Dearest One

by benslerbensler

All the letters that Olivia and Elliot wrote to each other throughout the 10 years that they never sent. TRIGGER WARNING ON CERTAIN CHAPTERS-LOOK AT THE TOP OF CHAPTERS

10. Chapter 10

***TRIGGER WARNING; SUICIDE***

ELLIOT'S POV

Sept. 21, 2013

Olivia Benson

It's been 2 years. 2 years since I made the wrong decision. It was the wrong decision. I know that I have lost the chance to make it right. I have to live with the decision I made. I'm sorry, Olivia.

I can't continue to live in our city. I don't think I can continue to live. I still see Jenna every night. I have had the same nightmare every night since I killed her. Maybe I should get help. Or maybe I should get over it. I don't read the paper, I don't watch TV, and I don't use my phone. I sleep, I eat, I go to work, and then I repeat that process.

I need to move on. How am I supposed to move on when I see you everywhere? You're in the clouds. You're in every leaf that falls off its branch. You're the wind that reminds me I need a jacket. You are everywhere.

Elliot Stabler