Remember Every Scar

Chapter Five

A/N - Sorry for the delay although I'm sure you're all used to it by now! My track record isn't exactly the best. Hope you enjoy this chapter!

My phone was in my hand and I was texting Adrian to say I was on my way over before I even had a chance to try and talk myself out of making this very clear mistake. His response was quick and keen.

As I approached his front door I could feel my palms sweating and my heartbeat racing. I tried to tell myself that it was the anticipation of getting to do something I had wanted to for a while, but I knew this was pure anxiety coursing through my veins. While I tried to ignore it, the knowledge that this was going to cause so much fallout was making me feel a little ill.

Before I had a chance to think any further of my dilemma, the door swung open and there was Adrian in a shirt with the top three buttons undone and a pair of black boxers. It was nice to see he had dressed up for the occasion.

My eyes glanced over him and I was acutely aware that he was watching my every move probably taking great satisfaction in thinking that I was counting my lucky stars to be in his presence. It wasn't quite the case but I suppose I could let him believe it for a moment or two.

He stepped to the side, leaving an entryway for me...my last chance to back out but I took a deep breath, met his eyes with my own and stepped through the door.

His home was exactly as I imagined it, as chaotic as his personality. There were empty spirit bottles strewn all over the counters in the kitchen, a clear sign that he had a habit he more than likely couldn't be arsed to break. There was no order, no homely feel to the place at least not one I could make sense of, but it was so him that it made me smile.

It was a studio apartment and by studio I mean a sofa bed, a small cooking area and the smallest TV that looked like it had never been switched on. He threw himself down onto the bed, patted the small space next to him and flashed me one of his signature grins. I wondered how many women he had gone through the same routine with. I found I wasn't all that bothered and my mind wandered to how I would feel if I was having the same thoughts about Dimitri. The thought of him with another woman sent a flash of anger through me and I found myself deciding that was exactly how I wanted him to feel. The pettiness was unmatched but I wanted him to hurt in the way he had made me hurt.

I sat on the edge of the bed next to Adrian and muttered "hi". His laugh was loud and instantly got my back up. "What's so funny?"

"I just never thought I'd see the day that Rose Hathaway looked awkward" he was still chuckling as he shook his head in disbelief. "You sure you even want to be here?" It seemed the thought that someone not wanting to have sex with him was too shocking to entertain.

"Yes obviously" I snapped "have you got anything to take the edge off though?" He nodded, reached to the side of his bed and picked up a bottle of wine that had been there for God knows how long.

"It's not exactly chilled but it'll do the same job" he chuckled, spinning the top off and handing me the bottle. I took a gulp and immediately regretted it. I'm sure wine was supposed to be sipped and savoured but I needed my head to feel a little lighter and my confidence boosted.

In for a penny, in for a pound I guess.

I turned back to him, a flirty grin on my face that I knew I didn't fully mean and shimmied my body closer to his. His arm snaked around me and my head was resting on his chest, the bottle of wine continuing to be passed between us as it had done so many times at house parties when we were young teens.

I found Adrian's company relatively easy. While it may not be all fireworks and a lust I couldn't deny, he was pleasant to be around and someone that would never fail to make me laugh. I knew this was my attempt at convincing myself that to have sex with him would somehow be okay because we had a good friendship to base this all on.

"How are you doing, Rose?" He asked, his voice falling into that almost sing-song it did when he was feeling tipsy. He locked his eyes on mine as I turned my head on his chest to look up at him. "I mean really how are you doing?"

I wasn't used to such a level of intensity coming from Adrian. Anyone that knew him knew it was wise cracks until you were walking that fine line of absolutely hating the bones of him and finding him a loveable rogue. This sensitive side of Adrian was a one that I felt would take me some figuring out.

"I'm okay" I sighed with a slight shrug of my shoulders. "Don't get me wrong, it's been a bit shit seeing him again but I guess it's just part of the process. I'm doing good though. Would I be here with you if I wasn't?" It was a lie but one I knew I had rolled off the tongue easily.

"Oh, brilliant news" Adrian chuckled "I would have hated to waste a good bottle of wine and not get anything in return". There he was. The Adrian I was banking on to make light of any situation and turn things straight back to humour.

"You're a dick" I laughed, aware that I was starting to draw little circles into the shirt covering his chest. I looked up again and before I knew what was happening his lips were on mine.

