I made a mistake. I didn't know what I was talking about, and now it's all coming back to bite me in the butt. I was such a different person back then. So much more innocent and naive.
I didn't know what love was. And I still don't. At least, not the romantic kind. Everyone made such a big deal about it. I thought I wanted it. Maybe I thought it would make me feel even better. Then my brothers and now sister and cousin do. Take the pain of how Eclipse treated me away even more. But now I know that was stupid. Because nothing could make me feel better than my family does.
Now I don't know what to do. Because Helpi, an animatronic, or rather AI, I thought was just a picture and would only ever be a picture, is real. And he knows about what I said before, and he's absolutely obsessed with me. I thought I had a crush on him, but now, I don't think I ever did. I just wanted to get all the love I could.
And I thought, hey, Helpi's just a picture, so it'd be safe. To feel what it's like to have a crush, but never have to worry about an actual person. Now I'm in this mess, and I don't know how I'm going to get out of it.
I'm a little upset with Earth. I know I shouldn't be, I'm sure they didn't mean to put me in an uncomfortable position. And it's not like I could've escaped it, either. But I wish she would've realized how unnerved I was.
What am I going to do? Earth says it's just one playdate, but so much could go wrong in just one playdate. If Helpi can put things into my head and act that creepily when there are other people around, what might he do when we're alone together? I'm terrified! Not just of Helpi, but I don't want this kind of relationship yet. Maybe not ever. Did I even…
Oh god, I'm totally aro, aren't I?
A/N: To be honest, i get aro vibes from both Lunar and Helpi, but in two different stages of coming to terms with that. Lunar is still in the beginning stages where he's still trying to figure out what romance is and not even thinking that he might be aro, where Helpi is similar but also different. Obssessed with all things romance and diving head first into it, wanting to experience all the lovey dovey goodness it has to offer.