Sabrina's POV

I stood there in front of Josh after everything I said. It was too much but it had to be said. I was scared of what he was going to say but he just stood there staring at me. It was only a minute but it felt like much, much longer.

"I'm sorry but you're wrong. I don't want to do this with you." Josh said, letting me down softly.

"Josh-" I was cut off.

"I'm not afraid of anything." He walked away and I stood there hurt, worried and vulnerable.

I didn't see him for the rest of the morning. I was really hurt. I went to lunch and sat down with Rowan like I normally did. It was pasta day so there wasn't a long line and we started eating and talking about a movie we wanted to see. It was good to get my mind off of Josh. Rowan always made me feel better. In mid talk we saw Lucas across the lunch room.

"Lucas!" Rowan yelled with a mouth full of pasta. I laughed at my dork best friend.

"Chew your food." I said as I waved over to Lucas. He started walking over.

"Hey babe." Kendall said as he sat down next to Rowan he kissed her after she swallowed.

"Hey." She half smiled.

I saw Lucas back away and sit at another table. Lucas looked hurt. He didn't want to sit here with Kendall. I started to catch on how deeply he cared about her. I felt guilty about my feelings for Lucas. I knew they weren't the same as my feelings for Josh. I was lying to them and myself.I'm the worst friend ever. I was standing in the way of Lucas being happy with Rowan.

Rowan's POV

I woke up Friday morning. It had been a week since that horrible night. Everything has changed so fast in just a week. It had me so baffled, who knew your life could change so quickly? I went to school with the same routine as always. Kendall was extra clingy today. It was cute because he wanted to be around me all the time. I hadn't spoken to my brother since the other day. Josh either, I wasn't mad at him but he was in a mood and started working at my mom's shop. It's going to be good for him. I know that. Kendall wanted to take me out tonight on an actual date. He asked me after lunch and it caught me by surprise. I didn't think he did the whole dinner date thing. I was excited for it.

"Tonight Kendall's taking me to dinner." I smiled really big looking at my best friend.

"Really?" Sabrina asked to finish up her classwork. It was the end of the day everyone wanted to finish up so we can get to the weekend.

"Yeah and maybe a movie." I wasn't sure of his exact plans. "Can you come over after school and help me plan what to wear?"

"Not today, sorry." Sabrina went back to her homework. That's strange.

"Why not? Do you have plans?" I wondered if she made plans with Lucas.

"No, I just have a lot of housework to catch up on." Sabrina lied.

"Okay." I knew she was lying because she never did house work. I was thinking maybe Sabrina felt left out. Kendall was taking up a lot of my time.

School ended and I went home to get ready for my date. It was early since my dad set a curfew for us. It was 9 pm and that was on weekends. On weekdays it was 6:30 pm. That way I would always be home for dinner at 7.

"Row?" I had a knock on my door. It was Lucas.

"Lucas? What are you doing here?" I asked him confused.

"Sabrina told me you have a date with Kendall tonight." He walked closer to me.

"Yeah?" I stood there waiting for an explanation.

"Don't go." He whispered in my ear.

"Lucas, We've been over this!" I was upset at this point.

"I know but it's not because I want to be with you." Lucas looked at me. "He's not a good guy, Row."

"I'm not doing this. He's a great guy! You don't even know him." I yelled at him.

"Please trust me!" Lucas exclaimed.

"Fine! What's this proof you have of him being a bad guy?" I asked him with anger on my face.

"I don't have proof. I have a feeling and it's not good." Lucas begged me not to go with him. He was just jealous

"I think you should leave." I showed him the door and I shut it.

I got ready for my date trying to forget about Lucas. It was bothering me for a while but I finally let it go. Kendall picked me up and we drove to a restaurant.

"This place is really nice." I smiled.

"Yup!" Kendall said, putting his arm around me.

"What are you getting?" I asked him as I was looking at the menu.

"A steak I think." Kendall answered.

"I'm thinking between chicken Marsala or a burger." I mentioned looking at the back of the menu.

The waiter came over to take our order as I had a mouth full of water. "I'll take a medium rare steak with a loaded baked potato and spinach and she'll have a salad with light Italian dressing." I looked at Kendall weird. Why was he ordering for me?

"Thanks." Kendall said, handing the menus over to him.

"Why did you order for me? If it's money I can pay it's not a problem." I offered.

"Excuse me?" Kendall looked at me clearly angry. "I have money. I just don't want my girlfriend to get fat." He looked at me with a smirk.

"Oh." I felt defeated. I was anything but fat but I guess I'm at the age where I should watch what I eat.

"You're beautiful but you need to lose some pounds, you eat like a pig." Kendall insulted me.

"I normally. As normal as my friends do." I defended myself and he laughed at me.

"You're not exactly the same body type as Sabrina or your little guy friend." He digs at me. "Don't worry. You're not that bad, it won't be hard to get hotter."

"You're right." I don't know why I gave up. I felt like I had to.

We ate dinner. He did, I picked at my salad. It's hard to eat in front of someone when they think you need to re-frame from eating. I felt really nervous about my image. We arrived back at my house and I went inside. I was starving but I avoided any snacks. I felt too sick to eat anything. I found my uncle sitting on the couch I laid next to him.

"Hey Josh." I said, sighing as I laid there.

"What's wrong?" He asked me, half paying attention and half watching TV.

"Nothing." I said, staring at the TV.

"I'm sure that's not true." He busted me and he wasn't even fully paying attention.

"Do you think I'm fat?" I asked him. He laughed and turned to me.

"What? You're being serious?" Josh questioned me.

"Kinda?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Of course not." Josh was shocked. "If anything you're underweight."

"Thank you." I said feeling better about myself.

"Where is this coming from?" He asked me.

"Nowhere. I'm just curious." I lied looking at him.

"Don't think like that. It's not good for you." Josh said. "You need to remember how beautiful you are inside and out, don't listen to the world." Josh was full of wisdom.

"That means a lot. You're the best." I hugged him and pulled away. "Why do you look upset?" I picked up from him.

"It's your friend. She's trying to get into my business. Can you get her to back off?" He asked me.

"Josh, she cares about you. Let her in." I advised him.

"I know she does but she's too young to understand things." Josh sighed.

"She's had a hard life. She's not too young to understand anything. Trust me." Sabrina was capable of handling a lot and I don't think he knows that. I was always so kiddish around him with no problems. I had it so easy and Sabrina was the opposite. She was around me because I was a breath of fresh air from life. I didn't like the idea of Josh and Sabrina getting close but I wasn't going to prevent it.

"It's not that easy." Josh thought about my words.

"She's nothing like me." I said before pausing. "I'm the only kid in your life." I laughed and Josh smiled.

"You're right. I feel bad." Josh admitted.

"Don't tell me. Tell her." I smiled and hugged Josh before walking into my room.


Author's Note:

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