Hlo everyone
first of all i m sorry for asking that question in last chapter ... i really don't hope this type of response... it really hurt me... but it's ok... here is your chapter. ..
at a time door bell rang...
daya silently open the gate...
but...
the visitor make him angery...
daya in his thought (in anger) : aab ye yha kyo aaya h...
daya's eyes are telling that he really don't want to see that person for more one second...
visitor said with evil smile : hlo daya...
daya said in formal tone : hlo DIG sir... aap yha???... is wakt... matlab ki kafi late ho gaya h...
DIG sir said : cid ki duty h... har wakt on duty hi rehte h... (with smile) andar nhi bulaoge...
daya don't want to let him enter... but he become side with : aaiye...
DIG sir said : tumhare dad kha h?
daya recalling the scene of party when ACP sir having panic attack... and just before he was talking with DIG...
daya in same tone : andar h...
DIG sir call : parduman... kha ho bhai tumm...
ACP sir remember the voice, so get up from bad... and take step toward the door ...
but after 3- 4 steps he start feeling uneasy...
ACP sir close his eyes and take some deep breathes and then went to hall...
ACP sir said in formal tone : aap ke samne hu sir...
DIG saw his condition and said in ordering tone : bhot araam ho gaya acp...(this line make daya angery...because in this days daya saw that almost time ACP sir spending in bureau)bureau mein ek high profile case report hua h... ek bada drug dealer aane wala h jaal mein... team ko guidance ki jarurat h... abhijeet bhi nhi h to tumhe jana hoga... are you ready?
ACP sir replied : I m always ready sir...
daya felt shock on his answer... he look at ACP sir with firy eyes...
ACP sir look at daya and parinita... their eyes are saying many things... without noice...
ACP sir excuse with : sir aap chaliye m aata hu abhi...
DIG sir said : theek h... jaldi aana... (and he left)
ACP sir look at both daya and parinita...
before ACP sir speak, daya said in anger and little bit high tone : tum pagal ho gae ho!!!!... chaar kadam to chal nhi paa rhe ... kuch khaya tak nhi h na koi medicines li h... rest karna tha tumhe... proper rest... are ek baar khud ko sheshe ke samne dekho...
in confirm tone : tum kahi nhi jaoge... it's final... us DIG ko m khud keh duga...
ACP sir said in calm tone : daya please ruko... saans to le lo... or kuch nhi hua h mujhe... mamuli si weakness h... drip di to h vinay ne... aab bilkul theek hu m... or ye cid ki duty h... iska koi specific time nhi hota... us drug dealer ka pakde jana jayada jaruri h...
daya said in mid : tumhari jaan se bhi jayada jaruri...
ACP sir once look at him and then in confident tone : haa meri jaan se bhi jaruri... mere jaise kaio ki jaan se jaruri...
a silence take place in the room ...
ACP sir speak : subh tak aa jauga m... (he went to the room for taking his batch and gun) tum dono khana kha kar soo jana... ACP sir about to speak something else but he stop by seeing parinita going in room...
ACP sir take deep breath and said with smile : tumhaari maa thodi der mujhe kosegi or fir khana kha legi...
daya didn't answer...
ACP sir start moving toward gate...
when daya said in hate tone : meri maa ne bilkul shi fainsla liya tha (ACP sir stop at his place) tumhare liye sirf tumhari duty jaruri h... or koi nhi..khud bhi nhi... tum deserve bhi sirf duty hi karte ho... akele rehkar duty karna...
each and every word is cutting ACP sir's heart in pieces... but he look at daya for once and then smile silently...
daya's face is red in anger... but ACP sir's silent reply make him shock...
ACP sir said in same calm tone : you are absolutely right daya... i deserve all this ... i deserve (he left the house with this)
daya just sit on near by sofa...
his anger is on the pick...
daya in his mind : m itna gussa kyo kar raha hu... isme kya naya h... ACP ke liye uski duty sabse jayada jaruri h... (in carelessness) jab use khud ko aapni fikar nhi h to koi kya kar sakta h... or waise bhi chahe jo ho mujhe kya... mera kuch nhi lagta...
he drink water...and go to parinita...
parinita is standing near the window...
daya go near to her and shocked to see her with tears...
daya in panic tone : maa aap ro rahi h (patinita just hug daya)
daya feel a like a stone hit his heart badly...
