I see everyone seems to have enjoyed getting to pick Edwards brain for a change! Lol. I really enjoyed that chapter, not sure why. I just thought it turned out well.

Anywho let's move into the book shall we?

*ALL CHARACTERS BELONG TO THE LOVELY STEPHENIE MEYERS

Chapter 5

June

(Bella's POV)

I walked down my hall, feeling those green eyes on me the whole way there. I got inside and closed my door shut and locking it. I slid down the door and put my head between my legs trying to fight off the panic I was feeling rising in my chest.

I let Edward kiss me

I let Edward kiss me!

I let Edward Cullen kiss me

and I liked it. Oh who am I kidding. I freaking loved it!

I never thought I would liked to be kissed again. But Edward seems different. He is so caring me sweet. And oh so breathtakingly handsome.

I am kind of embarrassed by how tonight went. First the panic attack over that stupid cup and then I actually tell him what happened to me three years ago. I feel comfortable that he will not tell anyone else about this. I'm not ready for everyone to know and I will not have people looking at my son differently.

He makes me want to feel loved. To want to be touched and kissed again. Something I never thought would happen to me again.

But I need to be smart about this. I have Masen and he will always come first in my mind. He's my everything and if this doesn't work out he would be hurt too. And I will not let a man hurt my son.

Edward seems so sweet, but I know that could change on a dime. He is Esme's son, so he must be a good man. I don't know how any child that comes from Carlisle and Esme would be anything but perfect.

They are so kind and thoughtful, I have seen over the years how good they are to Alice. And Edward speaks very highly of them as well.

Pulling my covers back I climbed into bed with a heavy sigh. How was I ever going to do this. Edward needs a whole person to be with. He ruined me. I am beyond broken. Even after three years of therapy I am still just the shell of the person I used to be.

Masen is the only reason I keep a smile on my face. He's my reason for everything. Every act. Every touch. Every smile. Every word is all for Masen. I will keep my head up for him. I just hope when he is old enough he will see that.

I missed him. It's doesn't feel right when Masen not with me at bedtime, or any time for that matter. This is only his second time staying away from me. Masen is a booby baby and does not want to let that go. I know I should really get him to stop, but he's my baby. And it makes him happy, so that makes me happy.

Since he is still nursing he doesn't stay away from me over night very often. Most days he will nurse once in the morning when we wake up, then for his afternoon nap and one more time before bed. I have spoken with his pediatrician and as long as he is getting whole milk and solid foods though out the day he should be just fine. And he LOVES his whole milk as well, so it hasn't been a problem.

I knew I should get some sleep. Charlie would be here with Masen in the morning and I wanted to get some more of his things unpacked before he got here. But I also knew that once I fell asleep the nightmares would come. I am so tried of these nightmares. It wasn't every night, but most nights I was left with the memory of that terrible night.

Left to replay it In different terrible ways. Sometimes I relived what he did to me. Others he would be coming back to finish me off and take my son away from me. My nightmares were the worst when Masen was not with me. Knowing that he was not in the same home when I went to sleep did something to me.

I moved my eyes to the ceiling fan counting the times it spins around till I eventually fall asleep. A restless sleep, but sleep non the less.

I woke up due to the sunlight shining though my bare windows, filling my whole room with the light. I double tapped my phone to turn it on, so I could check the time. It was six in the morning! I haven't even slept for four hours.

Knowing very well, that I would not fall back to sleep I got out of my bed and set to making. I loved a made bed in the morning and always tried to have it freshly made before I leave my room.

Once I lined up all the throw pillows perfectly, I gathered my clothes for the day and unlocked my door walking out into the hall. Everyone was clearly still sleeping, as I should have been. I dropped my things off in the bathroom and headed to the kitchen to make me a cup of coffee.

Edward was still sleeping peacefully. He had put on the sleep pants and did not put on the shirt. His tattooed arm was thrown over his face and the other one was resting on his stomach. His chest was beautiful. A small patch of light reddish hair covered his chest. The happy trail I had hoped to see hidden by the covers. He was like a God. So handsome. So perfect.

I sighed and pulled myself away from this beautiful body. Just because I can't have it, doesn't mean I don't get to look at it. I chuckled quietly to myself. Edward will probably marry a beautiful woman and have beautiful babies. They will live in a house with a white picket fence, with a Labrador running though their freshly cut grass.

I wanted that so badly. But I knew that was not in the books for me. The best thing I will ever receive in my life is Masen and I am happy with that, believe me I am. I just wonder sometimes what it would be like.

