BEFORE
~you plead and persist that she didn't do anything. She went away and left us all alone in the dark for 3 long years...we waited by that old rotting well, just waiting... hoping that she'd come back to us and for what? ...to be left alone...on top of being forgotten. YOU may have forgotten , BUT I DIDN'T ~
Inuyasha now understood the demon's pain, cause it was his own. With all the memories flooding back he realized just how much of a fool he has been.
While losing his mind back in the feudal era he went berserk and attacked not only his friends but anyone who tried to get close.
He remembers how the loneliness slowly killed whatever humanity he had left. He could sympathize and understand because while he was slipping away into the darkness that held no hope. His demon side that already claimed Kagome as his primary mate suffered as well.
Yes, the pain was UNBEARABLE and the loneliness was excruciating looking back at It now...he understands why he went to the lengths that he did. Why he tracked this sorceress down, despite knowing the price getting Kagome back would cost...he jumped in head first not caring about the consequences , just as long as he could have her within his arms again.
And it wasn't for some selfish need to claim her, and take her, and selfishly mark her...No!, he did what he did because he LOVED her, they both loved her and not having the person you love with all your being beside you...you do what you can to get that warmth back to unfreeze your cold dead heart.
A part of him doesn't regret the choices he made...but another part of him did cause with this wish to be reunited with Kagome it came with a price of losing their memories. Even tho he got his back...she still hasn't.
I whipped the tears off my face and with all my efforts and might, i shook my head in disagreement. " It wasn't her fault, WE went to the sorcerer..and WE asked for something that came with a price. Kagome's disappearance wasn't by choice it was the secret Jewels. She brought the jewel back, when she wished it to disappear, her job there was also done...She didn't leave because she wanted to...I knew that, we both knew that...but we were both so blinded by loneliness and grief..and watching the others live out their happy lives made us all the more mad for the same.
~she's our mate...she should know her place.~
Inuyasha nods sympathizing with the demon. " your right...her place is by our side. and if you don't let me out, you'll end up doing something that'll cause both of us to lose her... forever."
CONTINUATION
Inuyasha watched through the little source the demon gave him to see. As the demon reflected at what he was being told.
~ You wanna suppress me and let her go unpunished?...feh~
Inuyasha swallowed thickly. " why should she be punished for something she didn't do, huh? "
the demon stiffened and clinched his fist against the door.
~ she should suffer...the same pain she made us suffer~ he grunted out through its lengthy teeth.
Inuyasha shook his head and reached a hand out not knowing what it was he was reaching for but he did it anyway. He heard the pulsating of his heart and reached deeper and deeper until his hand was able to wrap itself around it. He closed his eyes and felt all the heartache the demon inside him kept buried away.
" If we hurt her...then it proves that our feelings for her were never truly sincere. You love her right?. People don't hurt those they claim to love"
The demon's eyes snapped open when he heard a shuffle and heard the click of her door unlocking.
He watched as the handle started to twist but before it opened he hurried and grabbed it pulling it shut.
The demon stared down at his hand as droplets landed on the surface. He growled and hurried to whip away his tears. ~ Don't lock me away, half demon~ the demon's hand came to its face as he silently sobbed. ~ because, I love her too~.
And with that the demon dissipated and let the half demon take back control.
Inuyasha blinked a bit trying to get his eyes to focus. He reached his hands up and opened and closed both of them, good he was back in control. He gave a long drawn out sigh...and tried to regain the composure of his emotions.
Kagome was behind this door. She was gonna open it but was frozen in fear when it was forced to be pulled shut. He took a deep breath and knocked on the door again.
She inhaled a breath, her heart beat picking up. he could tail she was scared.
" It's really me Kagome. I'm back, you don't need to be afraid. " I made my voice as small and soft as I could when I saw that door knob twist and slowly open.
she opened it also kinda hidden behind it. She peeked out and looked at me. When she noticed it was me and not what my physical form looked like moments ago she opened the door wider, her bottom lip trembling.
I felt my will power start to decompose, as soon as her lip began to quiver. I felt a knot in my throat and a whimper kinda excepted my lips. " I'm so sorry" I reached out and grabbed her hand in both of mine resting my forehead against her shaking hands. I kneeled down and I begged her for forgiveness. " I'll explain everything if you're willing to listen "
she didn't know how to respond, she wanted to believe his sincerity but after everything that just conspired she was too emotional to think rationally. All she could do was stare unapologetically as the creature before her begged on his knees while recklessly sobbing into her hands.
