Chapter Ten

Dimitri hands out glasses of champagne. I take a glass eyeing Lillah who joined us not long after he proposed. I'll just hold it and pretend. Now does not seem to be the right time to tell him. "Mommy! Daddy said I get to be a flower girl." Lennon jumps up and down at my feet.

"That will be so exciting, baby." smiling at her I set my drink down to wrap her in a hug. She feels so little but I know she is getting big. My hand subconsciously grazes my stomach, catching myself. I quickly let it fall hoping no one noticed.

Lillah does but she takes Dimitris' attention pulling him into a hug "Congrats kido. You know if you wanted to you could have the wedding here we would love to have you."

His face lights up with excitement, his brain already formulating a vision no doubt "Thank you, we will definitely consider it."

His hand snakes around my waist as he pulls me close, kissing my head "I've never been happier." he whispers.

"Me too."

We spend the evening celebrating with friends, I do my best to act normal. Taking drinks, but finding a way to abandon them somewhere. Dimitri eyes me curiously after the third or fourth drink is forgotten on a table across the room. Honestly I'm surprised it took him so long to notice. The sun is long past set behind the mountains by the time we leave. Lennons eyes droop as soon as she gets buckled into her seat. Dimitri lets the radio play softly resting his hand on mine as I drive along the dirt road toward home. Once there we dress Lennon and tuck her in without waking her, poor thing is out. She had so much fun helping daddy. I can sense Dimitri watching my every move as I go about getting her tucked in neither of us talking for fear of waking her. He knows something is off though. He can tell I'm acting differently. Once we have closed the door I move into the kitchen and turn on the faucet filling a glass of water and drinking gingerly. My stomach is churning and I'm not sure if it's because of impending hormones or the weight of Dimitris' gaze.

"Do you regret it?" His voice is small.

"What?"

"We don't have to get married if you don't want to." I barely hear him.

"No I heard you the first time, what I meant is why would you think that? I love you Dimitri, there's no one I would rather spend forever with." I set the glass down and move toward him straddling his lap and taking his face in my hands.

He buries his face into them kissing my palm "What is it then you've been off all night? You didn't even have a sip of anything but water and the whole way home you looked green"

I suck in a deep breath, a cool breeze flutters through the open window bringing the smell of pine and cool spring water. It calms my deafening heartbeat. "I couldn't get the IUD today."

I never break eye contact and he meets me with confusion. "Why not?"

A small smile pulls at my lips as I realize I never got this moment with Dimitri when I had Lennon, no one was excited to hear about her. Half my world thought she was a mistake. She was not obviously I love her more than life and she is the greatest thing to ever happen to me, but I didn't realize how much this weighed on me until now. Dimitri is still looking at me expectantly. I lean down and kiss him softly nuzzling into his shoulder. His hands wrap around my waist holding me, with one last cleansing breath I let the words fall from my mouth flowing like silk "I'm pregnant."

Dimitri pulls me back still holding my waist in each hand. His eyes are wider than the full moon pouring light in through the window. His chest moves up and down rapidly. "You mean we're going to have another baby? Together?"

The pure devotion in his eyes make tears well in mine. "We're going to have a baby." I confirm.

He rests his head against my stomach whispering sweetly to my abdomen.

When he looks up his face is bursting with light and love. "We get to do this together this time, as a family. I get to be here for everything, the ultrasounds? The birth, the tests, everything? Please?" He pleads intently.

I nod, reaching into my pocket and handing him an ultrasound picture "I wouldn't want it any other way."

He holds the ultrasound with reverence, his fingers tracing the corners. "That's our baby?" I nod, "It's so small."

"So you aren't mad?" I prod.

"No, I'll never be mad at you for carrying our child." His lips meet mine in a moment of sweet love.

"I just know we never planned this… either time. I thought you might be upset." I confess quietly.

"Oh Milya, I love you, I love Lennon and I already love this baby." his smile grows "We're going to be a family." he whispers, pulling me into a blissful kiss.

The next morning I find myself over the toilet dry heaving which if you ask me is worse than actually throwing up, I was never this sick with Lennon. Lucky for me I have something I didn't when I was pregnant last time, and he just happens to walk in with a blanket and water bottle draping the blanket over me and sitting by me to rub my back he hands me the bottle. "Are you okay?"

I nod and lean against him closing my eyes "I'm glad you're here." I whisper sipping the water slowly "I never got this sick last time."

Dimitri runs his fingers through my hair slowly still holding me. "I'm glad I can be there this time."

"Me too." I manage to say before my stomach clutches again. Dimitri rubs my back as I heave over the toilet.

"It's going to be a long next few weeks." My face is sweaty and my eyes are watering.

I must look like hell because Dimitri scoops me up and takes me back to bed cuddling beside me. I spoon tight into him nuzzling into him, I seriously feel like shit. "I don't think I'm going with you today. I don't want to leave this bed."

Dimitri kisses my head softly "I took the rest of the week off, I wanted to be there at least for the first little bit."

My body relaxes into him a little more. "You didn't have to do that, I would have been fine."

"I know, but I really want it to just be us and Lennon for a couple days before we tell everyone."

"Lennon, she's going to be so excited." I smile softly, listening to her cartoon tunes play softly in the living room "How long do you think she's been up?"

"Her cartoons started playing right after you jumped out of bed."

"I'm so glad she can turn on cartoons by herself. I have a feeling getting out of bed is going to be a challenge the next few weeks."

"I'm glad too, but I should probably go get her breakfast, is there something you want to try? Maybe some crackers?"

I nod wrapping the blanket tightly around me to fill the cold void he leaves. As I hear him bid good morning to Lennon and start her breakfast I can't help but feel my heart soar with love for my family , this really is going to be so much better with Dimitri around. I think as my eyes fall heavy with exhaustion.

(I know its just a short chapter, but I wanted to give a little glimpse of Dimitri with Rose pregnant.)