To have a family with a mommy and a daddy for Masen. He needed that. But how could I ever give Masen that. It wouldn't be fair for any man to put up with me. I sometimes think it is not fair that Masen got stuck with me as a mother. He deserves way better. But the selfish part of me is so damn thankful I got chosen to be his mama. I love him so much, I am incredibly blessed.

I filled up our coffee pot and went to making some toast while I waited. I popped two slices of sourdough bread into the toaster, Turing the dial over to three. I opened my fridge, looking for my raspberry jam and grabbing it once I found it. Pulling down a glass plate I tossed the hot pieces of bread onto it and smothered them in my jam.

Once I had my breakfast I took it into the bathroom to eat it as it got ready, so I wouldn't wake anyone up this early. I nibbled at the toast as I waiting for the shower to warm up, not feeling very hungry this morning. I was ready for Masen to come home and consider just driving to my dads house and getting him myself. He should be awake when I get there.

I got into the shower and decided to just enjoy a hot shower that would not be interrupted by my two year old. My strawberry and freesia shampoo filled the air and I breathed in deeply. I have always loved this shampoo, I've used it for years and it never gets old. Since I actually had time this morning I shaved and did a deep conditioning on my hair.

I was feeling like a new women after my shower, ready to face the day. I dried my wet and heavy hair till it was flowing in soft waves down my back. My closest was pretty filled with the same things, so I grabbed my jeans shorts and a Rolling Stones shirt, pairing it with some black converse with green laces. Masen got me these shoes for my birthday last year. Well Alice took him to the store and he picked these shows and had to have the green laces as well.

Walking out of my bathroom I spotted Edward back and saw he was sitting up on the couch, messing with his phone. He had heard me coming his way and turned around giving me a big smile. "Hey" I said moving to sit beside him. "Morning. You sure are up early" I shrugged, I was up at this time most days.

"I'm an early riser. Comes with having a toddler I guess" Edward nodded, moving to lean against the back of the couch. He still had no shirt on and I was having a hard time thinking about anything other then that.

"What time is Masen coming back?" Edward asked with a slight smile on his face. "About nine. Charlie needs to at work by ten and it will take him an hour or so to get here and back. He's gonna be on a time crunch but he really wanted to watch him last night and I couldn't say no, he was just so excited" Masen had the best Papa. And was always ready to spend time with him.

"That's nice. Seems like a good grandfather" Edward kept that smile on his face and moved to grab my hand. I let him hold it and gave it a squeeze. "Did you think, anymore about last night" I sighed wanting to pull my hand away. But I didn't. I wanted this as much as he did, but it was just not fair to Edward.

"Edward. I wish I could. But you need to see that I am not good for you" he shook his head, laying a kiss on my hand. "How wrong you are, Isabella" I moved my eyes to his face. His eyes were filled with such longing and want. I could feel myself slipping on my decision.

"Let's just try. That's all I am asking. We don't have to tell Masen or Alice. It can be our little secret till you are more comfortable. But I am not leaving you till you tell me yourself to fuck off" I laughed, Feeling my heart beat faster. I could do that for him. I can try. Maybe then he will see that I am messed up.

"I will try Edward" He gave me a blinding smile, his eyes bright and shining. "Thank you for trusting me Bella. You will not regret it. I am going to make you the happiest most loved girl in all of Washington" I blushed and looked down at our hands. They fitted together so well. Like two missing puzzle pieces finally finding their homes.

"So does this mean you are my girlfriend?" He asked me with a goofy smile his cheeks now turning red. "I guess so Edward, but we need to go slow. I have never been someone's girlfriend before" Edwards eye went wide and a gasped slipped though his open lips. "What! No way" I nodded felling kind of silly.

"Yes way. James was the only person who had ever really kissed me. Well till last night" I moved my hand from his pulling it into my lap and wringing them together. "Oh Bella, I am so sorry" I shrugged. Edward moved closer to me putting his hand on my chin tilting me to face him. "I am not Him Bella. You don't see that yet, but I promise you that I will always honor and respect you, Bella. I will do everything in my power to keep you and Masen safe. Till the day I die" He moved and lightly pressed his warm lips to mine.

I sighed leaning myself into the kiss, wanting nothing more then to relish in the fact that my very first boyfriend was kissing me. His tongue traced my lips and I opened my mouth this time and let his sweet breath wash over me. His tongue was like the softest velvet as it danced with mine. My hands seem to move to their own accord and tangled themselves his the soft hair at the nape of his neck.

