Trigger Warning - SA
I sat on the steps outside with Kendall laughing and joking around. Everyone was so loud inside it was crazy. I was glad to get out of there before it got any crazier. It's anything but my kind of scene. People were so wasted and it was getting late but we didn't care. This was a once in a chance moment sitting here with the most popular guy in school. I couldn't waste this moment. I wanted to know him better. We spent a lot of time talking. I took a sip of my beer. I was drinking it really slowly. I didn't want to be drunk, I wanted to take the edge off so I was making it last while. Kendall on the other hand got up and refilled his drink twice. I could tell he had a high tolerance from the little I knew about alcohol. Mostly from my Dad and uncle Shawn lecturing me and Sabrina when they found out she got drunk. They were worried. I'm really lucky to have a great dad and an awesome uncle. My family is the best.
When he came back we talked about my fight with Sabrina. "Are you going to apologize?" Kendall asked me wondering what I was going to do with her.
"I think I will. I don't think it was my fault Lucas kissed me, but I shouldn't have led him on." I sighed and felt really bad. I didn't want to upset her.
"You shouldn't." Kendall mentioned. "If she's your friend she will believe you when you tell her you didn't kiss him." He told me not to worry about her feelings because I did nothing wrong. I didn't think I was all wrong but I still worried about her because she's my best friend.
"What if I led Lucas on?" I knew I must have.
"You can't lead a guy on." My eyebrow raised. "We know when you're interested or not." Kendall said, taking another sip of his drink. I wondered why he asked me to this party? He knew I was interested by the way I looked at him?
"You do?" I wondered how.
"Yeah it's pretty obvious, You stare at me in art class." He laughed and I was so embarrassed.
"I-" He put his arm around me and I melted.
"It's cute." Kendall smiled sweetly.
Kendall thought it was funny Lucas was into me and I didn't return those feelings. I didn't think it was so funny, I felt bad but I guess I can see his point of view. I think he just wanted to take my side to get on my good side. It was working and he made me feel better about the situation. I liked that he cared or seemed to. I felt bad about talking so much about myself so I turned it on him. We talked about his childhood and how his brother passed away. I had no idea, I don't think anyone did. His brother was older so no one knew any of this. It was really sad, he got into some bad stuff and took his own life in jail.I couldn't imagine something like that happening to my own brother.
"I'm so sorry Kendall. I wish I could do something to ease your pain." My heart ached for him and his family. Kendall was broken up about this and I wanted to help him.
"It's okay, It was a long time ago." He looked down and I could feel his pain.
"No, it's not okay. It's horrible." I hugged him softly. I could spend forever in his arms.
"I'm glad you understand." He said as we pulled away he was looking at me.
"Other people aren't understanding?" I asked him with concern.
"No, they judge me and my family." Kendall opened up to me. I was surprised he was opening up to me so much. My school is very gossipy. If he used this to get in girls pants then it would be all over school. I knew it was just to me and I felt special.
"Anyone that judges you for that doesn't deserve to have you in your life." I smiled at the gorgeous man in front of me. Sabrina was wrong about him. He wasn't some player. Kendall was very sweet and considerate. He's a real person with feelings. I felt like the girlfriend fantasy I had could actually be a reality. He seemed like he really liked me. Why else would he tell me all of these things?
"Why are you so great Row?" I blushed at those words. Wow.
"I'm not, I'm pretty dorky." I laughed at myself. He shook his head.
"You're so beautiful." He pushed my hair back out of my face and I felt chills down my body.
"Thank you." I sweetly smiled. He leaned in and softly placed a kiss on my forehead. I looked up at his eyes and Kendall kissed my lips. I wanted it to last forever. His lips on mine felt so good. They were soft and tender. I didn't want to stop. "Wow" I said when we pulled away.
"I really like you." Kendall said before taking my hand into his.
"I like you too." Butterflies filled my stomach.
"Do you want to go somewhere more comfortable?" He kissed me again but quicker.
"That sounds nice." We got up.
