A week had past since I found out about Damon having a girlfriend. We I hadn't talked at all. It crushed me finding out has someone else, that he had no feelings for me. It also hurt losing my best friend. There's so many things I want to talk to him about and I can't. I wanted to tell him how much I was struggling with my eating disorder, I wanted to tell him how stressed I was with finals, I wanted to talk about how I hadn't talked to my mom in over a week. It's been really difficult. I wished I didn't have these feelings and I could get over him liking some other girl because then I would see have a best friend. I tried to move on from it. I focused all my time on my art, my homework, and studying with Liam. Finals were next week so we had to be prepared. He was really cool. Liam's family is pretty similar to mine and he's likes all the same movies I like and that's hard because I'm really picky about the movies I like. He was like a breath of fresh air. We started studying at my place, so I wouldn't have to see Damon. I didn't tell Liam much about him besides that we stopped being friends. Which wasn't really true we just weren't close anymore. Liam and I talked a lot about how we both had our hearts broken. I never told him who broke my heart but he at least knew what I was going through. I liked being with Liam, he took my mind off of Damon like no one else did and that wasn't an easy thing.
We sat at my kitchen table, studying math. "Do you want to go out tomorrow night? On a date?" Liam asked me as he twirled his pen.
My eyes widen. "You want to go on a date with me?" I was caught off guard. I didn't know if I was actually ready.
"Of course I do." He grinned, wondering what I would say.
"Why?" I was considering it but I was hesitant knowing that I could hurt him if I wasn't sure of my feelings for Damon.
"I like you a lot." He stated so boldly. "You're funny, smart, cute, and nice." Liam said so kindly and warm. His confidence in the way he feels was such a turn on.
I blushed. "Yes." I smiled for the first time in so long.
I wanted to give him the chance to let me get over Damon. I didn't want anyone to get hurt but if I said no I could miss out on something great with someone amazing. I had to try. I owed it to myself.
I spent an hour in the shower I rinsed and repeated way more times than I should have. I was going out of my mind trying to find something to wear that didn't make me look disgusting. I had reframed from eating all day as I didn't want to purge anything. I was struggling with my eating disorder and I knew I wasn't okay but I didn't care. I wished my mom was around to help me. She didn't care. Caroline helped me pick something to wear after I practically freaked out over lack of clothes, she let me borrow something. Caroline was excited I was starting to get over Damon. I was and I wasn't. Liam took my mind off my feelings for Damon but it didn't take my mind off of missing my friend.
He picked me up at eight and met my little brother. He even opened my door for me. Tonight was a surprise so I had no clue till we pulled up to the lake.
Wow
"This is really beautiful Liam!" I was shocked he took me to the very same lake I was at with Damon on Halloween but the other side of it.
"You like it?" He smiled with hope in his eyes.
"Of course I do." It was very romantic. "No one has ever made so much effort with me before."
He made a picnic on the dock of the lake. It wasn't anything fancy just mac and cheese but it was sweet. My first real date ever was so special.
"I hope you don't think this is too much?" He said as we sat down.
"No! This is everything a girl could want for a first date." I couldn't believe the creativity he had.
"Really?" I nodded. "You're beautiful, you know that?" I blushed.
"You're not so bad yourself either." We laughed.
"Here." He handed me a fork and I opened the container of mac and cheese.
He started eating it and I took a bite. I didn't know what to do so I moved the fork around the bowl as we made small talk. I ended up pretending to spill half of it and pretending I was that hungry. Liam wasn't phased he didn't notice anything so we continued through the night. We walked around the lake and he held my hand.
The rest of the night was a fairytale. He walked me to my door and kissed me goodnight. I actually forgot about Damon for the rest of the night. Which was major improvement so maybe this guy is something special. I spent all night talking to him on the phone about all kinds of things. He invited me to go to his best friend's party next weekend for the end of the school year bash. I was so excited except for the fact that his best friend was Scott Winters, who happened to be Candi's brother.
The day of the party I was going stir crazy. It was the last day of school so everyone was talking about the party. It was for underclassmen. Since Seniors were having a big blow out for graduation the next day and it was only for Seniors. So everyone else wanted to have fun too. I still hadn't talked to Damon since our talk. I wonder if he heard about my date with Liam. He probably didn't care but I wish he did.
"Earth to Elena?!" Caroline said waving her hand over my face.
"Oh sorry." I snapped out of it.
"How'd you do on that final?" She asked me, biting her nails in anxiety.
"Okay I think." I wasn't sure. My mind kept jumping back from Liam to Damon and back to Liam.
"What's on your mind?" Caroline asked me as we walked to lunch. "You've been distracted.
"This year wasn't supposed to end like this." I exhaled.
"What was it suppose to be like?" Caroline spun around to face me.
"I don't know.. I had it in my head that Damon would sweep me off my feet. He didn't and he doesn't want to."
"Elena." She sighed in disappointment. "You need to stop. I've been listening to you talk about Damon for so long and I warned you not to get your hopes up but you didn't listen to me!" Her words hurt.
"I can't help how I feel Caroline!" I exclaimed with frustration.
"Then tell him that! You're moping around when he doesn't even know how you feel! I'm tired of this drama." Caroline said bluntly not caring if it hurt my feelings.
"You don't get it because you have Matt." I looked away in disappointment.
"I do get it Elena. I know what it feels like to be lonely and you found Liam. Either forget about Damon or tell him because Liam doesn't deserve you to be with him but your heart with someone else." She walked away in the cafeteria.
I know Caroline was right.
I followed behind her and grabbed lunch. Caroline and Matt talked about the finals while I stayed quiet. I pushed my food around my plate staring down at it. I sighed and looked over to Damon laughing with his friends.
The bell rang in my final class for the year. Freshmen year is over, crazy how fast life goes.
Liam surprised me at my locker. "Are we still on for tonight beautiful?" I turned around.
"Yeah." I faked a smile back at him.
"What's wrong?" He looked at me.
"Nothing I'm in shock of how fast this year went." I folded my arms.
"My freshmen year went slow, but I had the time of my life." He kissed my cheek and left.
I went home and prepared myself for the party.
"Hey sis?" Jeremy knocked.
"Yeah?" I applied eyeshadow.
"Can we talk for a minute?" We sat on my bed.
"What's up?" I looked at him.
"I'm moving back home." He explained leaving me confused.
"Why? You love school." I sat up concerned.
"Mom got into some trouble." My brother tells me as my mind wandered off.
It turns out my Mom was off with some guy she met at a bar for the week, who knows where. I didn't understand it. My Mom was never like this before Jeremy left for college. This were great but then he left and it all crumpled, maybe that's he's moving back in. I just wanted to get out of this house. I continued to get ready then waited of Liam to pick me up.
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