After a few minutes of indulging ourselves Edward pulled back and pressed three more small kisses on my lips before he pulled away with a smile on his puffy lips. "I could spend my whole life kissing you Bella Swan" I blushed moving my eyes to his, seeing nothing but the truth in them. "Same here Edward Cullen"

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"Mama can I put my train in theres?" Masen asked me as he pointed to the blue fabric basket on his cube shelf. "Of course Mase. That whole shelf is just for you, baby" he gave me a toothy grin and started "organizing" his basket.

Jasper and Alice had left to go get things for the house and pick up dinner, so it was just me, Masen and Edward here. It felt so right and from the look on Edward face he felt it too. Once Alice and Jasper left Edward abandon the arm chair he had chosen to sit in and moved to sit right next to me on the sofa, grabbing my hand and placing a kiss on my palm.

"Is this alright?" Edward asked me. His green eyes were so soft and full of love and hope. He was not lying. We are going at my pace and what I say. He was very convincing when he wanted to be. "Of course Edward. Masen doesn't fully understand. Do I think we should make out on the couch?" His eyes light up. "No. But hand holding and small kisses and whisperers are ok around Masen. It's Alice's loud ass, I'm worried about it" he chuckled, rubbing his thumb over my knuckles.

"Oh yes, she would have a field day with this one. I just don't want to make you uncomfortable, Bella. Your wants and needs are my priority and I want to keep you happy. So you must tell me, if something I do upset or triggers you" Feeling bold I place my hand on his cheek and left a small kiss on his lips.

"You would never make me feel uncomfortable, Edward. You are doing everything just by being here and taking it slowly with me" Edward placed a kiss on my cheek then turned his attention over to Masen. "He's such a cool kid, Bella" He's right, Masen was an awesome freaking kid.

"Yeah he's pretty awesome, but I'm a bit bias" Edward chuckled shaking his head at me and calling me a goofball. It was so easy with Edward. Our conversation always seemed to flow easily and we never seemed to have an awkward quiet time.

Edward seems to enjoy Masen's company and same for Masen. He was constantly trying to get Edward's attention and wants him to play with him. Pulling Edwards hand and tugging on his trousers, so they could go play outside together. It had not seem to bother Edward, but still I don't want Masen to be so bossy to adult .

"Masen Emmett Swan" I said sternly, getting his attention. "Let Edward breath for a second. You need to remember, baby that he is his own person and Edward need to be able to make his own decisions" Masen hung his head, looking at his sock covered feet. Edward gave me a soft smile and patted Mase on the back.

"It's all good, big man. I have liked playing and hanging out with you today, but maybe we could play a game inside for a little bit. That way Mommy could play too" Edward shot me a wink, before sweeping Masen off his feet and having his fly around the room like super man.

"Mama, me so high" I laughed so hard at my son that I had to bend over and calm myself before straightening back up. Masen just looked so funny with his red cheeks and crazy brown hair. His wide toothy grin filled my heart with joy, making me and Edward smile right along with him.

"Please God, let this work out" I silently sent up a prayer. As badly as I didn't want to admit, I really really wanted this to work out. "Help mama" Masen cried out reaching his hand towards me. "I got ya baby"

I sprinted forward and reached for him, only to pull back arms of air. Edward had a cheeky smile on his face as he moved my son out of my reach. "Very funny, Mr Cullen" he looked at Masen and raised his eyebrows. "Me!" He cried. "What ever have I done, Miss Swan?!?" Masen giggles filled the air as he squirmed and wiggled in Edwards arm.

I reached forward again and this time I grabbed Masen and snuggled him to my chest and being overly dramatic. "Oh my goodness! My poor little baby. Are you ok!" I kissed all over Masen's face and he used his chubby hands to push me away. "Maaammaaaa" he giggled out. Edward's head was thrown back in laughter at the two of us and I couldn't remember the last time I had ever been so happy.

oooOooo~OCF~oooOooo

It has been a two weeks since me and Masen moved to Port Angeles and we have been spending most of that time finding a daycare and me getting ready for my new job. Esme actually said she wanted to watch Masen three days a weeks, so I only needed daycare for two days a week! I was definitely happy that Masen didn't have to go to daycare all week.

Back in Arizona I was able to do most of my classes at home, and I found a cleaning job on campus that I did at night and Alice stayed home with Masen. The few days I had classes on campus Masen would go with Rose or Emmett and even sometimes Jasper would keep an eye on the little man.