It was cold out and I wanted to spend more time with him. It was really nice getting to know him. I drank the end of my beer and I started to feel it. Things felt weird but I also never drank before. I stopped feeling so nervous. I felt drunk but I didn't think one drink would do that. Even if I was a lightweight, I guess I was wrong. My dad wasn't as good of a teacher as I thought he was! We walked inside. I looked around and saw a lot of drunk people making fools of themselves. Bridget was passed out on her own couch. It was kind of funny seeing her not as perfect. Kendall guided me upstairs. We managed to find a room that wasn't occupied. It was Bridget's bedroom and that was also pretty funny.
"All alone at last!" I laughed and jumped onto the bed like a little kid. I saw Kendall smile at me. "I can't believe I'm in Bridget's room. With you." I was really questioning everything that I was seeing.
"Yeah I know." He looked at me and took my hands pulling me up from the bed.
"Tonight has been amazing." I kissed him cutely and pulled away. I loved this feeling of being with him.
"The perfect night with the perfect girl." I breathed in his words. I was the perfect girl? I've never heard anyone say that, but my own parents. It was the perfect night.
"You really think so?" I asked him.
"I know so." He was smiling at me before kissing my lips again. Kendall pulled me into his arms, kissing my neck. "You are so hot, babe." He chuckled as I moaned to his touch.
I wasn't sure where what was happening but I wanted more with him. Kendall pulled off his shirt and threw it on the floor. "You look s-so." My words fumbled seeing his incredible chest. He looked like a grown man. I still felt like a little girl still.
"I know." He kissed me passionately and started to unzip my dress from behind.
I felt good and really weird at the same time. My dress fell to the floor, everything was happening so fast. Too fast. I didn't want this to go much farther. I was shocked by what was going on already.I shook my head to see if I was dreaming or not. My head was foggy. Yesterday I didn't exist in Kendall's world and now I'm half naked with him. My head was foggy, I thought again. I wasn't sure this was even real anymore. It felt like a dream to me. Kendall took my hand leading me to the bed. I blinked as he laid me down the next thing I knew he had crawled on top. Things felt good but I wasn't ready for anything more.
I needed this to stop, and I felt really off.
My vision was blurry.
"Kend-" I began to say before he cut me off by kissing me.
"You taste so good." Kendall moaned, rubbing up against me as he pinned my arms down. I felt really panicked.
"No st-stop!" I managed to say. Kendall ripped off my bra, I felt exposure on my skin and fear.
"Everything's fine." He kissed my neck, grabbing my breast. I moaned.
"Pl-ease st-stop!" I could barely see anything. "K-Ken-dall I-I c-can't-" I tried to get out as he was placing kisses down my body.
"Shhhh" He said, trying to get me to be quiet. The movement wasn't helping, he just gripped his hands harder. I couldn't escape his strong grip.
"I d-don't wa-want to!" I got so drowsy, I was so scared.
"It's okay. I'll take care of you." He kissed me hungrily and I felt myself drift away.
I tossed and turned a few times before opening my eyes. My eyes blinked open as I looked around. I didn't know where I was. It was dark. I tried to remember something but my mind was too messed up. I noticed the clock, it was 4:30 AM. My vision was really blurry. I looked over and saw Kendall. My eyes widened. What? I thought. I tried thinking of my last memory. I remembered bits of the party and then talking to Kendall. I put my hand over my mouth, I didn't remember anything after that. I was so confused. What happened? I looked under the covers and saw I was naked. I felt sick. I was so scared. Oh my gosh. My head hurts. I didn't know what to do. I am not this kind of girl. I shuffled out of the bed quickly and almost fell. I took a deep breath and grabbed my undergarments and dress. I tried to be quiet, I managed to get my clothes on and stood up. My mind was so foggy. I looked at Kendall laying there. I was in pure shock. I let a tear fall before heading out. As I left the house and began running. All I could feel was my head hurting and my body aching. I was scared. I wanted to go home. I stopped and tried to catch my breath. I fell to my knees and cried.
Author's Note
Here's the dark that I promised. Reviews about this for the next chapter. I won't be posting without some opinions! I want to know! If you want feedback message me on here or /loveourdelena
