Kairi's pov.
This was really happening...
He was kissing me.
I mean, I have kissed a guy before. My first kiss was with Zack and that was good. Riku was a little better but HOLY DAMN! Sora was next level. He was kissing me slowly. Afraid I would pull back. I was a little shocked that he kissed me but I closed my eyes and started to kiss him back. He let out a sigh and his lips started to move a little faster. His arms now wrapped around me pulling my body against his. My body felt like it was on fire and I just realized how much I not only needed but also wanted this. And I'm sure he felt the same because his hands started to grab me anywhere he could.
My hands were playing with his hair and even that his hair is very spiky they are a lot softer than they look. I pulled a little and he kissed me a little harder. His tongue licking my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter. I opened my mouth and he inmededly took this as a yes.
My mind was going crazy and my heart was beating so fast that it hurt. I had dreamed about this for so long and now it was finally happening. Wait it was real right? I'm not dreaming? As if he could read my mind he pulled away. "This is happening right?" He pushed me against the wall before I could answer and he picked me up like i weight nothing. He kept on kissing while doing this and A little moan escaped my mouth. I wanted him so bad.
He slowly pushed a hand under my shirt and I fell him trailing upwards.
"Yo, are we gonna watch a mov..." Riku opened the door and Sora and I pulled away but stayed frozen in place. Riku's eyes where the size of dinner plates and he left without saying a thing. "Nam, they're banging." I heard him shout and I knew my head was red as a tomato. "WHAT." was all i heard from Namine down the hall.
Sora let go of me and he took a step back. His face was red but his eyes were filled with lust. " I eh, I need to go." He said and I nodded. He left without looking at me and he closed the door but it was thrown open again by Namine. "KAIRI." She locked eyes with me and she pushed me back on the wall that Sora held me a few seconds ago. "Don't let us hanging tell us everything." She said with the biggest smile on her face. "Wait who is we?" I asked and I saw Roxas and Riku enter the room with the same smile on their face. "Does this mean we can have a treesome?" Riku said and his eyebrows wiggled up and down. "NO." I shouted and he pouted. "Ahw, another dream broken." "Riku no time for games, did he kiss you or you him? what was it like? Would you guys really do it if Riku never entered the room?" Namine was asking question after question and I held my hands up. "Woah, Nam take it easy." Roxas laid his hand on her shoulder. "Babe, it is finally happening! I've seen how they looked at each other for the past few weeks and Kairi has told me she has a crush on him for a few months now so please let me be happy." I was still standing against the wall with Namine's hands on my shoulders. "euh, he kissed me" I said and she smiled bigger. "oh my, i'm so happy so are you guys dating now?" She asked me happily. "I don't know." I said looking at the floor. "I'm sure he wants to date you as much as you want to date him." She said and I looked up. "Are you sure?" "yes, now come watch that movie." She said and we all walked back.
A week had past since Sora and I kissed and it was awkward. I know he was avoiding me. I mean when ever I saw him he would literally run away. On the hallway of school. He walks away. When i'm at my locker he will turn around. Lunch? No Sora to be found.
"I'm telling you, he is just nerves." Riku stuffed his sandwich in his mouth while he talked." "No i think he doesn't want to ruin the friendship." Roxas said. i laid my head on the table, my food long forgotten. "Guys, stop Kairi is already feeling guilty." Namine said. They mumbled a sorry but i kept my face down. People would still talk about what happened with Xion, Rikku and Zack. So i was not only avoiding the eyes of everyone around me but my mind was running all around. Was i that bad? Was he just feeling sorry or did he just need it so he could get his mind off Xion? Did he actually believe the rumors?
I held my head back up and just as it couldn't be worse I laid my eyes on Sora. But he was not alone, no... his lips where on a girl I never have seen before and I felt my heart sink. Namine saw my face and she turned around so see could see what was happening and her mouth hung open. "What is he doing?" She said as loud as she could be. He turned around at the sound of her voice and he locked eyes with me. A small smile came on his face and he started to walk over to us. My heart was pounding fast. "Since when does he have a thing for Selphie?" Riku said with a confused look on his face. "Hey guys, you may know Selphie from the cheerleader team." He said and my heart dropped. His eyes never looked at me, not even once. Jup, still running from his problems i see. "Hey, nice to meet you all, Sora has told me a lot about you, except from you but I heard a lot." She said now looking at me with a wide grin. Oh no... I thought but I forced a smile. "Hi, I'm Kairi, nice to meet you." I said and she held out her hand. "Nice to meet you Kairi, I'm proud you're still coming to school everyday, if i was you i would hide under a rock and never show my face to the outside world again." God her words were more annoying then her voice.
