A/N: I apologize for the long absence of posting. I have been real busy with school work and no time to write. Please enjoy.
I had just gotten back from the store with the formula for the boys. I got out and grabbed the bag of formula. I walked up to the door and slid my key card to get in.
After I walked in, I noticed that Throttle was talking with his mom. The boys are taking a nap on the next bed over.
"Hey babe. How are Vinnie and Harley?"
"Doing a bit better since I talked with them. I wanted you to talk with Harley, but since you weren't here, I talked with her. I had come to get you and mom said you were getting formula for the boys. I didn't know we were out."
"I had enough for this morning only. After they were fed and put down for a nap, I had gone to get more."
Throttle walked over to me and hugged me. "You're such a good mother. Always thinking about the boys and others first before yourself."
"Of course I do. I've always been that way for as long as I can remember. You know, we could just leave the boys with your mom and the adults head to the beach. That way we can talk more with Vinnie and Harley. But only if you're ok with it and your mom is ok with it."
Throttle looked to his mom. "Would you mind watching the boys for a while, mom? I know you love spending time with them."
"I don't mind at all, Throttle. You 4 go and talk. I can always ask Charley and Modo for help. Vinnie and Harley need your friendship and support in their time of need. The boys and I will be fine."
Throttle smiled, walked over and hugged his mom. "Thanks mom. You've been a big help with the boys since they were born. We are so grateful for what you've done for us. Right babe?" He looked to me.
"Yeah, we have. You've helped me be a good mother to our boys. Without your help and support, I don't think we could raise them on our own." I walked over to Silverdawn and hugged her.
Silverdawn returned the hug to both of us at the same time. "You are both very welcome. Now, go help your friends."
We both nodded then left the room. I took out the baby seats so we had room for Vinnie and Harley. We put them in the room, then Throttle went to get Vinnie and Harley.
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About 20 mins. later, we arrived at the beach. After I parked, we all got out of the car. Vinnie and Harley had been quiet the whole ride there. Its not normal for Vinnie to be quiet, but I understand why he was.
"Hey Vin, would you mind walking with me and Throttle walk with Harley? I wanna talk with you one on one."
"I don't mind at all, Michelle."
I looked to Throttle. "Do you mind walking with Harley, babe?"
Throttle smiled. "Not at all. I wanted to talk more with her, anyway."
"Thanks babe."
Vinnie and I went for a walk along the edge of the beach and talked. I had noticed that he had been crying off and on while we talked. I told him that crying is not a weakness and that its ok to cry.
"I always thought that crying made a man less of one."
"Not true, Vin. There's nothing wrong with a man crying. If Stoker told you that crying makes you weak, then he's wrong. You know, I bet Throttle cried when he had to leave me both times. Especially, after the Skype calls."
"You don't think less of him for crying like a girl?"
"Not at all. If anything, it makes me love him more. Nothing wrong with showing your feminine side. When we heard the screaming from your room, I had a feeling it was you and not Harley. She told Throttle that your daughter was daddy's girl."
Vinnie smiled and nodded. "I cried when she was born. I haven't told Harley this or even asked her, but I planned to get an autopsy done to see what caused her death. I know that when I do bring it up to her, she may not want it done, but…"
"Its something you want done. You want answers."
"Yeah, I do want answers. I'm hoping that she does too."
"So, let's say she does want the autopsy done but can't get herself to go with you, then what?"
"Will you or Throttle go with me if Harley doesn't?"
"Both of us will go with you, Vin. We're your friends."
We stopped and Vinnie hugged me. "Thanks Michelle. I couldn't ask for a better friend than you."
"You're welcome Vinnie." I hugged him back.
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Several hours later, both Vinnie and Harley felt a little bit better since we all talked. Vinnie had talked to Harley about having an autopsy done on their daughter. Surprisingly, Harley agreed to the idea.
"I need to know what happened to her, Vinnie."
"I know you do, babe, but can either of us actually go through with it? Can we really let someone cut into our baby girl?"
Harley thought about that. She noticed Vinnie holding her hands in his, then looked up at him. She noticed the tears forming in his eyes. It made her wanna cry too.
She reached up and wiped the tears from his eyes and smiled at him. Vinnie smiled back and hugged her.
Throttle wrapped his right arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I wrapped my left arm around his waist as well.
"Its nice to see Vinnie acting like a responsible adult now."
"Yes it is. I like this side of him. The sensitive side that we barely saw."
"I heard that Charley saw that side of him once."
"Really?"
"Yep. Charley put up video cameras around the garage and managed to get video of Vinnie."
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That evening, the coroner had just finished the autopsy on the little girl. He had also written his report after closing up her little body. He felt bad for the parents who lost their little girl. He ruled the death as SUDI which stands for Sudden Unexpected Death in Infancy. Basically it means he doesn't know how the baby died.
He felt for the parents of this baby. They didn't deserve to lose their child so young. They should have been happy and enjoying all the "firsts" this baby would have had. They will never get that chance now since the babies passing.
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Throttle, Vinnie, Harley, and I all headed back to the motel. Both Throttle and I were glad that Harley and Vinnie were feeling a little better since the talk we all had just before we left the beach. We both knew Harley and Vinnie won't be the same for quite a while.
On the way back to the motel, I noticed it was rather quiet in the car. I decided to turn the radio on and look for some soothing music instead of heavy metal. With the way Harley and Vinnie have been since their daughters' passing, soothing music is appropriate for the drive back to the motel.
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The Best Western Motel. Silverdawn had just gotten the boys dressed so she could take them out in their stroller. She loved her grandsons so much. At times, she wished Throttle would take them out in their stroller. Michelle does it quite a bit at night when they can't sleep. Silverdawn has seen the look on Michelle's face when Throttle would be sound asleep and Michelle would take the boys out to get them to go to sleep for the night.
Silverdawn made a promise to herself that she would talk to her son about that. She'll understand that Throttle won't be able to do much with the boys once he starts working, but right now there's no reason why he can't spend time with them before he gets a job. She understands what Michelle is going through. She raised her son to be a man and not to shirk his duties, no matter what they are.