parinita while sobbing : dekha na daya tumne... chale gae... hamesha ki tarah... ek percent bhi nhi badle h... kuch khaya tak nhi h subh se... na koi medicine li... sick leave bhi to le sakte the... koi or officer bhi to jaa sakta tha na unki jagah... per nahi... (she brust out with) agar kuch ho gaya unhe to
daya said : maa please shaant ho jao... sab theek ho jaega... or officers bhi to honge na waha... kuch bura nhi hoga... (he clean her eye) aab rona band karo or chalo khana kha lete h (with sweet smile) bhot bhukh laagi h...
parinita take food for daya...
daya argue : maa aap sirf aapne akeli ke liye khana laai ho... (in innocent tone) m bhi to bhuka hu na...
parinita said without any smile : ye tumhare liye hi h daya...
daya speak in deep tone : maa... aap aab bhi sad ho... dekho aapke khana na khane se to kuch badle jane wala nahi h...
parinita in heartful tone : daya tere dad ne kuch nhi khaya... mere gale se niwala nhi utre ga ...
daya in dramatic tone : to theek h m bhi nhi khata... jab vo mahashya aa jae to aap dono hi candle light dinner karna ...
parinita burst out in laugh by listening the word (candle light dinner)
daya try to change her mood ..
he asked : maa aap dono gae ho kabhi dinner pe sath...
parinita said while smiling : tumhare dad ki duty sotan h meri... jab bhi kabhi bhaar jane ka plan banate tumhare dad... bureau se call aa jata... or fir dinner cancel...
after a second
she continue : (in sad tone) ek baar to unhe pair mein goli lag gai or vo hospital se sidha ghar aa gae ...mujhe kuch nhi bataya...or bole ki aaj to paka dinner per chale ge... hum log gae bhi per jab wapas
aae to tumhare dad ke wound se bleeding hone laag gai... fir hamari bhot ladai hui is baat per...
daya said with smirk : ladai hui thi ya aapne class lagai thi...
parinita gave a soft slap to daya with : bhot juban chalne lagi h daya tumhari...
daya said in laugh : aaj aapne jo aate hi class lagai. . ACP shab ki sari khumaari utar gai... sher bhigi bili ban gaya...
parinita said : tumhe majak lag raha h... mujhe kitni fikar ho rahi thi... abhijeet bhi aise achanak se chala gaya...
the name of abhijeet make the room silent...
parinita said : daya m jaanti hu ki tum bhot miss kar rhe ho abhijeet ko... per beta tension mat lo... ye missions aate jaate rahte h... or 2 mahine to chutki bajate hi nikal jaege...
she is trying to make daya strong but actually she is also missing abhijeet... and more then this she is tensed and concerned for him... 2 moth are not easy to spent without him...
daya become silent ...
parinita look at him and said : daya bache... aise muh nhi latkate...vo aajaega... bhot jaldi..
daya said in low tone : maa m aapse ek baat bolu... (parinita nodded) maa jab se m yha is ghar mein aaya hu meri abhijeet se baat nhi hui h theek se... matlab ki ek to vo bureau chala jata h... or phle mere dhyaan bilkul bas aapse milne per tha... Excitement hi itni thi.. .. or vo thoda kata kata sa reh raha tha mujhse... meine socha tha ki us se party ke baad baat kruga... or aab vo mission per chala gaya...
he take a deep breath and said : maa abhijeet theek nhi h... matlab ki usne aisa kuch kha ya kiya nhi per bas mujhe lag raha h ki jaise vo hum sab se dur jaa raha h... ek alag sa... ajib sa daar lag raha h...
parinita is listening all this very carefully... yes she also feeling same... even she noticed also... but she can't make daya more tensed...
parinita said with a smile : chalo khana kha lete h.. . khali pet tum jayada hi sochte ho... aab to mujhe bhi bhok lag gaai h...
and daya nodded normally...
they both start eating silently... but both are eating with unwanted heart... both are tensed for ACP sir and abhijeet...
yes daya is also feeling tensed for ACP sir... because he know the reality behind the normal weakness...
they both done there food...
parinita said : daya aab tum jakar so jao... m bhi soo jaati hu ... bhot thaak gai hu... bhot neend aa rhi h...
