I haven't updated since July 2016 and I am so sorry for that, you can all message me whatever you feel. Enjoy and many thanks.

Since his last vision, Dboy's overthinking intensified. It began to have an effect on the rest of the group. Eff had even questioned himself why and how his life was meant to be, for what purpose? But he knew to take that back since it would be giving Dboy too much power, even worse to make him right. Reverend would pay close attention to Eff's unsure thoughts naturally, and would try to reign over such thoughts to persuade him. However, Reverend found you can't bullshit a bull-shitter. Sickness wasn't having any of the extenetial crisis that was becoming so infectious she wondered how long it would take for her to bludgeon each of them to death.

In the early hours in the morning, the surrounding forest was covered in a light frost as the scent of pine and blossoming wildflowers of early spring permeated into the air as all four beings started their journey again. Following a stream that turned into a small and narrow river Dboy suspected the route they were taking was right beside the river. It was getting warmer as sweat began to form and had everyone want to stop for a break. Dboy himself never minded about pain as he always welcomed it.

As he stood by the river bed he looked at his reflection for the first time in a while. Black short straggly curls of hair that trailed some on the sides of his face, tan dark skin, scar tissue marred around his neck and crooked nose, cheekbones that framed his face and dark blue eyes. He looked at himself, an illusion that humans can only see, if they were flushers or maybe creatures of his own world they would see him differently. While Dboy looked very similar Eff, his counterpart still had features of a younger version and his brown eyes were a little bit more tilted up like a cat. His scars showed a less than Dboys and appeared more faded.

To Dboy, Eff's appearance was different than his human reflection in the lake. Eff next to him had red glossy eyes that bared the same paint markings around his eyes when he was styrofoam. In fact, all his paint markings were still there, his curly mop of hair seemed to float and wave like if it was in water. Dboy wondered if it was just him who saw Eff like that or if every voice saw each other similarly to their past self. Did Eff see him like the pastry stands they used to be too?

Dboy hated to converse with any of them, so he kept to himself the best he could. Always ahead of the group and always leading so he wouldn't have to take anyone else's shit and the only two that complained about his leadership was Sickness and Eff.

But right now, they could only fight with themselves.

"Fucking hell..." Sickness pouted as she kneeled down looking at herself in the water. She looked so similar to (her would-be-flusher-if-she-didn't-blow-it) Devi. Only difference was her dark brown hair and beauty moles all over her face and neck. Freckles would be an understatement. But Sickness, next to Eff, looked vile as her skin chipped and cracked like the doll painting she once was. Her eyes were empty white sockets in her head as the screws she had kept in the cupboard back in the cabin now carried in her pocket went undone. Her unnaturally small lips would stretch at any degree when she talked. Her sack head had purple hair like Devi's, but like Eff it too floated in the air.

"What's biting you now?" Eff teased "Angry because you look like her?" Sickness rolled her eyes and scoffed. Eff knew he was right as he looked at himself in a narcissistic manner, he reckoned he could fit the description of tall, dark, and handsome. How unfortunate for others.

Eff made a short laugh at looking at Sickness reflection and stood up, "Strange innit? Why did our creator do this to us?"

The second question he posed sounded like something Dboy would say, but Effs tone was different. Almost like a plea.

Looking back at everyone Eff tried to not sound weak," Don't get it twisted. I quite like myself actually. But I wonder what our creator thinks. Why do you think he has us looking at each other as if we never changed?"

"So it's just not you?" Revered blurted out.

"Well isn't it obvious?" Eff continued, "It's become apparent that we see each other differently physically. My reflection isn't what I really look like but to humans or things that aren't like us. I've noticed this while we were at the camp, there was many men ogling sickness and women giggling at everything I said to them no matter how condensing they were. But I know why. At least now."

He walked back over to the lake, standing over he saw a handsome face staring back. "We look like this because it's easier to forget what we were. T immerse ourselves in this character. But when we're around our kind we get reminded. A part of me likes this while most of myself hates this reminder."

Looking over at Sickness, he remembered that the hope of freedom wasn't just in his mind, "I know you think the same too. Not fair when you think about it, right?"

Heaving a sigh, she looked back at her and Eff's face. She didn't want to accept the fact that on the inside she was still the same. Her fists balled up as she punched her reflection out of frustration.

Eff began walk around, he felt everyone wasn't up for conversing. He hated the fact that he was partially still his old mold and couldn't change that. Johnny made him into this no matter how hard Eff yearned to be and belong his own self. he glanced back over to Dboy and thought about the visions he kept receiving. It was a bit concerning something that that was suddenly happening when they left the house. But what had that to do with him after all?

Absolute bullshit.