Her silence became too much to bare so he told her EVERYTHING.
" What I'm about to tell you may seem...confusing, but it's all one hundred percent truth. I'm from the past, a period of the past that they called feudal Japan in today's history books. I'm a half Inu demon, my father was the great dog demon of the West and my mother was a human. Therefore I'm half demon. Which in my time period was extremely frowned upon. I was considered a dirty half blood cause of my heritage. " She didn't utter one word she just stood there frozen and quiet
" Your Kagome Higurashi, also known as the reincarnation of Kikyo, a powerful priestess who ended up dying and being resurrected. You and her shared a soul. Kikyo and I were once upon a time close but we were deceived by a wretched demon named Naraku, and we ended up hurting one another, she sealed me to a tree with one of her secret arrows where i laid dormant for 50 years. The same tree that you awoken me from when you broke that wretched spell"
she looked completely indifferent about everything that I was saying and gave me this particular look that was a mixture of disbelief and crazy.
Her eyes seemed lost. And he saw how her expression slumbered...she didn't believe me and it fueled something inside that hasn't been felt in decades...i felt defeated.
what could I do to get her to believe me?
what other proof did i have other than my words to persuade her...what did other than flashes of memories did I act have... damnit i wasn't sure.
I wracked my brain trying to think of any possible thing that may spark some sort of memory.
then it dawned on me, the beads of segregation...that's IT!
" I understand that this may be a lot to take in, but i promise i ain't making all of this up. I know it sounds farfetched and that after everything you've just been through with me ...with that other part of me...it may be unforgivable for me to even ask you to consider to believe what im telling you...i know...i know im asking a lot from you but PLEASE... give me the opportunity to show you, let me make it up to you. "
I unbuttoned the top two buttons of my collar and reached inside my shirt and grabbed a handful of the cold beads, i pulled them out and laid them on top of my shirt. Honestly i haven't looked at the beads in over a century...i always kept them tucked away and out of sight ..i sighed out and continued.
" Kagome, the day that you and i ran into each other, when we were both running late for work...when our skin touched... visions of the past override my sight. After that, bits and pieces of my memory started to come back, every time i was around you new things awoken. I remember everything now, about who i am, about my life 500 years ago, about our friends and about you. And it's my fault that you don't remember anything... because i was selfish"
she looked at him curious now, " what do you mean, it's your fault? "
I didn't know if i had the strength to continue on with the story cause even though she was in front of me, psychically me telling her would cause me to remember and relive the pain all back over again...but i need to, in order for her to understand and perhaps open her mind to remember.
" I...i made a wish, to be with you again...and that wish came with a price" i stumbled over my words " You and i, and our companions 500 years ago were in a battle to defeat a demon named Naraku. We fought for days, the battle was intense and brutal, but eventually we defeated him.After the battle was won victory, a portal opened up and it sucked you in, i tried to reach out for your hand but i couldn't grab you... the Portal closed and you were gone...i was beside myself terrified, i didn't know what was happening or why you just... disappeared...but you were gone ..my hand was still reaching out but all that surrounded it was emptiness. I remember feeling dread build up in the pit of my stomach...and the fear of once again being left alone in the world ...and it ate at me from the inside out...then part of me started panicking...i already had what i thought was love brutally token from me, here i am again finally realizing what love actually was and it was yank out under my nose like it wasn't meant for me."
I took a big shaky breath...this wasn't easy for me to tell...till this day, it hurt
" I couldn't let that be the end of us, i just couldn't...so i used my Tessaiga and used meido to open up a rip in time and space. I flew in willingly if it meant finding you...but all that i came across were hundreds if not thousands of relentless demons.
And no matter how many i slayed, more continued to come...not only that...they told me that the secret Jewel declared to use you to stay dormant inside it to battle the war that ragged within it, just like the past priestess. And that me looking for you was just giving you false hopes...but still i couldn't stop, i had to get to you"
she watched as tears weld up in his golden eyes
" but...why?"
i smiled sadly at that question as if it wasn't already plain to see..." cause at that moment...i knew we were meant for each other...that moment i knew...i didn't want anything else other than you "
her eyes widened and her faces turned pinkish. " so then ...why don't i remember anything then? "
" That ...was the price. Once I found you within the darkness of the Jewel, I came to terms with my feelings. We shared a passionate moment briefly, and then you made the one and finale correct wish...you wished for the secret Jewel to disappear from the world... forever. When you did that...our worlds were divided and we were thrown back to our own original time periods. "
Still trying to gather all of this new information was causing her to feel lightheaded...she felt dizzy.