"Hey, back off of Kairi, she did nothing wrong." Riku said and he warped his arm around my shoulder. "Ah Riku, i'm glad you care about her but be careful it can ruin your reputation" She said and he clenched his fist. "If i were you i would start walking the other way Selphie or do you want me to tell everyone what you told me that one night?" Riku had a evil smile on his face and hers lost all color. "Well, i'm leaving now." She kissed Sora on the cheek. "Bye babe, I will see you after classes." She walked away and Sora watched her go. "Sora, what are you doing?" Namine said once she was out of hearing. "What? Can't i date a cheerleader?" Sora sat next to Roxas still avoiding me. "Listen we all know what happened between you and Kairi so don't act dumb." Nam said and he rolled his eyes. "I have no clue, and it was a one time thing only. Besides she isn't even ready for it all." He said with a annoyed voice and I felt tears in my eyes. "Sora, why are you acting like this?" Riku asked and he kept on playing on his phone. "I'm not acting and if you like her so much you should date her." he said and I heard enough. I pushed the chair back and I walked back to my room. I was not in the mood for my afternoon classes. Namine called my name but I kept on walking.
Sora's Pov.
"Nice one dickhead." Riku said and I keep on playing on my phone. "Sora, I hope you're happy because first you kiss her and act all friendly with her and now you're pushing her away and even dating Selphie? What's wrong with you? I know you hate that chick." Riku said and I let out a heavy sigh. "You know what, I'm going." I said and I walked out of the cafetaria leaving my friends behind.
They don't understand it. I was only acting like this so I won't get hurt again. The truth is. I think I l love kairi. When I kissed her last week I was feeling something I've never felt before and it scared the crap out of me. When I left that room i was feeling different. I wanted to be around her, kiss her all day and make her the happiest girl alive. When I was with Xion I did like her but I didn't want to throw myself in front of a bus so I could make her happy. I liked the way she kissed but she never left me breathless, craving for more like she was my oxygen.
And Selphie was just in the wrong place at the wrong time because I kissed her without thinking and boy did I hate it. It was sloppy but in a gross way. It made my skin itch in a bad way and I could not even think doing other things with her. But to protect myself I kept on doing it and now i'm way too deep to admit I hate it. Not without a good plan. And I hate myself so much now that I keep on acting like a jerk.
I walked back to my room not feeling like going to my classes anymore. I hate that I'm doing this to her, but what if she breaks my heart like Xion did? What if she just use me for my body and looks and can't answer my feeling? I'm not risking all that. I heard a loud sob coming from down the hallway and I knew that sob a little too well. Kairi was sitting under the stairs, her knees pulled up to her chin and her face hidden in her hands. It broke my heart to see her crying like this. I had my feet on the first stair step but my body froze after what she said. "Why do I love him. Kairi you're just as dumb as always, falling for the boy that won't love you back and break your heart." She said in a whisper but I still heard it all. She kept on crying and didn't even notice that I was only a few meter away from her. "Even Namine thought it would finally happen, but why should he. I'm not worth it." She said to herself.
I wanted to keep on walking, ignoring her and pretend I never saw her or heard what she just said. But my heart was beating so fast. I wanted her so bad. I wanted to kiss her tears away. Hug her so her painful heart would stop hurting. Tell her how much I loved her and tell the world how much I love her. Show she's mine. And maybe grow old with her.
I must have made a sound because she stopped crying and I heard her body move. Crap should I run? Do I stay? I was panicking and before i could act she saw me and her eyes grew bigger. "Hi." I said awkwardly and she wiped her face. "Hi." she said in a tiny voice. her eyes red from crying and her makeup all washed on her face but she was still the most beautiful girl i have ever seen.
None of us moved and time was going really slow. After a good five minutes of just standing and holding our breath I finally opened my mouth. "Can we talk?" I asked. She blinked a few times but she nodded. "Should we go to my room or yours?" i asked knowing Riku would be gone for the next four hours. "Yours, Namine and Roxas will be back in a hour." She said now looking at her shoes. "Alright." I said and walked slowly up the stairs. Kairi right behind me.
I need to tell her i love her. No more running or pretending. Selphie can screw off and make someone else missable.