Love Lockdown by Kanye West
Day 6
Hawks, Keigo, whoever he was, loved her but people couldn't know that. So it was easier when he had made a mistake. It was supposed to be a publicity stunt but he had actually slept with the hero and then when he felt like he wasn't good enough anymore he did it again with someone else.
He shouldn't have done it the first time. Or the second. And then he didn't for a while. A reallly long time. His love for Ali was pure and he had the love locked in his heart and he cherished it.
And then he got involved with Dabi and the League as told to by the commission. To become a double agent. So then he stayed out later and left earlier. Leaving her alone and becoming too tired for her.
He wasn't treating her the way he wanted to. It hurts to be doing these things. She deserved better. It's not good for either of them.
Day 7
There were so many secrets. Her from the commission, the media and everything. The League from the heroes and the heroes from the League.i It was all tangled.
And because she was hidden from all of it. The commission didn't think twice about pulling publicity stunts and the League thought he was a playboy. That's how it happened a third time. He had gone almost 3 years without cheating on her, because he loved her.
But then he needed to impress Dabi and apparently that meant getting head from some random chick that thought his wings were hot.
Being the 'playboy' he couldn't say no. So he accepted what Dabi dubbed his gift. With his eyes closed and his back leaning against the kitchen counter he accepted the girl's blow job. It was awkward at first because he knew Dabi was watching and enjoying the show. The sweet heart throb getting a blow job for a cheap whore in a rundown apartment.
It was stupid easy to fall. To fall in love with Ali. But it was also really easy to fall into the guilt that consumed him. Making it easier when Dabi had gifted him another willing partner to please him. And then there was another one. And then there was another but this one wanted to do more. He shut his eyes and fell into it.
And when he would come home he'd look around their apartment and be reminded of how far he had fallen. The commission praised him, the public praised him and now Dabi praised him.
But when he came home he may as well have been alone. Because the woman he wanted praise from he had put at the bottom of the list.
Today when he entered the apartment she was sitting on the couch drinking her favorite lemon mint tea. He could smell the hot aroma from the door.
The look in her eyes. She knew it was coming before he even sat down. But he still prolonged it by changing out of his clothes.
He was losing himself. And he was watching her lose herself too. She was always waiting on him and continued to love him even when he treated her like this.
They never actually said the words that needed to be said. They hugged one another in silence. He pulled her onto his lap and put his chin on her head.
"I love you so much." He spoke and he hoped she heard it. He hoped that she felt it. That is sent a message string enough to bring them back together one day.
He wanted to be with her. She was the one that he wanted a life with. To settle down with. Build a home with. He would fantasize about how he'd lock down their love. How and when he'd pop the question. But that's not what was happening. And they both knew it.
"I love you, Keigo."