I watched the color drain away from her features and then within a few seconds I started to notice she was losing consciousness before her body started to give out ..I hurried and grabbed her.." hey...don't pass out on me...I need you to remember" I said out of panic.
she laid there, a perfect fit within his arms. Why was he the only one able to remember their past?. Was this also the curse of selfishness... suffering to remember what I had...even tho Kagome is here in my arms...I'm to suffer remembering everything while she remembers nothing.
I clenched my teeth in frustration, when a slight knock caught my attention...it was Travis...i didn't even have to turn my head to see him...I could smell his cologne.
" Travis...could you take Mrs. Higurashi to the hospital? "
Travis walked up behind him...and placed a hand on his shoulder giving him a reassuring squeeze..he sighed and looked to the floor in shame..." hey man...I have something I need to be upfront with you about."
His heartbeat sped up and I realized his body reacted nervously. I turned my head to look up at him confused.
His eyes scanned over Travis which in return made Travis worried about his next words.
" I know... I know who you really are Inuyasha" he said quickly, screwing his eyes shut waiting for the impact of Inuyasha rage, he opened one eye to look at Inuyasha...and wasn't greeted with anger or rage. Inuyasha's gaze remained on Kagome unconscious figure.
" I kinda figured" I replied back, I snickered a bit. " you seemed to understanding about my... abnormalities."
Travis laughed nervously and scratched the back of his head." psh what's normal anyways. Anyway...what happened here? I asked Kagome to come check on you cause you were acting...off, I was worried but I had to hurry home cause the wife is sick...so I asked Kagome to come check on you..yet inside of her being at your place your here at hers...and before you ask me why I'm here...my wife had me bring over kagome some left over dinner..I wasn't being weird or pervy. "
well since he pretty much answered my thoughts I nodded. " I... remember my past...and she's part of it"
" Wh...what?"
" Travis you remember when I first started at the club? or even before that...when you met me roaming the streets... confused?"
Travis nodded. " yeah that was a scary time...you were soaked through to the bone, covered in dried blood and dirt.."
I nodded. " That was the day I made the wish"
Travis raised a confused brow. " a wish?"
" The day you found me, was the same day I made a wish to be reunited with Kagome...but the price to the wish was to forget everything about our life beforehand. Only thing is...my memories were awoken, the more time I spent with Kagome, each encounter opened up a new memory...like a door that was locked shut, to never be opened...every time we ran into each other it was like an explosion and memories started to pour out..."
" Soooo...you previously knew each other?" Travis was still confused.
" I'm from the funeral era Travis...500 years from the past...Kagome is originally from this time period...but I originally ain't. Kagome was able to time travel from her time to mine through a portal called the Bone eaters well...when we first met, I wasn't very fond of her and I'm sure she could've cared less if my head was torn off my shoulders...I wasn't the nicest of person...but we traveled for years together gathering shards of the Secret Jewel...and on our journey we've made friends who became my family...we defeated a formidable demon named Naraku and the jewel was wished out of existence...when that happened...Kagome was yanked out of my world.. and I couldn't function or live properly in a world we're she didn't exist ...I lost my ways...my friends, and every day without her i was slipping into the darkness and started to turn into a monster... losing what shred of humanity I had left...I went to search for some answers...found a way to be reunited with Kagome...but every selfish wish comes with a price...she doesn't remember who I am...cause that was the price i had to pay...this devil woman...is my weakness ..she has been from the very moment she awoken my heart. " I could hopelessly feel tears dripping from my eyes, but I didn't bother to swipe them off my cheeks...it doesn't make you any less of a man to shed a tear or two for the people you love.
Travis didn't know how to respond, he felt sorry for his friend...he felt remorse for his pain...all those years suffering only to be reunited and forgotten...if that were him and his wife...he wouldn't be able to remotely live... Inuyasha has gone decades loving a woman just to have time remove her from his life...to losing his sanity into making a wish that caused them to be together yet not together...the sympathy he felt for Inuyasha was unnumerable.
Travis voice shoke a little when he said these next words. " I'm so sorry Inuyasha...for all the pain you have had to endure all this time..I dont feel you did anything wrong...I dunno if I would've been able to live... of that happened to me and my wife."
I didn't need to be pitted, but I his sympathy did mean a lot...I looked down at Kagome. " what should I do Travis? what should I do?" I asked on desperation.
All I wanted was for Kagome to remember, I wanted her to open her eyes and smile up at me remembering who I am...with warmth and love..