daya nodded simply... and left the room
parinita think in her mind : m janti hu daya tumhe neend nhi aaegi... per bache tumhe thodi der akele chodna hi acha h... u need time beta...
daya enter in acp's room...he sit on couch with a thund...
daya in his mind : (feeling regret) mujhe aisa nhi bolna chaiye tha ACP ko... (in anger) per usne kaam hi aisa kiya tha, kya ho jata agar vo mna ker deta... (in tension) agar fir se vo attack aaya to (daya is really tensed this time) na kuch khaya h na koi dawa li... aab kya kru...
daya think for sometime and then call a no.
daya on call : hello freddy...
freddy in happy tone : hello daya sir... kaise ho aap
daya without replying his question : freddy tum jaa rhe ho kya aaj ACP sir ke sath kisi drug dealer ko pakdne ke liye...
freddy nodded with : haa sir... m, sachin sir, Or kavin sir jaa rhe h...
daya said in serious tone : freddy suno ACP sir ki tabiyat theek nhi h... unhe kaafi weakness h... or.. or uski wajah se saans lene mein kai baar problem ho jaati h... tumhe unka dhyaan rakhna hoga... agar aisa kuch bhi ho to unhe relax karne ki try karna or paani pilana...bas unhe sambhalna h... (daya know that freddy is little bit emotional about ACP sir and teammates) Or tumhe bilkul bhi ghabrane ki jarurat nhi h... sirf unhe shaant rakhna...
he said all this in one go...
freddy said : fir aaj ACP sir ko sick leave le leni chaiye thi... koi or officer aa jata unki jagah...
daya start feeling angry again but he manage with : aab to jo ho gaya so ho gaya... tumhe bas aab ACP sir ka khayal rakhna h... ok?
freddy said with positive reaction : ok sir... aap bilkul bhi tension mat lijiye ga m hu unke sath...
daya said : thank you freddy... and cut the call...
ACP sir is sitting in car while looking outside
daya's words are rolling in his mind
meri maa ne bilkul shi fainsla liya tha (she left him alone... is really this decision is good) tumhare liye sirf tumhari duty jaruri h... not only duty... or koi nhi..khud bhi nhi... tum deserve bhi sirf duty hi karte ho... akele rehkar duty karna... the last sentence is still hitting his heart...
ACP sir close his eyes with a deep breath...
ACP sir in his mind : kyo baar baar ye soch raha hu m... aab to ye sab sun ne ki aadat ho gai h... (with a sad smile) Or daya... vo to waise bhi nafrat karta h mujhse... us ghar mein jhelta h mujhe... vo to waise bhi frustrate ho jata h... or sahi to kha... i deserve this...
daya roaming in room continually ... suddenly he stop by remembering something
he go near the drawer and open it... he find a dairy... daya slowly take it out and close the drawer...
daya in his mind : kahi ye hi to vo dairy nhi h... isme kya likha hoga ACP ne...emotions..feelings ..(in confusion) m ise padhu yaa nahi...
daya in rude tone : huh... mujhe kya... m nhi padhuga... chahe jo likha ho...
daya put the dairy back but before closing the drawer he find a crushed paper... daya unawarely pick the page... and open it
a living dead...
on a big white page only one line ...in the corner... in small hand writing...
daya feel a shiver in side him... something came in his mind...
daya sitting on his bed with teary eye...
he just take a page and write a line in the corner in maximum small handwriting
missing my parents... (millions of emotions and feelings are written in one line) .
he look at the page once and then crushed it badly and thrown out of the window
.
daya's eyes are shading tears... remembering his old days...
daya forcefully cleaned his eyes... and just place the page near his heart... don't know why...
today he is feeling the same pain... the pain of aloneness...
daya again saw the page... and said while sobbing : nhi vo.. vo.. use.. use.. jarurat h.. he need.. someone...
daya is really not in his mind control... today the words are totally from heart...
daya put the page in drawer back and just leave the room with fast steps...
daya close the door with a thud and lay down on bed with red eyes...
the same feeling... when he have lot's of things to tell someone... someone who is really his... when he want to cry while laying his head on his mother's lap... when he feel hurt...
the feeling of run away far from all the world...
the feel of death better than life
millions of feelings...
daya take out his mobile with trembling hands..
he just find a no. save by name : Abhi... the name give a pleasure to heart
daya dialled the number
the no. you are trying to rich is currently switch off..
daya became calm and put his mobile a side...
