Jessa's Direction Chapter 3: The Power of Christina, a glee fanfic

So my first date with Faith didn't exactly go as planned. It wasn't not-going-on-a-second-date bad, but I felt like I may have overstepped my boundaries a little. I wasn't sure why I thought it would be a good idea to suggest sex on the first date, especially with someone who was pregnant. She likely wasn't ready for that yet. I did really hope that I hadn't screwed things up. She seemed like she was okay. I still probably owed her an apology. I would just have to find the right time and place to do that. It would be nice if I had someone to talk to about it, but I didn't want to talk to Mom or Ms. Corcoran about it, and Sadie was too young.

It was then that I was hit with an idea. I hoped that she would be available to talk and not too busy with college.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Ava, hi." I greeted her.

"Jessa, I haven't heard from you in so long. What's up?" She asked.

"I need your advice. So I've recently started dating someone but I feel like I might have messed things up." I explained. I wondered how much backstory I would need to give.

"Okay, give me the details. Also why are you calling me instead of asking someone else?" She inquired.

"Because she's pregnant like you are, and I figured you would be able to give me some insight." I stated.

"How old is this girl?" Ava asked me.

"She's 16." I replied with a blush. I didn't know why I was blushing because she couldn't see me. It wasn't like I was embarrassed by it either. I was a bit nervous that she wouldn't want me in her baby's life, but we were a little ways away from that.

"And here I thought you only liked older girls." Ava joked. "So, what exactly is the issue?"

"This is going to be a little bit personal, but it actually is relevant." I stated. "So since you got pregnant, do you have sex much?"

"Okay, that's definitely personal. What happened?" She retorted.

"Well you see, for whatever reason, I thought it would be a good idea to bring up sex on the first date." I remarked. That I definitely blushed to, even though once again she couldn't see me. "Part of me thinks that I might have screwed things up with her."

"Have you talked to her about it?" Ava asked. I shook my head. I then realized that she still couldn't see me.

"No." I responded.

"Then maybe you should start with that." She suggested.

"I miss talking to you." I declared.

"I probably shouldn't be talking to you. You're the reason that I'm not on Broadway." She teased. Fortunately, I could tell by her tone that she didn't actually mean it. "But yeah we should definitely talk more. In fact, how about you call me to tell me how it goes? And yes I do still have sex."

"I should go now." I replied before I hastily hung up.

After I finished talking to her, I needed to head to rehearsal. Once again, I was going to be singing. I did really like being the center of attention. I actually couldn't help but wonder what the plan was going to be for after I graduated."

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, It's as if I play a part
Now I see If I wear a mask, I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free, to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

We were singing Disney songs for some reason. It was a strong ballad. I did connect with it too because there was a part of me that most people didn't see because I didn't want to show them. Though I appeared very confident, I was still insecure about some things. I had daddy issues like a lot of girls, but I was good at hiding things because I had to. I only let those things show in my music. Now I was thinking that maybe I should have written my own song for my audition, but I don't think it would have mattered.

I decided that I would get back to Faith. I would meet her at her school's library. We didn't have rehearsal every day yet and we also hadn't decided on a number for Regionals because it was still several weeks away.

When I saw her, she seemed confused as to why I would come to her school. I wasn't sure why since she knew that I lived in Lima.

"What are you doing here?" She asked me through the shelves. Maybe she wanted to make sure that none of her teammates could see me. I was probably not very popular with them.

"Well I wanted to talk about the other night." I remarked. I hoped that I could do this without sounding too full of myself. "I should have known better than to try to go to your room on the first date. That was wrong of me. I'm sorry. You deserve an epic romance like Titanic or at least She's the Man. You know I'm willing to wait until you want to have sex with me."

Why the hell did I reference those movies? They were way too heteronormative. Of course, I wasn't sure if she had seen very many lesbian movies. They weren't exactly the most popular and I imagined that her conservative parents probably wouldn't let her watch them, but She's the Man? That was a bit of a deep cut that I didn't know if she had seen.

"Well it's not just me." She replied. I wanted to hear what she had to say. "I've only had sex with one person that I loved, but I am starting to fall for you. I think I want to do things tonight if you're okay with seeing me naked."

So she had had sex with ex-girlfriend. It was kind of a relief to know that she hadn't only had sex with guys before. Also I didn't have a problem with seeing her naked. It was true that she wasn't as thin as any of the other girls that I had sex with, but none of them were pregnant. The only thing that I was worried about was maybe getting kicked in the face by her baby but I didn't even know if that could happen.

"Well maybe you should come over to my house?" I suggested. I would have to convince my mom to take my siblings out so we could have the house to ourselves. "I could pick you up and it'll be just us."

I then started to sing to her to let her know how I felt.

Come on over, come on over baby
Come on over, come on over baby

Hey girl don't you know I got something going on
I got an invitation don't you keep me waiting all night long
I know you know so baby don't pretend you won't keep me guessing
If you will or you won't don't wanna play that game with you baby

All I want is you come over here baby
All I want is you, you know you make me go crazy
All I want is you now baby don't be shy you better cross the line
I'm gonna love right you cause I want is you

Come on over, come on over baby
Come on over, come on over baby

Don't you wanna be the one tonight we could do exactly what you like
Don't you wanna be just you and me, make it till it comes so naturally
I got a thing for you come on burn me up and serious never been more
And I'll show you that it's real and it's right here come on

You give me what a girl feels, what a girl likes, what a girl needs, what a girl wants

All I want is you come over here baby
All I want is you, you know you make me go crazy
All I want is you now baby don't be shy you better cross the line
I'm gonna love right you cause I want is you

All I want is you, you make me go crazy
All I want is you now baby don't be shy you better cross the line
I'm gonna love right you cause I want is you

Come on over, come on over baby
Come on over, come on over baby

So I did manage to convince my mom to take Sadie and Robbie out so I could have a little bit of time in the house for just me and Faith. Of course, I didn't just want to go straight to sex. I made sure to give her some food too. It was microwaved, but it was probably still good. I hoped that being in my big house wouldn't make her remember how she was kicked out of hers. After we ate, I let her change in my room while I used the bathroom. I put on a red satin negligee. I went back to my room and stared at her in amazement. She was wearing a black nightie.