To say Masen was excited about spending the whole day with his Nana was an understatement. He could not wait to be with Esme and Carlisle and once he heard that he might get to see Edward he lost it. It was like icing on the cake for him. He was already completely obsessed with anything to do with Edward. Which didn't surprise me, Masen loved everyone.

We have spent a lot of time with Edward. He comes over to my house almost everyday. He will sometimes come over after work and stay till late in the evening, or come over after Masen goes to bed and we will stay up in my room watching movies and getting to know each other. I'm sure Alice and Jasper must suspect something by now, but they haven't said anything. And I'm thankful for that, I liked having a little secret just for me and Edward.

Our relationship is still very friendly right now. I mean Edward always has to be touching me somehow. But it's just soft touches on my arm or back as he walks past me. He will hold my hand anytime he gets the chance, but he's letting me set the pace. He will kiss me every night when he leaves, but he always asks before and it's just a quick peck, not wanting to over step.

As much as I hated that he felt he needed to do that, it was definitely needed. I wanted to be with him, but my mind is still so broken and upset over what happened before my graduation. My therapist Maggie says that is normal and to just take it day by day.

I had wanted to get out of the house today, but I just couldn't seem to get out of bed. My heart felt heavy today. I had a rather taxing therapy session and I was just feeling off. My phone was fully shut off and I had Masen in bed with me and toys covered my bed as the Thomas the train movie played for the 20th time today.

Alice had come through so many times today trying to get me to talk about it, or get out of bed and eat something. But what was the point. Once Alice finally left for work, me and Masen got out of bed because he wanted to go play outside and I could never denied my son anything. "Mama's gonna go make you some dinner Masen" he just nodded, not having the time for me.

The sun was just starting to set and I knew he couldn't stay out there to long, before the mosquitoes came out. I grabbed the small pot of the cabinet and filled it up with water and a pinch of salt, setting the stove on high to boil.

I grabbed the head of broccoli, cutting it into smaller pieces and placing it into the stemmer. I added the water and it the timer. My mind wandered back to the reason I needed my appointment today.

This morning for whatever reason I had opened up my Facebook for the first time in months and I saw that I had gotten quite a few Facebook friend requests. I quickly added Edward and the mom I had met at Masen's daycare, but what stopped me in my tracks and made my stomach churn. Was the ice blue eyes in the profile picture to the friends request.

My mind was blank, as I stared at the picture, he still looked just like he did that night. My eyes moved over to my inbox and my heart dropped to my feet.

James Hunter wants to send you a message.

I didn't dare open the message and completely delete the app off my phone and called Maggie. And tried desperately to not freak out in front of Masen. Alice agree to call in late to work to watch Masen, once she saw my panicked face

I just couldn't believe he actually had the nerve add me on Facebook and send me a message! Maggie got me to calm down and told me not to even think about opening the message before I felt ready. She doesn't want me to set myself back. I have been doing so well! Why now? Why me.

A knock at my door pulled me from my thoughts and my heart raced. Who's at my door? I slowly walked over and looked thought the pep hole. "Edward! What are you doing here?" I said as I opened the door for him. His face looked panicked and full of worry.

"Bella are you ok? I've been trying to reach you all day and then I get this call from Alice telling me to go over there" He wrapped me up in his strong arms and I instantly felt better. I breathed in his cologne letting it wash over me before I spoke.

"I'm ok now" Edward place a kiss on the crown of my head, before pulling back and giving me a look over to make sure I wasn't physically hurt. "Gosh, Bella you scared the shit out of me. You can't just turn your phone off" I sighed. I knew he was right. I'm just not used to the whole having a boyfriend thing. I'm definitely not used to someone worrying about me!

"I'm so sorry, sweetheart" he gasped at the endearment and pulled me back against him. I don't know why I called him that. It just felt right. "I wasn't thinking. After my therapy session I just kinda freaked out!"

"I thought you had therapy on Mondays not on Thursdays" the water that was on the stove started boiling over and splashed onto the burner. "Shit" I said running over to the stove. I turned down and dumped Masen's pasta into the boiling water. When I turned around Edward had moved and was leaning against the back door, watching Masen run though the yard.

I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I needed to be close to him, like never before. He made me feel so incredibly safe. "James. He sent me a friend request on my Facebook and he also sent me a message" Edwards hands squeezed my waist tightly and his heart started beating faster.