6 hours are passed...
dr. vinay is on the door...
daya welcome him with : aaiye dr.
daya's voice is dull... dr. vinay asked : tum theek ho daya...
daya said in low tone : m to theek hu dr. per (he tell that ACP sir is on duty)
dr. vinay said : kya karu m is admi ka... (he move his head in disappointment)
daya said : sayad kuch jayada jaruri kaam tha... isiliye...
dr. vinay said : uski wakalat maat kro daya...
daya said in hurry : nhi vo abhijeet yha nhi h na to bureau m koi senior officer nhi tha...
dr. vinay said :meine kha na wakalat maat kro... (he is angery this time)
daya said in low tone : mujhe bhi bhot gussa aaya tha per vo kisi ki nhi sunta... na meri na hi maa ki
dr. said : theek h to m chalta hu aab...hospital mein bhi kuch jaruri kaam h...
daya nodded simply... he don't ask about water or to sit...
dr vinay look at him and said in calm tone : theek hoga vo... don't worry... ACP Parduman ko kuch nhi ho sakta...
daya nodded simply...
dr. vinay take a deep breath and said : daya... (daya look at him) tum aise kamjoor nhi ped sakte... he need... he needs you...
daya said in little comfortable tone : m bhot majboot hu... bhot... don't worry .. bas saari raat neend nhi aai or sara din bhi busy gaya tha to thoda tired feel kar raha hu . ..
dr. vinay said : apna bhi dhyaan rakho daya...
daya nodded and dr vinay left...
parinita come on dinning table with food and said with love : daya bache kha lo kuch...
daya look at him for once and nodded simply
parita said while giving food to daya : tumhare dad ka koi call ya msg aya... (in lost tone) vo bhi bhukhe hoge...
daya said : nhi... koi call ya msg nhi aya...
daya started his food...
but in mid he listen doorbell... both parinita and daya look at each other...
daya get up from chair and open the door...
yes, ACP sir is there...
daya feel a relaxation... but his dull eyes and pale face make him tensed...
daya forwarded his hand with : andar aao...
ACP sir deny his support with : nhi koi jarurat nhi h... theek hu m...
he look at parinita who is looking at him...
then he silently went to his room with baby steps...
daya take food for ACP sir and went to his room...
daya enter with : knock krna bhul gaya sorry. ..
ACP sir look at him and said in dull tone : daya please bhuk nhi h mujhe.
daya said in taunting voice : m aram se kuch kehta hu to mante kyo nhi ho tum... fir kahoge tameez nhi h mujhe bolne ki...
ACP sir look at him ...he had no more energy to reply him ...he close his eyes... a tear slipped from the corner of his eye... which is noticed by daya...
daya get worried about ACP sir and just go and sit near him and asked in careful tone : tum theek ho ...
ACP sir give no reply ...
daya touch his shoulder and hand but shocked to find him warm...
daya check ACP sir's wrist and said : tumhe bukhar hai !!!!
ACP sir open his eye and said in mid conscious stage : da.. daya.. abhi.. abhi...ab.. abhii...
his heart beat is getting more and more fast...
daya said in concern : vo mission pe h...
ACP sir's condition getting worst... his hands are trumbling... face is covered with sweat...
daya take water and help ACP sir to drink a little bit...
daya said in pure tone : calm down... bas sab theek h... abhi bhi aa jaega kuch dino mein...
ACP sir hold daya's hand tightly...
daya hold his hand back and said in lovely tone : sab theek h... m hu na... (he don't know what to speak... his heart is saying something but he is not able to understand) hu m... tumhare sath hu... maa bhi h... abhi bhi h... hum sab h...
ACP sir look at him...
daya said : haa sach mein... aab shaant ho jao tum...
daya going to take food for ACP sir
ACP sir said in low tone : tum.. tum.. mat... jana.. gate.. b.. ban.. band.. maat.. karna...an. andh.. andhera.. bhot andhera ( fear come on his face)
daya said hurrly : nhi khi nhi jauga m... gate bhi band nhi karuga... yhi to hu tumhare sath... khana le raha tha bas..
daya feed ACP sir carefully... now his hands are not trumbling...