"Wow." I commented. "You look amazing."

"You're just saying that." She replied.

"No, I mean it. You're so sexy." I remarked. It seemed to put her in a good mood because then she started to sing to me. The song she was singing was quite sexy. It made me feel a little bit horny just listening to it.

I feel like I've been locked up tight for a century of lonely nights
Waiting for someone to release me
You're licking your lips and blowing kisses my way
But that don't mean I'm gonna give it away Baby, baby, baby (Baby, baby, baby)

Ooh, my body's saying 'let's go'
Ooh, but my heart is saying 'no'

If you wanna be with me baby there's a price to pay
I'm a genie in a bottle you gotta rub me the right way
If you wanna be with me I can make your wish come true
You gotta make a big impression (Oh yeah) gotta like what you do

(I'm a genie in a bottle baby gotta rub me the right way honey
I'm a genie in a bottle baby come, come, come on and let me out)

I'm a genie in a bottle baby gotta rub me the right way honey
(If you wanna be with me)
I'm a genie in a bottle baby come, come, come on and let me out

Ooh, my body's saying let's go
Ooh, but my heart is saying no

We then had sex and I made sure to pay plenty of attention to her. It felt great. I'm not going to go into a lot of details, but it was the best sex I had ever had. I even used my strap-on, which was a little hard to manage with her stomach, but once we figured it out, I could tell that she really liked it.

I knew that I wanted to see Faith more than I did. I wanted to see her every day at school. I would have to talk to Shelby about it.

"I think I want to transfer to McKinley." I told her.

"You're really head over heels for this girl, aren't you?" She asked. "You know that they're not going to accept you there. They're going to think you're a spy."

"I know.' I replied. "But maybe I can actually talk to Rachel if I'm there."

"Well I'm not going to say that you can't do this." She stated. "I'll even go as far to say that you can come back if things don't work out."

My mom was confused on why I wanted to leave art school with no little time, but she was a romantic and understood what I would do for Faith. She approved the form, even though I was actually old enough to sign it myself.

When I got there, I knew that there was something else that I needed to do in order to get there. I didn't want to go to Faith first because I wanted to surprise her.

"Mr. Schue?" I asked as I knocked on his open door. Faith told me that everyone called him that, even though she actually called him Will. We had briefly conversed when I picked Faith up.

"What are you doing here?" He asked me.

"I'm actually going here now." I stated. He seemed a little bit skeptical. "I can prove it. Here's my school ID."

"So are you here because you wanted to be in New Directions?" He questioned.

"Yeah, I'll even audition if you want me to." I offered.

"That won't be necessary. I am aware of your talent." He stated. Okay, that was a little odd. "I have to wonder something. Is this for Faith?"

I blushed and nodded.

"Can you not tell her that I am here. I want to surprise her." I admitted.

He walked me to the choir room, which was much smaller than the one at Carmel High. I supposed that was to be expected since the school really didn't have the budget that we did.

Reception to my appearance was less than stellar. Just as Shelby predicted, they seemed to think that I was a spy. I wouldn't need to spy on them because I was pretty sure that they were all amateurs. I even saw the guy who impregnated Faith. I kind of wanted to punch him because the way that she described things to me didn't seem quite right.

"You can't be serious. What the fuck is this?" Faith's ex Lucy asked angrily. "How do we know this isn't a trick?"

"I came here to be with my girlfriend." I remarked. That and try to tell Rachel that Shelby was her mom, which I didn't know how I was going to do. "I thought you'd take this better. Now you have two stars instead of just one."

"She's a spy, Mr. Schue. I would know." This Latina cheerleader replied. I probably should learn everyone's names, even though I didn't really care.

"I spoke to her mother. Jessa lives in Lima." Will explained. He probably wouldn't have been able to talk to my dad. "She goes here now. We're not changing the rules. If she wants to be in New Directions, she can."

"Well I for one will be the first to welcome you." Faith declared as she stood up and gave me a hug. I wondered if anyone would vote for us as cutest couple. It probably wasn't likely since I was new and she was a sophomore and I knew the town was a little homophobic.

"I want everyone to know that I care about Faith more than winning another National title, not that I don't think that this group can't win a national title, especially if I'm here." I replied. I wanted a chance to sing with Faith on stage and I knew that we would win if that happened.

"It's great to have you Jessa." Will replied as he shook her hand. "Now we have a number to perform."

So it turned out it was Christina Aguilera week. I decided to just watch because I didn't like group numbers. I deserved to be the center of attention. After they were done, Faith came over and kissed me.

So Ava is still canon, but she's different from the other story including being played by a different actress. She's played by Kate Mara. The songs are "Reflection", "Come on Over" and "Genie in a Bottle" by Christina. Please don't forget to review.