"Oh baby. I'm so sorry" I felt the tears well up in my eyes once again that day. Fear gripped me. I could feel the panic rising in my boy and Edward seemed to feel it too, because he pulled my face up to his and thoroughly kissed me. Washing away the fear and only leaving him and I.

"It's going to be ok, Bella. That boy will never be able to hurt you. Not with me around. I promise I will keep you and Masen safe" Edward gave me a smile and kissed my forehead. "Eddie come play with me!!" Masen called out to Edward making him wince.

"He's lucky that he's one cute kid, because I let no one call me Eddie!" I laughed and pushed him out the door to the excited two year old, waiting for him. Edward ran out and grabbed Masen lifting Mase off his feet and swinging him around. My heart swelled watching them. This is all I ever wanted for Masen.

I was mixing the butter and parmesan into Masen pasta, when Edward carried him inside. "Mama i eat!!" Masen cried reaching out for me. Walking over I grabbed Masen from Edwards arms and laid a kiss on Edward cheek. "Thanks for playing with him, Eddie" My eyes twinkled as I called him, his hated nickname.

"You are lucky that your beautiful, Miss swan. Or else I might have had to punish you for calling me that" I blushed and looked down at Masen. "Is that a threat Mr Cullen?" He threw his head back and laughed. "It's a promise"

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Edward stayed and helped me get Masen ready for bed. I gave Masen a bath while Edward cleaned up Mase mess from dinner and order me and him some dinner. Together we read Masen a story and tucked him in. Masen wanted hugs and kisses from both of us and kept calling us back into the room for more hugs and kisses. I didn't mind. One day he wouldn't want me to kiss him goodnight.

I couldn't help but let my mind wander to if it would always be like this. Would one day be me and Edward be putting our baby to bed and then reading to Masen and kissing him goodnight? Would we bd married and have the brick house in the suburbs with the white picket fence and the beautiful dog. Like a picture perfect family.

My picture perfect family.

I didn't let my mind stay there to long though. Edward would leave me at some point. Everyone always does so why wouldn't he? "Bella? Honey are you ok, you kinda spaced out" I nodded my head, forcing a smile on my face.

"Yeah I'm good. I was just thinking" Edward tucked a stray hair behind my ear, moving closer to me on the couch while keeping his arms around my waist. "What about beautiful?" I shrugged. "You. Well us actually" he hummed placing a kiss on my cheek. "Care to share?"

I picked at one of his buttons, not waiting to meet his face. "Just thinking, if it would always be like this"

"I like to think it will be even better in the years to come" Years? He wants to be with me for years. "Bella, I want to be with you till we are old and senile. I want to wake up next to you everyday. I want to make love to you. Have babies with you. Watch Masen grow up with you. I want it all. I never thought I would get the love my parents have. But then I met you" I could help but kiss this beautiful man. He trusted me enough pour his heart out to me. He wants me.

"You really mean that" Edward nodded. A small smile on his lips as he kissed my nose. "Yes, silly girl. I will wait as long as you need. When you are ready for a more serious relationship I will be ready. We will go at your pace baby. As long as you want me. I am here" grabbing his cheeks I kissed him. My tongue was resilient against his as we deepened our kiss.

I climbed into his lap and tangled my hands into the hair at the nape of his neck. His hands going to my butt and pulling me closer. He pulled back after a minute or two and gave me a smile. "You are so beautiful, Bella" I didn't think so, but I did know that Edward made me feel beautiful.

Edward got our pizza when the door bell rang, and he wouldn't let me help pay, which I was upset about and I would figure out a way to make it up to him. "Edward you really didn't have to pay, sweetheart" His smile was huge when I called him sweetheart for the second time that night. It just felt right to call him "sweetheart" that's what he was.

"You better get used it. I will never let you pay for anything when your with me" he shot me a wink and shoved a piece of pizza into his mouth. He let out a moan at the cheesy goodness, his eyes closing and savoring the taste. "God this is good! I've missed eating pizza" I laughed at him, but those noises he was making, was driving me crazy! I had to discreetly rub my thighs together, but the smirk he just sent me told me that he saw that.

"So why don't you eat pizza?" I asked , trying to change the subject. "I try to eat a very clean no process diet, but I like to indulge myself everyone once in awhile" Hmm, I could never I love my food to much. "I don't know how you have the willpower to do that. I have to much of a sweet tooth" You could not keep anything sweet in the house when I was around. I would eat it all in one sitting, and Masen was the same way.