ACP sir said in little comfortable tone : bas daya... Or khaau ga to ulti aa jaegi... or nhi khana mujhe kuch... tum jao yaha se...
daya in his mind : lagta h theek h pahle se...
daya touch his forehead and said : m dr. vinay ko call karta hu wait...
ACP sir said nothing on it... because actually he also feeling the need of doctor...
daya call dr. vinay
daya sit near by ACP sir...
daya just want to convert ACP sir's mind ... he asked : pakda gaya vo drug dealer??
ACP sir nodded simply...
daya don't know what to talk and how to make him comfortable...
ACP sir said in low tone : tumhari maa theek hai... kuch khaya usne...
daya said with smile : haa theek h vo ... khana bhi kha le gi...
daya feel good by this question ...
ACP sir closed his eyes
daya in his mind : bhot thaak gaya h... aram karne deta hu...
daya keep silence...
After one hour
ACP sir listen a calm tone : ACP... ACP...
ACP sir open his eyes slowly and find daya and dr. vinay in room...
ACP sir look at dr. vinay who is looking serious... no sympathy in his eyes... ACP sir smile a little...
which work as fuel in fire...
dr. vinay look at him and not find cannula attached to his inner arm...
the whole room is fully silent...
dr. vinay really want to scold him but his situation don't allow him...
dr. vinay sit on bed near him... check his eyes.. and pulse...
and then said in calm tone : kaisa feel ker rhe ho ye puchne ki to jarurat hi nhi h...
ACP sir close his eyes and said in low and dull tone : bhot thaak gaya hu yaar... bhot...
his tone is enough to melt anyone's heart...
dr. vinay gently put his hand on ACP sir's forehead and said in lovely tone : Pardyuman aab to sab shi hone jaa raha h... or tum aise himmat har rhe ho...
ACP sir said in same situation : yaar tu mujhe hospital mein admit kr le...
it's really shocking... specially for dr. vinay...
dr. vinay said : tumhari mental condition ke hisab se tumhare liye sabse best jagah tumhara ghar h... hospital nhi...
ACP sir said in almost crying tone : yaar ye ghar har pal khane ko dhodta h... bhot hi azib sa lagta h... jaise saans hi nhi le paau ga m yha...
dr. vinay said in strong tone : bache nhi ho pardyuman tum... tumhe dhyaan rakhna hoga apna... himat rakhni hogi...
dr. vinay take another syringe and said daya to hold ACP sir's hand...
daya feeling nervous... yes it's difficult for him... daya touch his hand with trembling hands... it's make a beat skip from his heart... daya slowly hold his hand
dr. vinay said : aabki baar ise maat nikalna... warna kafi problem face karni pdegi...
dr. vinay inject the syringe... and ACP sir hold daya's grip tightly...
daya put his other hand with : bas...
ACP sir closed his eyes tightly...
dr. vinay speak in formal tone : ek baar bhi malish nhi ki h hath ki... pura hath suj gaya h... dard to hoga hi aab... (after some seconds) bas ho... gaya... done...
ACP sir take a breath of relief... and he open his eyes... which are full of tears and red in color...
daya feel bad for his condition...
dr. vinay said in high tone : dono khaan khol ker sun lo... mujhe kal ye sujan nhi chaiye... paste diya tha jo.. us se malish karna... ok...
daya and ACP sir said together : ok...
dr. vinay give some medicines and injections to ACP sir... and then attached a drip with : daya m to ab jauga to... khatam hote hi nikal dena ise syringe mein se ok?
yes it's too easy... but daya nodded with ensurity...
dr. vinay said daya : tum bhi bache nhi ho... tumhe hi dhyaan rakhna h aab iska jab tak abhijeet nhi aa jata ..
dr. vinay to ACP sir : or aap aab mehrbani ker ke ghar pe hi rhe... or apne dimak ko aram de
ACP sir nodded simply...
dr. vinay left the room with daya...
(in parking area)
dr. vinay said : daya dekha na tumne kya halat ho gai h uski.. (daya nodded )
daya said in irritation : per m kya kru... uski tabiyat to bigadti hi jaa rhi h...
dr. vinay said : daya use us andhere se bhar le kar aao us ghutan se... use akelapan mehsoos nhi hone dena... baatein kro... use samjhao ki sab uske sath h... vo depressed h daya ... uske dil ki baat suno...
after a silence : uske dil per ek bojh sa hogaya h kuch baaton ka... jo vo khena chahta h per himat nhi ker pata... uske dil se bojh halka karna h...
daya said : m koshish karuga...
dr. vinay said : good...
and then he left...
daya sitting silently near ACP sir...
