"What are you doing here?" I was trying to figure out why he all of a sudden came to see me after blowing me off all these days.
"I saw a car parked near your house and I knew your parents weren't home." He said with worry.
I half smiled. "Oh." It felt good that he was checking in on me. He pulled me in for a hug. It surprised me.
"Did he bother you?" Damon asked. His warmth comforted me.
"No it wasn't that bad." I said as Damon pulled away and sat on my bed. "He dropped the jerk act after a while and we got work done."
"Why didn't you tell me he was coming over?" He wondered.
"I didn't know he just showed up." I explained as I sat down next to him.
"You could have texted me when he got here." He almost seemed jealous.
"I didn't think you'd care." I spoke knowing that we've hardly talked since prom.
"What? Why would you think that?" He soften his face.
"You haven't exactly been spending much time here lately." I looked down.
"I'm sorry Elena I've been really busy." Damon looked at me.
"With what? It didn't matter before prom now you're spending less and less time with me or even talking to me. I thought we had fun." I exhaled, feeling so paranoid. I felt like I was going crazy.
"We did!" He exclaimed.
"Then why are acting like it was weird! Ever since prom you've acted like I did something wrong." I pondered.
"You didn't do anything." Damon said, rubbing his hands.
"Then what is it." I looked at him.
"I met a girl." My heart sunk.
"O-Oh." I tried not to sound defeated.
"She lives in New York. She was visiting this week and her family is close to mine." He looked at me and I contained my tears that wanted to fall.
"She's leaving this weekend so I wanted to spend time with her." He explained.
"So you're dating her?" I asked with a shaky voice.
"Not exactly but we're talking about it." He sounded like he felt he was doing something wrong for some reason.
The whole thing made me want to lay in my bed and never leave it.
"You must really like her." My heart broke.
"Yeah I do." He smiled softly.
"Th-That's great." I faked a smile.
"She's beautiful. She's funny and smart." He looked through me. "When I'm around her I get all sweaty and nervous like when I was your age around my crushes." He used the age thing. That hurt. Now I know the truth is he will never see me as more than a friend. That's all I will ever be to Damon. "She's feels the same way about me too." Damon was smiling.
I nodded my head as I tried not to fall apart. I couldn't in front of him. "I'm so happy for you." I swallowed my emotions.
"Thanks." He gave me a hug.
Damon left and I cried for hours.
I didn't go to school the next day, I couldn't see him yet. I felt really stupid. I stuffed my face with all kinds of junk food all day and relapsed by purging. Caroline showed up at my house wondering where I was today. She walked into my bedroom and saw me curled up in my bed.
"Elena? What happened?" I sat up with my messy hair and tear stained face.
"He met someone else." I cried gently.
"Oh Elena." Caroline pulled me into her arms as I cried.
I didn't know how to recover from this. I was so heart broken. He meant everything to me. I guess Damon Salvatore and I were never destined to be more than just friends.
That whole weekend I spent at Caroline's house avoiding Damon. Seeing him was too hard, knowing I have to see him Monday hurts so badly. I didn't eat much so I didn't purge again after that day. I was really struggling. I went back home Sunday night and Jeremy was there. It was nice to see my big brother.
"You okay sis?" He asked when I hugged him so tightly.
"No I'm not." I wiped away a tear.
"What happened?" He wondered.
"It's Damon, he doesn't want to be with me." I looked at my brother.
"Then forget about him and find someone else worthy of being with you." Jeremy patted my back.
"I don't think getting over him will be that easy." I felt pathetic.
"It's easier than you think. You're pretty strong." He said smiling.
I was pathetic for letting my unreturned feelings for Damon turn me into this sad mess. I should be stronger but I wasn't.
Monday had arrived. There was only a few weeks of school left, I can do this. I walked to my locker and looked around. I look back at my locker and jumped when a finger tapped me on the back.
"Sorry!" An unfamiliar voice shouts at me.
"Uh it's okay." I gave a small smile. "What do you need?"
"You're Elena Gilbert." He stated.
"Yeah that's me." I laughed uncomfortably.
"My name's Liam." He extended his hand out to me.
I reluctantly shook his hand. "Hi Liam." I was confused.
"I'm failing english and I wanted to know if I could borrow your notes?" Liam asked me.
"Sure, I can study with you if you want?" I liked helping people and it would get my mind off of Damon.
"That'd be great! Thank you so much." He smiled.
"No problem." I smiled sweetly.
I saw Damon when I walked into the lunch room he was sitting with Candi Winters and her friends. It really didn't make any sense to me. He couldn't have been talking about Candi? He said the girl he liked lived in New York. I sat down at my table but kept my eye on his. I didn't understand any of this.
I shrugged it off and went about my day. I helped Liam after school. I normally would stay after and watch Damon practice. After we finished studying, I started walking home. On my way I heard a beep and turned around. Damon pulled over.
"Hey Elena, I didn't see you today." Hearing his voice made the tears swell up. I held it in.
"I know." I said softly.
"Come on. I'll take you home." I got in because I knew if I didn't he'd try and find out why and that's the last thing I need on top of this heartbreak. "How are you? I haven't seen you today." He was acting like it was me who didn't sit with him.
"Why were you sitting with Candi today?" I asked hesitatingly, I was mad and couldn't stop myself. I was curious.
"My girlfriend is her cousin." Girlfriend. My heart skipped a beat.
"Oh. That makes sense." No it didn't.
"We can still hang out all the time." He assured me after noticing the tone in my voice. "Candi is a bitch so if she sees me sitting with you a lunch she'll tell lies to her cousin." I was waiting for the moment he'd cut me off I knew it was coming.
"It's okay." I was sad. No I was more than sad. I was crushed.
"No it isn't. It sucks. I promise it'll only be like that in school." He claimed. "Other than that nothing is changing just yet."
"Actually I've been thinking it might be best for us to not spend everyday together." I said uneasy. "Caroline misses me and I'm working really hard on getting a 4.0 gpa this semester." It wasn't exactly true but I couldn't keep doing this. I would rather not see him than have half of him.
He glanced at me. "Oh." He sounded let down. "If it's what you want." Damon said as he pulled into my driveway.
"It is."
I went inside and fell apart again. It was the end of our friendship as we knew it.