"Hmm, I'll have to remember that" after we polished off the pizza we cuddled up on the couch and watch that 70s show together. I was happy to hear that he loved this show as much as I did. "I watched this show my entire pregnancy with Masen" I told Edward. Masen would always kick me like crazy when the theme song would come on. Sometimes I miss that feeling, it was so amazing to feel Mase kick and move in my belly.

"What was your pregnancy like, if you don't mind me asking" I smiled, grabbing my phone and opening up the pregnancy album in my picture. "It was fun, but very long. I got absolutely HUGE! Masen was an almost eleven pound baby. It looked as though I had eaten a whole beach ball. But it was just all Masen. My balance is already not the best, so with the big belly, I was a huge fall risk and took a few tumbles while walking around campus"

I handed Edward my phone and let him look though all the pictures of my big belly. "You were so beautiful, Bella. You were glowing" I didn't see it, but everyone told me that, my entire pregnancy.

"Thank you Edward. I loved being pregnant, it was one of my favorite times in my life" Edward handed me my phone back and pulled me closer. "Pregnancy really suited you" I blushed and looked down at my hands and whispered a quiet thank you.

We both looked up as our door open and Alice and Jasper came in with bags in their hands. "Hey guys" Jasper said moving to take Alice's bags and taking them to their room. "Well you two look awfully cozy" I blushed and Edward started to move away from me, but I grabbed his hand to keep his close.

I didn't care anymore. We couldn't keep this from Alice, she lives here and I'm not keeping Edward away just because I didn't want to share my feelings with everyone or have everyone's piece of mind into our relationship. But they could all say whatever they wanted too and could think whatever they wanted to. I was happy with Edward and I was not going to be ashamed of that.

"Yes we are, Alice" I raised my eyebrow daring her to say something. But surprisingly she just smiled at us and patted and kissed mine and Edwards heads, before skipping off to her room and quietly shutting her door. We waited till we heard the click of their lock, before we burst out laughing at the absurdity that is Alice Cullen.

"You have a really nice laugh" I told Edward starring into his green eyes. "You too" Edward kissed my cheek, taking a piece of my hair and twirling it around with his finger. "Would you like to go on a date with me, tomorrow night?" I wanted to shut myself off and say no, but for some reason I didn't want too. "I am saying yes for now, but I need to see if Alice can watch Masen" Alice's door burst open and she came running into the room.

"I will definitely watch him!!" Alice squealed. "But only if I can help you get ready" oh no! Not Bella Barbie. "Just don't go crazy Alice" The fairy pulled me to feet and hugged me tightly. "I'm so happy for you" Alice whispered in my ear, before letting me go. Edward had stood up too and pulled me in for a hair and ran his hand down my back and to the top of my bottom, where his hands crossed together and pulled me close.

I knew this hug. This was his goodbye hug. Edward always gave me this hug and I knew if his sister wasn't in the room, I would have gotten a small kiss. "Do you have to go already!" I placed my hands on his shoulders and gave him a little kiss, not caring if his sister was watching us closely. "As much as I don't want to. Yes I do. I've got work tomorrow and I will need to get ready for our first date!"

I walked Edward outside, hoping to get a better kiss and away from the prying eyes. "I will pick you up around, 7:30. If that's ok with you, Bella" I nodded letting Edward wrap me up in his arms. "That's perfect" I leaned up on my tip toes and kissed him the way I wanted too. Edward response was fast as he gripped my thighs pulling up to sit on the hood of his Volvo.

Edward placed himself between my open legs and put his lips back on mine with more force then he had ever used. And I loved it.

I tangled my hands in his hair and pulled him closer to me, wrapping my legs around his waist to keep him where I need him. "Bella" Edward breathed into my mouth, moving his lips down my neck. I couldn't help but let out a soft moan when he sucked the soft spot behind my ear. I had no idea that would feel so good!

I pulled his lips back to mind, longing to feel them once more. His tongue danced with mine for a moment before I sucked on his, wanting more. Edward hands moved down to my butt pulling me closer to him and grinding his hard length into me. I started to slow things down a bit, leaving a few more soft kisses on his lips before pulling away.

"I'll see you tomorrow right" I asked him giving Edward one last hug, before letting him get into his car. "Of course, baby. I'm looking forward to it" Edward gave me one last kiss and got into his car and leaving my driveway and taking a piece of my heart with him.

Well that's it for this chapter. I am so very sorry for it taking so long to post this update. The holidays are crazy! And I just didn't have the time to write like I wanted too.

Hope everyone has had a happy new year and a good Christmas. Till next time~ Jade