The day had passed quick as the oncoming night consumed a short sunset and turned a billowy spring sky to a dark clouded mess. Thunder erupted with loud crashes as the group continued to hike through the mountain path. Mud was beginning to collect in puddles every step they took and being by the river that grew wider and wider didn't help. Dboy speculated that they would have to get to higher ground where there was more stone than dirt. Looking around the forest he saw a mountain up ahead, if they could climb straight across it's rocks then they would avoid slipping into the river. Looking behind at the others he spoke up against the roaring winds, "We'll have to go up this mountain to not drown! Follow me you little shits!" Dboy still didn't like to pretend to try to stay alive but didn't want Eff to keep living in this world either, they would both have to die. All nodding in agreement the other three joined Dboy up the mountain. Sickness looked up terrified of the grade scale of the mountains face, there would be plenty of grip to hold onto more than the mud but one wrong move and there's no going back.

Climbing up and up the mountain everyone had reach a couple of feet high, high enough to escape the ever-expanding river. One by one they all took narrow steps and as the rain continued the rocks gradually become more slippery. Eff stop for a moment to mistakenly look down as the once small stream turned into a coursing river, for the first time in a long time he felt his heart racing of terror and quickly looked away to his left where Sickness was right next to him she was looking down too below and was breathing heavy with panic in her eyes. Lightening danced in the clouds above them as sickness clutched into the cliff side and started to hyperventilate. Something stirred up in Eff as he saw this site next to him. Sickness was so far the only other being he could relate to for having a lust for life. Seeing her like this compelled him in a weird way he didn't know what to do, so he followed instinct. Quickly looking to his right he saw Dboy and Reverend too far ahead to call them out, he had to do this on his own he quickly looked back over at Sickness.

"Psst hey! Sickie!" Still hyperventilating, Eff tried his best, and tried to scoot over closer, "Look at me will ya! Stop acting chicken shit now!" He grinned at her to hide the fact he was far from giddy.

His felt his heart dropped to his stomach as he began to see her cry, she hiccupped out a few words, "I'm... hurting..." slowly she stretched out her right hand for Eff to see. It was bloody and bruised as he reached out to touch her hand only for her to pulled back in pain.

"I'm tired and too cold, climbing this far is hurting me Eff -"

"Shut up!" He growled at her, his red eyes started to glisten, "Don't quit now bitch we still got a list of things to do remember?" She shook her head.

"I'm...sorry." The rocks under Sickness feet started gave way, clinging to rocks she desperately tried to hang. Furiously, Eff grabbed her injured hands as he tried to call out for Reverend.

He couldn't hear Eff, his back was still turned as was Dboys. The roaring of the storm was becoming too much to bear. Eff looked into Sickness empty eyes when he noticed the rock underneath him was cracking also. Splitting apart, it trailed down the way towards Dboy and Reverend.

"Do you know what shale is?" Asked Reverend, shivering.

Dboy had about enough of Reverend trying to chit-chat ever since the storm started. Dboy could tell idle conversation was the only thing keeping him calm enough to kept steady while climbing but would Dboy ever give in?

No of course not it was too funny to him.

But Reverend continued, eventually talking to himself about the kind of rock that was under their feet. Like Dboy gave a shit.

"Shale is the most common sedimentary rock, they stack on top of each other in layers due to some kind of clay component in their structure." Reverend kept trying to keep up with Dboy, he was going faster away from Reverend so to not hear anything from him as it was getting more annoying. The winds raged on so it was becoming a little bit easier to not hear him.

But boy did he go on. Even in the harsh winds Reverend only raised up his voice.

"Dboy, have you noticed how dark this rock is! I mean it's black, but shale is safer when it's a different color than that-"

Dboy held onto the side of the mountain and gave the darkest glare at Reverend, "Will you shut the fuck up about the skull-fucking rocks?! This narrow path might kill us and I want to die peacefully without hearing your stupid fucking voice!"

Then, he noticed Reverend had been looking away towards where Eff and Sickness had fallen behind.

"Did you hear that?" He asked. Dboy was confused for a second then exclaimed, "Yes, it was the sound of me itching to ram my foot up your ass!"

Reverend looked over to Dboy, "No I'm serious I thought I heard Eff." Right when Dboy was going to jab another insult, he heard some of the rocks falling down the trail they came from. It had to be coming from where Eff and Sickness were but the rain blocked so much visibility he couldn't see the other two at all. He noticed Reverend shaking and looking down at his feet, Dboy noticed under their feet the shale rock was cracking.

They were going to fall.

"B-because it's so black means that their environment is reducing…"

Crumbling, the layers of rock stripped and fell away from the mountain side as Dboy and Reverend aimlessly fell into the tall trees below as the river came into view.

Everything slowed down. Dboy had a feeling struck him instantly. Was this his chance? Or was it going to be another trial and error? It was worth a risk as he let go crashing into the surface of the lake- no actually, he gladly jumped into the rushing river and saw the blackness of pine trees above his head under water. For a minute, he felt great euphoria seep around his skull, towards the back of his eyes, and down his spine. The feeling of relief. He didn't have to be in a cursed body anymore. He could cease to exist finally. The last thing he saw was a glimpse of the dark clouded sky. Exhilarated at the sight, that was all he needed was a last beautiful view for him before everything turned black. There was no pain coming from his injuries it was everything Dboy had hoped for and finally he would have it.

