A/N: I don't own Harry Potter or any related characters
This is for the 30 days of music challenge Prompt: 9. I'm Trying (Not Friends) - Maisie Peters
word count: 234
Not sure where we stand anymore,
we're not friends, Merlin knows I'm trying,
but this isn't going how we planned.
I wanted something more,
wanted to be yours,
but you're too damaged to see,
too damaged to allow yourself anything
resembling a healthy life,
a healthy love.
Grown up now,
taking over for Professor Vector,
going to be coworkers now,
is this my second chance?
Still so distant,
still want to keep me at an arm's length.
Had a dream,
I was the snake that murdered you,
I was a knife plunged into your back.
I know you know about the nightmares,
know you've taken a peek into my head.
Maybe we're all a bit messed up,
maybe the war's addled our minds,
maybe it's my odd way of coping with the
fact I want something I can never have.
I'm trying to stop
feeling like this,
I'm trying to pretend I don't care,
that I'm not watching,
that I don't see the sleepless nights
etched on your lined face,
that I don't see the pain in your eyes.
We're not friends, not yet,
because you want to keep me away,
but I'm not going to let you this time,
You need someone
I need someone
One drink?
Becomes two, three,
and a slow truce,
a slow end to the distance
as we both try to find something
where you thought there was nothing.