The kiss felt alien at first. I'd only ever really been with Dimitri. Sure, I'd had the odd drunken kiss before we'd gotten together but nothing that I'd ever really consider intimate. It was different with Adrian. I'd known him for years, I'd known he'd crushed on me hard for almost all of that time. Who could deny that he was a good looking guy? Maybe this could be something good for me at least for now.

His lips were on my neck and I could feel my breath becoming heavy. My hands were wrapped tightly in his hair, pushing him deeper into my neck and I sighed in relief when I felt his teeth bite into me before suckling on the skin he had just assaulted.

His hands were all over me and I could feel myself bucking against him. He pulled away sharply, looked me straight in the eye and I could see he was seeking permission. I didn't think twice before giving a slight nod of my head and almost immediately he had my tank top pulled roughly over my head. His eyes took me in greedily and I moved my hips against him, begging him to kiss me again.

His mouth was back on mine, his hands exploring my breasts over my bra. "What a beauty" he whispered before reaching behind me and unclasping my bra with deft hands. This clearly wasn't his first rodeo. I pushed the thought from my mind as he threw my clothing to the floor and took my nipple into his mouth. His tongue swirled around me and I lost myself in the escapism of it all.

We fumbled until our clothes were a heap on the floor and then I was looking at him, taking him all in and feeling slightly nervous knowing that we were about to have sex. I pushed the feelings of guilt far away from my mind as I pulled him back down to my lips, opening up my legs for him in admittance. He groaned against me and I felt it rumble through me, only serving to turn me on more.

His hand snaked down between my legs and I felt him slide a finger into me. "Rose Hathaway, you naughty girl" he whispered. I whimpered as he slid another one inside, moving back and forth. "You're so fucking wet".

I hadn't known I could enjoy this so much with someone I was certain I didn't have romantic feelings for. Yet here I was, moaning and pushing harder into his fingers. "Don't flatter yourself I've got a really hot surfer guy pictured in my mind" I sighed, smirking at the chuckle that emanated from him.

"I could always stop if that's the case". His fingers stopped working on my core and no amount of bucking into him or grinding against him made a difference. I pulled away from him, flipping us over in the process until I was straddling him. My hair must have looked wild and I was only too aware of a sheen of sweat all over my body but I felt nothing other than sexy in that moment.

His cock was hard and pushed into the entrance of my lips. Just one small motion and he would be inside of me. His breath was coming hard now and I relished having all the power.

"Tell me you want it" I teased. I would have known without looking that he was rolling his eyes. His hands took my hips and he pulled down hard. I gasped, feeling his entire length push deep into me. A slight flash of pain replaced by intense pleasure. He repeated the motion and I moaned loudly before getting in my own rhythm, grinding my hips into him. He leaned his head back and let out a groan.

"Fuck Rose, you're so tight". His words spurred me on and I picked up my pace, burying my head in his neck, littering it with kisses and bites. His breath was coming in short and sharp gasps and I knew he was nearly there.

"Adrian" I moaned, knowing it would tip him over the edge. And it did. He gripped me hard and emptied his load inside me.

I lay beside him, catching my breath and taking another swig from the bottle of wine. "You're sensational Rose" Adrian laughed. I rolled my eyes at him and shrugged.

"Don't fall in love with me, it doesn't suit you" I said, leaning over to pull my top back on. Adrian just laughed, resting his head on his arm and closing his eyes. "I've got to head back to mine, things to do and people to see in the morning. I had a good time though"

"Me too" he sighed, already looking like he was about to fall asleep any second. "Let me know if you want to come by again."

I'd gathered up the rest of my things and was already at the door. "I will, sleep well". By the time I'd turned back to look at him he was fast asleep and snoring lightly. I closed the door as quietly as I could on my way out.

The air felt cold against my skin and I stood outside for a while to catch my bearings. I couldn't work out the way that I felt. Pulling my phone out to call a taxi, I realised I had a text from Dimitri and my heart sank.

Can we chat soon? I think we could do with clearing the air.

I put my phone back in my pocket, deciding I would reply in the morning and that the long walk home might be better to clear my head. He was going to fucking kill me.

A/N - Sorry! Don't kill me for the Adrian/Rose sex scene! I've finally got a better set up computer wise so I'm hoping that updates won't be as ridiculously long! Hope you enjoy x