The clock had struck 9:00pm as an old bell tune whistled. She played with her hair as it gave her reassurance that the shift was almost over. Working 11 miles away from the city in the middle of nowhere on private ground creeped the young nurse out but she wouldn't miss it for the world as she was able to see a special someone in the facility. In the morning, afternoon, and night she would bring him his medication and food as well as help him outside into the large yard of grass and endless nature. It was like she just met the young man yesterday or rather when she was 18. Todd was a boy neglected and abused by his parents which made him delusional and would potentially become a harm to himself. He was committed to many psychiatric wards until he ended up here in the Werdgercrest sanctuary where the young nurse first started working in. On his file he was about 17 years old when he came in, today the nurse reckoned he was about her age now around 23. He spoke in short bursts about conversations he had with someone named Teddy, she played along with it so he would feel some validity. She guessed it was only when she was caring for him. She spoke with the doctor and other employees about the conversations they would have only to be met with ridicule and disbelief.

"What? He never talks at all! Cheeky Cassie!"

They all thought the nurse, Cassie, was making it up. It wasn't until the doctor walked in on them having a conversation till then did he believe her. She knew it wasn't a bad thing talking to patients, and innately treated Todd as human and not an empty shell of a man. But she couldn't help herself become attached to taking care of him, making sure he was okay. Her mothering instincts always got the best of her but she couldn't help herself. It was something she naturally did, she made sure everyone around her was happy - was feeling okay.

It would be one more hour until Cassie had to go home. She got up from her desk to check if it was still raining outside. Putting on her coat, she opened the front entrance.

Seeing how heavy it was pouring, she curiously wanted to take a peek at the stream that was down the hill to see if it had flooded. Grabbing a nearby umbrella, she took out her phone flashlight and began walking down towards a lining of trees that huddled right next to the river bank. She heard the enormous rapids before she could even see them and judged that the river had swelled tremendously. Shining her light, the rivers coursing waters made pine trees trunks and branches creek and moan. Amazement suddenly turned into fear when Cassie started to hear choking noises.

Looking around with her flashlight she spotted on her far left something laying down which looked like a pile of soggy clothes however the choking could be heard again, realizing what she was seeing was a person curled up she ran over in a panic against the rain and wind to the person's side.

"Oh my God!" She exclaimed, "Are you ok?! Please answer me!" Cassie kneeled next to the person side and saw his face. High cheek bones that showcased half opened blue eyes, his black curls laid drenched on his tan face and for a moment Cassie's heart leaped.

Jesus he's handsome.

Snapping back into reality, Cassie helped him sit up and started to pat him between shoulder blades until some water gasped out of his lungs. Realizing he still needed a little bit more she started to perform the Heimlich maneuver and in a minute he was breathing again, coughing his eyes widened as he turned his head towards Cassie. She noticed her arms were still around his waist, blushing she jerked away with a quick sorry and started to ask if he was ok.

Dboy couldn't believe it. He couldn't fucking believe it. It was just like his worst fear of being asleep for a while only to be woken up. He had only been put back on this disgusting plane of existence, and to top it off the person who brought him back was still touching him. Dboy immediately saw red and as the girl backed off in embarrassment all Dboy could think about was ripping her to shreds, until he heard a trio of ragged coughing nearby. Looking to his right he saw Eff, Revered, and Sickness sprawled on the ground and throwing up water.

Cassie got up to rush over to help them, "Are you okay?!" She shouted out. A very skinny woman with drenched brown hair was lying face down gasping into the grass while two other men: one very large and tall one and the other looking very similar to the man she just met. Cassie went over to the brunette and began performing CPR until she finally came to and saw her shockingly bright green eyes that snapped open. The woman sat up to see her other friends when suddenly the blue eyed man marched over furiously punching one of the other men in the back.

"It's your damn fault!" He exclaimed angrily, "If you fucking fucks didn't fall behind on that trail I wouldn't be teased by death so fucking cruelly!" The green-eyed woman rushed over to help hold him back from beating the other to a pulp. Cassie couldn't help but having to get involved and find out what the hell had been going on.

"Please stop it!" She shouted at the four of them. The vexed man backed off and soon everyone fell silent.

Dboy had to have this conversation later, right now they had a new ordeal. Ever since the camping incident under the bridge they came to an agreement they would have to put on an act: who they were, where did they come from, fake stories to make them seem real, the whole preplanned show. Coughing weakly, Eff started the act on cue after Dboy withdrew his fists.

"I'm s-sorry Miss," he meekly spoke, "M-my friends and I were hiking and we-" Eff started a violent coughing fit which made the nurse only pity him.

"It's okay it's alright!" She replied, "Come with me there's a facility just up this hill where I work at they can give you medical help." Eff smiled at her charmingly and let his brown eyes shine, "Thank you Miss. U-uh if it's not too much trouble can you help give me a hand here while my friends keep my dear brother at bay from trying to pummel me again?" He gestured or over to a scowling Dboy. Cassie caved in, "Of course. Here, take my shoulder." Leaning on her Eff gave his thanks as they all began the walk up the hill.