ACP sir look at him and said : daya... (daya look at him) m aab kaafi behtar mehsoos kar raha hu... tum jaao Or aram kro... or dekho tumhari maa ne kuch khaya h ki nhi...
daya look him with blank eyes...
daya said in calm and low tone : mujhe jab un logo ne kidnap kiya tha to tumne mujhe dhundne ki koshish nhi ki?
ACP sir feel like something which is buried deep in his heart from years ago is uprooted suddenly
ACP sir said in lost tone : ki thi koshish...
(a silence take place in whole room)
ACP sir speak again : per tum hume nhi mile... kahi nhi mile... mila to ek chote bache ka khoon se sana dress...
ACP sir's face color get changed by remembering that horrible time...
he continue : wakt gujarata gaya or umeed ghat ti gai... or umeed rakhna bhi pagal pan hi tha...vo log bhot khatarnak the... jo kehte ker dete ...
daya looking blankly at ACP sir
ACP sir look at daya and said with smile : vo chota sa pyaara sa... masoom sa bacha... is tarah itne saloon baad ... crime ki duniya ka jana mana chehra bana hua milega... kabhi socha hi nhi tha...
daya said in low tone : meine kabhi kisi ki jaan nahi li... bas boss ki security ka jima tha mera...
ACP sir nodded simply : hmm... janta hu... abhijeet ne jab ye bataya mujhe to mujhe laga ki vo tumhare piche andha ho gaya h... fir jab sach pata chala Or saboot mile to bhrosa hua...
after some seconds of silence
daya said : mujhe bhi umeed nhi thi kabhi parivaar se..apno se mil pauga ... vo achanak se jab pata chala ki m kon hu... to...or fir boss ki sachai...(daya is not able to speak further)
ACP sir said in calm tone : hmmm...
daya speak with much courage : m ek baat bolu
ACP sir nodded in yes
daya take a deep breath and said : m janta hu tum PTSD se suffer ker rhe ho...
ACP sir feel dumb for a while...
ACP sir said with trumbling voice : y.. ye.. Tu.. tum.. kya... (his face become pale )
daya immediately hold his hand with : tum ghabra kyo rhe ho... (daya try to make him calm) tum akele nhi ho... sab h tumhare pass... m hu maa h.. abhijeet h... tum akele nhi ho...
ACP sir change his face side
daya said in deep tone : m hu na tumhare sath... tum nazre kyo chura rhe ho mujhse.. tumhe apne bure khayalo se .. bure wakt se.. puraani buri yaadon se bhaar aana hoga... bhula do vo sab
ACP sir asked in straight tone : tum dongara ko bhul gae... kya un deeno mein jo dard saha... jo akela pan saha use bhul gae... bhulana asaan nhi hota daya...
daya have no answer for his question...
ACP sir look at daya and said : m tumhe us wakt ki baatein yaad dila kar dukhi nhi karna chahta... jaao yha se...
daya said in straight tone : nhi bilkul bhi nhi... dr. ne kha h tumhe ek minute ke liye bhi akele nhi chodna h... tum akele hote ho to buri buri baatein sochte ho or fir tumhe vo panic attack ata h...
ACP sir said : daya insaan jab akela ander se hota h
to bhar ki duniya uske liye koi maine nhi rakhti...
daya speak : aab pravachan band ker ke soo jao... m yhi hu...
ACP sir said in tired tone : m kuch der akele rehna chahta hu...
daya give no reply...
so ACP sir closed his eyes ...
a person said : daya... daya... daya... daya... tch!! tch!! ... kya kya seh paoge tum... use sambhalo ge ya khud ko... (and he start laughing)
other side
a person writing something on a page with trumbling hands ... his eyes are shading tears...
the person look at page and said : sorry everyone...
the end...
to kon h ye dono logo
Or kya daya or ACP sir ke bich ek bond ban paegi
sab sahi hone wala h ya kuch bhot bura hone wala h
socho socho..
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