathing heavily and heard the next question.
"Where do you come from?"
Why did he ask me something like that?
He knew I had no answer.
"I don't know..." I said again a bit scratchy and screamed again when the switch was pressed back to 10.
Damn!
Act the woe!
I felt a tear coming from my eyes and flowing across my cheeks.
I could cry?
I heard the switch again.
Heavy breath escaped me from the mouth and I tried to calm down.
"You know? You better be honest than lie to me!" said Dark.
I opened my eyes and tried to look at him.
"But I didn't lied to you! I really don't know where I come from and you know that! I come from heaven," I said, slamming on the bed I was lying on.
"Then tell me what makes you so convincing that you are coming from heaven?" he asked me, looking at me madly, which frightened me and frightened me.
"How do you want to know that you are not a human being?" he suddenly asked me, grinning at me darkly.
"I know because I don't have any human feelings!" I replied, shrugging as he touched me at my lower region.
I suddenly opened my eyes when I felt a strange sensation in my abdomen.
"Angh!" I moaned, and then closed my eyes again.
I bent down a bit, but pushed my hip into bed, which was more of a metal frame.
"If you really were a god who doesn't have human feelings, you shouldn't feel that!" he said, looking at me with a grin.
I looked into his eyes ... in his red cold eyes.
Maybe I never really looked at him?
Something spread in me.
It was the human feelings I had never had before.
But suddenly ... but suddenly they spread out in me and I felt every single feeling.
I got scared when I looked into his eyes.
Fear because I didn't know what was happening to me.
And sorrow because I was deceived by him, a person I trusted and loved.
He was also right.
I hadn't been a God for a long time and I didn't even know when I had completely transformed into a human being.
He told me that I was in such a secret facility where people were doing scientific experiments.
"Scientific experiments?" I asked him, looking at him with tearful eyes.
He nodded and stroked me over my body.
"Yes! Scientific experiments to give people tremendous power!"
"A tremendous power?" I asked him, and shrugged again as he touched me down again.
Dark explained to me that for decades people had dreamed of having a power to conquer other planets, etc., and thus become the strongest living beings ever.
"But no matter how hard we try to gain this power, it was more exhausting than we thought at the beginning. And at some point we gassed our dreams," he whispered in my ear, brushing my hair.
"But then someone appeared out of nothing and had led people into the light. This one showed us a beautiful power that dazzled us first. But instead of disappearing, he stayed with us and continued to lead us into the light," he said, licking away a tear, shrugging and shaking.
Somehow I had a strange foreboding of what he wanted to tell me.
"While people continued to be blinded, there was one person who remembered his father's dreams. And this man is me! However, it was also difficult for me to realize my father's dream, so I gave it up quickly. But until you told me something interesting," he whispered and touched me again.
I moaned and closed my eyes.
Damn!
What did I go into?
Why had I never noticed how people ...
No!
Why did I never notice Shadow, the father of Dark and descendant of Shania and Khan, falling into the darkness?!
Before I got to bed, I felt an unpleasant feeling, which clouded my senses and then, when I was redeemed, brought me to sleep.

...

Shocked by what we saw, Sheba and I then saw Alayna crouching and shaking in her place.
This memory was probably a terrible one for them.
For we saw her Rukh turn black again.
We rose and took them in our arms.
"I didn't really want to show you this ... But I think you need to know to understand why I started hating and destroying people..." she whispered and then looked over to Aladdin.
"This body..."
I looked over at Sheba, nodded and then sat next to her.
"What is ... After that, it happened?" I asked Alayna, staring at her hands and shrugging her.
"I can't remember it. I just know that ... the Happened ..."

...

I regained consciousness and looked around me.
I saw a blood-red sky covered with black clouds and burning buildings around me.
Then I looked at my hands, which were full of blood.
Looking at the floor, I saw body parts ...
Severed body parts of humans.
I went on into the city where I came back to me and caught a nasty smell.
It smelled of burnt human flesh.
Where was I?
I went deeper and the deeper I went, the worse that disgusting smell got until I got to where that smell came from.
I stared insensitively at these burned people.
Among them was a small family who held themselves in their arms to protect something that was between the two adults from someone who had done it all here.
At least I could read it from the deceased Rukh, who came from their bodies.
But I didn't feel anything.
I just looked at her bleakly and went on.
I realized I was in Hikarishi.
My kingdom, which I had built one with people.
However, I felt nothing when I saw the city destroyed.
I could remember.
The one who destroyed and killed the city and the inhabitants here was me.
I went on to the palace, turned around and stared at the destroyed city.
"They are no longer ... They're all gone..." I said insensitively and stared into the distance.
My eyes were empty.
There was nothing left in them.
No light.
No love for people.
Just hatred and despair.
"These people should not have abused my authority. They should have continued to live peacefully by my side, as I had promised them..." I said and suddenly felt a stinging burn in my eyes.
I saw my Rukh around me trying to find the vastness.
However, black Rukh, which I had never seen before, caught them and began to destroy them, causing a Rukh to fall to the ground one after the other.
I smiled, slightly put my head aside and then started laughing crazy.
"You abbot cockroaches don't deserve to inhabit this world! You fully deserved the cruelest death of the whole era!" I screamed, laughing and conjuring up a powerful magic that circled the whole world, killed the rest of the people and came back to me.
So I disappeared from this world.
Laughing, crazy and deeply hurt by the people I trusted, I was abused by them to realize their dreams.
Your dream of getting magic.

Well, that was my eighth night.
I hope you liked it.

If there is anyone among you who has read the whole night, I would like to ask something ...
Was it perhaps a little too brutal and should describe the place differently or was it quite okay as I wrote it?
Please since honestly!

Here is the explanation/en:

It's not an explanation.

But if you would like to be told something because you didn't understand something, you can ask me privately or in the review, but only once please ^^

I would look forward to detailed and nice criticism. But not too nice.
After all, I want to improve where I might be bad ^^

I hope you like it and take it into the spell of imagination ^^
I also hope that you will read the upcoming chapters or nights.
Until then, ^^
In love your MimiTenshi